Saturday, 20 June 2015
Fathers day 2015
Hey babes, We all miss you , Just a little note , to remind every one how special your dad is, He did help give birth, or even raised you, he is due a little credit , If he has been a loyal dad, please spoil him just as much as mum, he Deserves it , just as much , even though mum , might be , She is Mum , Dad he might not be there , next fathers day , so please , enjoy him for this one special day , bring him some love , in a card , a kiss to the forehead, An insight , a conversation, talk to your dad . I am far from finished this story , dads are so worth while , I never knew my dad ," aww," Please do not!! , I do not, I have, ever had one , so i do not miss , any thing , I have a romanticized dream and what i perceive as the perfect father, that is my rose tinted spectacles. Every one has an idea, any one can make a baby , takes so one so so special to stay and be a Man/ dad, Unconditional love , so many men do not understand and i am even finding woman, how selfish can you get, I believe once you have a child , you have had your kick at the ball so to speak , now its your turn to look and guide your bundle of fun , You cannot leave the child to grow on its own , The years they go so quick , blink and you will miss it, You wont think this till it is time to reflect , .....
PiNK - Conversations w!th my 13 year oLd seLf (LYr!cs)
Conversations, with my 13 year old self , wow , so sorry little girl, Did i let you down, did i Jump, for the wrong, things and ways , 13 year old , thought i was so wise, Thought I knew it all, Note to myself. I should have done then, Told myself , foresight , I knew, I should have been writing way way back then, wow, You were so young , yet an old soul , so sorry , I totally mislead you, I looked and seen a Gleam, a glimpse, at what, i thought, was reality , I Percieved , every thing , rose tinted spectacles , never had a look in, I had a veil, & a big big wall, i had a shield, made of the strongest, of Metal , & the greatest of teachers , I should have documented, my whole past , now i am 48 , I hardly. Remember you , little girl, I feel you, I feel you strong , sometimes, the yearning, the pain, yes i know it all now , the emotional rollercoaster , called life, I had a great introduction, I Usualy , jumped in with both feet,
Wow, did I Jump , Paths so to speak, never on one, for long , a game of, snakes and ladders , i will call, it and as you, get older, and hopefully, wiser not wasting, your life away, You will understand, all the, foresight is now hindsight , you have walked, the walk, so to speak, now to do the talks, My Memory , it seems, as if a lot is jumbled,Thank fully, all i need, is a wee reminder , then it all comes flooding , back , We worked , i have done so much , had my own businesses, even before i left school , We also i made sure were safe, We found Our soul mate , early , 13, He was 16, At the Time i lied and said i was older, and i had used a different name, I was so naive this time round , my soul , knew, so i fell in Love, and followed my heart, which i have done all of my life , where our soul connected, i knew my husband, we connected, real early on Century's earlier , we even looked it up, in a history book, we came from, the same town way , way back in our history , we even would have met , My husbands, name derives from driver, My Maiden name, derives from looking after the church & The Road ,, at the cross, we would have met , I was at the church, i would have been the light , the water , the fuel , feed and sleep, for the weary driver, This i all learned way back , when i entered into marriage , With this ring i thee wee & I loved that man, I gave him all i possibly could, He had to leave , five years back , we had a lot of fun, we shed a lot off light, we were the torch, we were the light , we brought so many together , it is great to hear the story's, So My Thirteen your old self i would say i done all right this time around , yes there was lots of abuse , Tears , blood & sweat, hard lessons learned , Grief the hardest , The hardest to get your head around, its not for , getting over, it is no mountain,s i can assure you, its all to learn to walk & do the talk , Share what i have found on my travels over the years , we have had a ball, some times were real sticky , Yet i can say i loved the times , being a Mum, Living ,cleaning , I miss most , the noise, The silence i live with now, is almost deafening, Where as before , my house was never , empty always some one needed that wee bit extra light , we would willingly give this if we seen , Hope , I loved our ways , I am so glad i walked all those paths, I do /must have Ants in my pants so to speak, Life never seems to be dull, I would love , just for things to"" be normal"",
It cannot be i get signs from all walks in life , always have done always will do , every day a school day , that is another thing thirteen old self please do not be in such a hurry to grow up , enjoy being a child, It truly is Wild , I even say " Its a Trap", there is this Quote if you have not grown up by fifty,
Then its not going to happen, hahahah, That would of been so nice , I could also add here, i loved that song , die young stay pretty, Life we , every day is a School day i would even go as far to say you learn so much out of school , it is needed though , Well good luck self Ill maybe bump into you in another life , now i have documented and sent it out on the waves so to speak "My message In a Bottle" All the best my innersole , Love you , more than you will know, I will also be a guiding light , till its my turn again, different parallels,Anger is of no use so please my younger self do not be guided by the anger that some times , drove me, it did get me to the here and now , the lessons i have done for us , no doubt you had your turn too, take care my lovinmg happy self , meet you one day .
I
Friday, 19 June 2015
Miss Herion
Miss Herion!!!
So Little man , youv`e grown tired of grass, LSD , downers, cocaine * Hash and someone pretending to be a good friend said, "I,ll Introduce you to Miss heroin",, Well Honey before you start, messing with me, just let me inform you of how it will be, For i will seduce you, and make you my slave, I,ve sent stronger than you to their grave, You think, you can never become addicted to the poppy seed waste, you`ll start inhaling me one afternoon, Then take me , into your arms, very soon,. Once i have entered deep into your veins , The Craving for more will drive you insane,. You`ll need lots of Money, as you have been told, for my darling , I am more expensive than gold, You will mug & steal for my narcotic charm and feel contentment when i am in your arm, and the day you realize the monster youv`e grown you will solemly , promise to leave me alone, if you think you have the knack, Then Sweetie try getting me off your back, The Vomiting, The Cramps, The Gut tied in knots, The jangling, Nerves screaming , for one more shot,
the hot chills, the cold sweats, the withdrawal pains, can only be saved , by little white/brown grains ,
There`s no other was , no need to look, for deep down inside you know you are hooked, You`ll desperately turn to the pusher, and then you will, welcome me back, into your arms again and, when you return just as i foretold. I know you wil give me your`e body and soul, you will give up your morrals, your concience, your heart and you will be mine untill Death Do Us Part...
This is the story of heroin it gets all in the end, you have to change your way of life, you have to do loads of things to keep you away as it is all too easy , just to say ok 1 more time. now your away from heroin, you are clean, well you might be tempted to try 1 more time, That can, be your last, thing to do, its easy to come off the stuff, Its staying of heroin that`s the problem, your little devils sitting on your shoulders saying , its ok please I need it , then your other shoulder,s saying please do not go near the shit again Ever,,.. You have made the break, stay clear of little miss heroin , do not take one step forward and 2 back,,...
The cotton ool feeling is only while that little hit lasts , then you will need more , for it becomes all too life conzuming your every move, your thoughts are never your own, they all belong to your addiction . & her narcotic charm
So Little man , youv`e grown tired of grass, LSD , downers, cocaine * Hash and someone pretending to be a good friend said, "I,ll Introduce you to Miss heroin",, Well Honey before you start, messing with me, just let me inform you of how it will be, For i will seduce you, and make you my slave, I,ve sent stronger than you to their grave, You think, you can never become addicted to the poppy seed waste, you`ll start inhaling me one afternoon, Then take me , into your arms, very soon,. Once i have entered deep into your veins , The Craving for more will drive you insane,. You`ll need lots of Money, as you have been told, for my darling , I am more expensive than gold, You will mug & steal for my narcotic charm and feel contentment when i am in your arm, and the day you realize the monster youv`e grown you will solemly , promise to leave me alone, if you think you have the knack, Then Sweetie try getting me off your back, The Vomiting, The Cramps, The Gut tied in knots, The jangling, Nerves screaming , for one more shot,
the hot chills, the cold sweats, the withdrawal pains, can only be saved , by little white/brown grains ,
There`s no other was , no need to look, for deep down inside you know you are hooked, You`ll desperately turn to the pusher, and then you will, welcome me back, into your arms again and, when you return just as i foretold. I know you wil give me your`e body and soul, you will give up your morrals, your concience, your heart and you will be mine untill Death Do Us Part...
This is the story of heroin it gets all in the end, you have to change your way of life, you have to do loads of things to keep you away as it is all too easy , just to say ok 1 more time. now your away from heroin, you are clean, well you might be tempted to try 1 more time, That can, be your last, thing to do, its easy to come off the stuff, Its staying of heroin that`s the problem, your little devils sitting on your shoulders saying , its ok please I need it , then your other shoulder,s saying please do not go near the shit again Ever,,.. You have made the break, stay clear of little miss heroin , do not take one step forward and 2 back,,...
The cotton ool feeling is only while that little hit lasts , then you will need more , for it becomes all too life conzuming your every move, your thoughts are never your own, they all belong to your addiction . & her narcotic charm
Changes
In my dreams for months i couldn`t find you I had climbed mountains, been over seas, looked in fields, recurring dreams for months thoughts for years , then when i did find you ,i had our youngest, with me, I thought yeeehhaarr, I have found u, i was in a small boat with the baby , an u were standing waiting on a wooden plank as if waiting to greet us, but u weren't, You, were there, to tell me to an our baby , to go home, I was shocked, an hurt how could you send us away, I couldn't touch or even have a kiss,but the place you were was beautiful, an island in the middle of the ocean,it was so green an looked so inviting, but we weren't, allowed, even out of the boat, I did go as you, told me, I had to, and i was to look after our youngest for he was only a baby , I hope am doing well, as best as i can, am sure , your looking down watching everything, I do an if things, get hairy i know , You will , come to my rescue, we had something special some people don't, get in a lifetime but we had all our lifetime in 1,maybe that`s why, it was cut short, because it was too good to be true, I remember sailing away in the boat an having to wave goodbye, You also said you, would be there, for me when its my time to come, about 3 weeks after that dream, You were diagnosed, we both knew right away it wasn't, gonna b long cause it was your time , I think you, knew as-well a longtime before you, told me anything, as you knew only to tell so much, you must of been scarred , inside but you never showed any fear,hurt, You showed me that , we showed each-other, why us!! we asked, I couldn't cuddle You, or touch you, as it was just too sore so we cried head to head an we let it all out, just u an I, we had to b strong our kids always came first, couldn't let them see what was relay, going on inside,but as i watched, You wither my heart sank further knowing you , were leaving, sometime soon was so ? I cannot even put it into words how i felt ,i know it was the worst,so people out there (cancer) doesn't, just eat the person its attacking it eats, at all the family, an the ripples after your loved 1 is gone goes on like tsunamis , It doesn't matter how well u look after the patient ure loved 1 ure still gonna get a kick in the teeth as for the ripples they go out so far, You don't think you, will get past, the first day, but you do you have to? especially for the kids,they need me, more than ever now,because am mum ,I love being a mum its harder work as they grow into adults but the feelings never change.________________________________________________________________________________
Wednesday, 17 June 2015
Intention
Intentions can be good
Intervention should be swift
Insperation is my gift
The bird rattles his cage for attention , then starts to whistle his little tune, of what i do not rightly know
I would like to think its for my undivided attention, then the dog looks up with his big brown eyes , pleadingly and lovingly,
If life was as easy, then what a Gem, Diamonds, ruby`s & amethyst,s hands,Fill,
Full, so you do not need any more,
Everybody would be great and poverty gone, if we all shared or gave away what we truly do not need, Give away our wares, Not them all , the Officials will not let you become too rich, Big Brother is watching us all , Picking our numbers almost as if from a hat, One big hand, coming from the sky, we think!! If we were, to get even a little close, to all this, so called wealth,.
