Chemtrails Are They messing With Our brain

O Look what a lovely cloud, look at it, rely look , that is not right, far from correct, every thing is for looking with the untrained eye, hard it will seem but once you look relay look and look around you look to the sick, weird , The people so called out of control, The Crazy`s they call them, Listen to every word, they have sanity in what the officials are declaring them insane , far from it, if you take your time, and just listen, some will seem, so far fetched, and some will be, you have to decipher, it is quite easy , if you can read between the lines, If you , can listen and look beyond the drugs, listen to what they are mumbling , Psychiatry, Is Supposed to be one of the biggest cons of the 21st Century,
And i truly ask myself, Are they , even after all their training, all in Mind Control, Frying peoples brains all in the name of science, O what a crime, look listen and see , The Unseen, look to every thing , listen to the conspiracies, there is definitely some thing too them, I have looked and researched so much , peoples reactions, look into their eyes , you can tell if they are acting, look to the body language,
All my life something made me twist and shout , we have never been in control, I was even perceiving is it relay just me , thank fully no the rest of the planet can nearly hear and see, What i have been on about for the last 30 odd years, wow all i have foretold, all the research for all to come true , yous`e are in Control, You tried and very near shut me right up , now i know i am to tell all .. I wont start right away , for people know of what I have already said, Mind Control , Your Television is one, your phone is another , even your house phone, there is no secrets left near enough, the World knows what is going on, We are told your opening the abyss. Is that why i am meeting a blank/black wall.
Looking for the unseen and quietly getting by , i thought ,.. No its never that easy , Eyes in the sky and the house now,.. No were to be a sanctuary. Its all good , I feel this too, Something inside of me just wants to dance. I Will blow your mind Control , You controlled just a bit too much now the higher beings come into play,. Science , every thing is going to have to come into play. Everyone , jumping through hoops, For the little pittance they call help , Even screaming it comes out of their pocket, We the Joe Public keep so much lined. it is totally out of this world, Think I could be wrong, no Its took me life long to be able to be as bold. So yes even the air the we Breathe is Poison. Chem-trails are leaving behind such a picture, not all roses in the garden, far from it what a picture, it is all full of Chemicals,. Alchemy is a life long search now the pictures are in the sky for all to see, we never ever had clouds like we have now , flashes of lightning , forks even hitting Saint Peters the day the new pope was elected that is a sign, What have they done our so called Officials, its almost like an outbreak of the plague, its not being hidden it is there for to see. The lovely Chem-trails......
leaving us all ill , Pulmonary disease`s, Cancers all too Common, Compared, to way back , you only heard of maybe someone from afar , now its your family, All have to take some thing from the doctor, Pharmaceuticals are making a killing literally.       

