Nearing the end of March 2015, What a month, The dog has been to the vet 3/4 times now at a pricey sum, She is worth, every penny though, This dog , came to me , she was my husbands dog, I thought , am not having a big dog like that its too big, and are they not supposed, to be fighting dogs? Was my words , I didn`t want her to be staying , I went to say hello the first day she came to stay , and she had a ball, i went to take it , to play and she wouldn`t give me it?, So i told her to keep it, & began to walk away. She came behind me hitting me in the back of the knee , with the ball , as if here then.
We played for a bit , Then i would of carried on with what i was doing , probably housework.
She became 1 of the Family fast , we had an older dog a Jack Russel , he was getting old , and couldn`t rely be bothered with this young upstart. Whilst she jumped about like a rabbit he would ,
look , as if telling her no sit down , till we go out , then you can jump as much as you like, They looked great together , i will put a pic up , A jack Russel and a Pit/staffie , I must say the jack Russel he was like a wee old man , he only needed a cap and a wee pipe and he would definitely, Of looked good sitting in an arm chair , such a wise old dog .
The New dog now , i would have called her , calamity Jane , She was like a bull in a china shop,
no grace what so ever, Big and clumsy, as i come to find out far from silly dogs , This dog is 10 steps ahead of me , She isnt well right now & has been showing me for a good month but i have her help , and you, should see this, one at the vet , for a big strong dog? I have to drag her in and she wants to sit on my knee. When outside the vet , she wants to fight any thing , yet as soon as you go in the vets,
Amazing , dog owners will know what i am talking of.
She will even back away from another dog lol, Must be like the dentist to them (dogs ).
Its not just my dog that does this most of them do , As if they know , Well i am , scared for this,
operation. There is a couple of things wrong and as her owner i can see , in her behavior,
She is telling me , she is not well. Pulling all my bed sheets of my bed , she knows that is a no no,
Normaly she would just get comfortable in my bed , but she is pulling the covers right off.
Loads of other things , She wants so much attention just now , she will even perch on my seat beside me even just to be touching me, Due to its my turn to look after her now,. She is 8 and going blind
the vet said, this is early for her breed, everything seems to be going wrong at the 1 time.
I would be devastated if any thing was to happen to her. We have been through a lot these past 6/7 years . I watched the dog whisperer , due to i had lost a lot of confidence in myself , due to personal
things , that happened. Lifes great Highway .
When i watched the dog whisperer , he said these dogs rescue you??, At the time , no i thought, we rescued her, Through the years , This dog has been stabbed for me two times , There was a fight with local bullies, who thought they would come into my home, and do what i have no idea but there was three of them with two knifes each . I dont know what these fools thought , we would do , sit back and let them away with this , nope, I remember coming round , punching the ring leaders face saying "who do you think you are " we were outside by this point a fight had started in the house and spilled out into the street, During the fight i was having our dog kept beside me? I had no idea at the time , due to i was busy , I had freaked. Three young lads with two knifes in my living room, before i knew it, we were outside fighting , The neighbors told me later, once these youths had run away , two times and i had gave chase and the dog had kept at my side the whole time, Even though she had already been stabbed two times the rodent , had tried to get me, but the dog jumped in and took it two times??
I had no idea till she collapsed , Then police and ambulances came for the humans , My neighbour
he took the dog to the vet and stayed with her whilst she was fixed, sewn up, The person got six months in Jail, The other persons got jail too. They ran into the police , the boys (young men),
These silly people thought, I had come running round and was going to come into their stair , No it was the police and caught them lovely with their weapons , still with the dogs blood . Remember i never thought the dog was mines , i always thought she was my husbands but she protected me
that night and every other day and night since and i will look after her just as good , for i could have been dead , if it wasnt for this dog , that i did not want, Who has become my best friend,
The one i share my tears with and she will cuddle in . The feeling of love from your pet and for your pet is Unconditional,.
This one is a special, they all are , all my pets have a story with them , when i was a child i wasnt
allowed a dog so i was making sure my children had 1, It was all learning for me also , i had no idea
The joys an animal can bring and bonding with them is an amazing feeling. You can read them and they can definitely read you & all about you, Always watch your dog when someone comes into your house, your space , the dog will let you know if they rely are a friend or foe. My one does , they all
have , My dogs , every ones dogs, look after their owners due, to we look after them.
Saturday, 28 March 2015
Tuesday, 24 March 2015
Heart Broken
Your heart has been , ripped out and jumped all over & then jumped on again from a great height.
Trying to flatten you,turning you inside out, losing all faith-in everything. Nothing seems real, As you mope, about wondering why. Why did I let this happen to myself? A gluten for punishment , a sucker for a sob story. Why is it you get hurt when all you tried to do was your best and give all a peaceful life. Instead of things being lessons, why can`t they be blessings too, Why do they want to hurt you, Deep down inside twisting the knife. knowing the effect its having , yet that doesn`t bother you. Tears are for self pity, I even began to believe this,. No tears are when you finally realized. How strong you have tried rto be. Just because i do not share my tears dont think they dont flow, flowing down my cheeks almost blinding me to write. The tears they flow freely when no one can see. I was taught not to cry, I have too i cannot stop , what is deep inside , it needs out. Doesn`t matter how hard you try, There is always someone to pull you apart. Even with lies. Not thinking of the consequences for your thought less actions. I would not give you the satisfaction of seeing my tears. You could not handle me at my best , Your definitely not going to cope with me at my worst. Your too busy micros-coping everything. You have no idea the bigger picture!! As long as you are all right jack springs to mind.
Its sore when some1, you thought was a friend or so called friends. Pull everything apart. Looking for anything. So Sad . I am , me What you get is what you see, No hidden agendas , just trying to get by ,
In this world , just like everyone else , Yes a lot of people get hurt also , this is our lessons or blessings , good and bad in everything , Sometimes you cannot see the good or bad, till , hindsight,.
If only we all could bottle that stuff ,. If that was Love then i will stay alone, Cele-bit, Nun comes to
mind . Think am a bit late for that i have 3 kids lol :) , You have got to laugh, because if you dont you
will go insane, maybe i am , Maybe i am not , i have it on good authority i am far from , Insane.
Things that have happened over the years , could have sent me insane maybe did at the time, but i am here writing this sorry tale,& loads more to come 1 day i will finish a book till then , i will just share the mad things that go on day to day in each of our life`s.
From getting up till we roll into our beds at bedtime, there is always something , nothing ever seems to be alright, always seems to be everything is up in the air , as i said before , just as you think you have a handle on life the ruddy thing goes and breaks. Breaking you in two, The other saying what doesn`t kill you will make you stronger is true also but it feels like its killing you at the time.
As the days roll by , you make yourself busy , taking your mind of things you hope , but its always your last thought and your first, . What has this day got in store for me & Mines.
We all suffer in our own heads we are our own worst critics , i know i am my worst ,
I question everything then question again , and again till am right back at the beginning.
It all starts again , the day , the time , the month , the years all go by so fast, we do not realize
Till we are older , when we do not get bored , remember being bored , no neither do i , I heard my
Son complain he was bored just the other day , & it set me to thinking , Children have so much at their
fingertips , Yet ask to help with a chore and that is an effort lol :) . Children they have no clue of just how easy they do have it , some children , sorry !! Mad how i feel i have to apologize for the poor children who dont have . These kids are just as important too all are unique , with so much love to give and light your way in your darkest of hours . Love , peace & Light & Respect :) Have a great day :)
Trying to flatten you,turning you inside out, losing all faith-in everything. Nothing seems real, As you mope, about wondering why. Why did I let this happen to myself? A gluten for punishment , a sucker for a sob story. Why is it you get hurt when all you tried to do was your best and give all a peaceful life. Instead of things being lessons, why can`t they be blessings too, Why do they want to hurt you, Deep down inside twisting the knife. knowing the effect its having , yet that doesn`t bother you. Tears are for self pity, I even began to believe this,. No tears are when you finally realized. How strong you have tried rto be. Just because i do not share my tears dont think they dont flow, flowing down my cheeks almost blinding me to write. The tears they flow freely when no one can see. I was taught not to cry, I have too i cannot stop , what is deep inside , it needs out. Doesn`t matter how hard you try, There is always someone to pull you apart. Even with lies. Not thinking of the consequences for your thought less actions. I would not give you the satisfaction of seeing my tears. You could not handle me at my best , Your definitely not going to cope with me at my worst. Your too busy micros-coping everything. You have no idea the bigger picture!! As long as you are all right jack springs to mind.
Its sore when some1, you thought was a friend or so called friends. Pull everything apart. Looking for anything. So Sad . I am , me What you get is what you see, No hidden agendas , just trying to get by ,
In this world , just like everyone else , Yes a lot of people get hurt also , this is our lessons or blessings , good and bad in everything , Sometimes you cannot see the good or bad, till , hindsight,.
If only we all could bottle that stuff ,. If that was Love then i will stay alone, Cele-bit, Nun comes to
mind . Think am a bit late for that i have 3 kids lol :) , You have got to laugh, because if you dont you
will go insane, maybe i am , Maybe i am not , i have it on good authority i am far from , Insane.
Things that have happened over the years , could have sent me insane maybe did at the time, but i am here writing this sorry tale,& loads more to come 1 day i will finish a book till then , i will just share the mad things that go on day to day in each of our life`s.
From getting up till we roll into our beds at bedtime, there is always something , nothing ever seems to be alright, always seems to be everything is up in the air , as i said before , just as you think you have a handle on life the ruddy thing goes and breaks. Breaking you in two, The other saying what doesn`t kill you will make you stronger is true also but it feels like its killing you at the time.
As the days roll by , you make yourself busy , taking your mind of things you hope , but its always your last thought and your first, . What has this day got in store for me & Mines.
We all suffer in our own heads we are our own worst critics , i know i am my worst ,
I question everything then question again , and again till am right back at the beginning.
It all starts again , the day , the time , the month , the years all go by so fast, we do not realize
Till we are older , when we do not get bored , remember being bored , no neither do i , I heard my
Son complain he was bored just the other day , & it set me to thinking , Children have so much at their
fingertips , Yet ask to help with a chore and that is an effort lol :) . Children they have no clue of just how easy they do have it , some children , sorry !! Mad how i feel i have to apologize for the poor children who dont have . These kids are just as important too all are unique , with so much love to give and light your way in your darkest of hours . Love , peace & Light & Respect :) Have a great day :)
Saturday, 14 March 2015
Mentil Block
I haven`t written in , what feels forever, I have been busy , with other things, i love to write,
Put it all down , even just to reflect on ,
There is plenty lessons learnt and taught to us all we might not even see at the time , its not till
you are a wee bit, down the line and you do have to, reflect.
Especially the lessons we are to, learn and how, hard those times, were, and now how you overcame
those hurdle`s. You might of felt like death warmed up at the time or no feelings at all , numb,
Numbed into some kind of silent madness, its all in your head they say, well why try ply me
with antidepressants, If its all in my head , its going to stay there , hidden with some mental ,
block , Driving me insane at times, Not being able to remember, can be a blessing or a nightmare.