We are all as wealthy, if you are healthy, and have things to bless, your foot steps, will always seem lighter , due to the feeling in your heart, kindness is easy, Just be genuine , it is easy to cheat, you only cheat yourself, those little white lies, they can turn into great black holes, turn so quick as if someone flicked a switch, swallowing you up, If you are genuine and strong , you can say "I am infinite",
Enchanting, indeed, Unlimited, do not exaggerate, since the day`s aspects tend to distort your perception of things, You may be deceived, by what you see in the mirror, Credibility , My reputation
precedes me and i have nothing left to prove- never be mistaken, to assume, you have nothing left to learn, always the student , Ready to consolidate, my resources , channel my experiences in preparation for sharing my wisdom, protecting your legacy or pursue new meaning , in interchanging, my purpose, The pen has become mightier than any sword, We are empowered by mastery,mandate or responsibility, and your virtue is honor in Authority and executive decision making, Now to talk,
For i have, done the walk , maybe one too many times , seek and ye shall find springs to mind , Hide and seek, Life seems a game at times, every thing has a purpose, some just, down right negative, It can seem at, times, not as easy , as you see through some one else eyes, Rose tinted spectacles , for that is what you make of yourself, a spectacle a holy show, The shame , Some would say , I say shame on you, Compassion , is free , learn , knowledge , education , we learn from every thing ,
Intervention should be swift
Insperation is my gift
The bird rattles his cage for attention , then starts to whistle his little tune, of what i do not rightly know
I would like to think its for my undivided attention, then the dog looks up with his big brown eyes , pleadingly and lovingly,
If life was as easy, then what a Gem, Diamonds, ruby`s & amethyst,s hands,Fill,
Full, so you do not need any more,
Everybody would be great and poverty gone, if we all shared or gave away what we truly do not need, Give away our wares, Not them all , the Officials will not let you become too rich, Big Brother is watching us all , Picking our numbers almost as if from a hat, One big hand, coming from the sky, we think!! If we were, to get even a little close, to all this, so called wealth,.
We are all as wealthy, if you are healthy, and have things to bless, your foot steps, will always seem lighter , due to the feeling in your heart, kindness is easy, Just be genuine , it is easy to cheat, you only cheat yourself, those little white lies, they can turn into great black holes, turn so quick as if someone flicked a switch, swallowing you up, If you are genuine and strong , you can say "I am infinite",
Enchanting, indeed, Unlimited, do not exaggerate, since the day`s aspects tend to distort your perception of things, You may be deceived, by what you see in the mirror, Credibility , My reputation
precedes me and i have nothing left to prove- never be mistaken, to assume, you have nothing left to learn, always the student , Ready to consolidate, my resources , channel my experiences in preparation for sharing my wisdom, protecting your legacy or pursue new meaning , in interchanging, my purpose, The pen has become mightier than any sword, We are empowered by mastery,mandate or responsibility, and your virtue is honor in Authority and executive decision making, Now to talk,
For i have, done the walk , maybe one too many times , seek and ye shall find springs to mind , Hide and seek, Life seems a game at times, every thing has a purpose, some just, down right negative, It can seem at, times, not as easy , as you see through some one else eyes, Rose tinted spectacles , for that is what you make of yourself, a spectacle a holy show, The shame , Some would say , I say shame on you, Compassion , is free , learn , knowledge , education , we learn from every thing ,
Life is
Life is sweetness
Life is soar
Life is rough
Life is great
Life is Kindness
Life is giving
Life is beauty
Life is love
life is craving
Life is wanting
life is making
life is i am
life is i will
Life is dividied
Life is Gem stones
Life is understanding
Life is laughing
life is crying
Life is grief
Life is something else
Life is a theif
Life is living
Life is caring
Life is excisting
Life is consuming
Life is Intention
Life is one
Life is spiritual
Life is love
Life is insperation
Life is slow
Life is fast
Life is swift.
Life is Life
kmc 15-1-2000
Life is soar
Life is rough
Life is great
Life is Kindness
Life is giving
Life is beauty
Life is love
life is craving
Life is wanting
life is making
life is i am
life is i will
Life is dividied
Life is Gem stones
Life is understanding
Life is laughing
life is crying
Life is grief
Life is something else
Life is a theif
Life is living
Life is caring
Life is excisting
Life is consuming
Life is Intention
Life is one
Life is spiritual
Life is love
Life is insperation
Life is slow
Life is fast
Life is swift.
Life is Life
kmc 15-1-2000
Monday, 15 June 2015
Evolution
Evolution the biggest lie ever told " The Paleolithic & Neolithic" have never existed except in the imagination of the pr-historians"
It is 100 % speculation, We have all seen Geographical notes showing from prehistoric to men , millions of years are guessed, The charts are Hypothetical, Assumptions,. Assume the theory of Evolution & Build from the graphs, They assume, we from the earths!!, charts so painstakingly mapped out for us, They Assume nature has never had a catastrophe , This assumption at school, the uniformed mater-ism , Ordinary span of millions of years was indicated by the rock-strata, ascending fossils, Remains Archeopteryx, picture depicts animals + Humans are mixed up in every conceivable way,
Alice a large ion Collier experiment , Here a world wide Grip called Alice is used for data analysis, by more than 15000 collaborators, Alice is like an underground telescope aimed at the first instants of the big bang theory , A Giant apparatus heavier than the Eiffel tower featuring state of the art particle detection technologies, There is still a lot of work to be done on these theory`s , scientists come up with new things just about every week , finding pyramids , finding things they never even thought possible , I say if its plausible it is possible , Life is one big puzzle , feeling like one small bit at a time then as you mature like a fine wine , all the pieces slot together rely nicely, Enough for you to reflect and count your blessings , no matter how small , yes you do have to make mistakes , it is life , you learn from these and when you do it is never time wasted, Might of took a bit too long of your time, but when you realize , you realize there is no going back, You have been there done that wore the t - shirt and took it off years ago, only to maybe put it back on again just for a quick peak , a quick look as to the why ,. Do not question to much just go with the flow , and listen to your instincts they will keep you on your toes so to speak , It is all new at the beginning all new and fresh , let that stage pass, then the reality hits home , Endurance is another test of your faith in yourself , When you find this , you will find people listen just because you know of what you are talking about , simple as that , all the mistakes i made i can now reflect , and say i was not that bad far from it , genuine people seem hard to find, to many with alternate motives. sad rely when we are all in this together , every one needing to take each others hand , so when the darkness hits we still have a hold a grip , some kind of grip is better than letting go , It is so easy to let go and just do what you shouldn`t do , so easy to make mistakes , but as we age there is no time left for mistakes, i can say i do not ever lie, For i was conditioned in such a way , It was only possible to see if you were in the circle , Just how controlled i was . On reflection so sad , yet i still stand tall and let it slip like water from a ducks back , the humor inside of me keeps me sane , throughout all the madness all those years i still kept sane , why because , I was/am mum and the children always come first in my book of rules, Its so easy to have a child for some yet they treat it like a possession, which to an extent they are , but only for a few years, then they leave the nest , & you have to watch and listen from afar,. Watch that little baby grow up into a fine adult , hoping all you have taught your little bundle of joy shines through , So they can shed light on others paths to show the way , every thing happens for a reason its up to you to decipher the ifs buts and maybes in life .....
It is 100 % speculation, We have all seen Geographical notes showing from prehistoric to men , millions of years are guessed, The charts are Hypothetical, Assumptions,. Assume the theory of Evolution & Build from the graphs, They assume, we from the earths!!, charts so painstakingly mapped out for us, They Assume nature has never had a catastrophe , This assumption at school, the uniformed mater-ism , Ordinary span of millions of years was indicated by the rock-strata, ascending fossils, Remains Archeopteryx, picture depicts animals + Humans are mixed up in every conceivable way,
Alice a large ion Collier experiment , Here a world wide Grip called Alice is used for data analysis, by more than 15000 collaborators, Alice is like an underground telescope aimed at the first instants of the big bang theory , A Giant apparatus heavier than the Eiffel tower featuring state of the art particle detection technologies, There is still a lot of work to be done on these theory`s , scientists come up with new things just about every week , finding pyramids , finding things they never even thought possible , I say if its plausible it is possible , Life is one big puzzle , feeling like one small bit at a time then as you mature like a fine wine , all the pieces slot together rely nicely, Enough for you to reflect and count your blessings , no matter how small , yes you do have to make mistakes , it is life , you learn from these and when you do it is never time wasted, Might of took a bit too long of your time, but when you realize , you realize there is no going back, You have been there done that wore the t - shirt and took it off years ago, only to maybe put it back on again just for a quick peak , a quick look as to the why ,. Do not question to much just go with the flow , and listen to your instincts they will keep you on your toes so to speak , It is all new at the beginning all new and fresh , let that stage pass, then the reality hits home , Endurance is another test of your faith in yourself , When you find this , you will find people listen just because you know of what you are talking about , simple as that , all the mistakes i made i can now reflect , and say i was not that bad far from it , genuine people seem hard to find, to many with alternate motives. sad rely when we are all in this together , every one needing to take each others hand , so when the darkness hits we still have a hold a grip , some kind of grip is better than letting go , It is so easy to let go and just do what you shouldn`t do , so easy to make mistakes , but as we age there is no time left for mistakes, i can say i do not ever lie, For i was conditioned in such a way , It was only possible to see if you were in the circle , Just how controlled i was . On reflection so sad , yet i still stand tall and let it slip like water from a ducks back , the humor inside of me keeps me sane , throughout all the madness all those years i still kept sane , why because , I was/am mum and the children always come first in my book of rules, Its so easy to have a child for some yet they treat it like a possession, which to an extent they are , but only for a few years, then they leave the nest , & you have to watch and listen from afar,. Watch that little baby grow up into a fine adult , hoping all you have taught your little bundle of joy shines through , So they can shed light on others paths to show the way , every thing happens for a reason its up to you to decipher the ifs buts and maybes in life .....
Morrals , Etiquite Family first
If every thing in your life does not seem on an even level- look at it Analyze every thing , do not beat yourself up of times that have been and gone, If you feel happy with all you have done, Then who is to judge who is morally correct, As Long as you are true mostly to yourself & Pure of heart and only do your best to your knowledge, Is that not what we all strive to be the best we can be, as a human, animal ,& Plant everything has room to connect.
Clean out your brain, one clean sweep and if you, Must Try Try again , Practice makes perfect,
You always have time to make things right, There is always a right time and a right place opportunity in all we do, to lift to shed some light on some ones path, Share talk , This i find has been the best medicine . If i have nothing Positive to say i just be quiet, due to my dialect I can sound like i am being sarcastic & Nasty , when i am never ever causing or even trying to offend any one.
I am adding humor to my list of to do , everyone needs a laugh it releases endorphins, I can not just laugh for no sake has to be funny , could be so stupid, what actually gets me laughing, no one getting ridiculed a shared laugh, Laughing with not at, Respect, learn to trust yourself, This i can say now.
I have done, so much, in life myself , Now there is a big event, still to come , in this next chapter, of my life being a married mother for thirty odd years. maybe i have sarcasm for all that has happened in my family`s life , for some reason I kept my faith in, what i see, as morally correct, and it has me at a very exciting time in my life, for my family.
