Chemtrails Are They messing With Our brain

O Look what a lovely cloud, look at it, rely look , that is not right, far from correct, every thing is for looking with the untrained eye, hard it will seem but once you look relay look and look around you look to the sick, weird , The people so called out of control, The Crazy`s they call them, Listen to every word, they have sanity in what the officials are declaring them insane , far from it, if you take your time, and just listen, some will seem, so far fetched, and some will be, you have to decipher, it is quite easy , if you can read between the lines, If you , can listen and look beyond the drugs, listen to what they are mumbling , Psychiatry, Is Supposed to be one of the biggest cons of the 21st Century,
And i truly ask myself, Are they , even after all their training, all in Mind Control, Frying peoples brains all in the name of science, O what a crime, look listen and see , The Unseen, look to every thing , listen to the conspiracies, there is definitely some thing too them, I have looked and researched so much , peoples reactions, look into their eyes , you can tell if they are acting, look to the body language,
All my life something made me twist and shout , we have never been in control, I was even perceiving is it relay just me , thank fully no the rest of the planet can nearly hear and see, What i have been on about for the last 30 odd years, wow all i have foretold, all the research for all to come true , yous`e are in Control, You tried and very near shut me right up , now i know i am to tell all .. I wont start right away , for people know of what I have already said, Mind Control , Your Television is one, your phone is another , even your house phone, there is no secrets left near enough, the World knows what is going on, We are told your opening the abyss. Is that why i am meeting a blank/black wall.
Looking for the unseen and quietly getting by , i thought ,.. No its never that easy , Eyes in the sky and the house now,.. No were to be a sanctuary. Its all good , I feel this too, Something inside of me just wants to dance. I Will blow your mind Control , You controlled just a bit too much now the higher beings come into play,. Science , every thing is going to have to come into play. Everyone , jumping through hoops, For the little pittance they call help , Even screaming it comes out of their pocket, We the Joe Public keep so much lined. it is totally out of this world, Think I could be wrong, no Its took me life long to be able to be as bold. So yes even the air the we Breathe is Poison. Chem-trails are leaving behind such a picture, not all roses in the garden, far from it what a picture, it is all full of Chemicals,. Alchemy is a life long search now the pictures are in the sky for all to see, we never ever had clouds like we have now , flashes of lightning , forks even hitting Saint Peters the day the new pope was elected that is a sign, What have they done our so called Officials, its almost like an outbreak of the plague, its not being hidden it is there for to see. The lovely Chem-trails......
leaving us all ill , Pulmonary disease`s, Cancers all too Common, Compared, to way back , you only heard of maybe someone from afar , now its your family, All have to take some thing from the doctor, Pharmaceuticals are making a killing literally.       

