Suspended Eternity

Over these last two hundred years we have come on leaps and bounds you would Think, Yet we seem to be going backwards to things said way way back things that are now so true , even so many ,  some one he prophesier that we would have a pope nine hundred years before we even had thought of one, now his prophecy are saying this is the last pope?,, there is also three of the popes throughout who have went to one house it is in turkey i do not know exactly were it is about , all i know and feel is there is a lot of significance to this place, especially if the last pope has had to visit, also this pope benedictine , this name also means , loads of other things that is now all in writings in the bible all foretold and panned out, the numbers all add up to chapters in the bible to dates in our history, how can this be, even the planets line up if super embossed over the lady with the Chackar, so many things now adding upp , the pictures are of some kind of spaceship, even back when they thought`, on paper of the sighting , named Fatima, Portugal -1917, people`s written accounts they seen what looked like a grey disc in the sky, this Apparition some so thought they seen , every body sees with their own eyes but sees things so differently, the did not know of flying saucers way back then not even the vocabulary to say such a thing so a grey disc, to me sounds like a space ship, Or Flying saucer, even at this place i talk of in Turkey Marys House, the House that Mary seemingly legend has it she died in this house, you can see, looking at pictures , the underground to it all it is vast, just like loads of other places of worship in this world , seemingly a lot were for husbands to go underneath to a brothel, I would have went mad at mines , bringing home dirty diseases, i suppose it was the norm then , it has took people years to learn trust and because of the way we are programmed we can kill the trust in seconds , especially if you find it hard to trust due to all the lies, you have been spoon fed, Some of the mouth fulls willingly taking, gulping them down so to speak, The Jesuits want control and by the looks of things they have been working away collecting momentum as they have went,.. Malaya martin... He worked for three popes speaks seventeen languages he even help translate the dead sea scrolls, His books are of Fact/fiction,?Faction he called them Pope Francis is a very clever man if all the number add up and he has went to visit Marys hose then all is playing their highest of cards , tells me their out to impress, it is all good they can worship with what they have that is not what is being sought, i feel rely strongly here whatever it is we will survive, stronger & More in control, my whole life i have heard and seen the unseen this what Cern is what ever it is is definitely coming . I do not know except i feel as if i have landed when talking of this landed on my feet and running , times are just beginning, times are a new, enjoy all that you do, it rely is farfetched rely wild mind blown stuff, It is great so exciting i can jump into my monkey ten year old self and enjoy being a child hopping about in my very own special space ship o what a joy , what fun , it beats my tired old broom stick , They do not make things how they used to nothing lasts if it did it would be of no good, they like durability, it is economically sound makes the world go round so they think if only the knew what truly was it is love or better morals, we do not stand and fight, we want peace we do not want to have to fight for what is rightfully ours , Life without wars we have our own personal wars that should count, make us all inequal enough or feel totaly left out, some do , some can make and talk to their shadow , Writing is what keeps me on top one step ahead, i try to do that too, some times we all fall into a pit , sometimes you need to go there to see, just what every thing looks like from a way down there , Sometimes you need to stay down for a while some thing is coming to lift you up , it always does, because you are true to yourself, and no need for lies, you ill find that special some one who rely understands and wants you to have a smile not a frown , they know how to trust and embrace, you will find this as soon as you stop looking , there is plenty fish in the sea so to speak , i just got so stuck i forgot that part of me, i chose some one or did fate choose me to walk that way, it was not fun, i did learn so it was not time wasted , even broke my heart to think, so i just  did not , that was my mistake, Maybe it was not me at all, it was just not to be if it were it would have felt and kept feeling so right instead , sad rely loss again ,
 Leonardo Davinci enigma, This guy was / had an amazing insight an incredible mind , people mocked and scorned his insanity i can feel his horror at what he foretold he seen so much , people think they are crazy i can assure you are not, if you are then i am crazier ,is it i have just not been caught for my insanity , no because i do not need caught i speak nothing but truth, now i can be as bold to say what comes to me i know , why do i know i ask myself the same question every day why o why me , strange is my life to some to some one who knows me i am rely good at what i do , the person who truly knows me is my maker, and the people now gone who left their self's scorched in my heart .
 Many can say they have been my  friend , and i am so proud of that yes i am hard work but i know and so do you i am so worth it passionate too a fault , maybe , maybe not, I Love what i do i am closer than any police man better than any social worker i can say, and do things they can not i can get right into it they can not, Why because i speak common sense not spurting hate as if from a fountain i love to make people radiate, that is what i do best , if only you could see my light but you are choosing to willfully blind and numb, go getter, i am I can take you so far fill you with the ammunition it is up to you to actually stand up, sorry i can only help so far, i get trampled on did you not see, or feel what i seen and what i felt was sad without a doubt, ruined my good name , My rose tinted specs came off fell to the floor in a jaw dropping moment all the revelation , of the total rubbish you had the cheek to spurt and then expect me to , what wear it ,... no not me , constructive criticism is healthy but down right being nasty that is not were it is at , saddened beyond words . i see now also a comment made someone was jealous. you know of what i talk, i know you are reading this , for all the men that love me none of you truly know me before you go sending me your love remember i was married thirty years , it goes on for eternity, i am truly cursed, the husband of mines he would never have let me go in life ,he did one time, he was that mad , he married me with in such a short space of time to make sure i never wondered , not that i would have ever dared, he was too controlling i could not move for it all. Even take the dog out i was upto some thing i even had to watch my body language , some one said do
you think you are cursed i had never gave it a thought, but on hindsight yes i am , He is not going to let go in death , he just is not letting go causing so much to happen i feel so stuck but thanks to who is now a good friend he gave me the ways and the means to cut severe the ties that bound us , so yes now i am free to carry on, how i should, have been, in stead o, feeling suspended, in the air for eternity. Love light & peace