Look all doom and gloom + cold hard facts are all i do have, loads and loads, so were do i go from here, I know first hand knowledge what is morally correct & Thankfully for the better good of mankind, When i had to stand the minority , I became the majority almost over night, That step , leap of faith is because i refuse to lie down and be quiet, it is not the visible hand that counts its the muscular arm that wields it, & More so the power of the brain that directs both the arm & Hand that rely count,
Clean out your brain, one clean sweep and if you, Must Try Try again , Practice makes perfect,
You always have time to make things right, There is always a right time and a right place opportunity in all we do, to lift to shed some light on some ones path, Share talk , This i find has been the best medicine . If i have nothing Positive to say i just be quiet, due to my dialect I can sound like i am being sarcastic & Nasty , when i am never ever causing or even trying to offend any one.
I am adding humor to my list of to do , everyone needs a laugh it releases endorphins, I can not just laugh for no sake has to be funny , could be so stupid, what actually gets me laughing, no one getting ridiculed a shared laugh, Laughing with not at, Respect, learn to trust yourself, This i can say now.
I have done, so much, in life myself , Now there is a big event, still to come , in this next chapter, of my life being a married mother for thirty odd years. maybe i have sarcasm for all that has happened in my family`s life , for some reason I kept my faith in, what i see, as morally correct, and it has me at a very exciting time in my life, for my family.
Look all doom and gloom + cold hard facts are all i do have, loads and loads, so were do i go from here, I know first hand knowledge what is morally correct & Thankfully for the better good of mankind, When i had to stand the minority , I became the majority almost over night, That step , leap of faith is because i refuse to lie down and be quiet, it is not the visible hand that counts its the muscular arm that wields it, & More so the power of the brain that directs both the arm & Hand that rely count,
Thursday, 11 June 2015
Analazing sons dream , hindsight 2003-
Your boy was searching for you in his dreams also , on an occasion I wrote the dream down , some will think, its only a dream but no , if you can look in-between the lines, Listen , its all there in Allegory, I was so glad of my childrens dreams they shed light on loads of things might not at the time might sound complete and utter nonesense that is why i suggest write it down and put it away till one day way way down the line , The Dream Goes abit like this,
Dad Didn`t know were to find you, or where we ended up , then we were at a bridge we even had to build lego bricks to get over this bridge,
Aliens (floor just moved) Lights started to flash into shapes had to build the shapes to get over that bridge , Aliens trying to hurt you dad, get you with a blue lazer pen, Stabbing your dad, then Your son gets a hold off You, and the Aliens start stabbing at his arms, then we went on a holiday Mum Disapeared? Son had left a window open in a car in London there was load of animals & we were going over london bridge, then the car stalls in mid air , They were fighting two Aliens for one hour, just zapping each-other, what is spinning around? in Our heads? or even spinning & then he woke up ,
Now all this to people that know how to read a dream will see , and understand loads of this dream for I now understand, My child can foresee, All of us can , its our dreaming life, It shows you . you might not make any sense at the time , just write it down what you remember, Colors , places , what was in the dream , symbols, Now The son & Father, Will always be connected , he could not of saved his dad , even if he was truly aware of what was in store , higher beings work on out here too , Alien it feels , alienated we feel because of dreams , 8/12/2003, This dream our oldest son had he would have been 17, His dad passed 26/01/2010, from lung Cancer so now can you see , just a little of what i see at night , what we all see, its deciphering that is the hard bit , Once you have hindsight then we can answer all our questions . Near enough them all for some it leaves even bigger questions , and for me also , that is why i have always listened to my children`s dreams and even went and wrote them down , Linking me to my dream life , everyone has a link when their not of a conscious state, Its called dreaming , Love light & Blessings
kmc142
Dad Didn`t know were to find you, or where we ended up , then we were at a bridge we even had to build lego bricks to get over this bridge,
Aliens (floor just moved) Lights started to flash into shapes had to build the shapes to get over that bridge , Aliens trying to hurt you dad, get you with a blue lazer pen, Stabbing your dad, then Your son gets a hold off You, and the Aliens start stabbing at his arms, then we went on a holiday Mum Disapeared? Son had left a window open in a car in London there was load of animals & we were going over london bridge, then the car stalls in mid air , They were fighting two Aliens for one hour, just zapping each-other, what is spinning around? in Our heads? or even spinning & then he woke up ,
Now all this to people that know how to read a dream will see , and understand loads of this dream for I now understand, My child can foresee, All of us can , its our dreaming life, It shows you . you might not make any sense at the time , just write it down what you remember, Colors , places , what was in the dream , symbols, Now The son & Father, Will always be connected , he could not of saved his dad , even if he was truly aware of what was in store , higher beings work on out here too , Alien it feels , alienated we feel because of dreams , 8/12/2003, This dream our oldest son had he would have been 17, His dad passed 26/01/2010, from lung Cancer so now can you see , just a little of what i see at night , what we all see, its deciphering that is the hard bit , Once you have hindsight then we can answer all our questions . Near enough them all for some it leaves even bigger questions , and for me also , that is why i have always listened to my children`s dreams and even went and wrote them down , Linking me to my dream life , everyone has a link when their not of a conscious state, Its called dreaming , Love light & Blessings
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Wednesday, 10 June 2015
someone controlling My Actions
Defensiveness armors myself, i cling to connections or possessions that have depreciated, and look to others to protect me- but at a price .some one is controlling me , I feel it every move i am going to make there is two answers to be found and i have to decipher which is the best for life`s highways so to speak ,It beggers belief and has me questioning who rely is in control, My Tarrot card for today four of earth , dimi question is who is controlling what??, ,, Back ground The last Supper explores the potential for the disciples to share friendship amidst the plotting of Judas- The pures-holder of the twelve- to betray their leader for the sake of a financial reward, that is definatly not me, I never look for any thing back , Soul-code to this, The controlll of resources is a responsible task, Whoever apportions the goods MUST share out fairly , It is a mistake for the soul to become to attached to the means by which powere, money and position are gained, Instead of Furthering the Flow of life, your destiny becomes interwoven with the control and manipulation of others for gain is never a good move in my book,
I assert all my territory or call the shots, Generosity controls my turf do not have a love of material gains , all i want to gain is genuine friends , I have no time for the stupid games, Power , people playing god , i have been here so many times before, Let go of my control , There are obstacles to me gaining more, delays , blockages, just make me question even more, encourage my self to speculate,, Prestige and power are hard-won learn to live a simple life, or more simply dont put so many hurdles in your path , it would be great if the road was so so smooth, but that is not allowed for the laws that be .
Choice brings ambivalence a word i will have to check out for right now i have not a clue ,I have difficulty in getting started or adapting to change, Multiplying or bureaucratic entanglements confuse things, as i but try, to launch myself, I feel like a pendulum forever swinging from back to here, look to both sides of the market so to speak to assess exactly were you stand, Holding two ideas in one place in no difficulty at all , since i handle complexity well, Its double accounting that sabotages me, Trust in some one has been squashed to near enough nil, Feels complexity is my master, Trying to keep all the sides covered means i rely am serving no one, stand back time , time to reassess what can be delegated or discarded, Step of my treadmill , Time to reflect , draw back as far as i can get , observe from a safe distance , that is what i do best observe read between every line , I cannot believe myself some times , I will answer that with there is nothing like an old fool , this is too myself , I dared to let some body in , i even let a wall down just a tad , enough for to see/show what is deep within , Now it is closed even zipped , proved right again , Finding the point of balance will help you/me in your journey without undue elation or depression , its as clear as that , I know what i have to do practise makes perfect , get right back on that high horse so to speak , and take off for a vantage point , That seems to be the answer throughout history too, Run, hide and come out when all is over , No never that would never be me , i am just to dam nosy , I have to be in the middle of things , for to connect and help in every way that i possibly can .
Did you know that Pope Alexandra VI , had an illegitimate son, Caesar was a brilliant soldier and a ruthless manipulator whose motto was "Aut Caesar, aut nihil"-(Caesar or nothing" 1500 century ) Leonardo Davinci actualy served him 1502 , Leonardo Da Vinci , was a very clever man , he knew way too much it would have made anyone seems as if they were not off the normal, This normal i would love to meet , what is normal, This man seems to have loads of answers to what seems it all , as i perceive he tells every thing just how it should be told makes 100% sense to me , very clever all his writings , they also found a secret room way back January 2005, in a rambling Friary of "Santissima AnnunZiata" in Florence the room was none the less a studio,s of the great man himself , found during the phenomenon of the Davinci code book , Was a great read also, leads to so many other diffrent paths i think a good book should lift every thing about you, and i love the way Leonardo explains things wise old soul pity people rubbished him , now though who is laughing , Not Caesar, Leonardo Da Vinci he is laughing , he had it all so spot on , I Look to him for a lot of my insight for some reason i have not a problem when i need some thing that is totally new answering !! Leonardo seems to have questioned all of my questions way back when , wow blows my mind , He was what i thought just an Artist , as i mature i rely appreciate Art , I have found the artist in me, found an eye i never even knew or thought i had , and all the time its been full on almost beacon like , it is for others beckoning , shedding light , lending a hand were i possibly can some times to my cost as i have found , almost too sore to even mention some of the lessons i have just had to learn,.. Its all good , at-least i know , thank fully i just seem to know , and it saves me once again , From what rely could be the biggest mistake of my life, it would definitely feel , The pressure just of the thoughts of letting any one too close to me , Must be rely creep for some having someone that just knows and reads your every thought , scares me too some times , but its also my instincts , conscious instincts compared to my sleeping consciousnesses, That keeps me well and truly on my toes , and i could have made a mistake , Choices are all mines , They are now , They were not for years, but i am not, even going ,to go there, that`s another story, Jackanory i call it now, =Story it was the name of a program as a child , story tellers , Actors would read a Child`s story to the Children watching television. I liked story telling , listening to every ones way deciphering the real from the down right lies , reading between the lines,that is rely easy some times , especially if it , might work out a big big mistake the laws that govern me will not let it be if the times, not right, then it will not be , plain and simple as that, to me ,
The glass is always half fill thank fully , over flowing would just be a waste, and i hate to waste any thing especially the knowledge of a higher self, this i rely do have to listen to or i would not ever make any thing right , I have made plenty mistakes , but now its all clear as to the ifs buts & even the maybe`s, I haven`t lost my faith o No that would never be me , Faith is what keeps me going and the strength, i have gained, i have to share, for its just too much , heavy burdens, are always halved when shared , they always seem lighter when some hindsight is thrown into view or just aired , Light seems to come from all directions , Thank fully that is my Faith , so control away you will find your far in control , I have Higher beings that walk with me and keep me safe and on my toes, We can control only ,so much, especially if Time is involved, makes every thing just happen so fast and seem such a coincidence , when you have time to reflect and see , You were already aware , this was going to happen , lucky i was well aware ,.. Always will be Aware of every thing around me , I have to be plain as that , i have to question this and that i have to research for answers true, and they come from all ways when i ask for a hand , I get one , i cannot see who it is I can feel though , Thankfully , Love light Blessings to us all , Keep lifted.
I assert all my territory or call the shots, Generosity controls my turf do not have a love of material gains , all i want to gain is genuine friends , I have no time for the stupid games, Power , people playing god , i have been here so many times before, Let go of my control , There are obstacles to me gaining more, delays , blockages, just make me question even more, encourage my self to speculate,, Prestige and power are hard-won learn to live a simple life, or more simply dont put so many hurdles in your path , it would be great if the road was so so smooth, but that is not allowed for the laws that be .