lessons

Well we learn lessons every day , signs from every thing , we stupid signs , That just press that Button the last 1 , that sends you recalling, with rage!!!!Anger at how you made me feel , If yous`e truly knew how yous`e made me feel believe me , yous`e could not look any 1 in the eye`s again.
You asked once or twice probably thrice , Probably even more , you asked so much , got so much wrong, How could you not believe, In Me nope, You couldn`t , I am sorry but now , i will cannot,
Come back , There truly is nothing worse than an old fool .
Did you think i would not know of your lies , your plying for sympathy , O I gave , Did i give ,
i did not look  for any return, I learn`t you did, You had the odds You thought , stacked so high,
Yes they were stacked hi but not how you think, your thinking ??, It is so wrong , Your mouth,
leaves a horrible taste in mines , the verbal Diarrhea, The Extracting of Urine is Over . I have been lead , like a loyal lamb to the slaughter, It is good though ,, Hurts so good to know, All that you , think,
You so know!! Is O So Wrong, Especially of me, I have no time left for games , I told you, Warned
You even, You chose to keep kicking , Why , why do you feel so angry that you have to hurt me!!
Play God with My Emotions with My LIFE, With everything in my life you have a comment,.
O so so sad , you throw the biggest of stones from your own back yard !!! No wonder they are so big the Skeletons in Your Cupboard , I never relay asked , but the story`s , i have been told , I should never have come back, Phone , that is as far as it should have went , you honestly do not see,.
So caught up in Your own Selfish Life , not a thought for others unless its to put the boot in.
O so sad , This is a vicious cycle that i am totally removing myself from, I am and Now i have ,
Higher beings are at work , you stick to your questioning , Me i want answers, So I cannot stick to,
The 1 thing , when so many other causes are needing addressed , and if you address, some of the others the rest will have a domino effect , & All will work out , that is??, if there, is not a war first,.
Wars are erupting all aver the world , The Officials around the war are starting , or have started their war on Us the Public the Ordinary Joe . We have been fighting a war for years without bullets,
We have been Surviving their System , Surviving their sacrifices, some are lucky to Escape,
Once they have you in their Evil Clasp it is hard to break free, If this is all you know, Where do you go,
You relay do not know, till someone , shines some light on this your darkest of hours, it could be anyone, From Any were , It could also be Anything , an animal , some light comes in all forms an guises & Signs , . You learn from life to spot these things , they are important , if you miss them , you miss so much , You might even , stop the flow of your being , I know from my experiences that i missed a lot, Due to letting Myself be led. I thought i had no light , I thought so little of myself , I could have crawled under a snake . I had to Stand Tall or i would have sunk , that is for sure,
And weee canny be having that , O No , For I need to be bright and Bushy tailed for this fight.
That comes next , with now all the hindsight , my Knowledge is extensive, i am Proud to say ,
I`m far from knowing everything or ever it all , I wish i did know it all , Believe me!!, I would help us all. If i could do it all in one swoop believe , I would try if I even knew how , that is Why I give
everything , my all, too my own cost, my heart gets Hurt a lot , The tears are As if easier to flow now, I could not do this before , I could not cry for Love Nor Money But Now, I just need to think of a time with you, you or you. & they come a flowing at How stupid I have Been , O the shame of it all.
No ITS NOT SHAME !!!!!!!!! Far from it , Its all MY GAIN, You would never understand so i would never ever even try to explain it to you, As a matter i will see you on the other side. Were I will have the right Questions to ask this Time. o yes I definitely will have the right questions , are you going to be brave enough to give me the truthful answers no more lies, From your head to your dirty mouth.
I feel you need a bar of Soap to clean that foulness, Out, Of your Life all together , it Doesn`t suit ,
You and never did , just like me I dont suit you , Unless it suits you , then all is OK.
No , am sorry that is not how it works , you have to give a little back , not sit back, and wait,
and then mock , she phoned again hahah, Ye am going , am going to see what i can get, You done relay well. You done so well , I gave you lots for near nothing in return, I did not want or come looking for any thing at all, Why did i find all that i found, I believe nothing happens for nothing , there is no coincidences in life. Every thing has a reason , a lesson . That My Dear Friend Is Life.
Its time to part ways , I am not for just to suit, No I have a purpose, even am not clear on yet,
I Just know i am not on this earth for nothing, and all that i have lived and been through , has not all been for nothing. I am definitely not having you, rubbish and dissect, Stuff you have no knowledge of at all, You stick to what  you know, I will stick to what i know, Thanks once again , For enlightening me , Of the things you did , I already knew a lot of what you tried to show me, You would not look at what i tried to show you, You had it in your head , I am Just stupid , no sorry I am far from It as you