Having a Gift to see the future , is it a gift or a hindrance?. I still cannot decide, I see so much,
Yet see so little sometimes, Its not till after and you do your reflection , you realize , you knew,
all along , Then you question , what was the point if i could not stop any of it.
The point is , This makes or breaks you , things that happen in life, we have to find strength in all,
That we do. Easier said than done , when every thing feels piled high against you and all
you thought was , is not was it was at all, Everything turned on its head , everything you knew as , is now gone , and you are left wondering , Loads of questions and answers , Its deciphering the right ,
and the wrong from it all the good and the bad the down right ugly and more so how did you,
manage , People ask how i get out of bed in the morning or even bother to at the time, when it was at its worst, This was not a good thing to say to someone , who has everything they have ever known taken totally, out of their life , all that is , is memory's,. Even not wanting to move forward is another battle in itself. Having to make new history , when you want what was and not what is, Heart strings getting pulled in all directions , you getting dragged in all directions, not knowing your arse, from your elbow so to speak, Somehow we do get through, and are stronger for it, its true " what doesn`t kill you makes you stronger", You have to get strong or you sink , no ones going to throw you a life line.
You have to do it by yourself for the lessons to be learn`t. Once you have learn`t the lesson sent then you can accept the help, Maybe that`s just me . To proud to ask for help,
The reason i have this out look is life its self caused me to think in this manner,
"dont expect any thing from any one" "then when it does happen its a bonus".
Then maybe teach yourself to become self reliant. Its great to have someone by our side, 2 heads are always better than one, " different opinions, Then yous`e can decipher between yous`e which is the best answer for the dilemma yous`e are facing. Then of-course if you don`t have the 2, of you any more, and everything is left down to your say so, You question everything at-least 10 times over ,
That is probably my problem , questioning everything , on hindsight , everything i planned,
has worked out, without me even being aware , I know this sounds daft, believe me its far from it,
When you do have a Life changing effect, then another & another , you have to question and stop and think, What is this all about , why hit me with all this at this time in my life. Just as i thought everything seemed to be getting better , huh , another thing thrown into the ring , to test ,
my strength, As a mother my strength comes from my children, They make me need to live,
They make me feel the need to live for them, I could not leave them, they have lost 1 parent,
To lose another so early would, not be right , and definitely, Not fare.
The things thrown , i don`t know of no other who has had all this thrown in their ring ,Thankfully
i found the strenght i never even knew i had, i put one foot in front of the other, and that is how i get
through my day, Maybe some of my choices are wrong , only time will tell , all i can say is i do my best. That is all i can do , considering all that has went before me, i have managed to this day , tomorrow is not here yet, The past , present & future for us all is in us all, I don`t know if , me getting to see my future was that good for me, but must of been good some how because i am here to share this tale. There is loads of messages and answers for loads of different, scenarios, The stuff i have learnt cannot be learnt from a book , You could read the book and think , this couldn`t all happen to 1 family in less than 1 year , Of course, It wasnt just 1 year there is 30 odd years of it all, the year i talk of was the year it all changed , and every thing that was, is, now history , our history. Of our
Life`s as a family in this day and age from 1980 through to 2010. Then all changed , it all got so dark,
I wouldn`t have been able to see any light or wood for any trees.
Now 5 years later i am strong , yes i am strong , only because of all the pain, We have had to endure
We had to learn lessons so severe, I could very easily have given up, but the inner me would never have let that be, You only find the inner you , when that is all there is in sight. Your children's faces give you strength, make you rise your head as if lighting their paths, as a good mum would do,
watch for all the pit falls in life , try to help your child before they fall, give plenty advice, they will listen, they will still do what they were going to do, and when you remember how many times you have told them, remember , when your parent`s were telling you, did you listen or did you go,
and make mistakes, I definitely know i did, That is all the life`s learning for you, You as parents can advise as i did , just make sure to be there when they fall to help pick them up and dust them down, dont say i told you so, They know this only too well now after the fall, You pick your child up dust them down and ease them forward, Always watching in the back ground, knowing the answers ,
Knowing they are going to get hurt is hard, even harder when they do get hurt, as i have said do not say i told you so, Or even a look , All their anger will come at you from all angles, that also is your job.
To help them turn this anger , negativity, into positivity , its not an easy quest , Its hard being a teacher,
All the things its up to you to install in your child, I found some of the things i did install, manners for example are free, and get every one so much further in life. Morals , Standards they should apply to their daily life`s , we all do , loads of silly simple things we do not even think of twice of , is all teaching your child from day 1, your actions , your voice, the baby already knows from the womb,
Children are so clever , so resilient, Its upto us as the adults to nurture these gifts. keep our children bright , they are bright , keep that up , from day one they are inquisitive, and give so much joy ,
I have even heard , its a Thankless task , being a parent? No, its really one of the best ever experiences in life. This little bundle , watching them grow and bloom , is what the thanks is , its what you put in as they are baby`s . laying solid foundations, and your relationship will flourish and bloom, with your child as they grow,Your heart pounding with pride , in the knowledge you helped bring such a wonderful, creation to this life. Then on hindsight , it was really you , that helped mold and shape this child , now going into the world themselves and you know you have done all you could to keep them smart for everything outside , There will be things they will come across , they become your teacher?
Myself i see as always a student in life, never a master, too many people think that, when really we
are all in this together. this life and the futures of our children's , children , that is what i see to life.
Very easy steps , they might seem , life seems an up wards struggle everything raining down on top of you, Learn to dance in this rain , and everything will seem like a dream . Love light & Peace :)
Put it all down , even just to reflect on ,
There is plenty lessons learnt and taught to us all we might not even see at the time , its not till
you are a wee bit, down the line and you do have to, reflect.
Especially the lessons we are to, learn and how, hard those times, were, and now how you overcame
those hurdle`s. You might of felt like death warmed up at the time or no feelings at all , numb,
Numbed into some kind of silent madness, its all in your head they say, well why try ply me
with antidepressants, If its all in my head , its going to stay there , hidden with some mental ,
block , Driving me insane at times, Not being able to remember, can be a blessing or a nightmare.
Having a Gift to see the future , is it a gift or a hindrance?. I still cannot decide, I see so much,
Yet see so little sometimes, Its not till after and you do your reflection , you realize , you knew,
all along , Then you question , what was the point if i could not stop any of it.
The point is , This makes or breaks you , things that happen in life, we have to find strength in all,
That we do. Easier said than done , when every thing feels piled high against you and all
you thought was , is not was it was at all, Everything turned on its head , everything you knew as , is now gone , and you are left wondering , Loads of questions and answers , Its deciphering the right ,
and the wrong from it all the good and the bad the down right ugly and more so how did you,
manage , People ask how i get out of bed in the morning or even bother to at the time, when it was at its worst, This was not a good thing to say to someone , who has everything they have ever known taken totally, out of their life , all that is , is memory's,. Even not wanting to move forward is another battle in itself. Having to make new history , when you want what was and not what is, Heart strings getting pulled in all directions , you getting dragged in all directions, not knowing your arse, from your elbow so to speak, Somehow we do get through, and are stronger for it, its true " what doesn`t kill you makes you stronger", You have to get strong or you sink , no ones going to throw you a life line.
You have to do it by yourself for the lessons to be learn`t. Once you have learn`t the lesson sent then you can accept the help, Maybe that`s just me . To proud to ask for help,
The reason i have this out look is life its self caused me to think in this manner,
"dont expect any thing from any one" "then when it does happen its a bonus".
Then maybe teach yourself to become self reliant. Its great to have someone by our side, 2 heads are always better than one, " different opinions, Then yous`e can decipher between yous`e which is the best answer for the dilemma yous`e are facing. Then of-course if you don`t have the 2, of you any more, and everything is left down to your say so, You question everything at-least 10 times over ,
That is probably my problem , questioning everything , on hindsight , everything i planned,
has worked out, without me even being aware , I know this sounds daft, believe me its far from it,
When you do have a Life changing effect, then another & another , you have to question and stop and think, What is this all about , why hit me with all this at this time in my life. Just as i thought everything seemed to be getting better , huh , another thing thrown into the ring , to test ,
my strength, As a mother my strength comes from my children, They make me need to live,
They make me feel the need to live for them, I could not leave them, they have lost 1 parent,
To lose another so early would, not be right , and definitely, Not fare.
The things thrown , i don`t know of no other who has had all this thrown in their ring ,Thankfully
i found the strenght i never even knew i had, i put one foot in front of the other, and that is how i get
through my day, Maybe some of my choices are wrong , only time will tell , all i can say is i do my best. That is all i can do , considering all that has went before me, i have managed to this day , tomorrow is not here yet, The past , present & future for us all is in us all, I don`t know if , me getting to see my future was that good for me, but must of been good some how because i am here to share this tale. There is loads of messages and answers for loads of different, scenarios, The stuff i have learnt cannot be learnt from a book , You could read the book and think , this couldn`t all happen to 1 family in less than 1 year , Of course, It wasnt just 1 year there is 30 odd years of it all, the year i talk of was the year it all changed , and every thing that was, is, now history , our history. Of our
Life`s as a family in this day and age from 1980 through to 2010. Then all changed , it all got so dark,
I wouldn`t have been able to see any light or wood for any trees.
Now 5 years later i am strong , yes i am strong , only because of all the pain, We have had to endure
We had to learn lessons so severe, I could very easily have given up, but the inner me would never have let that be, You only find the inner you , when that is all there is in sight. Your children's faces give you strength, make you rise your head as if lighting their paths, as a good mum would do,
watch for all the pit falls in life , try to help your child before they fall, give plenty advice, they will listen, they will still do what they were going to do, and when you remember how many times you have told them, remember , when your parent`s were telling you, did you listen or did you go,
and make mistakes, I definitely know i did, That is all the life`s learning for you, You as parents can advise as i did , just make sure to be there when they fall to help pick them up and dust them down, dont say i told you so, They know this only too well now after the fall, You pick your child up dust them down and ease them forward, Always watching in the back ground, knowing the answers ,
Knowing they are going to get hurt is hard, even harder when they do get hurt, as i have said do not say i told you so, Or even a look , All their anger will come at you from all angles, that also is your job.
To help them turn this anger , negativity, into positivity , its not an easy quest , Its hard being a teacher,
All the things its up to you to install in your child, I found some of the things i did install, manners for example are free, and get every one so much further in life. Morals , Standards they should apply to their daily life`s , we all do , loads of silly simple things we do not even think of twice of , is all teaching your child from day 1, your actions , your voice, the baby already knows from the womb,
Children are so clever , so resilient, Its upto us as the adults to nurture these gifts. keep our children bright , they are bright , keep that up , from day one they are inquisitive, and give so much joy ,
I have even heard , its a Thankless task , being a parent? No, its really one of the best ever experiences in life. This little bundle , watching them grow and bloom , is what the thanks is , its what you put in as they are baby`s . laying solid foundations, and your relationship will flourish and bloom, with your child as they grow,Your heart pounding with pride , in the knowledge you helped bring such a wonderful, creation to this life. Then on hindsight , it was really you , that helped mold and shape this child , now going into the world themselves and you know you have done all you could to keep them smart for everything outside , There will be things they will come across , they become your teacher?