Choice brings ambivalence a word i will have to check out for right now i have not a clue ,I have difficulty in getting started or adapting to change, Multiplying or bureaucratic entanglements confuse things, as i but try, to launch myself, I feel like a pendulum forever swinging from back to here, look to both sides of the market so to speak to assess exactly were you stand, Holding two ideas in one place in no difficulty at all , since i handle complexity well, Its double accounting that sabotages me, Trust in some one has been squashed to near enough nil, Feels complexity is my master, Trying to keep all the sides covered means i rely am serving no one, stand back time , time to reassess what can be delegated or discarded, Step of my treadmill , Time to reflect , draw back as far as i can get , observe from a safe distance , that is what i do best observe read between every line , I cannot believe myself some times , I will answer that with there is nothing like an old fool , this is too myself , I dared to let some body in , i even let a wall down just a tad , enough for to see/show what is deep within , Now it is closed even zipped , proved right again , Finding the point of balance will help you/me in your journey without undue elation or depression , its as clear as that , I know what i have to do practise makes perfect , get right back on that high horse so to speak , and take off for a vantage point , That seems to be the answer throughout history too, Run, hide and come out when all is over , No never that would never be me , i am just to dam nosy , I have to be in the middle of things , for to connect and help in every way that i possibly can .
Did you know that Pope Alexandra VI , had an illegitimate son, Caesar was a brilliant soldier and a ruthless manipulator whose motto was "Aut Caesar, aut nihil"-(Caesar or nothing" 1500 century ) Leonardo Davinci actualy served him 1502 , Leonardo Da Vinci , was a very clever man , he knew way too much it would have made anyone seems as if they were not off the normal, This normal i would love to meet , what is normal, This man seems to have loads of answers to what seems it all , as i perceive he tells every thing just how it should be told makes 100% sense to me , very clever all his writings , they also found a secret room way back January 2005, in a rambling Friary of "Santissima AnnunZiata" in Florence the room was none the less a studio,s of the great man himself , found during the phenomenon of the Davinci code book , Was a great read also, leads to so many other diffrent paths i think a good book should lift every thing about you, and i love the way Leonardo explains things wise old soul pity people rubbished him , now though who is laughing , Not Caesar, Leonardo Da Vinci he is laughing , he had it all so spot on , I Look to him for a lot of my insight for some reason i have not a problem when i need some thing that is totally new answering !! Leonardo seems to have questioned all of my questions way back when , wow blows my mind , He was what i thought just an Artist , as i mature i rely appreciate Art , I have found the artist in me, found an eye i never even knew or thought i had , and all the time its been full on almost beacon like , it is for others beckoning , shedding light , lending a hand were i possibly can some times to my cost as i have found , almost too sore to even mention some of the lessons i have just had to learn,.. Its all good , at-least i know , thank fully i just seem to know , and it saves me once again , From what rely could be the biggest mistake of my life, it would definitely feel , The pressure just of the thoughts of letting any one too close to me , Must be rely creep for some having someone that just knows and reads your every thought , scares me too some times , but its also my instincts , conscious instincts compared to my sleeping consciousnesses, That keeps me well and truly on my toes , and i could have made a mistake , Choices are all mines , They are now , They were not for years, but i am not, even going ,to go there, that`s another story, Jackanory i call it now, =Story it was the name of a program as a child , story tellers , Actors would read a Child`s story to the Children watching television. I liked story telling , listening to every ones way deciphering the real from the down right lies , reading between the lines,that is rely easy some times , especially if it , might work out a big big mistake the laws that govern me will not let it be if the times, not right, then it will not be , plain and simple as that, to me ,
The glass is always half fill thank fully , over flowing would just be a waste, and i hate to waste any thing especially the knowledge of a higher self, this i rely do have to listen to or i would not ever make any thing right , I have made plenty mistakes , but now its all clear as to the ifs buts & even the maybe`s, I haven`t lost my faith o No that would never be me , Faith is what keeps me going and the strength, i have gained, i have to share, for its just too much , heavy burdens, are always halved when shared , they always seem lighter when some hindsight is thrown into view or just aired , Light seems to come from all directions , Thank fully that is my Faith , so control away you will find your far in control , I have Higher beings that walk with me and keep me safe and on my toes, We can control only ,so much, especially if Time is involved, makes every thing just happen so fast and seem such a coincidence , when you have time to reflect and see , You were already aware , this was going to happen , lucky i was well aware ,.. Always will be Aware of every thing around me , I have to be plain as that , i have to question this and that i have to research for answers true, and they come from all ways when i ask for a hand , I get one , i cannot see who it is I can feel though , Thankfully , Love light Blessings to us all , Keep lifted.
Synchronicity
"Synchronicity is an ever present reality for those who have the eyes to see" Carl Jung (1871-1661)
All our life`s we search for this oneness and all the time it is in you, Nothing happens by coincidence, From the day you are born till the day you pass over, From the cradle to the grave, We are always learning all sorts of manner of subjects from gardening to being in a bad mood,. Every thing is like a holographic picture , hidden , from the seeing eye, hidden knowledge for you to find out as you age infinite wisdom being protected throughout life might not feel like it some times but you are , You soul
VMAT 2 is the gene of our pineal Gland , on one reality this gene releases the feel good factor genes in our bodys that give us the feeling of bliss , on another connection , level, The penial Gland is the silver cord, That is attached to via the spirit body & that of the physical body, The spirit body has axcess to all possible realitys, which also connects us to oneness or as some like to call it "The God Connection"
We are all god if that is the case or oneness - is inside us all , everyone of us experiencing itself, & This 3rd reality -Matrix.
Holographic -Disclosure 16 "a Secret Government " Experiments, every thing reflects back to a female symbol's , all rivers are female.
Acclaimed Theoretical Physicist " Stephen hawking " Writes That the so called " God Particle" Could become unstable and cause a "catastrophic vacuum decay" that would lead to the collapse of time & space, Sunday times reported,
We have a lot happening in our world today and the coming years things are going to change, Big time, we might not see the effects but our children`s children will that is if any one survives, would you want to be responsible for starting the world off again, We have the knowledge to do this , it is in loads of books Uriel time machine, Loads of secrets burned over our history by the leaders of the time only wanting their history kept we have so much to learn , just look to the Egyptians, Babylon times, look to the master pieces, every thing is all there in allegory , for the trained eye to see , if you know what to look for , it can be another job in itself i have found , fascinates me , how did we get all this information now , when it has been available for years , Century's, even pictures , you can only see from a plane , wow , our world has , had so so many secrets totally mind blowing some of the things , like lights that shone for century`s , how have we went back wards we are not apes , we do act like them some times , I know i do i love monkeying around , love to laugh , life is too serious to be living in fear, what ever is supposed to be coming we will survive we always do because we are such a great species , they simply could not live without us , For this am sure or our race would never of survived to tell all these secrets, we are supposed to share them hand the hidden knowledge down , yes i agree not for everyone but at least give us the choice to either turn the other cheek or learn what we are to learn , it will come out any way always does, The bigger the secret the bigger the shock but if we have a wee inkling we could even help solve your mad scientist ways , instead of thinking yous`e know it all give it too the Joe public , we rely want to know , I know i sure do , I am getting to know we bits but i cannot put it together yet , its all the jigsaw pieces been given to me and mines we thought we had our puzzle near enough done , far from it there is pieces yet to find , Then the jigsaw will be complete , so till then let those secrets out , you know we will find out any ways , We always do ......
Throughout my history i can add the dates up and see what we were connected from way before we were even born, Oneness is in us all love light & Bless , Jesus and the bible what he rely says is fascinating , i never thought i would ever read the bible i would have laughed in your face if you had of said i would be reading a bible now, You just never rely know what is around that so called corner , even though you have remote viewing still comes as a shock when your hologram , crashes just like superman's done , It lay all tattered and broke , just like him , did not take him long to get his strength back is this another Samson and Delilah, what catastrophes lie in wait, do not worry about it , your soul knows the score so to speak just follow its lead, you will feel it , right in the pitt of your stomach , if it is not to be your instincts will scream loud and clear, thank fully mines do , and forewarn me off so much ,as i have said before what ever is supposed to be happening with jade helm , CERN, Pope we will all still be here on the 24th of September , they would need us for more than they will ever know, they have used us for century`s , filled the aether with our souls , do these ones ever get back or are the stuck as if in limbo , synchronicity , Time, I done even where mines now , sick of how fast the time is going , Time is only made up too, imagine if we didn`t have to watch our clocks , and just live enjoy every day as it starts raising the sun high up in the sky then we know its near half a day , then the sun should be, the time, Ra another god, Hercules had thoughts and named them gods , Clever guy /God : Seems to me a lot of things throughout history repeats itself in another of its big cycles , is this the one that truly is going to be the big bang , seemingly we have had this big bang a few times we just never seem to learn, we cannot be blamed see we never get a shot of the reins so to speak they think we are too dumb , haha , far from it we know more than we would ever let on , You governing officials , you would kidnap the ordinary Joe from wherever, to hear the tales, of their mind , the ones you decided were of their heads now its becoming fact they have been using their third eye more than they ever knew was possible , no wonder you had to run to the doctor , it freaked me out also , Luckily i did not run and get some thing to banish my thoughts i went with them and am so glad i did , for now with hindsight i was forewarned, and i done my best , and that is all you can do, well i done that , and much much more, and will forever do so, because that is just me, Lighting or shedding light were others are or could be stuck is my calling card so to speak and i will lead the way ,
Thank fully i have foresight and forewarned , intuition , instincts are all on heightened alert, even the dogs wondering what is going on . i watch her standing sniffing the air , her nose crumpling as if she can smell some thing not quite right , i will stand with her watch her sniff the air , what is it she can smell is it the fear the uncertainty of the unknown, she doesn`t seem scared , if any thing she wants to go check it out and of-course i will go with her, check out just what has got her nose , makes me wonder due to it is always at the same place she stands and will sniff here nose in the air high up , fascinating , Look to the animals they are so wise and clever , they know when and if some thing has motives , not all good for you , your animal will be ready to protect , they give us loads of clues, mines talks with her eyes , showing me what i do not understand , clever looking and listening for everything , Synchronicity
All our life`s we search for this oneness and all the time it is in you, Nothing happens by coincidence, From the day you are born till the day you pass over, From the cradle to the grave, We are always learning all sorts of manner of subjects from gardening to being in a bad mood,. Every thing is like a holographic picture , hidden , from the seeing eye, hidden knowledge for you to find out as you age infinite wisdom being protected throughout life might not feel like it some times but you are , You soul
VMAT 2 is the gene of our pineal Gland , on one reality this gene releases the feel good factor genes in our bodys that give us the feeling of bliss , on another connection , level, The penial Gland is the silver cord, That is attached to via the spirit body & that of the physical body, The spirit body has axcess to all possible realitys, which also connects us to oneness or as some like to call it "The God Connection"
We are all god if that is the case or oneness - is inside us all , everyone of us experiencing itself, & This 3rd reality -Matrix.
Holographic -Disclosure 16 "a Secret Government " Experiments, every thing reflects back to a female symbol's , all rivers are female.