know now , You had more than your fair share of me, I gave you more than enough.
I even put you first, No wonder everyone close to me were acting the way they were, People told
me , what are you doing with him, I thought you were O so different, O what a fool i was , yip that book Men r definitely from Mars , cause they are definitely not of this plane, This Earth , this time,
or is it just me , because i am a woman , i feel this way , no its not am afraid to say , its from my experiences, You try to control the woman its not Cave man times, Get a grip i am also not of,
teenage years , My brain might act it sometimes , but that is when all around me seems so silly,
and it was , so i will act the clown , for to even change the subject, maybe I am , maybe its a me bad , but that is how i have got to this age , is being able to clear , cobwebs, of self doubt, Learning to
Shine wasn`t relay that hard , its the ones round about you, they want to pull you back down.
Sorry i have been there wore that T shirt 1 too many times , i threw that T shirt away , I was sick to the back Teeth of People playing GOD, With my LIFE. I tried to break free, It wasn`t to be,
for i needn`t of feared , I only had to decipher my dreams, My path was made clearer for me,
At first i thought, the waters too muddy , I felt as if i had concrete boots on too, I pulled from every corner, every nerve in my Body UP UP & FIGHT. I stumbled and felt blindly for ways to go,
some light came in all different forms and guises, All different. Every day though i grew stronger, and within my self a feeling of Inner peace & Contentment , yes its cost me dearly to be able to write these words, that is LIFE. I Only Share, so if you ever, come across, any thing like ,my Bridges, at least you know, someone, else has been, were you "feel," you are at right now in Life.
Yes life is for the living but never disrespect the dead , That is just down right Crass and disgusting.
Not to worry though , its a place or a thing we are all going to do , So do, or will, meet! on the other side.
Or did you just say that so i would go back, I would have went back too, Like the fool that I have been. No More taking me for a fool , You made that mistake and you know or knew it for you even,
write , you should of listened and believed in me more. maybe you were my Guide , My light , Only,
Supposedly for a little while. You would not let me go though , ever , You threatened when i was young, and in my youngsters i was scared , shitless to tell you the truth.Now i am older and much wiser to the ways of the world , I need not of feared you were only a control freak, A manipulating,
Bullies. As soon as i stood tall , boy did you fall , You cannot treat people how you did with me,
You had nearly 30 years of me, &  What did you do , you never believed in me, You always thought
wrongly , of me, I see why now, but i am not, just any one ,else,  I am ME, Genuine , silly happy loyal ,
We had a lot of fun before the rot set in , doesn`t everyone, Its called the honey moon Period ,
Even though we were soul mates , and sorry will always be. I have questions for you , when i see you , In my Dreams , You came a few times to help I know i seen the messages and i seen the signs.
Thank you , i know you will forever be at my side, As i was yours in Life , every single step ,
I was always by your side , You taught me plenty , As now i know, I taught You, Life , Life Life.
A round and around it goes , some times slowly some times too fast, Watch though for everything , for sure there is a lesson to learn from something , Everything round about you , everything is for looking, Not Judging , yes say your opinion, If its only poison from your mouth just dont talk,
Yes be a devils advocate,! better? the 2, not drown? them both, So there is nothing left!!. You tried to numb and dumb me , And you very nearly succeeded, Till it was decided , I have been here before , ha , get myself away , so i did ,and higher beings would not let it be , you cannot treat another how you went about treating me. Out of my murky waters i have risen , and its not been easy, far from it,
everything seems to have been sent to knock me full out not just for 6, Full out ,. Hmm Why would you want to do that to me, Love is that what it was ?? No that definitely wasn`t Love, Even the words
you spoke , they even spewed out of your mouth with such venom , that it knocked me full back,
Still i came back for more , so i am a gluten for punishment, is this something deep inside of me,
that allows myself to be led and treated and abused the way i was , No, I must just be a right lucky bastard lol :). yes i will stick with that , my cups always half full now, i would never want it over flowing cause that would be a waste the stuff that went over the top , i will say it went were it was to go , right Over my head .
For now i do know i am a right lucky  bastard & A Legal one at that lol!!! That is a joke :))
Its through all the lessons that life has taught me , my cup does over flow and i give what is over flowing to everyone, especially if they need some light. How dare you decide my path, how dare you .
its ok though i forgive you, & Even go as far to Thank you, so very very much .         