lessons

Well we learn lessons every day , signs from every thing , we stupid signs , That just press that Button the last 1 , that sends you recalling, with rage!!!!Anger at how you made me feel , If yous`e truly knew how yous`e made me feel believe me , yous`e could not look any 1 in the eye`s again.
You asked once or twice probably thrice , Probably even more , you asked so much , got so much wrong, How could you not believe, In Me nope, You couldn`t , I am sorry but now , i will cannot,
Come back , There truly is nothing worse than an old fool .
Did you think i would not know of your lies , your plying for sympathy , O I gave , Did i give ,
i did not look  for any return, I learn`t you did, You had the odds You thought , stacked so high,
Yes they were stacked hi but not how you think, your thinking ??, It is so wrong , Your mouth,
leaves a horrible taste in mines , the verbal Diarrhea, The Extracting of Urine is Over . I have been lead , like a loyal lamb to the slaughter, It is good though ,, Hurts so good to know, All that you , think,
You so know!! Is O So Wrong, Especially of me, I have no time left for games , I told you, Warned
You even, You chose to keep kicking , Why , why do you feel so angry that you have to hurt me!!
Play God with My Emotions with My LIFE, With everything in my life you have a comment,.
O so so sad , you throw the biggest of stones from your own back yard !!! No wonder they are so big the Skeletons in Your Cupboard , I never relay asked , but the story`s , i have been told , I should never have come back, Phone , that is as far as it should have went , you honestly do not see,.
So caught up in Your own Selfish Life , not a thought for others unless its to put the boot in.
O so sad , This is a vicious cycle that i am totally removing myself from, I am and Now i have ,
Higher beings are at work , you stick to your questioning , Me i want answers, So I cannot stick to,
The 1 thing , when so many other causes are needing addressed , and if you address, some of the others the rest will have a domino effect , & All will work out , that is??, if there, is not a war first,.
Wars are erupting all aver the world , The Officials around the war are starting , or have started their war on Us the Public the Ordinary Joe . We have been fighting a war for years without bullets,
We have been Surviving their System , Surviving their sacrifices, some are lucky to Escape,
Once they have you in their Evil Clasp it is hard to break free, If this is all you know, Where do you go,
You relay do not know, till someone , shines some light on this your darkest of hours, it could be anyone, From Any were , It could also be Anything , an animal , some light comes in all forms an guises & Signs , . You learn from life to spot these things , they are important , if you miss them , you miss so much , You might even , stop the flow of your being , I know from my experiences that i missed a lot, Due to letting Myself be led. I thought i had no light , I thought so little of myself , I could have crawled under a snake . I had to Stand Tall or i would have sunk , that is for sure,
And weee canny be having that , O No , For I need to be bright and Bushy tailed for this fight.
That comes next , with now all the hindsight , my Knowledge is extensive, i am Proud to say ,
I`m far from knowing everything or ever it all , I wish i did know it all , Believe me!!, I would help us all. If i could do it all in one swoop believe , I would try if I even knew how , that is Why I give
everything , my all, too my own cost, my heart gets Hurt a lot , The tears are As if easier to flow now, I could not do this before , I could not cry for Love Nor Money But Now, I just need to think of a time with you, you or you. & they come a flowing at How stupid I have Been , O the shame of it all.
No ITS NOT SHAME !!!!!!!!! Far from it , Its all MY GAIN, You would never understand so i would never ever even try to explain it to you, As a matter i will see you on the other side. Were I will have the right Questions to ask this Time. o yes I definitely will have the right questions , are you going to be brave enough to give me the truthful answers no more lies, From your head to your dirty mouth.
I feel you need a bar of Soap to clean that foulness, Out, Of your Life all together , it Doesn`t suit ,
You and never did , just like me I dont suit you , Unless it suits you , then all is OK.
No , am sorry that is not how it works , you have to give a little back , not sit back, and wait,
and then mock , she phoned again hahah, Ye am going , am going to see what i can get, You done relay well. You done so well , I gave you lots for near nothing in return, I did not want or come looking for any thing at all, Why did i find all that i found, I believe nothing happens for nothing , there is no coincidences in life. Every thing has a reason , a lesson . That My Dear Friend Is Life.
Its time to part ways , I am not for just to suit, No I have a purpose, even am not clear on yet,
I Just know i am not on this earth for nothing, and all that i have lived and been through , has not all been for nothing. I am definitely not having you, rubbish and dissect, Stuff you have no knowledge of at all, You stick to what  you know, I will stick to what i know, Thanks once again , For enlightening me , Of the things you did , I already knew a lot of what you tried to show me, You would not look at what i tried to show you, You had it in your head , I am Just stupid , no sorry I am far from It as you
know now , You had more than your fair share of me, I gave you more than enough.
I even put you first, No wonder everyone close to me were acting the way they were, People told
me , what are you doing with him, I thought you were O so different, O what a fool i was , yip that book Men r definitely from Mars , cause they are definitely not of this plane, This Earth , this time,
or is it just me , because i am a woman , i feel this way , no its not am afraid to say , its from my experiences, You try to control the woman its not Cave man times, Get a grip i am also not of,
teenage years , My brain might act it sometimes , but that is when all around me seems so silly,
and it was , so i will act the clown , for to even change the subject, maybe I am , maybe its a me bad , but that is how i have got to this age , is being able to clear , cobwebs, of self doubt, Learning to
Shine wasn`t relay that hard , its the ones round about you, they want to pull you back down.
Sorry i have been there wore that T shirt 1 too many times , i threw that T shirt away , I was sick to the back Teeth of People playing GOD, With my LIFE. I tried to break free, It wasn`t to be,
for i needn`t of feared , I only had to decipher my dreams, My path was made clearer for me,
At first i thought, the waters too muddy , I felt as if i had concrete boots on too, I pulled from every corner, every nerve in my Body UP UP & FIGHT. I stumbled and felt blindly for ways to go,
some light came in all different forms and guises, All different. Every day though i grew stronger, and within my self a feeling of Inner peace & Contentment , yes its cost me dearly to be able to write these words, that is LIFE. I Only Share, so if you ever, come across, any thing like ,my Bridges, at least you know, someone, else has been, were you "feel," you are at right now in Life.
Yes life is for the living but never disrespect the dead , That is just down right Crass and disgusting.
Not to worry though , its a place or a thing we are all going to do , So do, or will, meet! on the other side.
Or did you just say that so i would go back, I would have went back too, Like the fool that I have been. No More taking me for a fool , You made that mistake and you know or knew it for you even,
write , you should of listened and believed in me more. maybe you were my Guide , My light , Only,
Supposedly for a little while. You would not let me go though , ever , You threatened when i was young, and in my youngsters i was scared , shitless to tell you the truth.Now i am older and much wiser to the ways of the world , I need not of feared you were only a control freak, A manipulating,
Bullies. As soon as i stood tall , boy did you fall , You cannot treat people how you did with me,
You had nearly 30 years of me, &  What did you do , you never believed in me, You always thought
wrongly , of me, I see why now, but i am not, just any one ,else,  I am ME, Genuine , silly happy loyal ,
We had a lot of fun before the rot set in , doesn`t everyone, Its called the honey moon Period ,
Even though we were soul mates , and sorry will always be. I have questions for you , when i see you , In my Dreams , You came a few times to help I know i seen the messages and i seen the signs.
Thank you , i know you will forever be at my side, As i was yours in Life , every single step ,
I was always by your side , You taught me plenty , As now i know, I taught You, Life , Life Life.
A round and around it goes , some times slowly some times too fast, Watch though for everything , for sure there is a lesson to learn from something , Everything round about you , everything is for looking, Not Judging , yes say your opinion, If its only poison from your mouth just dont talk,
Yes be a devils advocate,! better? the 2, not drown? them both, So there is nothing left!!. You tried to numb and dumb me , And you very nearly succeeded, Till it was decided , I have been here before , ha , get myself away , so i did ,and higher beings would not let it be , you cannot treat another how you went about treating me. Out of my murky waters i have risen , and its not been easy, far from it,
everything seems to have been sent to knock me full out not just for 6, Full out ,. Hmm Why would you want to do that to me, Love is that what it was ?? No that definitely wasn`t Love, Even the words
you spoke , they even spewed out of your mouth with such venom , that it knocked me full back,
Still i came back for more , so i am a gluten for punishment, is this something deep inside of me,
that allows myself to be led and treated and abused the way i was , No, I must just be a right lucky bastard lol :). yes i will stick with that , my cups always half full now, i would never want it over flowing cause that would be a waste the stuff that went over the top , i will say it went were it was to go , right Over my head .
For now i do know i am a right lucky  bastard & A Legal one at that lol!!! That is a joke :))
Its through all the lessons that life has taught me , my cup does over flow and i give what is over flowing to everyone, especially if they need some light. How dare you decide my path, how dare you .
its ok though i forgive you, & Even go as far to Thank you, so very very much .         