Acclaimed Theoretical Physicist " Stephen hawking " Writes That the so called " God Particle" Could become unstable and cause a "catastrophic vacuum decay" that would lead to the collapse of time & space, Sunday times reported,
We have a lot happening in our world today and the coming years things are going to change, Big time, we might not see the effects but our children`s children will that is if any one survives, would you want to be responsible for starting the world off again, We have the knowledge to do this , it is in loads of books Uriel time machine, Loads of secrets burned over our history by the leaders of the time only wanting their history kept we have so much to learn , just look to the Egyptians, Babylon times, look to the master pieces, every thing is all there in allegory , for the trained eye to see , if you know what to look for , it can be another job in itself i have found , fascinates me , how did we get all this information now , when it has been available for years , Century's, even pictures , you can only see from a plane , wow , our world has , had so so many secrets totally mind blowing some of the things , like lights that shone for century`s , how have we went back wards we are not apes , we do act like them some times , I know i do i love monkeying around , love to laugh , life is too serious to be living in fear, what ever is supposed to be coming we will survive we always do because we are such a great species , they simply could not live without us , For this am sure or our race would never of survived to tell all these secrets, we are supposed to share them hand the hidden knowledge down , yes i agree not for everyone but at least give us the choice to either turn the other cheek or learn what we are to learn , it will come out any way always does, The bigger the secret the bigger the shock but if we have a wee inkling we could even help solve your mad scientist ways , instead of thinking yous`e know it all give it too the Joe public , we rely want to know , I know i sure do , I am getting to know we bits but i cannot put it together yet , its all the jigsaw pieces been given to me and mines we thought we had our puzzle near enough done , far from it there is pieces yet to find , Then the jigsaw will be complete , so till then let those secrets out , you know we will find out any ways , We always do ......
Throughout my history i can add the dates up and see what we were connected from way before we were even born, Oneness is in us all love light & Bless , Jesus and the bible what he rely says is fascinating , i never thought i would ever read the bible i would have laughed in your face if you had of said i would be reading a bible now, You just never rely know what is around that so called corner , even though you have remote viewing still comes as a shock when your hologram , crashes just like superman's done , It lay all tattered and broke , just like him , did not take him long to get his strength back is this another Samson and Delilah, what catastrophes lie in wait, do not worry about it , your soul knows the score so to speak just follow its lead, you will feel it , right in the pitt of your stomach , if it is not to be your instincts will scream loud and clear, thank fully mines do , and forewarn me off so much ,as i have said before what ever is supposed to be happening with jade helm , CERN, Pope we will all still be here on the 24th of September , they would need us for more than they will ever know, they have used us for century`s , filled the aether with our souls , do these ones ever get back or are the stuck as if in limbo , synchronicity , Time, I done even where mines now , sick of how fast the time is going , Time is only made up too, imagine if we didn`t have to watch our clocks , and just live enjoy every day as it starts raising the sun high up in the sky then we know its near half a day , then the sun should be, the time, Ra another god, Hercules had thoughts and named them gods , Clever guy /God : Seems to me a lot of things throughout history repeats itself in another of its big cycles , is this the one that truly is going to be the big bang , seemingly we have had this big bang a few times we just never seem to learn, we cannot be blamed see we never get a shot of the reins so to speak they think we are too dumb , haha , far from it we know more than we would ever let on , You governing officials , you would kidnap the ordinary Joe from wherever, to hear the tales, of their mind , the ones you decided were of their heads now its becoming fact they have been using their third eye more than they ever knew was possible , no wonder you had to run to the doctor , it freaked me out also , Luckily i did not run and get some thing to banish my thoughts i went with them and am so glad i did , for now with hindsight i was forewarned, and i done my best , and that is all you can do, well i done that , and much much more, and will forever do so, because that is just me, Lighting or shedding light were others are or could be stuck is my calling card so to speak and i will lead the way ,
Thank fully i have foresight and forewarned , intuition , instincts are all on heightened alert, even the dogs wondering what is going on . i watch her standing sniffing the air , her nose crumpling as if she can smell some thing not quite right , i will stand with her watch her sniff the air , what is it she can smell is it the fear the uncertainty of the unknown, she doesn`t seem scared , if any thing she wants to go check it out and of-course i will go with her, check out just what has got her nose , makes me wonder due to it is always at the same place she stands and will sniff here nose in the air high up , fascinating , Look to the animals they are so wise and clever , they know when and if some thing has motives , not all good for you , your animal will be ready to protect , they give us loads of clues, mines talks with her eyes , showing me what i do not understand , clever looking and listening for everything , Synchronicity
Sunday, 7 June 2015
"spare time"
Whats been to learn from this week , what was there to be seen with the unseeing eye , interesting , just!!!, When i went to collage, I remember the tutor asking us all, "what we done in our spare time" and my reply was" people watching" its what first came to my head , funny looks,, I got to say the least, now it seems!!!,, every body is at people, watching, even big brother is, watching, big brother and then of-course you have the people, who they say are connected, to no-one, some people, are that detached, you just cannot reach them , even if you were to scream, in their ears,Selective hearing , i know, i am guilty of it, too, aren`t we all , you will see a funny quote from a husband about his dear wife or the poor wife about the dear husband , each of them suffering in one way or the other , this is a relationship ,The small minor details we can all laugh at , & there is nothing like airing your dirty laundry in public so to speak, you can laugh about it in Time to come , once the lessons have been learned. It can take a life time , and you still do not rely know the man/woman you are truly married to in life and death , soul mates go on for eternity , It was all lovely and cute in the beginning the honey moon period , everyone has one then the cracks begin to appear, and you were not even looking,
Life has a funny way of just letting you know, never take nothing for granted, or get to comfier , enjoying the ride, so to speak for its never long , when some thing is sent to test all your faith in every little minor detail, every thing can so change quicker than you ever reaching for any switch, then you have a few mountains to climb for to find out throughout the whole existence has been all about alchemy, The knowledge you gained at your pain is when you learn`t hardest of all, Most of the lessons of life`s highway come racing back as if the ghosts of times gone by haunting your every move throughout your history flashes before you , you feel you have no will no faith in tomorrow and definitely, none for today but some how you drag yourself , with every little thing of your being , you drag that sorry ass of yours through thick and thin its going to be there for you , yip your sorry ass, you will use it a lot, especially to sit and reflect, and watch the ghosts, of yesteryear almost a yearning little devils sitting on your shoulders , saying see told you so , Almost gloating looking down at you from their vantage points , on your shoulders , some times these would be called burdens i will call them little devils not all bad one is red one is purest of white, one is so full of itself the other is all shy and very wary of every thing it does not know, maybe call it my instinct, Also though the other side plays a part for to keep me on my toes so to speak , what to call that consciousnesses, so my cosiness instinct keeps me right , remote viewing had a hand, Would you like a touch and maybe see your future too, You can , I just seem to be too aware some times it feels , yet i still make plenty mistakes , just not as many as i used to , when younger, Still as fast , I also try not to question the ifs, buts and the whys any more not to much most i have the answers , too, for my own personal account , what i perceive, will be completely different to what some one else perceives , people are allowed their point of view, Constructive criticism i like that , how to make your self better , that is what i take from the negatives and turn them to positives , the best i can do , That is all we can do all of us , for the better good of all for mankind our children's futures and so on , That to me is what is morally correct is being about , doing your best whilst all around seems to be falling down , helping to hold people`s walls is all easy to me, lending a hand is not a problem an act of kindness is so easy , to turn the other cheek is just as bad as the person committing , it is easy to think , & for some to judge , they make life funny , they who cast their stones only to find the boomerang right through their very own windows , It all comes in all shapes and guises , life`s plan for us all , What is going to be your next move , look to the light , look to every thing , as i say it comes in all guises, blows my mind some times , Not looking back , reflecting , Its hard not to , Looking to the future is easy also its what is happening here and now , time for reflection , mirroring every thing everyone ever said, now you know a lot of what you never even thought twice, ...Kmc love light & peace :)
Life has a funny way of just letting you know, never take nothing for granted, or get to comfier , enjoying the ride, so to speak for its never long , when some thing is sent to test all your faith in every little minor detail, every thing can so change quicker than you ever reaching for any switch, then you have a few mountains to climb for to find out throughout the whole existence has been all about alchemy, The knowledge you gained at your pain is when you learn`t hardest of all, Most of the lessons of life`s highway come racing back as if the ghosts of times gone by haunting your every move throughout your history flashes before you , you feel you have no will no faith in tomorrow and definitely, none for today but some how you drag yourself , with every little thing of your being , you drag that sorry ass of yours through thick and thin its going to be there for you , yip your sorry ass, you will use it a lot, especially to sit and reflect, and watch the ghosts, of yesteryear almost a yearning little devils sitting on your shoulders , saying see told you so , Almost gloating looking down at you from their vantage points , on your shoulders , some times these would be called burdens i will call them little devils not all bad one is red one is purest of white, one is so full of itself the other is all shy and very wary of every thing it does not know, maybe call it my instinct, Also though the other side plays a part for to keep me on my toes so to speak , what to call that consciousnesses, so my cosiness instinct keeps me right , remote viewing had a hand, Would you like a touch and maybe see your future too, You can , I just seem to be too aware some times it feels , yet i still make plenty mistakes , just not as many as i used to , when younger, Still as fast , I also try not to question the ifs, buts and the whys any more not to much most i have the answers , too, for my own personal account , what i perceive, will be completely different to what some one else perceives , people are allowed their point of view, Constructive criticism i like that , how to make your self better , that is what i take from the negatives and turn them to positives , the best i can do , That is all we can do all of us , for the better good of all for mankind our children's futures and so on , That to me is what is morally correct is being about , doing your best whilst all around seems to be falling down , helping to hold people`s walls is all easy to me, lending a hand is not a problem an act of kindness is so easy , to turn the other cheek is just as bad as the person committing , it is easy to think , & for some to judge , they make life funny , they who cast their stones only to find the boomerang right through their very own windows , It all comes in all shapes and guises , life`s plan for us all , What is going to be your next move , look to the light , look to every thing , as i say it comes in all guises, blows my mind some times , Not looking back , reflecting , Its hard not to , Looking to the future is easy also its what is happening here and now , time for reflection , mirroring every thing everyone ever said, now you know a lot of what you never even thought twice, ...Kmc love light & peace :)
Pineal Gland
VMAT2 is the DNA gene of our pineal gland on reality this gene releases the feel good factor that gives us the feeling of bliss on another level, connection the Pineal gland is the silver cord that is attached via the spirit body and that of the physical body, the spirit body has access to all possible reality`s which also connects us to oneness or as some like to call it the God Connection, We are all god or oneness _its inside each and every one of us experiencing itself and this 3rd reality-Matrix VMAT2 is the DNA of our Pineal Gland,On Reality this gene releases the feel good factor genes in our body`s that give us the feeling of bliss? On another level, Connection, between the spirit body +Silver cord on 1 level of reality this gene releases feel good chemicals in our body , Tonsils are apart of your immune system?,