Its not Aliens, its just going to feel Alien

It is not our last breath , What would you , scream , Would we have time , what would we do , we would manage that is what , Like all things all wars we will get through, it is the Time,
The lasting effects, The birth defects, from all the poison gases, They have already been testing , under water or over the poor side of the street, They don`t hurt their own only, or
maybe they do? , us we are nothing but fodder , We have to do the marching the showing of hands the Pride the Faith . The hope , The hurt we hide , for deep down we know we have to do as told,
we have been conditioned for years, Our tear stained faces, Forever destined , Commemorated,
In A Pic or a Book, We the Joe Public are sick to the back teeth of the lies and the mistrust ,
You feed us  , subliminal, Not caring or giving a thought to forty , fifty years down the line,
The Children of the Future, O you Fools what are you doing , What ever yous`e do , do not press that so called big red button, You have poisoned us already , so why all the heavy artillery,
Times are a changing, faster than we thought , or time is getting faster, T, Making decisions , throwing away any chance of our own future ,That there is no doubt,Without , thought , The data looks,
Infinite, it is there to do damage that is for sure, things have been blacked out for reasons not yet quite clear, Only It will control the Masses, We others had been warned , fight the system and,
we dared, Whilst we were busy watching their scummy secrets, they were under the cover or guise,
Using this to will fully blind us Who are the fools, No One you did not , Hide any thing we knew you were lying in wait till this day you could no longer wait, Now the heavy weapons are in , Blacked
out windows, People have seen and filmed what you are really up-to, We have known all along , it is just the day we are waiting on. If you are not aware then you should be, this mad world is about to
get real crazy, WW3, seems imminent, Or is it straight out murder of the billion yous`e talk off.
No It couldn't be that easy , you like your stupid games, Yous`e like a game or 2, especially,
With the people . Let them think , Give them control, Delegated Authority , You can play the bosses,
of our poor , Unknown unsure self's , yous`e created a monster,. Now it will reap or reak,
what have yous`e sown from your own lions your own demons , your sacrifices , have they relay been that  vain , they thought that would stop what they have started with a ritual or three thousand already gone, so how many more, is this another ethnic cleansing for this new world order.
What will yous`e do when the realization relay hits home , there is nothing left yous`e have killed the earth, monotony, the people but you have ruined everything with your stupid games and plans.
Yous`e will of course have a plan for all of this we will not be privy to , We will have to suffer and be slaughtered, all in the name of what do yous`e call this one, The be all and end all, I had to ask.
That is me , see what i feel if yous`e had real nerve , instead of using the public in your silly war games, Why not use each other, Stop with the poor me, look at what yous`e are causing, The world,
Never mind poor us, we will, what is left of us get through, The human race is amazing and will go on a lot longer than any of us all , this war and fighting or even just the killing you, plan to do,
It is a Sin , yous`e relay don`t care, Humanity will make it through this, We always do , & what doesn`t kill us makes us stronger, we cannot forget this, that was a hint of sarcasm,
My Mouth has plenty words for this, truly is not fair , Yous`e are all getting ready for an all out war
and hardly or a lot of people are not aware, They will be soon , enlightened, there is plenty off,
movement across , the waters, to prove there is also film, It is on the footage for all to see ,
it truly is happening and it sure is not slowly, Times are a changing so fast, My head is spinning,
with it all , seems wars been erupting every were little bits here and there and then blitzed.
Humanity , mankind , as usual , we will endure we might not all make it but we will do our,
self`s proud. That is what we do , always managed to do , even with your gases, we still,
managed , Everything fundamentally  is right view, Understanding, division, conduct, embracing,
total, complete,excessive , right in your grasps, the points and the reasons, clear to yous`e,
Unstoppable, You may think, you are , just like water no were to run, the dam will burst,
The water excessive, it will over flow , its nature , Mother nature, she will win, . Nature ,
reparable , it will take back what has been taken ,, and bury you all deep, in the watery grave , that is now history, Yous`e made don`t look at the public, yes we have the tools to fix what you have done or going to do, a thought did you give to that, Time machines, quantum physics, all these to make what ,
Life as we know it totally disappear, , Now we have new paths , we do not have to take up arms,
its a human right , I hear yous`e laugh, yes that is what we thought , silly us, I have that last sentence round the wrong way it is yous`e  thought we were the silly ones, No it is not , us it is yous`e.
So called Governing Bodies , That Rule this world, Yous`e try to hard, yous`e play to hard ,
 it wont work, When Death happens , its nature, its supposed to be so bad but it is not, it is time of,
Sadness , bitter twisted ends, That are not wanted or relay appreciated in any way, It is the Change.
That is coming that seems so bad, all we can do is face  it as best we can , better a sore face than
a red face. Its not even that , it is all a stupid game to yous`e up so high, in your monetary,
 material world,s  counting your pounds and even the penny's, well they wont count,
 Yous`e cannot enjoy the wealth, no one to share it , no one to see how you have done,
Now wouldn`t that be fun, The whole lot to yourself s the whole rotten world. the one yous`e ,
are about to create. Suck the life out of everything. In wards and outwards the blasts not many will make it if any at all, Seemingly cockroaches can live , throughout , don`t yous`e see that as ironic,
Cockroaches, Just lie yous`e all, one  big happy family , Yous`e will make, cockroach to cockroach,
Easily compared , Sad as it is , that is what you have done to this Planet covered it i littered it everywhere. Even tried to cover up what you were playing at with  all your ammunition,
Now people know , and have known, for how long?,This story will go on and on, it might take,, Forever to discover your O so Devoius Plan , is it ?.. No I feel every thing is going to work out just RIGHT<,, just How is planed way up high in the Stars...