Its not Aliens, its just going to feel Alien

It is not our last breath , What would you , scream , Would we have time , what would we do , we would manage that is what , Like all things all wars we will get through, it is the Time,
The lasting effects, The birth defects, from all the poison gases, They have already been testing , under water or over the poor side of the street, They don`t hurt their own only, or
maybe they do? , us we are nothing but fodder , We have to do the marching the showing of hands the Pride the Faith . The hope , The hurt we hide , for deep down we know we have to do as told,
we have been conditioned for years, Our tear stained faces, Forever destined , Commemorated,
In A Pic or a Book, We the Joe Public are sick to the back teeth of the lies and the mistrust ,
You feed us  , subliminal, Not caring or giving a thought to forty , fifty years down the line,
The Children of the Future, O you Fools what are you doing , What ever yous`e do , do not press that so called big red button, You have poisoned us already , so why all the heavy artillery,
Times are a changing, faster than we thought , or time is getting faster, T, Making decisions , throwing away any chance of our own future ,That there is no doubt,Without , thought , The data looks,
Infinite, it is there to do damage that is for sure, things have been blacked out for reasons not yet quite clear, Only It will control the Masses, We others had been warned , fight the system and,
we dared, Whilst we were busy watching their scummy secrets, they were under the cover or guise,
Using this to will fully blind us Who are the fools, No One you did not , Hide any thing we knew you were lying in wait till this day you could no longer wait, Now the heavy weapons are in , Blacked
out windows, People have seen and filmed what you are really up-to, We have known all along , it is just the day we are waiting on. If you are not aware then you should be, this mad world is about to
get real crazy, WW3, seems imminent, Or is it straight out murder of the billion yous`e talk off.
No It couldn't be that easy , you like your stupid games, Yous`e like a game or 2, especially,
With the people . Let them think , Give them control, Delegated Authority , You can play the bosses,
of our poor , Unknown unsure self's , yous`e created a monster,. Now it will reap or reak,
what have yous`e sown from your own lions your own demons , your sacrifices , have they relay been that  vain , they thought that would stop what they have started with a ritual or three thousand already gone, so how many more, is this another ethnic cleansing for this new world order.
What will yous`e do when the realization relay hits home , there is nothing left yous`e have killed the earth, monotony, the people but you have ruined everything with your stupid games and plans.
Yous`e will of course have a plan for all of this we will not be privy to , We will have to suffer and be slaughtered, all in the name of what do yous`e call this one, The be all and end all, I had to ask.
That is me , see what i feel if yous`e had real nerve , instead of using the public in your silly war games, Why not use each other, Stop with the poor me, look at what yous`e are causing, The world,
Never mind poor us, we will, what is left of us get through, The human race is amazing and will go on a lot longer than any of us all , this war and fighting or even just the killing you, plan to do,
It is a Sin , yous`e relay don`t care, Humanity will make it through this, We always do , & what doesn`t kill us makes us stronger, we cannot forget this, that was a hint of sarcasm,
My Mouth has plenty words for this, truly is not fair , Yous`e are all getting ready for an all out war
and hardly or a lot of people are not aware, They will be soon , enlightened, there is plenty off,
movement across , the waters, to prove there is also film, It is on the footage for all to see ,
it truly is happening and it sure is not slowly, Times are a changing so fast, My head is spinning,
with it all , seems wars been erupting every were little bits here and there and then blitzed.
Humanity , mankind , as usual , we will endure we might not all make it but we will do our,
self`s proud. That is what we do , always managed to do , even with your gases, we still,
managed , Everything fundamentally  is right view, Understanding, division, conduct, embracing,
total, complete,excessive , right in your grasps, the points and the reasons, clear to yous`e,
Unstoppable, You may think, you are , just like water no were to run, the dam will burst,
The water excessive, it will over flow , its nature , Mother nature, she will win, . Nature ,
reparable , it will take back what has been taken ,, and bury you all deep, in the watery grave , that is now history, Yous`e made don`t look at the public, yes we have the tools to fix what you have done or going to do, a thought did you give to that, Time machines, quantum physics, all these to make what ,
Life as we know it totally disappear, , Now we have new paths , we do not have to take up arms,
its a human right , I hear yous`e laugh, yes that is what we thought , silly us, I have that last sentence round the wrong way it is yous`e  thought we were the silly ones, No it is not , us it is yous`e.
So called Governing Bodies , That Rule this world, Yous`e try to hard, yous`e play to hard ,
 it wont work, When Death happens , its nature, its supposed to be so bad but it is not, it is time of,
Sadness , bitter twisted ends, That are not wanted or relay appreciated in any way, It is the Change.
That is coming that seems so bad, all we can do is face  it as best we can , better a sore face than
a red face. Its not even that , it is all a stupid game to yous`e up so high, in your monetary,
 material world,s  counting your pounds and even the penny's, well they wont count,
 Yous`e cannot enjoy the wealth, no one to share it , no one to see how you have done,
Now wouldn`t that be fun, The whole lot to yourself s the whole rotten world. the one yous`e ,
are about to create. Suck the life out of everything. In wards and outwards the blasts not many will make it if any at all, Seemingly cockroaches can live , throughout , don`t yous`e see that as ironic,
Cockroaches, Just lie yous`e all, one  big happy family , Yous`e will make, cockroach to cockroach,
Easily compared , Sad as it is , that is what you have done to this Planet covered it i littered it everywhere. Even tried to cover up what you were playing at with  all your ammunition,
Now people know , and have known, for how long?,This story will go on and on, it might take,, Forever to discover your O so Devoius Plan , is it ?.. No I feel every thing is going to work out just RIGHT<,, just How is planed way up high in the Stars...

morals

Global Zionism Argentina, It is not the invisible hand that counts its the Muscular arm that

wields it & more so the powerful Brain that directs its both arm & hand that rely count-Adrien

Salbuchi, researcher Writer Consultant Buenes Aires Argentina
he declares a man Richard Williamson, he was branded imminently, he had questions ??Why was

there no serious historical investigation?
How powerful is Zionism the Vatican they even tremble with holy fear? Why, the last three popes

went to visit a house in turkey, Called Mary`s house, The place Mary Magdalene is supposed to

have died ? Why do they visit? question especially the last , this is very significant, The picture

in side tells a huge story , I am going to research is this our sanctuary , must mean something

for three popes to visit , and only of late ,
22/05/2015 Another week of jade helm getting closer this all started back, in-front of our eyes

look for the unseen president Obama declared, in 2012 ,
we have been blinded , We=Public!!
We in for a bumpy ride the road for us was never promised to be straight or smooth, .. The

opening of the abyss, is getting closer, where two Angels are cumming as prophesier by the great

, philosophizers of history ancient times, even the bible the Pictures the Words, Psalms the

numbers they all point to a higher being even rockets & Space ships.. No I do not think it is an

Alien, as such it is just going to to feel we are alienated and now is the time for justice it

should be absolute how do the officials off our times get away with such atrocities, they did

not rely, their karmanic Credit Card would hold Vital Clues as to their knowledge even Mystic is

only lack of knowledge open your eyes look for the unseen,. From visions it is in my head real

news every thing i have ever seen and foretold, my dreams have all come true, My dreams have been

heavy of late, confusing blinding , scared, even not wanting to sleep done me of no good, as i

tossed and turned i tried to reach out to a friend, sheep in wolf's clothing so fast to say the

totally wrong thing, you read me so so wrong, it saddens me the way you think, i can dwell no

longer i have rely wasted enough of my time you took my kindness for all that you could it feels

you were digging, given every opportunity were i have to say enough is enough, O how sad your

twisted thoughts and do not even try to say that came from me, O so wrong on so many levels, you

read me so wrong I have spent my life doing what is morally correct, whilst you my dear friend

think you are so right, and morally correct when rely you sound demented. trust is a two way

thing, you can not trust another due to you cannot trust yourselves, I Must also add, you never

get over losing a loved one you learn to accept and live with it all takes time, not some one

reminding you of what was at every given opportunity, they are forever locked up in the heart

engraved for the rest of your life time. The good times they make me smile on reflection, it

sure was not all bad, Did he Love me, he sure did that much the vows are for eternity, that is

also why justice should be absolute, My Husband was some man , life and soul of any party, he

was no shrinking violet and all that he was just blew my mind, Till I realized i had heard the

storys a one too many times, then every thing just seem to go from bad to worse, he fought like

a man a lion enraged deep within i could see the little boy screaming why me , help me. help you

i would walk on hot coals for you. For all that had been and gone you truly did love us, You

were an angel a very special shining light for so many, no wonder we stuck like glue, we were

supposed to be.. The day your light faded the light went out a piece of me went out Trying to be

real in the real world and find the real me has been quite a feet in itself, I Knew how to be

the caring doting wife , how to be a great mother i know so much yet so little as long as it is

morally correct who is any one to judge any one but you will find the sad the angry in us always

do see the negatives whilst you are trying to turn them positive, Your horror as you perceive

it has been is completely different from another`s view,

When your brain can sink that deep I Rely mirror what is being said see i never cheat especially on

myself I Stay morally correct not for crossing any lines, unless in defense for a poisonous lies

i will rear and roar like the monster you think. I try to keep buried deep inside some how you

like pressing these buttons well now you have pressed my last button I am truly done I have been

so kind " You were suffering " ? No one else!! JUST YOU!! you make me smile sarcastically to

myself, Look in the mirror or think before you spout/spit your sewer like mind and do not polish

your neck that is not brass it is pure filth try some soap wash away what you have tried to do o

yes justice is absolute, the sass pit you called your mind is damaged i think beyond repair