There is so much we need to understand of the pineal Gland, i heard an old woman say if you were to have your tonsils out you would not be born with them?? On Reflection she is right , On Personal experience of a close family member getting tonsils out , they have never been well 100% well since & on researching , the Egyptians had tools 500 times more powerful than today's, What are they not telling us , what have they been playing with that they have no clue of , Ancient technologies, Crystal skulls, lights That flashed 716 pulsating , electric discs (similar to computer discs) Found in caves in the Bay an mountains Kara-Moving walls , These lights i talk of flashed for centenary upon century`s , we are definitely not alone never have been , seemingly we have lived on other planets , The Pyramids were built using levitation, we can not fathom how it was done but looking at the bible and the pictures every thing is there t be seen allegory hidden in allegory , there is 4 places the world over that holds so many secrets seemingly we the public are just not allowed to see or ever be privy too , secret space program-mes, Killings , (rituals) filling the aether , This i know Hitler was doing when he felt he had to do what atrocity`s, mass genocide he done looking to do his part for what he thought was mankind , down right stupid , cruel beyond words for i cannot see even if it were aliens fill the aether it sure wont stop any one getting through , this oneness it is in us all , seek and ye shall find i have been researching what feels like my hole life and i am still amazed at what i find , the secrets the down right lies, our so called governing officials call looking out for us mere mortals , no you stupid people you are trying to protect yourself s, well believe me you wont , it is in us ALL, doesn't matter what you have got, if your higher up the pecking, order so to speak , your still counted as one of us , fools did you rely think money and knowing these secrets would save you and yours , not, no, it sure wont we are all in this together I actually think i feel sorry for you , Vatican, The hidden knowledge, The Vatican, is seemingly the biggest suppressor of all, make`s me question is History about to repeat it self ,
The big bang theory, The jungles, that lie untouched hidden from the eye`s Holographic exposure Protection, we only need protect our self's with a prayer , Infinite wisdom is in the eye of the beholder like beauty , & coming across all i have, i can now say ya wee Beauty , Synchronicity , Is what to do next synchronize your watches and, you will see another of them hoaxes is sure to appear , question everything , The old men/woman that seem so wise ,yes they are, They have walked and seen loads change with their knack-ed eye`s , yet I Will bet even they are surprised at all that is on offer now the choices the routes to go and search out , the books too read , did you know most books have been burned throughout history and only so many kept to tell of some ones history Mother Nature she will have none of it when enough is enough she will let rip Vanishing all evidence of any thing , Julies ceaser he burnt 700 scrolls, China, Jew-de-ch- ish, scrolls burnt, Spanish, Mayan 4documents saved and in a museum 1583 keepers Inca recorded their knowledge, Greek & Rome just as guilty The 4 secret places i spoke of earlier, are Tibet, Morocco, Vatican & The catacombs, lost cities in new guinea seems all that part of the world there is lots to see and find , lot of our hidden knowledge , we will just never see , till it is up on us , for every one , India used to be called Rama?,, This is news to me but there is old maps (the Piri Reis map) Goes back 500 years it is genuine, Greenland shows it free of ice, Sahara desert, Canada all recorded on this map, Ancient technologies hidden from public view makes you wonder , why , what is it they are hiding makes me question all the more and i know i will find out because am good at my researching had plenty years of practice , There is a few words i have spelt wrrong due to not even the spell checker knows of the places , Look under the pyramids , look from space see the pictures the Incas drew to show the What ever way up high there is hundreds spanning 100,s of feet , 1 a big spider i cannot remember the name but it is very very rare , it breeds with its 3rd leg, The Egyptians followed this a lot also very clever spider , Some scientists are even saying Evolution is a hoax bones at museums are fake , The laws of THERMODYNAMICS they have only just started to find things over the last 200 years , what lies under the sea fascinates me, & Why did the Egyptian`s embalm all the organs especially the Pineal Gland , loads & Loads of questions and the answers are all there too , fascinating stuff, love light & peace :)
There is so much we need to understand of the pineal Gland, i heard an old woman say if you were to have your tonsils out you would not be born with them?? On Reflection she is right , On Personal experience of a close family member getting tonsils out , they have never been well 100% well since & on researching , the Egyptians had tools 500 times more powerful than today's, What are they not telling us , what have they been playing with that they have no clue of , Ancient technologies, Crystal skulls, lights That flashed 716 pulsating , electric discs (similar to computer discs) Found in caves in the Bay an mountains Kara-Moving walls , These lights i talk of flashed for centenary upon century`s , we are definitely not alone never have been , seemingly we have lived on other planets , The Pyramids were built using levitation, we can not fathom how it was done but looking at the bible and the pictures every thing is there t be seen allegory hidden in allegory , there is 4 places the world over that holds so many secrets seemingly we the public are just not allowed to see or ever be privy too , secret space program-mes, Killings , (rituals) filling the aether , This i know Hitler was doing when he felt he had to do what atrocity`s, mass genocide he done looking to do his part for what he thought was mankind , down right stupid , cruel beyond words for i cannot see even if it were aliens fill the aether it sure wont stop any one getting through , this oneness it is in us all , seek and ye shall find i have been researching what feels like my hole life and i am still amazed at what i find , the secrets the down right lies, our so called governing officials call looking out for us mere mortals , no you stupid people you are trying to protect yourself s, well believe me you wont , it is in us ALL, doesn't matter what you have got, if your higher up the pecking, order so to speak , your still counted as one of us , fools did you rely think money and knowing these secrets would save you and yours , not, no, it sure wont we are all in this together I actually think i feel sorry for you , Vatican, The hidden knowledge, The Vatican, is seemingly the biggest suppressor of all, make`s me question is History about to repeat it self ,
The big bang theory, The jungles, that lie untouched hidden from the eye`s Holographic exposure Protection, we only need protect our self's with a prayer , Infinite wisdom is in the eye of the beholder like beauty , & coming across all i have, i can now say ya wee Beauty , Synchronicity , Is what to do next synchronize your watches and, you will see another of them hoaxes is sure to appear , question everything , The old men/woman that seem so wise ,yes they are, They have walked and seen loads change with their knack-ed eye`s , yet I Will bet even they are surprised at all that is on offer now the choices the routes to go and search out , the books too read , did you know most books have been burned throughout history and only so many kept to tell of some ones history Mother Nature she will have none of it when enough is enough she will let rip Vanishing all evidence of any thing , Julies ceaser he burnt 700 scrolls, China, Jew-de-ch- ish, scrolls burnt, Spanish, Mayan 4documents saved and in a museum 1583 keepers Inca recorded their knowledge, Greek & Rome just as guilty The 4 secret places i spoke of earlier, are Tibet, Morocco, Vatican & The catacombs, lost cities in new guinea seems all that part of the world there is lots to see and find , lot of our hidden knowledge , we will just never see , till it is up on us , for every one , India used to be called Rama?,, This is news to me but there is old maps (the Piri Reis map) Goes back 500 years it is genuine, Greenland shows it free of ice, Sahara desert, Canada all recorded on this map, Ancient technologies hidden from public view makes you wonder , why , what is it they are hiding makes me question all the more and i know i will find out because am good at my researching had plenty years of practice , There is a few words i have spelt wrrong due to not even the spell checker knows of the places , Look under the pyramids , look from space see the pictures the Incas drew to show the What ever way up high there is hundreds spanning 100,s of feet , 1 a big spider i cannot remember the name but it is very very rare , it breeds with its 3rd leg, The Egyptians followed this a lot also very clever spider , Some scientists are even saying Evolution is a hoax bones at museums are fake , The laws of THERMODYNAMICS they have only just started to find things over the last 200 years , what lies under the sea fascinates me, & Why did the Egyptian`s embalm all the organs especially the Pineal Gland , loads & Loads of questions and the answers are all there too , fascinating stuff, love light & peace :)
Friday, 5 June 2015
Precoius
haven`t been on the pen/keys for what feels like an eternity , this writing on the computer just doesn`t seem the same to me , I still , just quite cannot trust that all my precious notes are not going to go missing , down some imaginary plug hole, like lots and lots of other things, mad what e try to stuff down our life`s , cram them so full , we forget to stop and breathe , or we have no choice every thing seems to go so fast, Time just seems to fly by , even stopping and meditating , the time just goes, The older you get the more you realize you have to do , and such little time to do it all in , I tried time management years ago , I never plan nothing now, I prefer to just go with the flow so to speak, The plans would always, end up in tatters, so would every one involved , were as if you just do, some thing out of the ordinary , could be some thing as simple as taking a walk a different, way from your normal route, i tend to march from A to B so to speak , My Thumbs pointing down as i was taught and it does work you do walk much faster, What you do not get is every thing all around you , your to busy getting from A to B you forget to look at every thing all around you, and in my case can miss so much , with the knack-ed eye ,
Now i have come to learn , some things i am not supposed to see there and then, if i am supposed to see it , it will make itself bright , My head is always so full of thoughts , I can be blinded with my own speed, I know i should slow down, I prefer life at this speed some times then others I want to pull the reins right on up , be great if life came with a remote control, Rewind to the fun parts, delete the negativity , no never you see that is what gets you all of it to the here and now, it is all how it is supposed to be , Every thing has a right time and a right place , even the downs they are to show you what it rely feels like when you are up, Depending who is lighting your life , My Lights are my children ,
& grandchildren , they light my way at every dark dingy bit, all the lessons learn`t all safely tucked up in my heart , and when some one asks to see, i will take your hand, and show you, what is in me.
For what , will i feel from you, When its your own blood, you know its unconditional , which is such a lift, that warm glow that certainty they are all of you and even more , That makes my heart glow with pride, Knowing i helped nurture what is deep inside , Solid Foundations for life`s highways and low ways , for every path they can think of , i will always be there to gently say there , there, there , every fall they have , I will cushion any blow, any which way i can that is the forever mother in me, Loving is so easy it comes so naturally to me , you see their little faces glowing and the smiles the sound of their laughter leaves the biggest of smiles on my face, Love to hear them laughing , love to see them dancing full of joy , not a care in the world , that is how childhood should be , let them be children as long as possible, In this day and age life is just so fast , poor children , they have so much to do , its good to just have a lazy day and sit watching films , especially if its raining out side, Listen to their wee thoughts , children can be so clever,
Especially when baby`s , people just do not give them the credit they are due, Remember that little bundle of joy has been here many times before, just like you , Baby`s are so precious, They count all your blessings they make every thing worth while , little angels sent from a far to give you that little /big bit of life for you to show the answers true , try to not mix them up they are rely resilient, The liter-lay bounce back, from all situations , they are leading lights examples , Of pure love ,
Now i have come to learn , some things i am not supposed to see there and then, if i am supposed to see it , it will make itself bright , My head is always so full of thoughts , I can be blinded with my own speed, I know i should slow down, I prefer life at this speed some times then others I want to pull the reins right on up , be great if life came with a remote control, Rewind to the fun parts, delete the negativity , no never you see that is what gets you all of it to the here and now, it is all how it is supposed to be , Every thing has a right time and a right place , even the downs they are to show you what it rely feels like when you are up, Depending who is lighting your life , My Lights are my children ,
& grandchildren , they light my way at every dark dingy bit, all the lessons learn`t all safely tucked up in my heart , and when some one asks to see, i will take your hand, and show you, what is in me.