Myself i see as always a student in life, never a master, too many people think that, when really we
are all in this together. this life and the futures of our children's , children , that is what i see to life.
Very easy steps , they might seem , life seems an up wards struggle everything raining down on top of you, Learn to dance in this rain , and everything will seem like a dream . Love light & Peace :)
Sunday, 8 March 2015
Planting seeds
I was sitting , thinking . no wonder you were saying ssshhh, you were sick hearing it. That tale u spoke of yesterday me doing something I shouldn`t have been? Yip i said that of-course i did, and you would do the same. U keep to listening to your pals , gossip. Funny and so so sad. As for asking your family , to come stay , ( dont) he doesn`t want to stay. Mind children pick up on all the shit too and
he has heard most of this too. When you make a child a promise, you try keep to it, Especially your own child, for future reverence. Your nephew has always known never to expect nothing& he doesn`t,. He is doing brilliant so am quite glad you, never came. As i say i knew you weren`t coming either & told the child not to worry, he did not have to stay. Now that makes me question big time.
yes boys love motorbike`s. Don`t they all , now i have written this 1/2 days before , sending this I was planing on keeping it till tomorrow, then after i have sent this , keep back from our house,& My son, if you see him outside you can say hello, You are not coming to my house for to carry gossip, i planted seeds , and you all helped them bloom, even helping me , this i know will piss yous`e of the most ,.
O i have so much gossip malicious, not from me , I have just listened, and speculated, at just how
long you would all take. As i say loads more but i have had it with , this silliness, away and play some were else . Not on my door step or near my life. What i can say is the person was that pissed,
he took me to be his wife . Gossip so easy to spread especially when it sounds so, .
As you once knew someone else and what he done, he would Plant seeds?. As you well know,
And just sit back and wait , And sure as fate, they come back , not even full circle , just a filthy,
tongue, Negativity. that is so easy to spread , just like their legs . O a little nip , ehmm o dear,
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha,
Malicious, & negative what a combination, o how great your life must be, you can sit,
& judge ME.
You have no idea , your malicious tongue and not just yours all of you , Every little thing i hear,
about you, is it good, nope its really quite bad. I wont dissect your life how you have done mines,
You stick to your negativity , and your shit stirring , remembering all the while , karma will,
and always pays back. This i know for sure. Now i have spent enough of my time even thinking of this , yes it gave me questions answered i really had no clue, Now i can thank you for that,
all the negativity i can change, can you.
he has heard most of this too. When you make a child a promise, you try keep to it, Especially your own child, for future reverence. Your nephew has always known never to expect nothing& he doesn`t,. He is doing brilliant so am quite glad you, never came. As i say i knew you weren`t coming either & told the child not to worry, he did not have to stay. Now that makes me question big time.
yes boys love motorbike`s. Don`t they all , now i have written this 1/2 days before , sending this I was planing on keeping it till tomorrow, then after i have sent this , keep back from our house,& My son, if you see him outside you can say hello, You are not coming to my house for to carry gossip, i planted seeds , and you all helped them bloom, even helping me , this i know will piss yous`e of the most ,.
O i have so much gossip malicious, not from me , I have just listened, and speculated, at just how
long you would all take. As i say loads more but i have had it with , this silliness, away and play some were else . Not on my door step or near my life. What i can say is the person was that pissed,
he took me to be his wife . Gossip so easy to spread especially when it sounds so, .
As you once knew someone else and what he done, he would Plant seeds?. As you well know,
And just sit back and wait , And sure as fate, they come back , not even full circle , just a filthy,
tongue, Negativity. that is so easy to spread , just like their legs . O a little nip , ehmm o dear,
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha,
Malicious, & negative what a combination, o how great your life must be, you can sit,
& judge ME.
You have no idea , your malicious tongue and not just yours all of you , Every little thing i hear,
about you, is it good, nope its really quite bad. I wont dissect your life how you have done mines,
You stick to your negativity , and your shit stirring , remembering all the while , karma will,
and always pays back. This i know for sure. Now i have spent enough of my time even thinking of this , yes it gave me questions answered i really had no clue, Now i can thank you for that,
all the negativity i can change, can you.
Phoenix
Is This all there is, Is this , what there is to me,
The Angel in me Rising, Rising high, Rising high in me.
The demons Crashing to the floor, My Angels are much
too strong, Than any evil. Good always wins.
So Clear your heart & thoughts of malice Almost transparent.
The Devil in you will be Squished.
The Angels always rise, like a phoenix from its ashes,
It Grows, from the fire up up, Not down, The Further it climbs.
The more spectacular the colors, The Imagination is is you,
Just clear your mind, of all that`s not pure, There might be stuff??.
There you never wanted to see again. face the Fear.
It helps mold the strength you can find, Yes the Strenght in YOU,
It is Unbelievable, till all you do have is yourself & what is in you.
Life has challenges for us all, in all that we do , from picking a flower,
To planting a seed, & watching this new life bloom, Knowing you helped to
help it grow, In the knowledge what this plant can create , what it can do.
Makes everything seem totaly stupid the lenghts some people have to go,
For what , A Plant , No its lessons it will teach you even a plant has life like feelings.
As you help your plant grow , remember to talk to it, they love this , and its a fact
they love the co2 from your breath . I have Plants that are over 15, and i can tell,
a lot from my plants , how things are in my life, funny as it sounds, if you make a connection.
No matter how small , its there for life, Like minded people find like minded people.
Its great to hear ,that others have problems in their life`s too, Not all is rosy.
As it seems behind every closed door a different story behind every door.
Something different, lies in store , What no one will truly know, due to all the speculation.
O how sad ,
The Angel in me Rising, Rising high, Rising high in me.
The demons Crashing to the floor, My Angels are much
too strong, Than any evil. Good always wins.
So Clear your heart & thoughts of malice Almost transparent.
The Devil in you will be Squished.
The Angels always rise, like a phoenix from its ashes,
It Grows, from the fire up up, Not down, The Further it climbs.
The more spectacular the colors, The Imagination is is you,
Just clear your mind, of all that`s not pure, There might be stuff??.
There you never wanted to see again. face the Fear.
It helps mold the strength you can find, Yes the Strenght in YOU,
It is Unbelievable, till all you do have is yourself & what is in you.
Life has challenges for us all, in all that we do , from picking a flower,
To planting a seed, & watching this new life bloom, Knowing you helped to
help it grow, In the knowledge what this plant can create , what it can do.
Makes everything seem totaly stupid the lenghts some people have to go,
For what , A Plant , No its lessons it will teach you even a plant has life like feelings.
As you help your plant grow , remember to talk to it, they love this , and its a fact
they love the co2 from your breath . I have Plants that are over 15, and i can tell,
a lot from my plants , how things are in my life, funny as it sounds, if you make a connection.
No matter how small , its there for life, Like minded people find like minded people.
Its great to hear ,that others have problems in their life`s too, Not all is rosy.
As it seems behind every closed door a different story behind every door.
Something different, lies in store , What no one will truly know, due to all the speculation.
O how sad ,
Saturday, 7 March 2015
Future
Hello Saturday :), The weekend , Its been a good 1 for the kids already, They are of out to play on their Scooters, the weather was wet , and now has dried . Scooters are some price , really they are
priceless, to see the joy on your child's face, when they first start of with their new toy, unsure
wobbly ,Just like every thing that is going to come in life, when you first do it , everyone is wobly and unsure.
Practice makes perfect , every time they fall, get right on back up and back on, they are breaks.
Little ones in everything we do , even playing , its all for our futures. I have a poem, i refer to,
and i found it years ago, when my older 2 were baby`s. It still stands the test of time and someone
, kindly looked it out for me, I have this peom an as i say refer to it often , its all about Children
and bringing them up , just simple sentences that make so much sense. I will write it and put it here for everyone to see, once you see this i am sure you will have seen it before. Or when you read it,
It will stand out and shout at you too just like it did me,. It made that much an impact i remembered
about it 25 years later and will never forget. I am going to have to write , i can`t seem to copy and past it.
LESSONS FROM LIFE
A child that lives with ridicule , learns to be timid,
A child that lives with criticism, learns to condem,
A child that lives with distrust , learns to be deceitful
A child that lives with antagonism, learns to be hostile
A child that lives with Truth, learns justice.
A child that lives with praise , learn`s to appreciate,
A child that lives with encouragement , learns confidence,
A child that lives with affection, learns to love.
A child that lives with sharing, learns to be considerate,
A child that lives with Knowledge, learns wisdom,
A child that lives with patience, Learns to be tolerant.
A child that lives with happiness, will find Love & Beauty.
These are the simple rules i have , followed as best i could. I`m not perfect far from it, and
would never ever think i was any were near, but i do know right from wrong,
So do my children, and so will theirs , and so do any children that have come,
These simple rules applied to all children, especially as they grow, Make for solid foundations,
The rest you just water them and watch them grow,. Life`s highway, you can only help them
so far, they have lessons to learn too, and as a parent i can only advise, And so can you,
any parent, dont try to tell them how to live their life.
You can advise , if you shout and scream you will find, they dont listen but cannot wait, to get away
from your voice.
If you talk calm, explain, why and what could and is wrong , talk to them , you will be surprised.
They truly do listen to you, you are their rock. You , Seemingly if a child doesn`t tell you,
at-least 1 time they hate, you a day?. Then your not doing it right lol . This is a healthy good sign.
They do not really, hate you. Every child is unique and have so much to give, learning is fun,
Make it so not a chore , everything is all about learning for their future, you can set them up with the right tools, and ammunition, It is totally up-to, them how they use these ,. All you can do, when the choices, they make are wrong, is be there, to help pick them up and dust them down , & say there
there there , Not i told You SO.
It can be hard especially when you know you can stop the fall,. You can try with all your might
Then i say , just think back to when your parents tried to tell you something. Did you listen!!! NO.
I know i never , i thought i knew all there was needed to know , now i can laugh at how stupid and naive, talk about green behind the ears. Ha personaly you could have grown potatoes in mines.
This must have drove my mum daft, seeing my mistakes yet would i listen, would i nothing.
Me miss no it all , huh . Now on reflection , i wish i had of i have another poem about Mothers Too
At 6 years"Mommy" I Love you.
At 10 years , whatever.
At 16, my mum is so annoying ,
At 18 ,i wanna leave this house,
At 25 mum, you were right,
At 30, I wanna go to Mums house,
At 50, I don`t want to lose my mum.