Suspended Eternity

Over these last two hundred years we have come on leaps and bounds you would Think, Yet we seem to be going backwards to things said way way back things that are now so true , even so many ,  some one he prophesier that we would have a pope nine hundred years before we even had thought of one, now his prophecy are saying this is the last pope?,, there is also three of the popes throughout who have went to one house it is in turkey i do not know exactly were it is about , all i know and feel is there is a lot of significance to this place, especially if the last pope has had to visit, also this pope benedictine , this name also means , loads of other things that is now all in writings in the bible all foretold and panned out, the numbers all add up to chapters in the bible to dates in our history, how can this be, even the planets line up if super embossed over the lady with the Chackar, so many things now adding upp , the pictures are of some kind of spaceship, even back when they thought`, on paper of the sighting , named Fatima, Portugal -1917, people`s written accounts they seen what looked like a grey disc in the sky, this Apparition some so thought they seen , every body sees with their own eyes but sees things so differently, the did not know of flying saucers way back then not even the vocabulary to say such a thing so a grey disc, to me sounds like a space ship, Or Flying saucer, even at this place i talk of in Turkey Marys House, the House that Mary seemingly legend has it she died in this house, you can see, looking at pictures , the underground to it all it is vast, just like loads of other places of worship in this world , seemingly a lot were for husbands to go underneath to a brothel, I would have went mad at mines , bringing home dirty diseases, i suppose it was the norm then , it has took people years to learn trust and because of the way we are programmed we can kill the trust in seconds , especially if you find it hard to trust due to all the lies, you have been spoon fed, Some of the mouth fulls willingly taking, gulping them down so to speak, The Jesuits want control and by the looks of things they have been working away collecting momentum as they have went,.. Malaya martin... He worked for three popes speaks seventeen languages he even help translate the dead sea scrolls, His books are of Fact/fiction,?Faction he called them Pope Francis is a very clever man if all the number add up and he has went to visit Marys hose then all is playing their highest of cards , tells me their out to impress, it is all good they can worship with what they have that is not what is being sought, i feel rely strongly here whatever it is we will survive, stronger & More in control, my whole life i have heard and seen the unseen this what Cern is what ever it is is definitely coming . I do not know except i feel as if i have landed when talking of this landed on my feet and running , times are just beginning, times are a new, enjoy all that you do, it rely is farfetched rely wild mind blown stuff, It is great so exciting i can jump into my monkey ten year old self and enjoy being a child hopping about in my very own special space ship o what a joy , what fun , it beats my tired old broom stick , They do not make things how they used to nothing lasts if it did it would be of no good, they like durability, it is economically sound makes the world go round so they think if only the knew what truly was it is love or better morals, we do not stand and fight, we want peace we do not want to have to fight for what is rightfully ours , Life without wars we have our own personal wars that should count, make us all inequal enough or feel totaly left out, some do , some can make and talk to their shadow , Writing is what keeps me on top one step ahead, i try to do that too, some times we all fall into a pit , sometimes you need to go there to see, just what every thing looks like from a way down there , Sometimes you need to stay down for a while some thing is coming to lift you up , it always does, because you are true to yourself, and no need for lies, you ill find that special some one who rely understands and wants you to have a smile not a frown , they know how to trust and embrace, you will find this as soon as you stop looking , there is plenty fish in the sea so to speak , i just got so stuck i forgot that part of me, i chose some one or did fate choose me to walk that way, it was not fun, i did learn so it was not time wasted , even broke my heart to think, so i just  did not , that was my mistake, Maybe it was not me at all, it was just not to be if it were it would have felt and kept feeling so right instead , sad rely loss again ,
 Leonardo Davinci enigma, This guy was / had an amazing insight an incredible mind , people mocked and scorned his insanity i can feel his horror at what he foretold he seen so much , people think they are crazy i can assure you are not, if you are then i am crazier ,is it i have just not been caught for my insanity , no because i do not need caught i speak nothing but truth, now i can be as bold to say what comes to me i know , why do i know i ask myself the same question every day why o why me , strange is my life to some to some one who knows me i am rely good at what i do , the person who truly knows me is my maker, and the people now gone who left their self's scorched in my heart .
 Many can say they have been my  friend , and i am so proud of that yes i am hard work but i know and so do you i am so worth it passionate too a fault , maybe , maybe not, I Love what i do i am closer than any police man better than any social worker i can say, and do things they can not i can get right into it they can not, Why because i speak common sense not spurting hate as if from a fountain i love to make people radiate, that is what i do best , if only you could see my light but you are choosing to willfully blind and numb, go getter, i am I can take you so far fill you with the ammunition it is up to you to actually stand up, sorry i can only help so far, i get trampled on did you not see, or feel what i seen and what i felt was sad without a doubt, ruined my good name , My rose tinted specs came off fell to the floor in a jaw dropping moment all the revelation , of the total rubbish you had the cheek to spurt and then expect me to , what wear it ,... no not me , constructive criticism is healthy but down right being nasty that is not were it is at , saddened beyond words . i see now also a comment made someone was jealous. you know of what i talk, i know you are reading this , for all the men that love me none of you truly know me before you go sending me your love remember i was married thirty years , it goes on for eternity, i am truly cursed, the husband of mines he would never have let me go in life ,he did one time, he was that mad , he married me with in such a short space of time to make sure i never wondered , not that i would have ever dared, he was too controlling i could not move for it all. Even take the dog out i was upto some thing i even had to watch my body language , some one said do
you think you are cursed i had never gave it a thought, but on hindsight yes i am , He is not going to let go in death , he just is not letting go causing so much to happen i feel so stuck but thanks to who is now a good friend he gave me the ways and the means to cut severe the ties that bound us , so yes now i am free to carry on, how i should, have been, in stead o, feeling suspended, in the air for eternity. Love light & peace

numb/dumb 21/05/2015

You feel numb/dumb, pressure to be all you can be, stepping stones throughout life are the courageous steps we all have to take one at a time,
You drift aimlessly you need some thing concrete to hold on can seem as if you have been searching your whole life, it can feel daunting , over comb, numbed/racing thoughts. It is not you , you are becoming This Oneness with every one and every thing you do all is for learning , knowledge is key , learn to unite, reach out and take control. Everyone needs a hand sometime`s never be to proud Apologize, You always have time and if it is not the right time,. The right things do not happen, Morally correct for our times and situations,
Morals and etiquette, family first, and foremost,
if everything in your life does not seem on an even level,-Look at it analyze everything, Do not beat yourself up of what has been and gone, if you feel happy with all you have done and all was morally correct, As long as you are true and pure of heart and can only do your best to your knowledge , Is that not what we all strive to do and be, As an Animal Human Plant everything is/has room to connect.
Clean sweep out the brain and if you must try and try again, Practice makes perfect, You always have the time to make things right every thing has a time and a place Opportunity, in all that we do, to lift, or shed light, on/for someone else`s path, share talk, This i found to be the best medicine,  and i have nothing but cold hard facts it feels some times and if i have nothing positive to say i just keep quiet,I will add humor i do not mean to cause offense it is my way nervous way of dealing with every thing, Once i can laugh i release my endorphins so to speak, learn to trust yourself.. It can take a lifetime..