For what , will i feel from you, When its your own blood, you know its unconditional , which is such a lift, that warm glow that certainty they are all of you and even more , That makes my heart glow with pride, Knowing i helped nurture what is deep inside , Solid Foundations for life`s highways and low ways , for every path they can think of , i will always be there to gently say there , there, there , every fall they have , I will cushion any blow, any which way i can that is the forever mother in me, Loving is so easy it comes so naturally to me , you see their little faces glowing and the smiles the sound of their laughter leaves the biggest of smiles on my face, Love to hear them laughing , love to see them dancing full of joy , not a care in the world , that is how childhood should be , let them be children as long as possible, In this day and age life is just so fast , poor children , they have so much to do , its good to just have a lazy day and sit watching films , especially if its raining out side, Listen to their wee thoughts , children can be so clever,
Especially when baby`s , people just do not give them the credit they are due, Remember that little bundle of joy has been here many times before, just like you , Baby`s are so precious, They count all your blessings they make every thing worth while , little angels sent from a far to give you that little /big bit of life for you to show the answers true , try to not mix them up they are rely resilient, The liter-lay bounce back, from all situations , they are leading lights examples , Of pure love ,
Wednesday, 3 June 2015
Listening to dark secrets
Listening to Dark secrets of the Vatican & Their Alien Agenda as ISIS heads for Babylon, 112 popes , a lot of common sense prophecy`s , are they all coming true its almost scarey , the knowledge people knew, way back it is so out of this world , why have we went back wards , how what when and why, what is going on in this world or out of this world , the prophecy of the pope 112 that is all the popes there is going to be , 112 is the emergency number in the UK and in the USA, it is 191, is that not a big date in history Benedict will be the last benedictine priest the glory of the olives ,Supernatural, Secrets of the Vatican hidden 900 years before we even have popes and the documents say it all ,"Martin" Surname , is a person who knew years ahead of his time he prophetic so much , he could not have been wrong or god how has this even been seen now we are getting to hear of all the outlandish things the far fetched it is all there for all to see just look at every thing analyze every thing you see from a bird to the clouds shape everything has a message if you can decipher then on you go , listen to yourself do not be shy if i had of had the confidence i would have shouted out loud , I was just me i thought just silly thoughts running around my head , They are far from silly i can hear all the radio program mes wow did i foretell all of that and so much more i have witnesses , It is all written down , in diary s and notes , all have answers for the here and the now , All i my hand writing , They all hold vital keys to succeeding in life's highways for us all, Deciphering is the hardest , hindsight , I just have to read my notes for to see all what is now all the here and the now .
every thing i have ever spoke of is coming or came and went, rely went all out threw me for six seven eight nine ten, Then i have to do and say it all again, am i missing something . I Know i am but i cannot see the wood for the tree`s any more for some reason my brain is blank yet racing with millions of what seem stupid little thoughts. I Know they are not they are life changing antidotes for all , yet i am too much full on , It is me , maybe maybe maybe , if buts , when how were, were do i go from here what is my poison , is that what is holding me back because i am to aware i am scared to tread , even dip my toe, Yes i am , i do not want hurt again , that i cannot allow, Ive had a life of mistrust , Why when all I do is pure yet others find me or think of me doing whatever and sure enough it is a wrong , why i never do , I have built myself a big big castle with the strongest of walls , the foundations are so solid , My Armory always in tact, Defense is all i have and the truth real cold hard facts, how am i to get a grip when all i feel is doom and gloom , yet i feel a tickling in my stomach i want to scratch it but i haven't a clue were to even start . Lead i must for i cannot follow , I need help to walk as-well , I am not super woman all the time , Far from it , Just a little girl inside screaming from inside , I might look strong and confident , i am far from it , sometimes I feel physically sick for all that has been endured , were to start , this life is far from over so i need my next chapter to be the best , The lights are dimming so to speak, I need all the light i can get for this one , It will seem like another book once all the lessons are revealed. That is all good . its myself so every thing is tried and tested by yours truly , myself. All systems go , I have sorted my demons , Time is too short to stay serious , so do not hang on to a grudge , or be some one else s judge , you just never know when the shoe is going to fit , sure as fate it will come full circle , just so you can feel , the humiliation of lies up on lies, Unless you here it from the horses mouth or see with your very own eyes and have full first hand knowledge account do not add what is not there or make it up to suit , It sure will come full circle , It is in the stars, for eternity ,if you are morally correct , in all that you do your heart remains true and does not hurt any thing then be all you can be , till then do never judge it rely is not nice . Lend a hand the truth uselessly hurts . Trying to ridicule some one never works it always back fires , onto you now u will see , that is why i am called a doer because i can do more than most folk , not blowing my own trumpet & then again i am , due to no one else is going to beat my drum, I have soul referee of my destiny , i am a mother first and foremost that it is inbuilt. Then a healer , Comforter, Human torch it feels some times , and i am glad to be me , if i cause waves that made you see then good on me, you and you ,.
Can feel some of what i have done realization, is what i have given you , you cannot see the good have done and know what done was meaning to bring you closer together and i have know have , Bring people together , you think what you want i know its only kindness in me. Do not ever take my kindness for me being stupid , i am far from it i am usually 1 step ahead and am hurt you even thought , like that i can read minds too . I do not share all my secrets or gifts people would think was totally nuts . thank fully i am far from it just very aware of every thing and every one , lovely people i have met some even funny some i have loved only to be let down with such a bang i have decided i do not want that kind of love i do not need it , i will wait on hat is to be no more searching for happiness let it find me , it is following me but i cannot connect with that special someone they have already been taken and i haven't got another thirty months, never mind thirty years , take me as i am full on or not at all, i will stay locked up in my castle till the time is right. I will write my adventures imagination its in me loads of it magic , I so want it back , for everyone humanity , it is coming, i am always the beginner secrets i know so many enlightenment is all and knowledge i seek to share before i was hungry the more i find out the more hungrier i become, I felt as if i was starved of knowledge, yet the whole of life was the knowledge the walk , is always the hard part that is also why i share to inform you were possible of any pit falls before you are any were near. The talk might be real enough , for some but truly the /this walk was willfully blind . Long time thirty years, A lot of Bridges i thought built , sad,
People do not rely know each other even your nearest and dearest always doubting you, what is that all about what signals do i omit to get this kind of feed back were do i go wrong , I question and questioned this till i was near blue in the face the tears i shed , The change in me of course i am not the same person i was i am completely different. always have been , always will be i am not into all the sneaky ness snide , down right nastiness no wonder i would have been left at home. i had no idea of what was truly in-store the day i came a knocking at your door, the lies down right untruths no wonder your head is a mess , people played games with you , me silly me i was being true , you were so blinded willful blindness i will call it once again Love does funny things to people , i never wanted you forever if i had of had an inkling i truly would not have come. You told me untruths right away, What i maybe needed to hear, all at the one time i rely was just reaching out for a friend i truly was a friend in need and would of become a friend for all your needs , you can not trust any one , your self never mind any one , you are not what i need i could not turn up with you at the pearly gates, My Husband i know would have a fit , so i was only rely borrowing you any way so you were right not to trust , i seen your strength intrust, That is not my idea of loyalty, you have no idea of loyalty except for a boys club, You have never grown up sill school games, that is the truth , you might think you are all at one, i can azure you , you are quite gone , smitten for life, with poison,s, every one has a poised , do not get me wrong , but yours should be labelled , it is that infectious , for when people think they know just that wee bit too much. Just a splash here and there to remind yourself that you do rely care, especially what people think that i found most amusing , How smug you think yourselves , when truly people are saying how sad.
I tried , not a jealous bone in my body , sharing is caring that is what life is about, what a pelava,
It was only for sharing what you had, nothing bad, nothing worth ever stealing, do you not find it sad , some thing was so good , now it lies tattered and torn, completely ripped shredded and worn, the whole lot was all made to make me out the badun, when , no you know the me, if your head wasn't so poi-send , one day you will see too all she wanted was to be loved no questions asked , she had her soul mate , she was loyal and most of all so true to you , I know my husband will be waiting so no one is communing with me to those pearly gates or once inside , ring the door bell asking for me ,I can not answer for i will be busy helping the others that need any helping , you had your share i did sprinkle what love i could there you even felt it , you brought me down , Hope it made you felt good , made me feel so bad, My body language had sunk in less than two months , i could not stay with you, you were too much forever pulling what i ever knew down, how could you , say all that you said and not expect to hear back , you were pulling the guy to shreds after his life spent fighting what you accused , dont ever i hope yous have all learn t vital lessons for life's paths , yes paths loads of paths and it was fun , hard scary tearful loving giving every thing i had to my next of kin, as he lay dieing i was with him near enough every minute so for to bring the poor dead guy down , look at how it back fired , It feels to me another big circle, In Constrictive criticism all round Vital lessons learn t from all that we do every thing look at it twice it could be a sign,
every thing i have ever spoke of is coming or came and went, rely went all out threw me for six seven eight nine ten, Then i have to do and say it all again, am i missing something . I Know i am but i cannot see the wood for the tree`s any more for some reason my brain is blank yet racing with millions of what seem stupid little thoughts. I Know they are not they are life changing antidotes for all , yet i am too much full on , It is me , maybe maybe maybe , if buts , when how were, were do i go from here what is my poison , is that what is holding me back because i am to aware i am scared to tread , even dip my toe, Yes i am , i do not want hurt again , that i cannot allow, Ive had a life of mistrust , Why when all I do is pure yet others find me or think of me doing whatever and sure enough it is a wrong , why i never do , I have built myself a big big castle with the strongest of walls , the foundations are so solid , My Armory always in tact, Defense is all i have and the truth real cold hard facts, how am i to get a grip when all i feel is doom and gloom , yet i feel a tickling in my stomach i want to scratch it but i haven't a clue were to even start . Lead i must for i cannot follow , I need help to walk as-well , I am not super woman all the time , Far from it , Just a little girl inside screaming from inside , I might look strong and confident , i am far from it , sometimes I feel physically sick for all that has been endured , were to start , this life is far from over so i need my next chapter to be the best , The lights are dimming so to speak, I need all the light i can get for this one , It will seem like another book once all the lessons are revealed. That is all good . its myself so every thing is tried and tested by yours truly , myself. All systems go , I have sorted my demons , Time is too short to stay serious , so do not hang on to a grudge , or be some one else s judge , you just never know when the shoe is going to fit , sure as fate it will come full circle , just so you can feel , the humiliation of lies up on lies, Unless you here it from the horses mouth or see with your very own eyes and have full first hand knowledge account do not add what is not there or make it up to suit , It sure will come full circle , It is in the stars, for eternity ,if you are morally correct , in all that you do your heart remains true and does not hurt any thing then be all you can be , till then do never judge it rely is not nice . Lend a hand the truth uselessly hurts . Trying to ridicule some one never works it always back fires , onto you now u will see , that is why i am called a doer because i can do more than most folk , not blowing my own trumpet & then again i am , due to no one else is going to beat my drum, I have soul referee of my destiny , i am a mother first and foremost that it is inbuilt. Then a healer , Comforter, Human torch it feels some times , and i am glad to be me , if i cause waves that made you see then good on me, you and you ,.
Can feel some of what i have done realization, is what i have given you , you cannot see the good have done and know what done was meaning to bring you closer together and i have know have , Bring people together , you think what you want i know its only kindness in me. Do not ever take my kindness for me being stupid , i am far from it i am usually 1 step ahead and am hurt you even thought , like that i can read minds too . I do not share all my secrets or gifts people would think was totally nuts . thank fully i am far from it just very aware of every thing and every one , lovely people i have met some even funny some i have loved only to be let down with such a bang i have decided i do not want that kind of love i do not need it , i will wait on hat is to be no more searching for happiness let it find me , it is following me but i cannot connect with that special someone they have already been taken and i haven't got another thirty months, never mind thirty years , take me as i am full on or not at all, i will stay locked up in my castle till the time is right. I will write my adventures imagination its in me loads of it magic , I so want it back , for everyone humanity , it is coming, i am always the beginner secrets i know so many enlightenment is all and knowledge i seek to share before i was hungry the more i find out the more hungrier i become, I felt as if i was starved of knowledge, yet the whole of life was the knowledge the walk , is always the hard part that is also why i share to inform you were possible of any pit falls before you are any were near. The talk might be real enough , for some but truly the /this walk was willfully blind . Long time thirty years, A lot of Bridges i thought built , sad,
People do not rely know each other even your nearest and dearest always doubting you, what is that all about what signals do i omit to get this kind of feed back were do i go wrong , I question and questioned this till i was near blue in the face the tears i shed , The change in me of course i am not the same person i was i am completely different. always have been , always will be i am not into all the sneaky ness snide , down right nastiness no wonder i would have been left at home. i had no idea of what was truly in-store the day i came a knocking at your door, the lies down right untruths no wonder your head is a mess , people played games with you , me silly me i was being true , you were so blinded willful blindness i will call it once again Love does funny things to people , i never wanted you forever if i had of had an inkling i truly would not have come. You told me untruths right away, What i maybe needed to hear, all at the one time i rely was just reaching out for a friend i truly was a friend in need and would of become a friend for all your needs , you can not trust any one , your self never mind any one , you are not what i need i could not turn up with you at the pearly gates, My Husband i know would have a fit , so i was only rely borrowing you any way so you were right not to trust , i seen your strength intrust, That is not my idea of loyalty, you have no idea of loyalty except for a boys club, You have never grown up sill school games, that is the truth , you might think you are all at one, i can azure you , you are quite gone , smitten for life, with poison,s, every one has a poised , do not get me wrong , but yours should be labelled , it is that infectious , for when people think they know just that wee bit too much. Just a splash here and there to remind yourself that you do rely care, especially what people think that i found most amusing , How smug you think yourselves , when truly people are saying how sad.
