Change

What about change, Well Change is everything, it is in everything, most everything , can change some for the better some for the worst, So what is we as humans or any species , do not like about change, dont even, want it to cross our head.
Do ! we, rely ?, Why the hell should we? It only causes stress and greif, and even some grey hair, Changes would we rely make them , if we did not have to?,./ Some might,
Sometimes change can be for the better, There has to be a good in every bad, for that reason, It can be proved over & over again, Change happens for reasons, we might not be clear, to us, at the present time,
in due course, with hindsight, It will become apparent that is for sure,.
To all and Sundry, Change is definitely coming , whether, you like it or not, so you had better , be ready, with what,  Even i am not sure?," is it what you stand in " ? & your morals, is that truly all we need, Rely that is all we have,. We come into this world without a stitch , leave with nothing also, You can have material gains , coming from your ears, you cannot take them,  with you,
I know this is for sure , not what happens, you have your head, your brain, your path, When you leave this earth, The great walk, you call your life, The spirit Body , retains Freedom, karma rely means accountability, & as cited in previous Spiritual research , so all humans have an agreement, chosen this pathway,  conscious research,  confirms that all persons,  born under optimal conditions,  for spiritual evolution , You do not get born without your approval.

Do not worry , your soul knows,  what has to be done , the inner you, yes we all have one our own very best friends, and confidant, Partner, children, it is all mapped out in the stars , rely , chapter & verse ,

The Family have  suddenly turned , Into Big Bird,s of Prey,  , Circling above your bed,  oops head,  waiting to dispose equally all your earthly possessions, into their , what they think is equally theirs,. There is your matierial possesions, Your worldly goods, Please respect them, yous`e are my family,
Aye Change, Nothing brings the beast more than money , those little , £,s & $ ,
All those lessons learned, are what made you , you, ,
You core, represents a condensation of all past experiences together with assisted nuances of thought and feeling,
Do you feel happy with it all so far, The show will go on , whether you want to play or not, Every single one of us has , lessons to learn, over and over again , in all different forms, tests are sent to try , every thing about you, right, what do we do , personally mines is just be the,  best,  as you can that is my personal advice, it worked for me, Education, knowledge is definitely the key, I would recommend education from the day you are born, baby`s are amazing , they just know.
Connections are made , some will be for the rest of your life, a lot are only passing through,
Stand on the highest hill, look right on out as far as the eye can see, You are all that , and more, all that you see, in-front, the grass , the sky, the in-between, Do not try to interfere with the real study , learn to act without choosing , voicelessly Freedom is the choice to use, doubt is choosing,  decide who is decisive, Act without hesitation, rediscover yourself, You truly know , it is inside all of us, , Learn to Trust your intuition,
You are controlled to succeed and saying  nothing fails out of success, Things You could not foresee, The contrast could not of incurred,   all possibility`s is it in the power of the Human Brain, Unconsciously  what the conscious could never grasp, you have to learn to use your brain  by allowing yourself to trust , your brain , am sure if you are wrong someone will take the pleasure in letting you know, each and every one of us unique individuals...       

Fathers day 2015

Hey babes, We all miss you , Just a little note , to remind every one how special your dad is, He did help give birth, or even raised you, he is due a little credit , If he has been a loyal dad, please spoil him just as much as mum, he Deserves it , just as much , even though mum , might be , She is Mum , Dad he might not be there , next fathers day , so please , enjoy him for this one special day , bring him some love , in a card , a kiss to the forehead, An insight , a conversation, talk to your dad . I am far from finished this story , dads are so worth while , I never knew my dad ," aww," Please do not!! , I do not, I have, ever had one , so i do not miss , any thing , I have a romanticized dream and what i perceive as the perfect father, that is my rose tinted spectacles. Every one has an idea, any one can make a baby , takes so one so so special to stay and be a Man/ dad, Unconditional love , so many men do not understand and i am even finding woman, how selfish can you get, I believe once you have a child , you have had your kick at the ball so to speak , now its your turn to look and guide your bundle of fun , You cannot leave the child to grow on its own , The years they go so quick , blink and you will miss it, You wont think this till it is time to reflect , .....

PiNK - Conversations w!th my 13 year oLd seLf (LYr!cs)