Must Try Again

Must try Try Again , practice makes Perfect,
 I am told
you always have time to make things right, time every thing, has a time and a place opportunity
`in all we do, to lift, or shed light, on/ for someone else`s path, share talk,
 This has been my best medicine, and if i have nothing positive to say, I have learn`t just too be quiet, due to my dialect (Scottish) , I sound like, i am nasty, sarcastic and just not sound so right,
I am far from, trying to cause, offense, to any one, i add humor, Could be so, stupid that sets, me laughing, i do not just laugh, at any thing it has to be real funny, it releases endorphins, I and not some one getting, ridiculed, that does not , make me laugh, laughing with, not at some one, learn to trust yourself,. This i can say now, i have done so much, myself, questioned, Now there is ,  a big big event to come, this next chapter, being a mother maybe, i have sarcasm for what has been, my family's life for some reason, I kept my faith, in what is Morally correct and it has me a very exciting time in our life, Hope i can see some wood in amongst those trees, Looks can be so deceiving. Looks all doom and gloom ,,plus cold hard facts where to go from here I Know first hand knowledge what is morally correct and thank fully for the better good for mankind, when i stand a minority , i become the majority, That step, is faith in yourself and for some to follow , you will learn with age just as i have and now i share my knowledge i far from know it all, Personally, i think it would be boring if we knew it all , till the next lesson, we need them all, for it is not just, for this life, it is for our soul, for eternity , that is why, the judgement has to be absolute. The truth and nothing but the truth First hand knowledge is best as known , The cold hard facts , that is what you are left with whether you like it or not, fate has been so unkind, imagine a spell has been cast and now it has been lifted, for you to go forward, take the faltering first steps, baby steps , till you learn you can run little tiny small ones that will do nicely till i learn the route then i will skip , and dance if every thing all works out, Lucky is that even possible , if it is plausible it is possible my words some times ring in my ears as if they come back to haunt me more ways than one..  
Secrets need to be un folded and brought to the front , justice is for eternity, it should be absolute,.
Scotland yard only started policing just over 200 years ago , there is so much wrong on so many levels , even the law, every thing seems suspended in limbo , why what is the twist , i can not settle like this our life`s are not what they should be and we sure are not badun`s, so do not deserve all this , every thing has its time and reason now it is time to give this a break,
Break the cycle that is whatever you perceived it too be too me i see it is so morally wrong on so many levels, The police were set up in the year queen Victoria some one tried to assassinate her eighteen forty two, Imagine that , another wee insight into how our so called justice system is even allowed to operate , Richard Mien was the Commissioner, Robert Peel a police man with a mission , Detectives were all ready having secrets, way back then , they all 8  detectives , set out on the streets of London
feeling well proud they were legal now were as before they were not legalized to do what they done , so they have been breaking rules , all the time, making and breaking the rule`s were it suits, too what cost, it has cost me to dear the price you are asking i can not give freely and it truly is not fare, the price you have asked is down right morally, wrong and you ,know it, sins of the father should not apply..  it sets a fire in the pit of my stomach and it shakes me to the core the wrongs and the pain that is what it is , the turn it round now do all that i can i need help also from the secrets.. kmC20/05/2015    

CERN

Cern+ I have discovered, so much this weekend , it feels as if , i am going nuts, I Know i am not , Far from it Brilliant , I am so aware ,
This event that is already here, After the 15 Day of Nisan , Just after the blood moon,  Six months on to the jewish calender, is the 15day of Tisher- The NEXT & FINAL BLOOD MOON,, This was all spoken ,, 1987 At The United nations, 21/9/1987,,President Ronald Regan , The Actor, he said it , and another man,
 AH Madeneyad, Quick , fast forward to the here and now 2015,,
2015/05/03,,,, Now we have , we are opening up to the Abyss , The gates , The veil must come of, Mother Gia, Shiva god , out or chaos comes order,
There is a little town, with a in Commune in the The Department of Eastern France ,
Ancient days it was called , Way back in the day was called Appolliacum Town,  Appolo town was a temple to the greak god Apollo,
They believe this place to have a Gate way to the \Under world They do believe , have you ,  seen it on the screen , it is huge,  They actually have the shiva god outside their offices in this little town , it did not look so small too me, Hindu god of Creation & Destruction, This Cern thing it is another dimension to another world, We are all going to get to see this , spectacular event, I feel looking forward to new beginnings, why , because it sounds about right to me , The veil is about to be removed no covers to cover any thing , All those conspiracy's, you all thought were rubbish , well , its all so true,
The gate way what does the angels say + An angel man is going to come , he is going to cut through everything , Ignorance, will no longer be bliss, By Opening these gates , hearts will be fill , hands will
be held , by Opening up the gates Science & Knowledge as we knew it is going to get so far fetched all those films , it is real, I believe they have everything , everything we see on TV, Our screens , yes that is control right there , Your Television , is 1 of the biggest hoovers of our emotions and just about everything that we do , & It is sucking you dry, Cern is also getting used for Transfiguration, Cern is in everything if you have a look around you especially on your TV , Round saturns Eye ?? All the 666,s Spinning Cern , We need to form the bridge to be able to , Get over from earth to hell, & Surley the same heaven, once we get there can we stay , To greet the fallen, They are knowing, what of what, they are doing , Opening us to the Abyss, i have heard of this place over the years never thought any of us would actually get to see it , Moses he put a veil the second day he came to talk to every one and tell the commandments Everyone was scared, when Moses came the second day , his face was so shinny people just did not know of what to think, So tried to keep away , till he removed the veil, Keep the Faith , we all need it now, We also have to very careful of a black matter, Of grave concern , I feel, The dark in People is going to bubble over the a moulting volcano it is all going to come spewing down, Thrust us into an intensity we could even lose control, You know, Love prevails, & Courage is going to be needed loads as much as we can all carry we need to make some kind of cover, The Angels Stand Ready To Assist those, who unleash power humility & Belief Only those in Union with God will be able to see , In the darkness which so many expected upon this earth,
The Veil which was getting held back will only still open such a tiny crack, it is what is within , we all must unite for the better good of mankind , for the better good, For the futues of this world , yes it sounds well and truly as if i have lost it , No i have not i know of what i am talking , No I Do Not,
I Just know there is going to be a lot of Chaos, Yet out of the Chaos is going to come a new order , a new world order for us all , & am going to share this insight , All the Counties in the world are vested in this program, China is coming up with some thing but this that is coming its not a weapon we need it is each-other, 14 countries , have 1 , USA has 3, Typical am sure you will all agree, There will be no right or wrong way we are all in this together , Your scariest dreams versus , your nuttiest thoughts , what do you all think , Ye har , I do feel like i have lost it thankfully i Know once again , this is what is coming , I Do not right for money i write for the love and the better good for all humanity , Charles`s Webster ,,,Messages from the unseen ,
Walking with my shades on i get to see a lot , When i take them of , I see all, all the ugliest u can think of and i throw it about my head , all that i have learned trying to give it to you , i know it seems a jumbled mess, so is life , Why consume, No Interdependent thoughts, Stay asleep , Dont feel , & Do not dare talk,Keep the gravey train, going,  Money is your God !! NO!!!! Optimism,
 Pessimism The  Glass is always half full to me marrie reproduce Ive done all that and some, Obey with the shades on , I Got through life on a wing an d a prayer, if we are going to go dancing with the devil, Ideology Keep the faith, Their minds are hardened, their hearts made of stone, So no covering your face, So we can tell all who is who , so no traitors from within they are seemingly better at the gates , at-least you know they do not owe you any loyalty ,When Jesus was killed the shredded that Viel in 2, No More covers go Boldly, Gracefully , That we obtain Merci& Find grace to help in time of need, the days of revealment, When all is reveled to you, revel in the glory What is to be will be, Assia 21-26 The earth, The dead & Christ shall rise, , Run Hide for cover till ingnation Runs its course September 23, man is opening the gates To hell, Into the Unknown we are going to slip , Pure of heart & Strong you will stand and stand proud 500 days Climate Chaos,
it is all good , cause on the 24 th Some one is coming to save our sorry ass , Everything we , You ever knew is going to change, All for the better , they say , Bring it on I say , I have been to hell and back many a time so bring it right on < In the beginning it was black then they threw some light on the subject, Separate the light from the black we need equal measures some times John the Reveal-er Before a 5th Angel, He was given the key to the abyss , If its an angel then it will be all ok , The smoke is relay the screen , Once the smoke parts ,we will all see what there is too see,This day has been forecast in history , Into the unknown , Life is full of UN known ,  This is Not finished far from it :) Its a whole new world :)  