I tried , not a jealous bone in my body , sharing is caring that is what life is about, what a pelava,
It was only for sharing what you had, nothing bad, nothing worth ever stealing, do you not find it sad , some thing was so good , now it lies tattered and torn, completely ripped shredded and worn, the whole lot was all made to make me out the badun, when , no you know the me, if your head wasn't so poi-send , one day you will see too all she wanted was to be loved no questions asked , she had her soul mate , she was loyal and most of all so true to you , I know my husband will be waiting so no one is communing with me to those pearly gates or once inside , ring the door bell asking for me ,I can not answer for i will be busy helping the others that need any helping , you had your share i did sprinkle what love i could there you even felt it , you brought me down , Hope it made you felt good , made me feel so bad, My body language had sunk in less than two months , i could not stay with you, you were too much forever pulling what i ever knew down, how could you , say all that you said and not expect to hear back , you were pulling the guy to shreds after his life spent fighting what you accused , dont ever i hope yous have all learn t vital lessons for life's paths , yes paths loads of paths and it was fun , hard scary tearful loving giving every thing i had to my next of kin, as he lay dieing i was with him near enough every minute so for to bring the poor dead guy down , look at how it back fired , It feels to me another big circle, In Constrictive criticism all round Vital lessons learn t from all that we do every thing look at it twice it could be a sign,
When i was unaware i knew any thing
Life , can be so dull some times, not out side in your head, Knock knock , as if on wood , you go, touching your head for luck even , Are the bolts still in place are there any screws loose, haha, no . None at all , maybe just one , Its great talking from you head, it is so easy, no one to answer you back throw mud or sand in your eye`s or dirty your head with their thoughts , Their thoughts aren`t even worth hearing , Constrictive Criticism, Now that is allowed , Down right nastiness, or just being totally unkind is just not on , take someone for a fool , when all they are doing is being kind , you will wonder what has hit you , its called a karma Credit Card , and mine`s is so full up , I am allowed to use it, See i never look at the balance , why because i do not have to, i have full faith in myself, Even when i falter, I never used to be so sure now ever thing i do , My intuition has been spot on again , Why i some times ask what have i done, Nothing special , just being myself, See i look for nothing from no one , then I cannot get let down, so if any thing good happens what a bonus, Another feather in my cap , This hat o mines must look mad loads of different feathers from all walks of life, All led me to the here and the now, How i survived I often ask myself, & i never have far to find the answer lucky me , it comes down to remote viewing it is quite creepy at times, then others i can lead, the way be a light so to speak, Even Shout Follow me, When i seem to get in a Tizz, Lucky enough, when i think my handle is broke so to speak, I question every thing , being my own worst critic and pal , I have to be , Now for years i had two of me so to speak , two of every thing , so lucky was i seemed to have it all , a lot a smoke screen, for what truly what was. I could have went full on mental but some how through it all i was the best at keeping my head.I can even say out of all the Chaos has come a new Order, Had to be done , it has not been easy but its done , nothing is ever finished, there never seems to be a place to draw a line, Mentally in my head of course, It is all good how to manipulate my thoughts, was so easy before now i seem so stuck in this way , and i like it , I have found a new me a stronger older me, Like shedding a Skin, Like a snake, ill twist and turn and come out looking just great, You wont ever see what is buried deep, for it is sore, Left me in shock, till someone i thought , turned it all round , disgusting is now my thought. The Shame, how could you be like that , silly me , now i know i see it all.
Sad are my thoughts sorrow. You could not trust you never mind me you are so blinded , Your choice it is all yours, You thought that was cryptic now you wont hear or see any thing of me. All those ghost shadows , yip i was there , I could even hear , i wont share with you , due to your twisting. Look at it all now , Love you , don't make me laugh , I didn't want to hurt your feelings , Instead i watched and listened in horror at what i was hearing , Listened to it all, even wrote it down , whilst you hummed an hawed , I sat quiet , some times , It is how we perceive the situations, all of them so wrong on so many levels, You sat and mocked and degraded so much of all of every thing so twisted, I tried real hard to understand you. it is not to be, different parallels, I have been jumping for years, Jumped away past you. So Glad I did , I even look healthier not having to run myself into the ground i am far better than that. Are you so perfect, think you need a mirror. See another waste of humanity, common purpose to wreck all memory`s. it never worked , You are not in-tune you are to fill of BS.How blind could i be , No you see i was listening busy listening to my intuitive side and thanks once again to my intuition and instincts, I thought they were so far fetched , nope sad they are not i wish they were. Wow, could you rely hurt me , Now i know for sure you would have tried if i had been so dumb remember, so stupid. No one stop ahead remember it is how we perceive things. All you told me was so negative , I have found the Positives, Just with your actions , every step i take is all good ,Big leaps i can take and know, i will not falter , That is the Faith you have put into me, throughout my life , every thing is about my children, they are my lights , Silly me taking my eye of the ball so to speak ,
Now the concentration is back full on , Its so easy not to think of you and so sad,. You have no idea of what you could of had, Yet i feel you do , know you do. You are forever watching me , I can feel you, even playing with the television turning it off & on, That doesn`t scare me, it is the living that scare me. The real life horrors, no not panic attacks , people out to take your lot if the possibly can , emotional Vampires, feeding of peoples grief how sad. Twisted you haven`t seen nothing yet , some people are out for a common purpose, How cruel , They think Money is every thing , you have all truly wrong , materiel That is all that is , yip we need it to pay bills etc , It helps i believe make the world go round , so does love a common purpose of mines is too share, and all of me is all about love, thank fully again , In all my situations through out life that has what has been my common purpose to show how much people or every thing is loved. to make others feel better about themselves is that wrong , No I truly do not think so. I also believe in the better good, That is how i can see the positives , in all that i do , due to i am not in for the business , i am in for common purpose , Love light and so much peace, Shed the light wherever i go if possible, far from wrong , that is how my karma credit card is full. Lots of love and a smile , manners cost nothing , Common purpose is not to pull others apart, leaving them lying in pieces, I pick people up i am known for helping fixing others , and i am proud of that its took me a life time it feels , for you to try rubbish what i do and then try tell me about it , you make me laugh, sarcastically, and feeling very sorry for you. If that is what you truly think.
Keep lifted Keep blessed , and keep smiling instead of that frown pick it up and look and you might even see the sun one day. Till then best of luck, I learned so much so it truly was never time wasted.
I can not even think of the rhyme , a lesson or a / Lesson I thanked you many a time for. For helping
turn my frown up side down to the biggest cheesing Grin.. When doubt is thrown in to the situation.
All manner of things rear their ugly little heads, The green eyed monster being the biggest 1 of the deadly sins , as i have said many a time question every thing well before opening your mouth and letting your stomach rumble so to speak or spew , The Poison , Always back fires especially if you are talking pure and utter rubbish and only bad of someone you thought you knew, no you sure never knew me , your were far to corrupt and forever set in your ways , now though i can reflect and feel pity and no wonder your head is how it is, i wouldn't want to mix either, Love light & Peace
Sad are my thoughts sorrow. You could not trust you never mind me you are so blinded , Your choice it is all yours, You thought that was cryptic now you wont hear or see any thing of me. All those ghost shadows , yip i was there , I could even hear , i wont share with you , due to your twisting. Look at it all now , Love you , don't make me laugh , I didn't want to hurt your feelings , Instead i watched and listened in horror at what i was hearing , Listened to it all, even wrote it down , whilst you hummed an hawed , I sat quiet , some times , It is how we perceive the situations, all of them so wrong on so many levels, You sat and mocked and degraded so much of all of every thing so twisted, I tried real hard to understand you. it is not to be, different parallels, I have been jumping for years, Jumped away past you. So Glad I did , I even look healthier not having to run myself into the ground i am far better than that. Are you so perfect, think you need a mirror. See another waste of humanity, common purpose to wreck all memory`s. it never worked , You are not in-tune you are to fill of BS.How blind could i be , No you see i was listening busy listening to my intuitive side and thanks once again to my intuition and instincts, I thought they were so far fetched , nope sad they are not i wish they were. Wow, could you rely hurt me , Now i know for sure you would have tried if i had been so dumb remember, so stupid. No one stop ahead remember it is how we perceive things. All you told me was so negative , I have found the Positives, Just with your actions , every step i take is all good ,Big leaps i can take and know, i will not falter , That is the Faith you have put into me, throughout my life , every thing is about my children, they are my lights , Silly me taking my eye of the ball so to speak ,
Now the concentration is back full on , Its so easy not to think of you and so sad,. You have no idea of what you could of had, Yet i feel you do , know you do. You are forever watching me , I can feel you, even playing with the television turning it off & on, That doesn`t scare me, it is the living that scare me. The real life horrors, no not panic attacks , people out to take your lot if the possibly can , emotional Vampires, feeding of peoples grief how sad. Twisted you haven`t seen nothing yet , some people are out for a common purpose, How cruel , They think Money is every thing , you have all truly wrong , materiel That is all that is , yip we need it to pay bills etc , It helps i believe make the world go round , so does love a common purpose of mines is too share, and all of me is all about love, thank fully again , In all my situations through out life that has what has been my common purpose to show how much people or every thing is loved. to make others feel better about themselves is that wrong , No I truly do not think so. I also believe in the better good, That is how i can see the positives , in all that i do , due to i am not in for the business , i am in for common purpose , Love light and so much peace, Shed the light wherever i go if possible, far from wrong , that is how my karma credit card is full. Lots of love and a smile , manners cost nothing , Common purpose is not to pull others apart, leaving them lying in pieces, I pick people up i am known for helping fixing others , and i am proud of that its took me a life time it feels , for you to try rubbish what i do and then try tell me about it , you make me laugh, sarcastically, and feeling very sorry for you. If that is what you truly think.
Keep lifted Keep blessed , and keep smiling instead of that frown pick it up and look and you might even see the sun one day. Till then best of luck, I learned so much so it truly was never time wasted.
I can not even think of the rhyme , a lesson or a / Lesson I thanked you many a time for. For helping
turn my frown up side down to the biggest cheesing Grin.. When doubt is thrown in to the situation.
All manner of things rear their ugly little heads, The green eyed monster being the biggest 1 of the deadly sins , as i have said many a time question every thing well before opening your mouth and letting your stomach rumble so to speak or spew , The Poison , Always back fires especially if you are talking pure and utter rubbish and only bad of someone you thought you knew, no you sure never knew me , your were far to corrupt and forever set in your ways , now though i can reflect and feel pity and no wonder your head is how it is, i wouldn't want to mix either, Love light & Peace
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