At 70 , i would give up everything ,
For my mum to be here right now.
This is appreciating your mum .
Its not till your child has their own children , they realize, some of the sacrifices made, just for that wee bundle of hope, love and joy, The smiles and laughter you will share is Priceless, To see
a content face , to hear them eating their dinner grunting , o how you will laugh , this time goes by
so fast , these little moments , soon are all in your history as you watch your child and how they
have grown , on all levels, Do not think its only Till they are 16 lol these years were the easy ones,
Its the teenage years , when your child you hardly recognize, Just remember they love you, no matter what they spurt out of their mouths. If you have laid solid foundations they will come back round its only their teenage years, Remember yours. Mines were wild and thankfully maybe that is how i keep
my children smart and hopefully teach and taught them well. for their futures and their children's futures. We as the parents have to bring the magic back , children are not children for long these days, personally I wouldn`t like to be a child of this day and age, Watching and trying to understand their ways , sometimes i am left scratching my head as to why, then i remember what i was like and again thankfully nothing like their parents, so we must have done something right. Another reason,
I know for sure my older 2 were proper, had manners etc, especially when the parents are not there
People who met our children before us in person, would want to meet us , to see who is bringing
these children up , as to how they behaved, in everything they done, it shined through, and that
was one of the greatest compliments we received, due to the person wishing to meet the parents of these children, They were so clever and spot on , and so sure of themselves,. We as the parents were intrigued, as to how our children had such an impact on others too, We went to meet this person ,
Who could not believe these children, and he was very surprised il bet , it was us, yes we know loads.
That is why we made sure our children never suffered , At the hands of any adult like we did, to learn our lessons, These lessons your child should know from a very early age and be truthful. Our children leanr`t other lessons , probably same as ours , we just made sure we stopped any big problems when we could see.
priceless, to see the joy on your child's face, when they first start of with their new toy, unsure
wobbly ,Just like every thing that is going to come in life, when you first do it , everyone is wobly and unsure.
Practice makes perfect , every time they fall, get right on back up and back on, they are breaks.
Little ones in everything we do , even playing , its all for our futures. I have a poem, i refer to,
and i found it years ago, when my older 2 were baby`s. It still stands the test of time and someone
, kindly looked it out for me, I have this peom an as i say refer to it often , its all about Children
and bringing them up , just simple sentences that make so much sense. I will write it and put it here for everyone to see, once you see this i am sure you will have seen it before. Or when you read it,
It will stand out and shout at you too just like it did me,. It made that much an impact i remembered
about it 25 years later and will never forget. I am going to have to write , i can`t seem to copy and past it.
LESSONS FROM LIFE
A child that lives with ridicule , learns to be timid,
A child that lives with criticism, learns to condem,
A child that lives with distrust , learns to be deceitful
A child that lives with antagonism, learns to be hostile
A child that lives with Truth, learns justice.
A child that lives with praise , learn`s to appreciate,
A child that lives with encouragement , learns confidence,
A child that lives with affection, learns to love.
A child that lives with sharing, learns to be considerate,
A child that lives with Knowledge, learns wisdom,
A child that lives with patience, Learns to be tolerant.
A child that lives with happiness, will find Love & Beauty.
These are the simple rules i have , followed as best i could. I`m not perfect far from it, and
would never ever think i was any were near, but i do know right from wrong,
So do my children, and so will theirs , and so do any children that have come,
These simple rules applied to all children, especially as they grow, Make for solid foundations,
The rest you just water them and watch them grow,. Life`s highway, you can only help them
so far, they have lessons to learn too, and as a parent i can only advise, And so can you,
any parent, dont try to tell them how to live their life.
You can advise , if you shout and scream you will find, they dont listen but cannot wait, to get away
from your voice.
If you talk calm, explain, why and what could and is wrong , talk to them , you will be surprised.
They truly do listen to you, you are their rock. You , Seemingly if a child doesn`t tell you,
at-least 1 time they hate, you a day?. Then your not doing it right lol . This is a healthy good sign.
They do not really, hate you. Every child is unique and have so much to give, learning is fun,
Make it so not a chore , everything is all about learning for their future, you can set them up with the right tools, and ammunition, It is totally up-to, them how they use these ,. All you can do, when the choices, they make are wrong, is be there, to help pick them up and dust them down , & say there
there there , Not i told You SO.
It can be hard especially when you know you can stop the fall,. You can try with all your might
Then i say , just think back to when your parents tried to tell you something. Did you listen!!! NO.
I know i never , i thought i knew all there was needed to know , now i can laugh at how stupid and naive, talk about green behind the ears. Ha personaly you could have grown potatoes in mines.
This must have drove my mum daft, seeing my mistakes yet would i listen, would i nothing.
Me miss no it all , huh . Now on reflection , i wish i had of i have another poem about Mothers Too
At 6 years"Mommy" I Love you.
At 10 years , whatever.
At 16, my mum is so annoying ,
At 18 ,i wanna leave this house,
At 25 mum, you were right,
At 30, I wanna go to Mums house,
At 50, I don`t want to lose my mum.
At 70 , i would give up everything ,
For my mum to be here right now.
This is appreciating your mum .
Its not till your child has their own children , they realize, some of the sacrifices made, just for that wee bundle of hope, love and joy, The smiles and laughter you will share is Priceless, To see
a content face , to hear them eating their dinner grunting , o how you will laugh , this time goes by
so fast , these little moments , soon are all in your history as you watch your child and how they
have grown , on all levels, Do not think its only Till they are 16 lol these years were the easy ones,
Its the teenage years , when your child you hardly recognize, Just remember they love you, no matter what they spurt out of their mouths. If you have laid solid foundations they will come back round its only their teenage years, Remember yours. Mines were wild and thankfully maybe that is how i keep
my children smart and hopefully teach and taught them well. for their futures and their children's futures. We as the parents have to bring the magic back , children are not children for long these days, personally I wouldn`t like to be a child of this day and age, Watching and trying to understand their ways , sometimes i am left scratching my head as to why, then i remember what i was like and again thankfully nothing like their parents, so we must have done something right. Another reason,
I know for sure my older 2 were proper, had manners etc, especially when the parents are not there
People who met our children before us in person, would want to meet us , to see who is bringing
these children up , as to how they behaved, in everything they done, it shined through, and that
was one of the greatest compliments we received, due to the person wishing to meet the parents of these children, They were so clever and spot on , and so sure of themselves,. We as the parents were intrigued, as to how our children had such an impact on others too, We went to meet this person ,
Who could not believe these children, and he was very surprised il bet , it was us, yes we know loads.
That is why we made sure our children never suffered , At the hands of any adult like we did, to learn our lessons, These lessons your child should know from a very early age and be truthful. Our children leanr`t other lessons , probably same as ours , we just made sure we stopped any big problems when we could see.
Friday, 6 March 2015
The not Knowing
What a day to day , not feeling the joys o spring, just yet :). I am feeling something though,
maybe the cold . I feel so much for so much , i sometimes ask myself why i feel how i do , and to tell the truth i have`t a clue. I just do and now i am so glad,. My intuition knows before i do, keeps me well in check of all everything. Without my knowledge i may add, people might think what a load of rubbish but from my life i can assure , it is not far from it.
& if people do say this then they are the fools .
We all have this ability it is in us all , some of us are lucky it comes easily , some it might take years, whilst others already think they know all there is to know. Far from it every day a school day i say,.
No matter what the lesson or lessons of that day , its not till later when you reflect you realize, are people really that stupid, even worse think that i am that stupid. I believe they do , now this will come right round and bite them big time. Due to me just being me, no malice intent, or alter-ea motive, all i seek is , truth and honesty , is that really too much to ask. seems it is for some, people , that`s fine :).
Due to, i know my heart is pure so if anyone, try`s to be sleakit or whatever, the laws (higher beings) that do look out for me, will step in as they always do. Thankfully and best is i am totally unaware ,
and in a way i am glad i am , what if i was to truly know of the harm they seek to cause, I know the power in me. I know in myself as a person , i only do good, and would give someone my last because that is me, always has been and i am not changing who i am for no one ever . That would not be me at all
I know change only too well, It can happen at the flick of a switch , & people that know will know , that i am talking correctly when saying life can change so fast, You think everything is all going in 1 direction then wham the carpet is pulled from your feet. & there you go spinning into what ever has been thrown your way now, might seem never ending , it is. You have to adapt and you do , its not
easy but you get on somehow. Then as the years pass and you reflect you realize the lessons learn`t , you also find you can laugh at the most serious of things at the time, you thought you would never get
through, yet here you are laughing on reflection and also realizing how else you could have done the task.
That takes a life time to know most of the answers none of us know all the answers to everything,
join all we do know together and ilbet we all do just fine. Unite all the groups no hate, just whats right for us all , we all deserve this, not just the ones way up high in their bubbles, Living a life that is not real, it will seem real to the person , take all their belongings and what have they truly got ?? Usually nothing , not even 1 bit of common sense. That will be why they run the country`s, They can mess
that up to , they already have, its us that will suffer and the future of our kids and their kids. Life is mad, Sometimes a good mad , nieces told me to stay Mad lol, Not a bad mad , happy mad , because that is how they have known me from their childhood, happily mad , But standing solid when ever they needed me. tha is why the children still come to me now even though they have grown,. They still like to check in with the one who helped when no one else would even look the path, they were on.
This is such a heart warmer it brings tears to my eyes knowing , i helped you , even if it was just for a little while , i some how gave you the strength to go on. All of you , and i am proud to say you have all done so well, yes we all have lessons we need to learn for yourself, so i could not do it all ,I was always there though, even if you could not here or see me, you would be in my heart and always will be, That is the mother in me , always will be and i definitely will not change that of me.
I definitly feel something though, all will be revealed i will wait and see, i will wait with apprehension
, Not knowing just what is for me, what this person has thought up , What i do know what ever it is i can assure it will come right back at ya 10 fold. If you dare to look a bit back at my history?. you
will see, any one with malice or bad intent gets seen to by the laws that be i can sit back in the sound knowledge of this. I think i will even put my feet up and spectate not from a great height , because if i
fall i will fall right on top of you,. Crush you like a roach that you are, don`t think i am ever fooled
Ever, If you do then i look forward to falling on you, from a height only to flatten, you, as you, might be trying, to do,!! to me. As am sure you have heard me say , i only get so low , then i start to bounce and if its all over you, then that is what you get for even thinking of causing any malice at all. Best of all carry your story`s. This i cannot wait to hear,. You know i will , You don`t even know, who, you are, right now ,but you will, when your walls, come tumbling down.