morals

Global Zionism Argentina, It is not the invisible hand that counts its the Muscular arm that

wields it & more so the powerful Brain that directs its both arm & hand that rely count-Adrien

Salbuchi, researcher Writer Consultant Buenes Aires Argentina
he declares a man Richard Williamson, he was branded imminently, he had questions ??Why was

there no serious historical investigation?
How powerful is Zionism the Vatican they even tremble with holy fear? Why, the last three popes

went to visit a house in turkey, Called Mary`s house, The place Mary Magdalene is supposed to

have died ? Why do they visit? question especially the last , this is very significant, The picture

in side tells a huge story , I am going to research is this our sanctuary , must mean something

for three popes to visit , and only of late ,
22/05/2015 Another week of jade helm getting closer this all started back, in-front of our eyes

look for the unseen president Obama declared, in 2012 ,
we have been blinded , We=Public!!
We in for a bumpy ride the road for us was never promised to be straight or smooth, .. The

opening of the abyss, is getting closer, where two Angels are cumming as prophesier by the great

, philosophizers of history ancient times, even the bible the Pictures the Words, Psalms the

numbers they all point to a higher being even rockets & Space ships.. No I do not think it is an

Alien, as such it is just going to to feel we are alienated and now is the time for justice it

should be absolute how do the officials off our times get away with such atrocities, they did

not rely, their karmanic Credit Card would hold Vital Clues as to their knowledge even Mystic is

only lack of knowledge open your eyes look for the unseen,. From visions it is in my head real

news every thing i have ever seen and foretold, my dreams have all come true, My dreams have been

heavy of late, confusing blinding , scared, even not wanting to sleep done me of no good, as i

tossed and turned i tried to reach out to a friend, sheep in wolf's clothing so fast to say the

totally wrong thing, you read me so so wrong, it saddens me the way you think, i can dwell no

longer i have rely wasted enough of my time you took my kindness for all that you could it feels

you were digging, given every opportunity were i have to say enough is enough, O how sad your

twisted thoughts and do not even try to say that came from me, O so wrong on so many levels, you

read me so wrong I have spent my life doing what is morally correct, whilst you my dear friend

think you are so right, and morally correct when rely you sound demented. trust is a two way

thing, you can not trust another due to you cannot trust yourselves, I Must also add, you never

get over losing a loved one you learn to accept and live with it all takes time, not some one

reminding you of what was at every given opportunity, they are forever locked up in the heart

engraved for the rest of your life time. The good times they make me smile on reflection, it