My o My have a sinned :)

My O My, How ?? What have i done, what did i do so wrong , Nothing i know , it just feels so,
When all there was to what there is , making that jump into the darkness , Faith hope , is all you have , you might even feel naked , look for the unseen , Dare to care , I Do and I got shot down only too rise like a phoenix, I was so dark so confused, there was no light , the lights had gone i could see nothing but blackness , I Retreated to a safe distance to gather my collective thoughts and self once again , only coming out for a bit and right back to the looking for the answers as to the whys and the hows,
Educating myself , training my brain not to be numb was quite a feat in itself, it took all of me to see all of everything and more, I go forth now, in the safe knowledge , yes i was broken i was well and truly discombobulated, My Communication system completely down , I Thought ,   Compensation for Creation , is what i will go with, Integrate Appropriateness is sometimes better than honesty, Embrace or foster this vibe, it gives you the access, the keys to reading the mind, The Nucleus of oneness. Electrons & Neurons, all inside your head , Create light , positivity , Imagination ,
 Hercules had thoughts and made them gods?,, Mercury, Adam 1st Atom , Eve is the dawning/beginning/end of the light, We all find ourselfs , in the garden of Eden,
 so to speak making the choices is wholly up to you, it is making the correct choices in your life, To successfully carry you and yours to the light , The links of the chain maybe missing a couple of links , it does not mean they are not here they are every were in all that we do , just take the time to stop and ask, I got my answers this way , It is looking for the unseen and finding it , that is so hard for some, imagination running riot, your brain Blanked , it feels like there is no thoughts, When all around you is running amok, You sit and look in disbelief, looking at every thing,  I have lost greatly to get to the here and now , do not ever try pulling any one down for it will come full circle and tear of your bum, this i know for sure now , Revelations , come every day , In everything , even the criticism , You just have to learn to let it  slip like water from a ducks back , I have even heard it being revered to as Elephant Skinned. & It is ,, Too hard for me to act in this manner , it is easy for me to shine, Look for the positives in all that i do , every thing , no matter how small i will look.. it is the small things that make every thing , stepping stones to the sun , To feel the sun lighting up is over whelming i have found , I Love it though for this i am sure , it is so easy to love , My Heart is massive and i will love and feel for all , I am far from a god i am only me , Just like you and you , We are all in this together. this is our here an now. Learning , sharing from the past , is what it is all about ,  Shedding  & Lighting some,
 others path, Is for you to lead the way , Seems quite a task , for all that has been endured , I know i can do this now standing on my head, yeehars all round, Love light & peace is all that i have and i know we need it all of us , The past is the past , learn to move forward , It is in all of us from the cradle to the grave , The road is never straight forward , that would be too easy , In Life we have to suffer , Too see the beauty the real beauty, you go away down there feeling stuck when all the time you are moving forwards, even when it feels like all is stuck , the light never went out, it is all in your head , its in Everything .
Hope , faith , In all that we do , keeping positive can be so hard it feels some times when all seems so dark , as i say look for the unseen , it is in you , to make the move , Concessions bring forth methods including the brain to carry you & Yours to that place you have been seeking , The mountains you feel you have climbed , the many rivers you have had to cross.
The golden age is upon us, live your dreams for the future & The past they are what molds us to go forward , Motivation , might seem hard, Let the sun in , its all around you , it is every thing .
The land heaves & Dreams of a future, You  tower over the world, streaks of light for us to follow, Prometheus- titan Cronus, Greek Mythology , Returns old Saturn reign with a new breed of people, lord of the rings, Mystery from the heavens,Mystery of DNA a rainbow of colors.Help put the magic back into life, Not take it away ,, that is such a sad thing to do , we all have a life , we need to live it.
Being real is me , that is all i have , cold hard facts of day , I was seeking blind folded, Fear , is cold
hard to accept , thinking you are scared, when all the time you were not you were listening to your intuition & Just as-well ,Alive & Crazier , Powerful  personal experience , Accessing the Extraordinary, through language is quite an art, Researching every thing as i have went, Every thing all written in pen , and accessed through to my head, Inaction is what causes harm, Be vigilant, Vigilance tells me the problem, I Know the solution, I get pleasure when i solve this, I get a sort of heightened awareness- Meditation brings me back to earth, & Not with a bump , I am Good at landing on my feet , why due to all the practice i have had. All the bumping , I have done i have learnt , just to go with it all in all that i do ,, letting go was very hard so so hard , you almost feel guilty for letting it all go, do not feel guilty for we all suffer it is life.Pain without reaction, Would cause you real real harm so go with your feelings listen carefully.  Connect with every one in life, Take the risk carefully.Accepting , Surrendering & these connections are made, Try not to be insensitive to others feelings, Intuition  keeps me back from danger real danger my insides scream so i would run and run fast , as fast as my legs would carry me, Seeking blind folded seems fun till you hit a brick wall , then it will all come tumbling down all around every thing you ever knew as real, You have a new real now , learn to embrace this and go forward . Feel every thing as you go forward in this life, take the risks carefully.
The dots connect, Exaggerated, Integrated, legislate our behavior, embrace . Dream of Oneness, Full access, remain extended in time have near enough perfect flow, Staying connected- Burning of impurities through connection, Stay grounded, do not let all this go to your head. A new set of skills Available connectable and usable, Alone , Automatons , thriving on your heart increase the heat to full on All that is left when all the impurities are gone is LOVE, The art of connection, stay connected . Knowledge is for all in all that we do every little thing is a way forward out of the darkness, it is upto
you to see ,. Leave a map imprinted on your heart for all to clearly see, Just dont wear your heart on your sleeve , some  might just break it, due to their own willful blindness,. Love light & peace     