When you are young you criticize, and judge even stupid little things, its not till these things happen to you, And you are sitting angry and left wondering why. You will understand the true torment. The
trials and tribulations of this life. We are all so busy looking at everyone else we forget to look at our own life. Unless that is what you prefer to do, maybe because you find your life so boring and uneventful. You choose some one else s life to mock and pick at , like vulchar`s , scraping for every last piece, even hovering before to make sure they get their pickings first. Every last piece, all gone
ripped apart and dissected. As if it was nothing all lies , history colored now black, In the sad minds of these the vulchar`s. We all have them they come out especially if someone dies, So so sad, not thinking
of the family left hearing all this tales of , speculation , no one knows nothing for sure, we can`t even trust it written in black and white. All we have is time!! Time for to do what we do be who we are.
maybe the cold . I feel so much for so much , i sometimes ask myself why i feel how i do , and to tell the truth i have`t a clue. I just do and now i am so glad,. My intuition knows before i do, keeps me well in check of all everything. Without my knowledge i may add, people might think what a load of rubbish but from my life i can assure , it is not far from it.
& if people do say this then they are the fools .
We all have this ability it is in us all , some of us are lucky it comes easily , some it might take years, whilst others already think they know all there is to know. Far from it every day a school day i say,.
No matter what the lesson or lessons of that day , its not till later when you reflect you realize, are people really that stupid, even worse think that i am that stupid. I believe they do , now this will come right round and bite them big time. Due to me just being me, no malice intent, or alter-ea motive, all i seek is , truth and honesty , is that really too much to ask. seems it is for some, people , that`s fine :).
Due to, i know my heart is pure so if anyone, try`s to be sleakit or whatever, the laws (higher beings) that do look out for me, will step in as they always do. Thankfully and best is i am totally unaware ,
and in a way i am glad i am , what if i was to truly know of the harm they seek to cause, I know the power in me. I know in myself as a person , i only do good, and would give someone my last because that is me, always has been and i am not changing who i am for no one ever . That would not be me at all
I know change only too well, It can happen at the flick of a switch , & people that know will know , that i am talking correctly when saying life can change so fast, You think everything is all going in 1 direction then wham the carpet is pulled from your feet. & there you go spinning into what ever has been thrown your way now, might seem never ending , it is. You have to adapt and you do , its not
easy but you get on somehow. Then as the years pass and you reflect you realize the lessons learn`t , you also find you can laugh at the most serious of things at the time, you thought you would never get
through, yet here you are laughing on reflection and also realizing how else you could have done the task.
That takes a life time to know most of the answers none of us know all the answers to everything,
join all we do know together and ilbet we all do just fine. Unite all the groups no hate, just whats right for us all , we all deserve this, not just the ones way up high in their bubbles, Living a life that is not real, it will seem real to the person , take all their belongings and what have they truly got ?? Usually nothing , not even 1 bit of common sense. That will be why they run the country`s, They can mess
that up to , they already have, its us that will suffer and the future of our kids and their kids. Life is mad, Sometimes a good mad , nieces told me to stay Mad lol, Not a bad mad , happy mad , because that is how they have known me from their childhood, happily mad , But standing solid when ever they needed me. tha is why the children still come to me now even though they have grown,. They still like to check in with the one who helped when no one else would even look the path, they were on.
This is such a heart warmer it brings tears to my eyes knowing , i helped you , even if it was just for a little while , i some how gave you the strength to go on. All of you , and i am proud to say you have all done so well, yes we all have lessons we need to learn for yourself, so i could not do it all ,I was always there though, even if you could not here or see me, you would be in my heart and always will be, That is the mother in me , always will be and i definitely will not change that of me.
I definitly feel something though, all will be revealed i will wait and see, i will wait with apprehension
, Not knowing just what is for me, what this person has thought up , What i do know what ever it is i can assure it will come right back at ya 10 fold. If you dare to look a bit back at my history?. you
will see, any one with malice or bad intent gets seen to by the laws that be i can sit back in the sound knowledge of this. I think i will even put my feet up and spectate not from a great height , because if i
fall i will fall right on top of you,. Crush you like a roach that you are, don`t think i am ever fooled
Ever, If you do then i look forward to falling on you, from a height only to flatten, you, as you, might be trying, to do,!! to me. As am sure you have heard me say , i only get so low , then i start to bounce and if its all over you, then that is what you get for even thinking of causing any malice at all. Best of all carry your story`s. This i cannot wait to hear,. You know i will , You don`t even know, who, you are, right now ,but you will, when your walls, come tumbling down.
When you are young you criticize, and judge even stupid little things, its not till these things happen to you, And you are sitting angry and left wondering why. You will understand the true torment. The
trials and tribulations of this life. We are all so busy looking at everyone else we forget to look at our own life. Unless that is what you prefer to do, maybe because you find your life so boring and uneventful. You choose some one else s life to mock and pick at , like vulchar`s , scraping for every last piece, even hovering before to make sure they get their pickings first. Every last piece, all gone
ripped apart and dissected. As if it was nothing all lies , history colored now black, In the sad minds of these the vulchar`s. We all have them they come out especially if someone dies, So so sad, not thinking
of the family left hearing all this tales of , speculation , no one knows nothing for sure, we can`t even trust it written in black and white. All we have is time!! Time for to do what we do be who we are.
Wednesday, 4 March 2015
A Wee Tottie bit Light
I can see a wee tot tie, bit of light at the end , of what seemed one endless tunnel of all things,
not good, not good for the you, Being you?, Is what save`s you funny enough. You definitely,
do not feel it at the time, at the time all is bleak and black. Nothing to give you hope,
so why should you even bother,. you have too, no one is going to do it for you, and if you have been
true, and have stuck with your beliefs , maybe on my high horse at times , don`t we all !!. I am mainly talking out loud , to myself when i am writing , questioning Myself on every thing i say or do.
Which sometimes i wish i did not do. It just leaves me more uncertain, especially if i think too much.
I can now say Think with a smile on my face , especially the not to Think ,. thank you for that.
O how i wish i didn`t think so much , but i do i think of everyone , probably not me, maybe thats
selfish of me, to always be giving and not expecting nothing back, What is so wrong with that.
I don`t see any wrong doing, except for myself. Which i get all that i need in the knowledge,
That mines are all safe , and if i helped someone today , even better. Life can be so crap at times
we do need to come together and start to talk, start putting the phones away, the contraptions,
especially at meal times, or any quality time people can squeeze in these days, things are all so
fast, everything already, mapped out for the year ahead. That is us nearing spring , the Clocks,
spring Forward. All the young lambs are due its a great time of the year.
In a house i used to stay in i could count the days and weeks all down to a tree and the light it would give my garden every day,
The wildlife was brilliant to sit and watch. The comings and goings of a tiny little bird or a whole flock , was lovely. Then we had racing (homing ) pigeons, they were brilliant to watch then grow from an egg to a chick to a winner for you , racing home too you through 1000,s of other birds,
racing its little heart out for you and so proud when it lands on the spook- nick, almost gloating at the other birds as if look at me i am ho,e , even watching the mating, season is such a joy, to watch these little birds , they connect for life some of them Some as i was to find out have the highest disease of std,s , I was quite shocked to find this out. Life has been very eventful, the pigeons were such a joy
Lots of what you do in life puts, you in good stead for the later years , its also your attitude,
i love to see good , I don`t like to see the bad , unless it rears its ugly head and am forced to look,
I cannot help but get involved for the better good, I have got myself into so many fist fights,
helping a fellow human being who , the people were definitely, bulling, All i done is stopped
them all from a long prison sentence. The person they had kicked his head in was lying on the ground 2 grown men still kicking him , all i done is put my hands out to say enough is enough.
They were not happy A WOMAN . 1 of them sayed to me i will Rape You, huh , I lost it completly
come too and i was battering them both , what a crowd had gathered, I hadn`t seen , due to fighting for what seemed my life, yes they did have knifes too i was to find out. Thankfully what i was doing was righteous, i was aving a mans life from what i could see, he was on the floor no movement
time to stop. They left at this time also , i went back for another drink and carried on my day
The person i saved that day , he thanked me , he had to attend the hospital but all is well, i haven`t seen
him in years , hope all is still good .
1 event in a long long list of things i have done over the years for the better good, My Life seems worthless in comparison for the better Good. yes i have sacrificed greatly. And will still pay greatly
for my beliefs, espcaly in the better good for all , not just mines and me for us all . ALL
We have days when we jsu want to hide in the house , and hide away from everything.
Sadly we cannot do this ignorance is bliss, this i do know, we all need to wake up and UNITE
FOR THE BETTER GOOD OF US ALL. maybe i am dreaming and through my rose tinted specs, i can see this happening slowley but surly . people are wakening up to loads of things , just how corrupt
our so called System is, the whole scabby lot of our politicians, the rituals etc they go through, Personally: I think its all just a bigger boys group , as they grow they need to name them some thing and the cubs just doesn`t sound right for adults, yet the games they play!!. Beggars belief .
Saddens me to know this has gone on and on for centenary`s & will go on for more till the whole scabby lot are ousted. They will be . this i know for sure, The better Good comes into play here and Karma , what peope forget , when abusing children, is this child is going to grow up, and forget
nothing. The adults day comes . through laws of the better Good. Karmic, review , allways
waiting in the side lines , too right the wrong doing , thankfully, so stay true to you,
It comes to us all, Through time, we become the people we are today always struggling to better,
Toying with all areas of your life , placing all things in a mentil list in your minds eye, I done this
for years , then had to get a diary , and have had 1 for years and years now, its great to reflect, and you realise things come full circle, lessons you thought you had learn`t will surface again,
in another light, Every day a test new, at the time feeling stuck with concrete wellies on.
Even dragging the weight of it all with you, Then years later , looking back , you can laugh at some of the most stupidest things ,cry at the most beautiful love , your family with all your heart.
Cherish it all every minute it really does go so fast .Have a lovely day . Love Light &Peace :)
not good, not good for the you, Being you?, Is what save`s you funny enough. You definitely,
do not feel it at the time, at the time all is bleak and black. Nothing to give you hope,
so why should you even bother,. you have too, no one is going to do it for you, and if you have been
true, and have stuck with your beliefs , maybe on my high horse at times , don`t we all !!. I am mainly talking out loud , to myself when i am writing , questioning Myself on every thing i say or do.
Which sometimes i wish i did not do. It just leaves me more uncertain, especially if i think too much.
I can now say Think with a smile on my face , especially the not to Think ,. thank you for that.
O how i wish i didn`t think so much , but i do i think of everyone , probably not me, maybe thats
selfish of me, to always be giving and not expecting nothing back, What is so wrong with that.
I don`t see any wrong doing, except for myself. Which i get all that i need in the knowledge,
That mines are all safe , and if i helped someone today , even better. Life can be so crap at times
we do need to come together and start to talk, start putting the phones away, the contraptions,
especially at meal times, or any quality time people can squeeze in these days, things are all so
fast, everything already, mapped out for the year ahead. That is us nearing spring , the Clocks,
spring Forward. All the young lambs are due its a great time of the year.