sure was not all bad, Did he Love me, he sure did that much the vows are for eternity, that is

also why justice should be absolute, My Husband was some man , life and soul of any party, he

was no shrinking violet and all that he was just blew my mind, Till I realized i had heard the

storys a one too many times, then every thing just seem to go from bad to worse, he fought like

a man a lion enraged deep within i could see the little boy screaming why me , help me. help you

i would walk on hot coals for you. For all that had been and gone you truly did love us, You

were an angel a very special shining light for so many, no wonder we stuck like glue, we were

supposed to be.. The day your light faded the light went out a piece of me went out Trying to be

real in the real world and find the real me has been quite a feet in itself, I Knew how to be

the caring doting wife , how to be a great mother i know so much yet so little as long as it is

morally correct who is any one to judge any one but you will find the sad the angry in us always

do see the negatives whilst you are trying to turn them positive, Your horror as you perceive

it has been is completely different from another`s view,

When your brain can sink that deep I Rely mirror what is being said see i never cheat especially on

myself I Stay morally correct not for crossing any lines, unless in defense for a poisonous lies

i will rear and roar like the monster you think. I try to keep buried deep inside some how you

like pressing these buttons well now you have pressed my last button I am truly done I have been

so kind " You were suffering " ? No one else!! JUST YOU!! you make me smile sarcastically to

myself, Look in the mirror or think before you spout/spit your sewer like mind and do not polish

your neck that is not brass it is pure filth try some soap wash away what you have tried to do o

yes justice is absolute, the sass pit you called your mind is damaged i think beyond repair