All of Me

Good Golly Miss Molly , I have been surfing this , Life the whole way through, tripping the light fantastically , Even i didnt see, what i was leaving behind , I never want to look back,
I will though, As I do Every single day , Just to confirm , yes it is me all of me and more,
This is so easy loving, and being kind , it is so easy to me , Spreading some angel dust were ever i go,
I so was not aware, The love in Me , That is what has got me to the here and now, Through it all , i loved and was Proud, Sad too, Sometimes the sadness, Feels ever lasting , Then I Look,
Right then left if need be, What do i see , what can i type , for i do not have to see it, I Can Feel it,
All of me and all that and some, I never realized , As I Plough through life, Just what an effect , i have on others , I want you to feel the same,I want you all to feel this buzz,.
It is all Natural, Take your shades of , Dont obey , never not feel , the love that is within You, That feeling in your tummy , the swirling & Sloshing , the nerves on Hi alert, Every thing a twitching , O How mad can i get , it is all in the imagination, lets all Trip this out together, I do not want to do it alone, You all know i will if i have to , i Know i will, it is me , it is the light in me, I have to shine, Dont be quiet , let your self shine , be all you can be and more , If it is Kindness , what could you possibly do wrong , kill someone?,, with kindness, i have heard of , Yip that is in Me, I have seen death , up and too close , Far to Close, Well i kicked , its arse and told it too come back another day , Must of listened lol ,
I feel as if i have been on the fastest of shows , The best of the best, Completely supremo,This is all just dandy ,
What a journey, I feel so alive and in control , I have hit home base after flying for years and i have landed , Running and not, to slow down, o No time , Never sits still, Its great , Then other days , the time has gone, What have we learnt , Possibilities , Are Boundless , Limits are limitless, Imagination , it is in All of me , Optimism, the Glass is always half full ,
I have done My reproducing & Lots lots more now to share this mad ride, What is in store for me next , I await with excitement , the feeling that is in me , I Am So Looking Forward to this part in my life, I am not imagining anything, Just gonna go with the flow, For i know deep within, there is so much more ,  so so much more, i have been and done all of that and more , this information is free,
& I will share it, life is for living , We are a long time dead ,Grief , Out of chaos, does come, some kind,  of Order, it is you, at the reins , throughout all the dips we have to go through in life , I am so Glad, I am how i am, My Shades always on my face , easy to hide the eyes, head down and on i go , Ploughing , tracking, all my antenna going at 100%, I relay have, to calm, right down, this is for real, and i feel the excitement , I Love this feeling , is this self content??.
I have nothing left to prove , I have plenty to give , & I dont relay want anything in return , Just a smile, Now that makes my day , Knowing , I shed some light on your darkest of days
They were the days , Seems so long ago, & Then only feels like yesterday, The losses , grave and very very sore, They have helped mold , me ,and all of that , made me that and this , Yip It sure did , No wonder i can yap for fun, all my stuff is just too heavy in comparison, So i will listen to everyone else
not me , My Life is an open book I have no secrets, None i can remember , so does that make them ??
Stupid stuff from back in the day, I think all i have done,  far out ways the negativity ,Pessimism, The |Glass is half empty, No I Love Optimism +The Glass is always have full, It is such a great way to look at life, yes it is all, and more, and some ,this life , it is hard, If you truly ,do not know , what lies in store for you,    
Less than 100 years from now, Wonder , is Amazing , Well i wont be here in 100 years that is for sure , My soul will be though, A very wise soul and i can say it , I am very wise, Not to it all, Thankfully not quite yet , life is a journey from beginning to end , Trip the light fantastic ,Live it,  how it comes look for the positive , Look for messages from the Unseen the unknown, Look it is all there hidden   in, Allegory for you to decipher, at your own Pace. Lucky eh .
 Yip we truly are , Lucky as , pig rolling in shit , it relay depends what you see,
The magic is in You all :))  I Know it is in Me, I can feel it , Like The dark horse , I have heard so much about, Just getting ready to bolt right out of my stables , Been in there long enough, Time to flourish, Let out what has,  went deep , It is all of Me , And all of you and all of That ,, Life as we know it, Is definitely about to unfold, Into pure gold, I feel it and I want to feel More loads more , . This feeling , It is A feeling so good and so needed, For us all , This world, is not, it all , far from it,
This i can, say now, with conviction , as i speak things, are getting proved , and am I so glad <<
I wish i had of spoke sooner , I wasnt sure , I never relay knew , now i do , & That is all Of Me.      