In a house i used to stay in i could count the days and weeks all down to a tree and the light it would give my garden every day,
The wildlife was brilliant to sit and watch. The comings and goings of a tiny little bird or a whole flock , was lovely. Then we had racing (homing ) pigeons, they were brilliant to watch then grow from an egg to a chick to a winner for you , racing home too you through 1000,s of other birds,
racing its little heart out for you and so proud when it lands on the spook- nick, almost gloating at the other birds as if look at me i am ho,e , even watching the mating, season is such a joy, to watch these little birds , they connect for life some of them Some as i was to find out have the highest disease of std,s , I was quite shocked to find this out. Life has been very eventful, the pigeons were such a joy
Lots of what you do in life puts, you in good stead for the later years , its also your attitude,
i love to see good , I don`t like to see the bad , unless it rears its ugly head and am forced to look,
I cannot help but get involved for the better good, I have got myself into so many fist fights,
helping a fellow human being who , the people were definitely, bulling, All i done is stopped
them all from a long prison sentence. The person they had kicked his head in was lying on the ground 2 grown men still kicking him , all i done is put my hands out to say enough is enough.
They were not happy A WOMAN . 1 of them sayed to me i will Rape You, huh , I lost it completly
come too and i was battering them both , what a crowd had gathered, I hadn`t seen , due to fighting for what seemed my life, yes they did have knifes too i was to find out. Thankfully what i was doing was righteous, i was aving a mans life from what i could see, he was on the floor no movement
time to stop. They left at this time also , i went back for another drink and carried on my day
The person i saved that day , he thanked me , he had to attend the hospital but all is well, i haven`t seen
him in years , hope all is still good .
1 event in a long long list of things i have done over the years for the better good, My Life seems worthless in comparison for the better Good. yes i have sacrificed greatly. And will still pay greatly
for my beliefs, espcaly in the better good for all , not just mines and me for us all . ALL
We have days when we jsu want to hide in the house , and hide away from everything.
Sadly we cannot do this ignorance is bliss, this i do know, we all need to wake up and UNITE
FOR THE BETTER GOOD OF US ALL. maybe i am dreaming and through my rose tinted specs, i can see this happening slowley but surly . people are wakening up to loads of things , just how corrupt
our so called System is, the whole scabby lot of our politicians, the rituals etc they go through, Personally: I think its all just a bigger boys group , as they grow they need to name them some thing and the cubs just doesn`t sound right for adults, yet the games they play!!. Beggars belief .
Saddens me to know this has gone on and on for centenary`s & will go on for more till the whole scabby lot are ousted. They will be . this i know for sure, The better Good comes into play here and Karma , what peope forget , when abusing children, is this child is going to grow up, and forget
nothing. The adults day comes . through laws of the better Good. Karmic, review , allways
waiting in the side lines , too right the wrong doing , thankfully, so stay true to you,
It comes to us all, Through time, we become the people we are today always struggling to better,
Toying with all areas of your life , placing all things in a mentil list in your minds eye, I done this
for years , then had to get a diary , and have had 1 for years and years now, its great to reflect, and you realise things come full circle, lessons you thought you had learn`t will surface again,
in another light, Every day a test new, at the time feeling stuck with concrete wellies on.
Even dragging the weight of it all with you, Then years later , looking back , you can laugh at some of the most stupidest things ,cry at the most beautiful love , your family with all your heart.
Cherish it all every minute it really does go so fast .Have a lovely day . Love Light &Peace :)
Tuesday, 3 March 2015
Laughter
Approaching Perfect: My Observations, We are coming together for a new Order of Being ? Are we not already conditioned , just in what Terrance Mckenna says all those years ago, Everything seems to question everything else, he would have made a great psychotherapist, Hypnotizing, His voice ,
Makes you want to listen, loads of people have these story`s , so why does he stand out for me?. I seem to connect and understand a lot of what he is saying and now what he is saying , " the world is getting Weird" Too Weird were people will talk") We are going to become so scared we need to start to talk, put the gadgets down, Talk to your neighbor, At the bus stop, , When out side stop , look and listen,. We are being tested , every day, in all that we do. It is a fire in a mad house , reminds me of a painting i seen years ago, its a famous painting, were as the animals are eating the animals and the humans are eating the humans, Its a Great painting , Loads in it, loads to tell us if we look properly and read what is in the picture. even in a photograph , read the people in the picture this will teach you,
look into people`s eye`s, not many will hold your stare, some will shy away real quick, as if you are going to hurt them!. Yet this is the world we have created!!. Sad . Now we can change it the world wants to live , needs to live. Mother Nature.
Mother Nature will live no matter what . Even if they set of the biggest of bomb our planet will heal itself, this i know for sure, it will, take what will seem forever, it will fix though.
The Governing bodies have places to run to if this ever happens (bombed). The New World Order
Sounds a Lonely life to me , you can play God though. This am sure , even he would pay to see, look at this mess you have created with your boms, your GM foods all to make things last and look that bit bigger and better, what is happening now, our planet is ready to errupt. like a volcano.
Been bubbling away under neath only coming out now and then in volcano's , tsunamis.
Mother nature is reclaiming back what has been taking!!. The land that gets made , Reclaimed land from land filled sites, will be rubbish grounds, full of gases, such as radon and no doubt hundreds of other types , that we the public are not privy too.
Were the sea has risen and reclaimed land , There must be a place , that seems new?. Everybody flocking to the new place to live. I know of such islands in the Sun, as you are aware of them too.
Their name escapes me at this moment in time, i know 1 is a lovely tree like shape.
It all looks so luscious. It truly does, And so are the prices no doubt. For the locals it is work as per usual , as for the ones with all the money , its of to work or play, Yet its still the little people that keep all the cogs going , They hardly see a penny , for their labor, I bet they feel, its all in vain , Watching the rich folk living the so called HIGH life, The Dream. Sounds and looks like a living hell.
Not for the ones with the money unless they have spent it all. which would not be hard or
take long, you would need a few thousand pounds just for a week, just to be on the safe side.I know
were i would prefer to go ." Disney Land the big kid in me shouts", Thinking this a great idea,
i share with my son, who is not interested one little bit. He would much rather go to Spain, what kid do you know , who doesn`t want to go to Disney Land?. I think i know the real reason as to why not.
I don`t want to even say it out loud,. This depressing thought , the family would not be whole.
I understand why, you really must try, The Amuzments alone are well worth the ride. So i have heard
and seen on the TV screen. We would both enjoy , and some quality bonding time, I really want to do
this, and its in my sights, just not quite within my grasp,.
Saving its all great and dandy, there always seems to be something, to come in and borrow your nest egg, promising to be back by a certain day, yet something else comes along to cost a small fortune .
The pounds soon fly, all the bills come tumbling in one right after the other, Some think you have loads of money , haha, I wish , don`t we all.
With money comes a hole new set of problems, envy green come into play, all around you are counting your penny`s, whilst you haven`t a clue, yet all others seem to know it all for you, yeehaar, could you come fix or pay all my bills for me . Since you have been so nosy. Now you know , there`s really nothing. Its really quite boring, normal every day life. That is why i will laugh and crack the jokes,
I have to , if you sit and cry , you cry alone, if you laugh the world laughs with you , not at you.
there is a big difference. To them both, helpers will laugh with you, whilst the others laugh at you,
yet he who laughs loudest is usually the last and i believe that to be me at this point in time.
My Sarcasm is for loads of things , cruel twists of fate, Life in general, Every day seems a new test of faith , Stand firm, in your beliefs , especially, if you know them to be true, tried and tested.
Uniqueness we all have, its up to the individual to be a shining light, especially were the children are concerned , they look to you as they allways have done , ever since small, you have been their rock.
Their inspiration, their teacher & them your`s . Children teach you so much without even trying to teach , they just know what they are doing is right. They do not question religions and colors and
know , no hate is it really us adults that confuses their wee minds. They really are clever , all children
if you let them express themselves`s, Let them blossom, help them along the way , guide them,
You are not thick or stupid, every parent has inbuilt, how to protect any child and most adults.
Know how to look after a child , its really easy for some, others they just don't know how, to
communicate with a child. They are such fun , even playing keek a boo , silently on a bus the child will interact with you, they can feel your stare, they soon find your eyes. Then the fun and laughter begins, its great to hear a child`s laughter, makes you smile yourself , very infectious a child`s laughter .
Makes you want to listen, loads of people have these story`s , so why does he stand out for me?. I seem to connect and understand a lot of what he is saying and now what he is saying , " the world is getting Weird" Too Weird were people will talk") We are going to become so scared we need to start to talk, put the gadgets down, Talk to your neighbor, At the bus stop, , When out side stop , look and listen,. We are being tested , every day, in all that we do. It is a fire in a mad house , reminds me of a painting i seen years ago, its a famous painting, were as the animals are eating the animals and the humans are eating the humans, Its a Great painting , Loads in it, loads to tell us if we look properly and read what is in the picture. even in a photograph , read the people in the picture this will teach you,
look into people`s eye`s, not many will hold your stare, some will shy away real quick, as if you are going to hurt them!. Yet this is the world we have created!!. Sad . Now we can change it the world wants to live , needs to live. Mother Nature.
Mother Nature will live no matter what . Even if they set of the biggest of bomb our planet will heal itself, this i know for sure, it will, take what will seem forever, it will fix though.
The Governing bodies have places to run to if this ever happens (bombed). The New World Order
Sounds a Lonely life to me , you can play God though. This am sure , even he would pay to see, look at this mess you have created with your boms, your GM foods all to make things last and look that bit bigger and better, what is happening now, our planet is ready to errupt. like a volcano.
Been bubbling away under neath only coming out now and then in volcano's , tsunamis.
Mother nature is reclaiming back what has been taking!!. The land that gets made , Reclaimed land from land filled sites, will be rubbish grounds, full of gases, such as radon and no doubt hundreds of other types , that we the public are not privy too.
Were the sea has risen and reclaimed land , There must be a place , that seems new?. Everybody flocking to the new place to live. I know of such islands in the Sun, as you are aware of them too.
Their name escapes me at this moment in time, i know 1 is a lovely tree like shape.
It all looks so luscious. It truly does, And so are the prices no doubt. For the locals it is work as per usual , as for the ones with all the money , its of to work or play, Yet its still the little people that keep all the cogs going , They hardly see a penny , for their labor, I bet they feel, its all in vain , Watching the rich folk living the so called HIGH life, The Dream. Sounds and looks like a living hell.
Not for the ones with the money unless they have spent it all. which would not be hard or
take long, you would need a few thousand pounds just for a week, just to be on the safe side.I know
were i would prefer to go ." Disney Land the big kid in me shouts", Thinking this a great idea,
i share with my son, who is not interested one little bit. He would much rather go to Spain, what kid do you know , who doesn`t want to go to Disney Land?. I think i know the real reason as to why not.
I don`t want to even say it out loud,. This depressing thought , the family would not be whole.
I understand why, you really must try, The Amuzments alone are well worth the ride. So i have heard
and seen on the TV screen. We would both enjoy , and some quality bonding time, I really want to do
this, and its in my sights, just not quite within my grasp,.