Conversations, with my 13 year old self , wow , so sorry little girl, Did i let you down, did i Jump, for the wrong,  things and ways , 13 year old , thought i was so wise, Thought I knew it all, Note to myself.  I should have done then, Told myself , foresight , I knew, I should have been writing way way back then, wow, You were so young , yet an old soul , so sorry , I totally mislead you, I looked and seen a Gleam, a glimpse, at what, i thought,  was reality , I Percieved , every thing , rose tinted spectacles , never had a look in, I had a veil, & a big big wall, i had a shield,  made of the strongest,  of Metal , & the greatest of teachers , I should have documented,  my whole past , now i am 48 , I hardly. Remember you , little girl, I feel you, I feel you strong , sometimes, the yearning, the pain, yes i know it all now , the emotional rollercoaster , called life, I had a great introduction, I Usualy , jumped in with both feet,
Wow, did I Jump , Paths so to speak, never on one, for long , a game of,  snakes and ladders ,  i will call, it and as you, get older, and hopefully,  wiser not wasting,  your life away, You will understand,  all the,  foresight is now hindsight , you have walked,  the walk,  so to speak,  now to do the talks, My Memory , it seems,  as if a lot is jumbled,Thank fully,  all i need,  is a wee reminder , then it all comes flooding , back , We worked , i have done so much , had my own businesses, even before i left school , We also i made sure were safe, We found Our soul mate , early , 13, He was 16, At the Time i lied and said i was older, and i had used a different name, I was so naive this time round , my soul , knew, so i fell in Love,  and followed my heart, which i have done all of my life , where our soul connected, i knew  my husband, we connected, real early on Century's earlier , we even looked it up, in a history book, we came from, the same town way , way back in our history , we even would have met , My husbands,  name derives from driver, My Maiden name,  derives from looking after the church & The Road ,, at the cross, we would have met , I was at the church, i would have been the light , the water , the fuel , feed and sleep,  for the weary driver, This i all learned way back , when i entered into marriage , With this ring i thee wee & I loved that  man, I gave him all i possibly could, He had to leave , five years back , we had a lot of fun, we shed a lot off light, we were the torch, we were the light  , we brought so many together , it is great to hear the story's, So My Thirteen your old self i would say i done all right this time around , yes there was lots of abuse , Tears , blood & sweat, hard lessons learned , Grief the hardest , The hardest to get your head around, its not for , getting over, it is no mountain,s i can assure you, its all to learn to walk & do the talk , Share what i have found on my travels over the years , we have had a ball, some times were real sticky , Yet i can say i loved the times , being a Mum, Living ,cleaning , I miss most , the noise, The silence i live with now, is almost deafening, Where as before , my house was never , empty always some one needed that wee bit extra light , we would willingly give this if we seen , Hope , I loved our ways , I am so glad i walked all those paths, I do /must have Ants in my pants so to speak, Life never seems to be dull, I would love , just for things to"" be normal"",
It cannot be i get signs from all walks in life , always have done always will do , every day a school day , that is another thing thirteen old self please do not be in such a hurry to grow up , enjoy being a child, It truly is Wild , I even say " Its a Trap", there is this Quote if you have not grown up by fifty,
Then its not going to happen, hahahah, That would of been so nice , I could also add here, i loved that song , die young stay pretty, Life we , every day is a School day i would even go as far to say you learn so much out of  school , it is needed though , Well good luck self Ill maybe bump into you in another life , now i have documented and sent it out on the waves so to speak "My message In a Bottle" All the best my innersole , Love you , more than you will know, I will also be a guiding light , till its my turn again, different parallels,Anger is of no use so please my younger self do not be guided by the anger that some times , drove me, it did get me to the here and now , the lessons i have done for us , no doubt you had your turn too, take care my lovinmg happy self , meet you one day . 
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Miss Herion

Miss Herion!!!
So Little man , youv`e grown tired of grass, LSD , downers, cocaine * Hash and someone pretending to be a good friend said, "I,ll Introduce you to Miss heroin",, Well Honey before you start, messing with me, just let me inform you of how it will be, For i will seduce you, and make you my slave, I,ve sent stronger than you to their grave, You think, you can never become addicted to the poppy seed waste, you`ll start inhaling me one afternoon, Then take me , into your arms, very soon,. Once i have entered deep into your veins , The Craving for more will drive you insane,. You`ll need lots of Money, as you have  been told, for my darling , I am more expensive than gold, You will mug & steal for my narcotic charm and feel contentment when i am in your arm, and the day you realize the monster youv`e grown you will solemly , promise to leave me alone, if you think you have the knack, Then Sweetie try getting me off your back, The Vomiting, The Cramps, The Gut tied in knots, The jangling, Nerves screaming , for one more shot,
the hot chills, the cold sweats, the withdrawal pains, can only be saved , by little white/brown grains ,
There`s no other was , no need to look, for deep down inside you know you are hooked, You`ll desperately turn to the pusher, and then you will,  welcome me back, into your arms again and, when you return just as i foretold. I know you wil give me your`e body and soul, you will give up your morrals, your concience, your heart and you will be mine untill Death Do Us Part...
This is the story of heroin it gets all in the end, you have to change your way of life, you have to do loads of things to keep you away as it is all too easy , just to say ok 1 more time. now your away from heroin, you are clean, well you might be tempted to try 1 more time, That can,  be your last, thing to do, its easy to come off the stuff, Its staying of heroin that`s the problem, your little devils sitting on your shoulders saying , its ok please I need it , then your other shoulder,s saying please do not go near the shit again Ever,,.. You have made the break, stay clear of little miss heroin , do not take one step forward and 2 back,,...
The cotton ool feeling is only while that little hit lasts , then you will need more , for it becomes all too life conzuming your every move, your thoughts are never your own, they all belong to your addiction . & her narcotic charm