Looking Back

Looking backwards , over the years ,my have they flown, so many days , in a haze,, Too many , to care to remember, The experiences, I Have went through, You could not read from a book , the drugs , death, Not all bad people take drugs, Some of the nicest people i know take drugs, its the type of drug,, You will find the persons change with the drugs, In more ways than 1 and on so many levels,
Acid, Ecstasy, Mushrooms, Cannabis, Oils , Powders, fast slow, fast, up and down like a yoyo, your head ,, Like a computer or a gaming machine and you have won the top prize, O the feelings are great,,,, Its the after wards , Can you, Handle such an insight, It can be life changing,
 Once you have had your eyes opened to this gate,
 Then of course , Your Health ,
You dont think of these at the time , too busy getting stoned, or out to partyyy,,, I Liked to dance and rave , Those days were such fun, i got insights from it all, I gave messages , had a ball, never thought of 20 years down the line , Too busy living ,, making mistakes, loads of mistakes , This is why i share, So someone can see, they are never alone, Anyone it doesn`t matter to me , if it gives you a life line then grab away, It is great when you are high, nothing beats it, You might think ?? O believe me , You relay cannot beat being hi on LIFE,, If I Knew now , what i know now , I would have Ran,ran , and never came back , Its true , They relay do not work , When you are older, and ill, the drugs they just do not work, Why " I hear you say, You have killed of all your natural receptors, All your natural , endorphins, Your inner being , How do you , stand after being so stoned, It is easy i say , Only because i have been there, O have i been there ,, & I would definitely recommend , NOT To Do Drugs, This inner you, Your guts, your intuition,Lucky mines is so strong, I got so much more than everyone else , I Got real insight into what was to come, Due to being stoned , I was never sure , from one day to the next, So never knew , which path i would be on ,I could wake and what drug was there i would take, keep me up or down, I was such a fool, I have lost also  big time, that is how i can share and say what i say , due to i have relay done that, and so much more, The life, Will-full, Blindness, Wilfuly blind,  Whilst , or when i was sleeping , The two lives were hard to separate, Its , I done it though, I can definitely say that, The path was real , and very very bumpy , now why would you want your life , Like this, it truly is the damage being awake, The path was never promised to be straight , That i will assure everyone on that , It was a laugh, tears , sad, Exciting & Daft.
We had so much more to give , we should of could of would of , And if my auntie was a man , he would be my uncle,.
The more i question , some things the less, time, I need to go with the flow, Even if its only for a little while, I want to join the dance, I feel rather , weird after all these years, I cannot seem to dance.
My feet are stuck still, my fingers they rattle the keys , At some speed sometimes , I have loads still all in pen, I need to transfer , from paper to here, The tales i could tell, I do not want to dwell, its been a blast, I need to tell , what comes to me . No time for rubbish, Not now, Too Much happening, Like a big stair gate , One giant step , I made that leap i thought years ago , I relay did, Only to end up ill,
The drugs do not work , They hold you back, i was so dumb Comfortably Numb , Springs to mind, yes i was comfie for years , I just got too comfie, & Missed out on so so much now i know, What i know, I didnt relay miss out, due to i had my life the way it was , I was never a shy child , so why be a shy adult, I have a Vast Knowledge a very extensive Loads of volumes of encyclopedias, In My Head , What am i thinking , I need to get sharing, I relay believe the more far fetched we can get, if it is plausible it  is possible, Tonight i listened to a radio show, Time machines O yes please , i want one of those. O what would we find , The world is your oyster , and you are the pearl, Now go for , it , My stair gate has just blown clean of its hinges, for all i know is not in vain , it is for our Children`s future ,
I Just know i have too share , no matter how sore , and its been sore , Losing big time , Stops you in your tracks , stops you , Then you have time to reflect, &  Things just jump in to rewind , or fast forward , my dream of late have been so far blown i have actually been scared to talk, not now , as my fingers , type the words the other words, come flying, My Brain a magnate, It is relay heavy.
Knowledge is educational,,,,  Education , is knowledge , this leads me to the beauty , in life , There is so much to give and receive , it is in all of us , not just me all of us , yes i have some power , nothing compared , To the World, It relay is Great I can talk of almost everything, Cancer to CERN, My Brain is full of everything , racing around , now lieing on this paper , this computer. All my thought,s
Are they of any use , To any one , am i explaining myself properly for you to understand, It is sometimes like a quick sand , the light come fast , and this is when i relay must share, All that i know, I try , I do no know even why, Every thing has a reason, good and bad, The lights are always there ,
No matter how black you get , Remember remember ,There is always a light , some were near you , They might not seem like it, It might not seem it but it is there , you have to look , & Decipher the lessons , just how i did, Everyone does , that is life, I believe we also have a book or two in each and everyone of us, I go each day , some it feels by the skin of my teeth, I do it , I only know how, & That is not that clear to me, just to go with the what is, to the what was , is another chapter in my book,  I look forward to sharing my insights , I have got loads, Child birth , throughout , Another of my favorite topics , Children, They are such a light each,  of them just gorgeous, Such a joy , makes me swell with pride, my baby`s all grown , And some sadness , lots of sadness, Lots of happy times also , Loads of every time you can think off,.. Life should be a Blast , I should of hit the ground running for all that is in me, It took this long to decipher, I am all of that, & Some, Quite scary,
My Tummy is jumping with excitement, I cannot wait to share properly , To find the true me , and be all that . & More , Just to be me , My Tummy's doing back-flips. Now time to jump of, Find another porthole, My Dream life now awaits me , I must go & See  what the dreams have to say , yet i feel So wide awake , You are a long time dead, Is this dream life of mines a Porthole to the other side, it is definitely, A Porthole of some kind , Maybe just a big black  hole, No I know it is not , For people are now speaking of my thoughts , siphoning, Emotionally charged , Very passionate, I slip through life , each and every day , It feels like , I do not relay of-course, I am on Solid ground, have been all my life , It has been real, I can definitely say that, Nothing too much , I have survived it all, Upto this point in time, My Higher beings do look out for me and am i very Grateful for them :). They are what keeps me on my toes , so to speak , My Tummy dancing tells me some thing is a brewing , As i Glide through life, Tip toeing as i go , Thud thud thud , its like dancing with big wellie boots on , Some days then others are , just amazing and i can feel so much love and light for everyone , I can feel so much my feelings are on Hyper alert, My Intuition telling me some thing is a coming, & Not to worry , that is for sure , One thing i had to  learn, that is do not worry , for all it does is makes you ill, & grey ,
let things go with the flow, When you feel your tummy , stop and think ask why it feels how and why it feels what it feels , is it me feeling you or you feeling me, It is all very exciting ), I love sharing , It feels so right, Especially when everything feels so wrong, It mixes everything up just dandy so to speak , for it all to fall back into place, I will enjoy this , I tell myself , and i will and i do , i love the me in you, and the you in me, I love to love, I live to love, and share , All that i know, so let me ask you , is that so wrong, No I did not think so we are all as one , getting by as best we can, everyone of us different and unique, All of us trying , Is that not better than to not try at all, Yes i would, and do, think so, Life is for sharing , and some , Life is for caring , and some , I have relay done it all , I have even written the book lol :). Now i wont more , I like this feeling , new, beginnings, Ch-ears, I raise a Glass to you all, Nod my head and i am of out of here and away to my bed .              
Of books,  Dreams tonight will be on here some day for all to see , Dream big , I wish i always did , instead of finding out at such a late stage in life , Enjoy all that you do , then it is never work and you will feel the day just runs away , away with all your life, So busy having fun , too busy too reflect? Just be careful , Is what i speak , I beg of you , please please be careful ,Life is for living , Not for reflection, admire when you are dead , You are a long time dead?? Or are we , we will not know till we go to the other side, I have seen a bit and it did look heavenly , I went back but it wasnt for me this time, So I turned back, That is why i share my story`s. Give any one some insight to what, is to what was , life .