Saving its all great and dandy, there always seems to be something, to come in and borrow your nest egg, promising to be back by a certain day, yet something else comes along to cost a small fortune .
The pounds soon fly, all the bills come tumbling in one right after the other, Some think you have loads of money , haha, I wish , don`t we all.
With money comes a hole new set of problems, envy green come into play, all around you are counting your penny`s, whilst you haven`t a clue, yet all others seem to know it all for you, yeehaar, could you come fix or pay all my bills for me . Since you have been so nosy. Now you know , there`s really nothing. Its really quite boring, normal every day life. That is why i will laugh and crack the jokes,
I have to , if you sit and cry , you cry alone, if you laugh the world laughs with you , not at you.
there is a big difference. To them both, helpers will laugh with you, whilst the others laugh at you,
yet he who laughs loudest is usually the last and i believe that to be me at this point in time.
My Sarcasm is for loads of things , cruel twists of fate, Life in general, Every day seems a new test of faith , Stand firm, in your beliefs , especially, if you know them to be true, tried and tested.
Uniqueness we all have, its up to the individual to be a shining light, especially were the children are concerned , they look to you as they allways have done , ever since small, you have been their rock.
Their inspiration, their teacher & them your`s . Children teach you so much without even trying to teach , they just know what they are doing is right. They do not question religions and colors and
know , no hate is it really us adults that confuses their wee minds. They really are clever , all children
if you let them express themselves`s, Let them blossom, help them along the way , guide them,
You are not thick or stupid, every parent has inbuilt, how to protect any child and most adults.
Know how to look after a child , its really easy for some, others they just don't know how, to
communicate with a child. They are such fun , even playing keek a boo , silently on a bus the child will interact with you, they can feel your stare, they soon find your eyes. Then the fun and laughter begins, its great to hear a child`s laughter, makes you smile yourself , very infectious a child`s laughter .
Monday, 2 March 2015
What`s your type:)
What's your type?
For the month of February, I think I'll be posting stuffs like this other than humor and GIFs and cats probably. One by one, I will describe each type in a certain perspective because I just like it. I will focus much on the behavior (Keirsey Temp.), btw.
What is the MBTI/Keirsey Temperament?
- People are arguing whether it belongs in psychology or pseudo-psychology but that is actually none of my business. It is quite interesting though. Although it is a personality assessment [The Big Five, ftw! lol], I do think it is merely a mechanism of perception and judgment of an individual.
How can I know my type?
- You can actually read all the types and identify yourself with one. YOU are the best person to identify your own type because nobody knows you more than yourself (duh...); OR
- You can take tests
Where?
- The test can be found in a lot of places. HOWEVER, most of these are unreliable.
- While the theory where the MBTI originated is quite expandable and awesome, the test of MBTI itself is quite problematic. Some tests look really dumb and to some people, the results change when they take the test again for like two months or so. Again, you are the best person to identify your own type.
How many types are there?
- The combination of these letters total up to 16 types.
Can I be on two or more types?
- There are characteristics that two or more types share. However, there are always differences. Moreover, if we look into the "Cognitive Function Theory", we all do possess the characteristics of all types, only most of them are quite underdeveloped due to our dominant traits
- Besides, the letters are like a spectrum. And we can't really be in a full 100% of either because we'd be probably in an Asylum right now. There are Introverts and Extroverts. But we are both introverts and Extroverts since we need both time to think with ourselves and to talk and interact with other people. And it's the same with the other three.
"Cognitive Function Theory"
- It is a theory that states that each type has a certain order of the eight functions. It is also quite problematic, so I wouldn't talk much on that one.
Can I judge a person with the MBTI?
- Is judging people righteous? That's the answer. Lol seriously, It is not and must be not used in job employment. You can't say all people from a type are this and they are all that and that I must not be friends with someone because you don't like his type. It is fun to stereotype people with the MBTI though, but one must not really take it too far.
7 billion people, 16 types
- That's why I said that I think it's merely a mechanism of perception and judgment of an individual. You see, the MBTI does not define ALL of our characteristics. It doesn't even define how neurotic we are (The N in the Big 5) as it does not even tell what is our favorite food or genre of film.
- The characteristic of an individual are probably countless and is not enough to be described by four letters.
- You are unique, JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
Am I a psychology student?
- No-
I'll put the links of the description of each type in here:. This i found brilliant information an really quite spot on for a high school student ;0 WELL DONE :) you are an inspiration if only everyone thought this clever at your tender age. I am amazed an also delighted to see that the young are very very conscious, Of what types of people there are in the whole world , great to have it shortened down , condensed, So you can understand it , better still so i can understand it lol :), I will post more from this young head , he has no idea i admire his stance at young a young age , in my minds eye i would salute you. Every one is truly UNIQUE !! Believe in yourself , do something , go for a walk etc tend to a plant learn something new, for every door that bangs shut behind you, another 10 open that you had forgot were even there. Its great when you do reach out, without even realizing and you end up.
Meeting an old friend and every thing that surrounds this new vibration in your life. I remember when i was younger, this person helped me out no end, & will probably never know just how grateful,
I was , you were even there that day i was a duck right out of water and with a child in tow .
You seen i was struggling and you extended your hand of friendship, your kindness knew no bounds.
If it was you in the situation i found myself , would you be as lucky to find someone who was only out to be kind, and sincere, it is quite something and very rare these days , usualy nothings for nothing and if it is question , thankfully this is what you call a friend. Even though i haven`t seen in 25 odd years i am still the topic of discussions. Brilliant, to have gave someone a very happy memory to share with loads of others of true kindness. Thankyou,. I know i would have thanked you. & as well from my child, You restored alot of my faith and gave me strength you will not know of, i was stuck on a hill , you had a camper van for food etc & shelter from the weather!! , My child , thankfully you have your own so knew my panic, This was before mobile phones , oh how did i learn some harsh , lessons that day , Things happened were my husband could not get to us, someone was supposed to bring us home but just disappeared, with our other child, sleeping in the back of that car!! You had no idea, when you got home you went staight to bed, my husband asking you questions but you were too tired too answer, then a couple of hours later our oldest son 4 at the time, comes to the front door his dad was expecting his daughter an the mother of his children but no we were not to be seen and worse.
The child left in the back of the car sleeping , could have been uplifted, by the traffic wardens . So his da was going mental, with worry. as to were our were abouts were , thankfully we were safe thanks to a true knight in a white van :) We got home safe an we had had food , i never had any money as things turned out how they were not supposed too , it all ended good thankfully, good things happen to good people. That is just 1 time some1 helped me, i have loads of story`s of helping others, & ofcourse helping me back , no lessons not worth learning . Might feel hard and cruel at the time , it makes you stronger , you know different don`t listen esp if you know there is a difference and you feel right , then stick to what you believe you will look and feel stronger for it. You might feel rejected for your belief, some people will mock it but that is because they truly don`t understand and probably never will :) Worse still they don`t wont to better , they want to stay in that wee bubble, I loved my bubbles it was great but you realy have to break free :) LOve Light & Peace :)
For the month of February, I think I'll be posting stuffs like this other than humor and GIFs and cats probably. One by one, I will describe each type in a certain perspective because I just like it. I will focus much on the behavior (Keirsey Temp.), btw.
What is the MBTI/Keirsey Temperament?
- People are arguing whether it belongs in psychology or pseudo-psychology but that is actually none of my business. It is quite interesting though. Although it is a personality assessment [The Big Five, ftw! lol], I do think it is merely a mechanism of perception and judgment of an individual.
How can I know my type?
- You can actually read all the types and identify yourself with one. YOU are the best person to identify your own type because nobody knows you more than yourself (duh...); OR
- You can take tests
Where?
- The test can be found in a lot of places. HOWEVER, most of these are unreliable.
- While the theory where the MBTI originated is quite expandable and awesome, the test of MBTI itself is quite problematic. Some tests look really dumb and to some people, the results change when they take the test again for like two months or so. Again, you are the best person to identify your own type.
How many types are there?
- The combination of these letters total up to 16 types.
Can I be on two or more types?
- There are characteristics that two or more types share. However, there are always differences. Moreover, if we look into the "Cognitive Function Theory", we all do possess the characteristics of all types, only most of them are quite underdeveloped due to our dominant traits
- Besides, the letters are like a spectrum. And we can't really be in a full 100% of either because we'd be probably in an Asylum right now. There are Introverts and Extroverts. But we are both introverts and Extroverts since we need both time to think with ourselves and to talk and interact with other people. And it's the same with the other three.
"Cognitive Function Theory"
- It is a theory that states that each type has a certain order of the eight functions. It is also quite problematic, so I wouldn't talk much on that one.
Can I judge a person with the MBTI?
- Is judging people righteous? That's the answer. Lol seriously, It is not and must be not used in job employment. You can't say all people from a type are this and they are all that and that I must not be friends with someone because you don't like his type. It is fun to stereotype people with the MBTI though, but one must not really take it too far.
7 billion people, 16 types
- That's why I said that I think it's merely a mechanism of perception and judgment of an individual. You see, the MBTI does not define ALL of our characteristics. It doesn't even define how neurotic we are (The N in the Big 5) as it does not even tell what is our favorite food or genre of film.
- The characteristic of an individual are probably countless and is not enough to be described by four letters.
- You are unique, JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE.
Am I a psychology student?
- No-
I'll put the links of the description of each type in here:. This i found brilliant information an really quite spot on for a high school student ;0 WELL DONE :) you are an inspiration if only everyone thought this clever at your tender age. I am amazed an also delighted to see that the young are very very conscious, Of what types of people there are in the whole world , great to have it shortened down , condensed, So you can understand it , better still so i can understand it lol :), I will post more from this young head , he has no idea i admire his stance at young a young age , in my minds eye i would salute you. Every one is truly UNIQUE !! Believe in yourself , do something , go for a walk etc tend to a plant learn something new, for every door that bangs shut behind you, another 10 open that you had forgot were even there. Its great when you do reach out, without even realizing and you end up.
Meeting an old friend and every thing that surrounds this new vibration in your life. I remember when i was younger, this person helped me out no end, & will probably never know just how grateful,
I was , you were even there that day i was a duck right out of water and with a child in tow .
You seen i was struggling and you extended your hand of friendship, your kindness knew no bounds.
If it was you in the situation i found myself , would you be as lucky to find someone who was only out to be kind, and sincere, it is quite something and very rare these days , usualy nothings for nothing and if it is question , thankfully this is what you call a friend. Even though i haven`t seen in 25 odd years i am still the topic of discussions. Brilliant, to have gave someone a very happy memory to share with loads of others of true kindness. Thankyou,. I know i would have thanked you. & as well from my child, You restored alot of my faith and gave me strength you will not know of, i was stuck on a hill , you had a camper van for food etc & shelter from the weather!! , My child , thankfully you have your own so knew my panic, This was before mobile phones , oh how did i learn some harsh , lessons that day , Things happened were my husband could not get to us, someone was supposed to bring us home but just disappeared, with our other child, sleeping in the back of that car!! You had no idea, when you got home you went staight to bed, my husband asking you questions but you were too tired too answer, then a couple of hours later our oldest son 4 at the time, comes to the front door his dad was expecting his daughter an the mother of his children but no we were not to be seen and worse.