Changes

In my dreams for months i couldn`t find you  I had climbed mountains, been over seas, looked in fields, recurring dreams for months thoughts for years , then when i did find you ,i had our youngest, with me, I thought yeeehhaarr, I have found u, i was in a small boat with the baby ,  an u were standing waiting on a wooden plank as if waiting to greet us, but u weren't,  You, were there, to tell me to an our baby , to go home, I was shocked,  an hurt how could you send us away,  I couldn't touch or even have a kiss,but the place you were was beautiful,  an island in the middle of the ocean,it was so green an looked so inviting, but we weren't,  allowed,  even out of the boat, I did go as you, told me,  I had to,  and i was to look after our youngest for he was only a baby , I hope am doing well,  as best as i can, am sure , your  looking down watching everything, I do an if things,  get hairy i know , You will ,  come to my rescue, we had something  special some people don't, get in a lifetime but we had all our lifetime in 1,maybe that`s why, it was cut short, because it was too good to be true, I remember sailing away in the boat an having to wave goodbye,  You also said you,  would be there,  for me when its my time to come, about 3 weeks after that dream, You  were diagnosed, we both knew right away it wasn't,  gonna b long cause it was your time , I think you,  knew as-well a longtime before you,  told me anything, as you knew only to tell so much, you must of  been scarred , inside but you never showed any fear,hurt, You  showed me that , we showed each-other, why us!! we asked, I couldn't cuddle You,  or touch you,  as it was just too sore so we cried head to head an we let it all out, just u an I, we had to b strong our kids always came first, couldn't let them see what was relay, going on inside,but as i watched, You  wither my heart sank further knowing you ,  were leaving, sometime soon was so  ? I cannot even put it into words how i felt ,i know it was the worst,so people out there (cancer) doesn't, just eat the person its attacking  it eats,  at all the family,  an the ripples after your loved 1 is gone goes on like tsunamis , It doesn't matter how well u look after the patient ure loved 1 ure still gonna get a kick in the teeth  as for the ripples they go out so far, You don't think you, will get past,  the first day,  but you do you have to? especially  for the kids,they need me,  more than ever now,because am mum ,I love being a mum its harder work as they grow into adults but the feelings never change.________________________________________________________________________________

Intention

Intentions can be good
Intervention should be swift
Insperation is my gift

The bird rattles his cage for attention , then starts to whistle his little tune, of what i do not rightly know
I would like to think its for my undivided attention, then the dog looks up with his big brown eyes , pleadingly and lovingly,
 If life was as easy, then what a Gem, Diamonds, ruby`s & amethyst,s hands,Fill,
Full, so you do not need any more,
Everybody would be great and poverty gone, if we all shared or gave away what we truly do not need, Give away our wares, Not them all , the Officials will not let you become too rich, Big Brother is watching us all , Picking our numbers almost as if from a hat, One big hand,  coming from the sky,  we think!! If we were,  to get even a little close, to all this, so called wealth,.
 We are all as wealthy, if you are healthy, and have things to bless, your foot steps, will always seem lighter , due to the feeling in your heart, kindness is easy, Just be genuine , it is easy to cheat, you only cheat yourself,  those little white lies, they can turn into great black holes, turn so quick as if someone flicked a switch, swallowing you up, If you are genuine and strong , you can say "I am infinite",
Enchanting, indeed, Unlimited, do not exaggerate, since the day`s aspects tend to distort your perception of things, You may be deceived, by what you see in the mirror, Credibility , My reputation
precedes me and i have nothing left to prove- never be mistaken,  to assume,  you have nothing left to learn, always the student , Ready to consolidate,  my resources , channel my experiences in preparation for sharing my wisdom,  protecting your legacy or pursue new meaning , in interchanging, my purpose, The pen has become mightier than any sword, We are empowered by mastery,mandate or responsibility, and your virtue is honor in Authority and executive decision making, Now to talk,
 For i have,  done the walk , maybe one too many times , seek and ye shall find springs to mind , Hide and seek, Life seems a game at times, every thing has a purpose, some just,  down right negative, It can seem at,  times, not  as easy , as you see through some one else eyes, Rose tinted spectacles , for that is what you make of yourself, a spectacle a holy show, The shame , Some would say , I say shame on you, Compassion , is free , learn , knowledge , education , we learn from every thing ,
   

Life is

Life is sweetness
Life is soar
Life is rough
Life is great
Life is Kindness
Life is giving
Life is beauty
Life is love
life is craving
Life is wanting
life is making
life is i am
life is i will
Life is dividied
Life is Gem stones
Life is understanding
Life is laughing
life is crying
Life is grief
Life is something else
Life is a theif
Life is  living
Life is  caring
Life is excisting
Life is consuming
Life is Intention
Life is one
Life is spiritual
Life is love
Life is insperation
Life is slow
Life is fast
Life is swift.
Life is Life
kmc 15-1-2000