PiNK - Conversations w!th my 13 year oLd seLf (LYr!cs)

Conversations, with my 13 year old self , wow , so sorry little girl, Did i let you down, did i Jump, for the wrong,  things and ways , 13 year old , thought i was so wise, Thought I knew it all, Note to myself.  I should have done then, Told myself , foresight , I knew, I should have been writing way way back then, wow, You were so young , yet an old soul , so sorry , I totally mislead you, I looked and seen a Gleam, a glimpse, at what, i thought,  was reality , I Percieved , every thing , rose tinted spectacles , never had a look in, I had a veil, & a big big wall, i had a shield,  made of the strongest,  of Metal , & the greatest of teachers , I should have documented,  my whole past , now i am 48 , I hardly. Remember you , little girl, I feel you, I feel you strong , sometimes, the yearning, the pain, yes i know it all now , the emotional rollercoaster , called life, I had a great introduction, I Usualy , jumped in with both feet,
Wow, did I Jump , Paths so to speak, never on one, for long , a game of,  snakes and ladders ,  i will call, it and as you, get older, and hopefully,  wiser not wasting,  your life away, You will understand,  all the,  foresight is now hindsight , you have walked,  the walk,  so to speak,  now to do the talks, My Memory , it seems,  as if a lot is jumbled,Thank fully,  all i need,  is a wee reminder , then it all comes flooding , back , We worked , i have done so much , had my own businesses, even before i left school , We also i made sure were safe, We found Our soul mate , early , 13, He was 16, At the Time i lied and said i was older, and i had used a different name, I was so naive this time round , my soul , knew, so i fell in Love,  and followed my heart, which i have done all of my life , where our soul connected, i knew  my husband, we connected, real early on Century's earlier , we even looked it up, in a history book, we came from, the same town way , way back in our history , we even would have met , My husbands,  name derives from driver, My Maiden name,  derives from looking after the church & The Road ,, at the cross, we would have met , I was at the church, i would have been the light , the water , the fuel , feed and sleep,  for the weary driver, This i all learned way back , when i entered into marriage , With this ring i thee wee & I loved that  man, I gave him all i possibly could, He had to leave , five years back , we had a lot of fun, we shed a lot off light, we were the torch, we were the light  , we brought so many together , it is great to hear the story's, So My Thirteen your old self i would say i done all right this time around , yes there was lots of abuse , Tears , blood & sweat, hard lessons learned , Grief the hardest , The hardest to get your head around, its not for , getting over, it is no mountain,s i can assure you, its all to learn to walk & do the talk , Share what i have found on my travels over the years , we have had a ball, some times were real sticky , Yet i can say i loved the times , being a Mum, Living ,cleaning , I miss most , the noise, The silence i live with now, is almost deafening, Where as before , my house was never , empty always some one needed that wee bit extra light , we would willingly give this if we seen , Hope , I loved our ways , I am so glad i walked all those paths, I do /must have Ants in my pants so to speak, Life never seems to be dull, I would love , just for things to"" be normal"",
It cannot be i get signs from all walks in life , always have done always will do , every day a school day , that is another thing thirteen old self please do not be in such a hurry to grow up , enjoy being a child, It truly is Wild , I even say " Its a Trap", there is this Quote if you have not grown up by fifty,
Then its not going to happen, hahahah, That would of been so nice , I could also add here, i loved that song , die young stay pretty, Life we , every day is a School day i would even go as far to say you learn so much out of  school , it is needed though , Well good luck self Ill maybe bump into you in another life , now i have documented and sent it out on the waves so to speak "My message In a Bottle" All the best my innersole , Love you , more than you will know, I will also be a guiding light , till its my turn again, different parallels,Anger is of no use so please my younger self do not be guided by the anger that some times , drove me, it did get me to the here and now , the lessons i have done for us , no doubt you had your turn too, take care my lovinmg happy self , meet you one day . 
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