Suspended Eternity

Over these last two hundred years we have come on leaps and bounds you would Think, Yet we seem to be going backwards to things said way way back things that are now so true , even so many ,  some one he prophesier that we would have a pope nine hundred years before we even had thought of one, now his prophecy are saying this is the last pope?,, there is also three of the popes throughout who have went to one house it is in turkey i do not know exactly were it is about , all i know and feel is there is a lot of significance to this place, especially if the last pope has had to visit, also this pope benedictine , this name also means , loads of other things that is now all in writings in the bible all foretold and panned out, the numbers all add up to chapters in the bible to dates in our history, how can this be, even the planets line up if super embossed over the lady with the Chackar, so many things now adding upp , the pictures are of some kind of spaceship, even back when they thought`, on paper of the sighting , named Fatima, Portugal -1917, people`s written accounts they seen what looked like a grey disc in the sky, this Apparition some so thought they seen , every body sees with their own eyes but sees things so differently, the did not know of flying saucers way back then not even the vocabulary to say such a thing so a grey disc, to me sounds like a space ship, Or Flying saucer, even at this place i talk of in Turkey Marys House, the House that Mary seemingly legend has it she died in this house, you can see, looking at pictures , the underground to it all it is vast, just like loads of other places of worship in this world , seemingly a lot were for husbands to go underneath to a brothel, I would have went mad at mines , bringing home dirty diseases, i suppose it was the norm then , it has took people years to learn trust and because of the way we are programmed we can kill the trust in seconds , especially if you find it hard to trust due to all the lies, you have been spoon fed, Some of the mouth fulls willingly taking, gulping them down so to speak, The Jesuits want control and by the looks of things they have been working away collecting momentum as they have went,.. Malaya martin... He worked for three popes speaks seventeen languages he even help translate the dead sea scrolls, His books are of Fact/fiction,?Faction he called them Pope Francis is a very clever man if all the number add up and he has went to visit Marys hose then all is playing their highest of cards , tells me their out to impress, it is all good they can worship with what they have that is not what is being sought, i feel rely strongly here whatever it is we will survive, stronger & More in control, my whole life i have heard and seen the unseen this what Cern is what ever it is is definitely coming . I do not know except i feel as if i have landed when talking of this landed on my feet and running , times are just beginning, times are a new, enjoy all that you do, it rely is farfetched rely wild mind blown stuff, It is great so exciting i can jump into my monkey ten year old self and enjoy being a child hopping about in my very own special space ship o what a joy , what fun , it beats my tired old broom stick , They do not make things how they used to nothing lasts if it did it would be of no good, they like durability, it is economically sound makes the world go round so they think if only the knew what truly was it is love or better morals, we do not stand and fight, we want peace we do not want to have to fight for what is rightfully ours , Life without wars we have our own personal wars that should count, make us all inequal enough or feel totaly left out, some do , some can make and talk to their shadow , Writing is what keeps me on top one step ahead, i try to do that too, some times we all fall into a pit , sometimes you need to go there to see, just what every thing looks like from a way down there , Sometimes you need to stay down for a while some thing is coming to lift you up , it always does, because you are true to yourself, and no need for lies, you ill find that special some one who rely understands and wants you to have a smile not a frown , they know how to trust and embrace, you will find this as soon as you stop looking , there is plenty fish in the sea so to speak , i just got so stuck i forgot that part of me, i chose some one or did fate choose me to walk that way, it was not fun, i did learn so it was not time wasted , even broke my heart to think, so i just  did not , that was my mistake, Maybe it was not me at all, it was just not to be if it were it would have felt and kept feeling so right instead , sad rely loss again ,
 Leonardo Davinci enigma, This guy was / had an amazing insight an incredible mind , people mocked and scorned his insanity i can feel his horror at what he foretold he seen so much , people think they are crazy i can assure you are not, if you are then i am crazier ,is it i have just not been caught for my insanity , no because i do not need caught i speak nothing but truth, now i can be as bold to say what comes to me i know , why do i know i ask myself the same question every day why o why me , strange is my life to some to some one who knows me i am rely good at what i do , the person who truly knows me is my maker, and the people now gone who left their self's scorched in my heart .
 Many can say they have been my  friend , and i am so proud of that yes i am hard work but i know and so do you i am so worth it passionate too a fault , maybe , maybe not, I Love what i do i am closer than any police man better than any social worker i can say, and do things they can not i can get right into it they can not, Why because i speak common sense not spurting hate as if from a fountain i love to make people radiate, that is what i do best , if only you could see my light but you are choosing to willfully blind and numb, go getter, i am I can take you so far fill you with the ammunition it is up to you to actually stand up, sorry i can only help so far, i get trampled on did you not see, or feel what i seen and what i felt was sad without a doubt, ruined my good name , My rose tinted specs came off fell to the floor in a jaw dropping moment all the revelation , of the total rubbish you had the cheek to spurt and then expect me to , what wear it ,... no not me , constructive criticism is healthy but down right being nasty that is not were it is at , saddened beyond words . i see now also a comment made someone was jealous. you know of what i talk, i know you are reading this , for all the men that love me none of you truly know me before you go sending me your love remember i was married thirty years , it goes on for eternity, i am truly cursed, the husband of mines he would never have let me go in life ,he did one time, he was that mad , he married me with in such a short space of time to make sure i never wondered , not that i would have ever dared, he was too controlling i could not move for it all. Even take the dog out i was upto some thing i even had to watch my body language , some one said do
you think you are cursed i had never gave it a thought, but on hindsight yes i am , He is not going to let go in death , he just is not letting go causing so much to happen i feel so stuck but thanks to who is now a good friend he gave me the ways and the means to cut severe the ties that bound us , so yes now i am free to carry on, how i should, have been, in stead o, feeling suspended, in the air for eternity. Love light & peace

numb/dumb 21/05/2015

You feel numb/dumb, pressure to be all you can be, stepping stones throughout life are the courageous steps we all have to take one at a time,
You drift aimlessly you need some thing concrete to hold on can seem as if you have been searching your whole life, it can feel daunting , over comb, numbed/racing thoughts. It is not you , you are becoming This Oneness with every one and every thing you do all is for learning , knowledge is key , learn to unite, reach out and take control. Everyone needs a hand sometime`s never be to proud Apologize, You always have time and if it is not the right time,. The right things do not happen, Morally correct for our times and situations,
Morals and etiquette, family first, and foremost,
if everything in your life does not seem on an even level,-Look at it analyze everything, Do not beat yourself up of what has been and gone, if you feel happy with all you have done and all was morally correct, As long as you are true and pure of heart and can only do your best to your knowledge , Is that not what we all strive to do and be, As an Animal Human Plant everything is/has room to connect.
Clean sweep out the brain and if you must try and try again, Practice makes perfect, You always have the time to make things right every thing has a time and a place Opportunity, in all that we do, to lift, or shed light, on/for someone else`s path, share talk, This i found to be the best medicine,  and i have nothing but cold hard facts it feels some times and if i have nothing positive to say i just keep quiet,I will add humor i do not mean to cause offense it is my way nervous way of dealing with every thing, Once i can laugh i release my endorphins so to speak, learn to trust yourself.. It can take a lifetime..

Must Try Again

Must try Try Again , practice makes Perfect,
 I am told
you always have time to make things right, time every thing, has a time and a place opportunity
`in all we do, to lift, or shed light, on/ for someone else`s path, share talk,
 This has been my best medicine, and if i have nothing positive to say, I have learn`t just too be quiet, due to my dialect (Scottish) , I sound like, i am nasty, sarcastic and just not sound so right,
I am far from, trying to cause, offense, to any one, i add humor, Could be so, stupid that sets, me laughing, i do not just laugh, at any thing it has to be real funny, it releases endorphins, I and not some one getting, ridiculed, that does not , make me laugh, laughing with, not at some one, learn to trust yourself,. This i can say now, i have done so much, myself, questioned, Now there is ,  a big big event to come, this next chapter, being a mother maybe, i have sarcasm for what has been, my family's life for some reason, I kept my faith, in what is Morally correct and it has me a very exciting time in our life, Hope i can see some wood in amongst those trees, Looks can be so deceiving. Looks all doom and gloom ,,plus cold hard facts where to go from here I Know first hand knowledge what is morally correct and thank fully for the better good for mankind, when i stand a minority , i become the majority, That step, is faith in yourself and for some to follow , you will learn with age just as i have and now i share my knowledge i far from know it all, Personally, i think it would be boring if we knew it all , till the next lesson, we need them all, for it is not just, for this life, it is for our soul, for eternity , that is why, the judgement has to be absolute. The truth and nothing but the truth First hand knowledge is best as known , The cold hard facts , that is what you are left with whether you like it or not, fate has been so unkind, imagine a spell has been cast and now it has been lifted, for you to go forward, take the faltering first steps, baby steps , till you learn you can run little tiny small ones that will do nicely till i learn the route then i will skip , and dance if every thing all works out, Lucky is that even possible , if it is plausible it is possible my words some times ring in my ears as if they come back to haunt me more ways than one..  
Secrets need to be un folded and brought to the front , justice is for eternity, it should be absolute,.
Scotland yard only started policing just over 200 years ago , there is so much wrong on so many levels , even the law, every thing seems suspended in limbo , why what is the twist , i can not settle like this our life`s are not what they should be and we sure are not badun`s, so do not deserve all this , every thing has its time and reason now it is time to give this a break,
Break the cycle that is whatever you perceived it too be too me i see it is so morally wrong on so many levels, The police were set up in the year queen Victoria some one tried to assassinate her eighteen forty two, Imagine that , another wee insight into how our so called justice system is even allowed to operate , Richard Mien was the Commissioner, Robert Peel a police man with a mission , Detectives were all ready having secrets, way back then , they all 8  detectives , set out on the streets of London
feeling well proud they were legal now were as before they were not legalized to do what they done , so they have been breaking rules , all the time, making and breaking the rule`s were it suits, too what cost, it has cost me to dear the price you are asking i can not give freely and it truly is not fare, the price you have asked is down right morally, wrong and you ,know it, sins of the father should not apply..  it sets a fire in the pit of my stomach and it shakes me to the core the wrongs and the pain that is what it is , the turn it round now do all that i can i need help also from the secrets.. kmC20/05/2015