The child left in the back of the car sleeping , could have been uplifted, by the traffic wardens . So his da was going mental, with worry. as to were our were abouts were , thankfully we were safe thanks to a true knight in a white van :) We got home safe an we had had food , i never had any money as things turned out how they were not supposed too , it all ended good thankfully, good things happen to good people. That is just 1 time some1 helped me, i have loads of story`s of helping others, & ofcourse helping me back , no lessons not worth learning . Might feel hard and cruel at the time , it makes you stronger , you know different don`t listen esp if you know there is a difference and you feel right , then stick to what you believe you will look and feel stronger for it. You might feel rejected for your belief, some people will mock it but that is because they truly don`t understand and probably never will :) Worse still they don`t wont to better , they want to stay in that wee bubble, I loved my bubbles it was great but you realy have to break free :) LOve Light & Peace :)
I dont feel it
Today is one of those days, !! I could have just went right back to sleep , puled the downie over,
And just totally chill-ax :). It wouldn`t happen.
My mind would never have stopped now it was awakening, and now awake, i tried,
to just relax and go back to sleep , my body wasn`t having none of it , My brain was already to alert to even kid my self on and try,. That would not have been very clever of me, my son would of missed school, 1 day is ok, nope, it sure isn`t,. The School years they go by so fast , enjoy and get as much out of it all as possible, remember its what you put in you get back?. I know am far from perfect,
or number 1 mum of the year but we all try some try harder that is for sure some don`t even try at all,
Some people would kill to have children, yet so many can have a child !! It seems at the drop of a hat:),
what about the people who try with all their might to have a child and have so much to give, yet they just cannot , conceive, Whilst other have Children like they are going out of fashion, And dont even stay to take care of them!!. What is that all about. The lord is suppose to check this world through for a teacher true, in 1 of my poems, this poem declares loads. well why do these people suffer in this way, whilst others can have as many baby`s as they want, What a cruel twist of fate? I can only call it.
I have not experienced , not having Children. They are a blessings and such a joy. How does this happen , What cruel twist of fate, can this be the cause of, seemingly nothing happens by coincidence,
I can not answer this question, even though i seek the answer for a very dear loved one. I know she will look and know i am talking of her, but i am only angry for you, this is why I say what i say and how i say it. it is such a sore subject, i realy want to cradle you close my little one, so i can make it all ok, all a nightmare take all this other pain away from the loads you already carry on your little shoulders. You remind me of a giant, even though you are short, in height you make up for in character . You are and always have been a very bright girl, people used to say when you were little"she has been here before". With the words that came from such a young mouth, you would,
know how to stop all us adults in our tracks. I am 1 very proud mother , My Biological Children , love for you is unconditional, & Children who came my way, you are all always on my mind , wondering hoping you are all doing well. I know most of you are doing just amazing , living getting on. That is
all we all can do. Just go with the flow, some days it might feel like the flow has been stopped dead in its tracks!!. The words don`t flow as easily as they did yesterday ! Is this what they call a mental block, writers block , that is kool because i have a set of high flats in my head, lol, :). A big high rise flat of story's to look and use . if my head is completely blank, this storage space is full , we were young and knew how to have fun, and we shared with everyone who wanted to come, We were all so young , thinking we were all grown up , now i can laugh looking back, at us all dancing , singing, all the stupid, funny things we did have a lot of fun , with a lot of people, We had a great crew of friends , the real ones stay over the years you will see for yourself, as you grow,. Then you wake up and you are nearing 40 and you are like what happened there:). That was fast, and all the things we done our Children are now doing , its great to see, the children all grown, I am one of the lucky ones to see all this, Lots of others , didn`t get the chance , that is why , you will find me taking pictures of everyone capturing every moment i can , sometimes taking 2 or 3 shots of the same picture. A photograph,
will darken and fade but so does , your head. Some days are more cloudier than others some the sun shines right on through and out of you, then some days you , might feel like a dark cloud yourself, When i feel this, i am usualy outside? Over the years i questioned why do i feel the way i am feeling,
It wasn`t till i noticed something one bright day , It wasn`t me? Thankfully i can feel other peoples sadness, or what ever they feel at the time, sometimes this can be scary , not knowing how you
are going to feel 1 step after another an upward hill struggle , especially when all coming toward you , the look on some of their faces, You can`t help but look that wee bit deeper, Even offer a friendly smile a nervous twitch even, You will know , from what you are getting told from deep inside, do
not ignore this , listen carefully , once you miss it you have missed the chance, If you are to have it , it will come back round again, There is only so much any one can take, Before they burst or end up in a corner some were!, Its hard to get you self out of that dark place, its all doom and gloom and there is no light whats so ever,. You have no clue what is going to be , sometimes its better not to know.
Even if you do know what is coming , sometimes you cannot get out of the way , every thing happens for a reason , seemingly nothing happens by coincidence? and the more i think, the more i know,
Yes i am very well guided and protected. Due to i am me, nothing special , what i have to give is special, That can be for all, not all want the joy though, they wish to remain in their own we bubble.
I have to get out, i like bubbles like everyone else but , being stuck is another story , and i know all about that also, It can take years but if you keep true to yourself and all around you that matter, then never mind the rest. They dont count are they, there in your ?darkest hours, do they pay your bills, they can sit and mock, but really who is laughing. I for sure am, What a twisted tale , too twisted to put into a tale :) or words 1 day i will , put it all down how twisted , people can be so so sad.
It let me see so much without realizing myself at the time, Life is all for learning, everyone walks different paths, For all different reasons , We face what we face , we all do everything in life is for the next world i believe in this strongly, I havent done too bad up to now and have no intention of any bad.
Only Good and Peace & Light in us all we all have it. It is so much nicer when you let your sun shine and not for someone else for you, that makes all the others happy , once they see you can shine , they try, they do follow suit due to, they know its a much better life. Sharing is caring , Especially knowledge. We are all first time learners, then teachers as we get older even as children we teach our youngsters,All ways the student , never think you know it all , for sure you don`t. No one can say they know it all :). Peace & Light :) Have a great week :)
And just totally chill-ax :). It wouldn`t happen.
My mind would never have stopped now it was awakening, and now awake, i tried,
to just relax and go back to sleep , my body wasn`t having none of it , My brain was already to alert to even kid my self on and try,. That would not have been very clever of me, my son would of missed school, 1 day is ok, nope, it sure isn`t,. The School years they go by so fast , enjoy and get as much out of it all as possible, remember its what you put in you get back?. I know am far from perfect,
or number 1 mum of the year but we all try some try harder that is for sure some don`t even try at all,
Some people would kill to have children, yet so many can have a child !! It seems at the drop of a hat:),
what about the people who try with all their might to have a child and have so much to give, yet they just cannot , conceive, Whilst other have Children like they are going out of fashion, And dont even stay to take care of them!!. What is that all about. The lord is suppose to check this world through for a teacher true, in 1 of my poems, this poem declares loads. well why do these people suffer in this way, whilst others can have as many baby`s as they want, What a cruel twist of fate? I can only call it.
I have not experienced , not having Children. They are a blessings and such a joy. How does this happen , What cruel twist of fate, can this be the cause of, seemingly nothing happens by coincidence,
I can not answer this question, even though i seek the answer for a very dear loved one. I know she will look and know i am talking of her, but i am only angry for you, this is why I say what i say and how i say it. it is such a sore subject, i realy want to cradle you close my little one, so i can make it all ok, all a nightmare take all this other pain away from the loads you already carry on your little shoulders. You remind me of a giant, even though you are short, in height you make up for in character . You are and always have been a very bright girl, people used to say when you were little"she has been here before". With the words that came from such a young mouth, you would,
know how to stop all us adults in our tracks. I am 1 very proud mother , My Biological Children , love for you is unconditional, & Children who came my way, you are all always on my mind , wondering hoping you are all doing well. I know most of you are doing just amazing , living getting on. That is
all we all can do. Just go with the flow, some days it might feel like the flow has been stopped dead in its tracks!!. The words don`t flow as easily as they did yesterday ! Is this what they call a mental block, writers block , that is kool because i have a set of high flats in my head, lol, :). A big high rise flat of story's to look and use . if my head is completely blank, this storage space is full , we were young and knew how to have fun, and we shared with everyone who wanted to come, We were all so young , thinking we were all grown up , now i can laugh looking back, at us all dancing , singing, all the stupid, funny things we did have a lot of fun , with a lot of people, We had a great crew of friends , the real ones stay over the years you will see for yourself, as you grow,. Then you wake up and you are nearing 40 and you are like what happened there:). That was fast, and all the things we done our Children are now doing , its great to see, the children all grown, I am one of the lucky ones to see all this, Lots of others , didn`t get the chance , that is why , you will find me taking pictures of everyone capturing every moment i can , sometimes taking 2 or 3 shots of the same picture. A photograph,
will darken and fade but so does , your head. Some days are more cloudier than others some the sun shines right on through and out of you, then some days you , might feel like a dark cloud yourself, When i feel this, i am usualy outside? Over the years i questioned why do i feel the way i am feeling,
It wasn`t till i noticed something one bright day , It wasn`t me? Thankfully i can feel other peoples sadness, or what ever they feel at the time, sometimes this can be scary , not knowing how you
are going to feel 1 step after another an upward hill struggle , especially when all coming toward you , the look on some of their faces, You can`t help but look that wee bit deeper, Even offer a friendly smile a nervous twitch even, You will know , from what you are getting told from deep inside, do
not ignore this , listen carefully , once you miss it you have missed the chance, If you are to have it , it will come back round again, There is only so much any one can take, Before they burst or end up in a corner some were!, Its hard to get you self out of that dark place, its all doom and gloom and there is no light whats so ever,. You have no clue what is going to be , sometimes its better not to know.
Even if you do know what is coming , sometimes you cannot get out of the way , every thing happens for a reason , seemingly nothing happens by coincidence? and the more i think, the more i know,
Yes i am very well guided and protected. Due to i am me, nothing special , what i have to give is special, That can be for all, not all want the joy though, they wish to remain in their own we bubble.
I have to get out, i like bubbles like everyone else but , being stuck is another story , and i know all about that also, It can take years but if you keep true to yourself and all around you that matter, then never mind the rest. They dont count are they, there in your ?darkest hours, do they pay your bills, they can sit and mock, but really who is laughing. I for sure am, What a twisted tale , too twisted to put into a tale :) or words 1 day i will , put it all down how twisted , people can be so so sad.
It let me see so much without realizing myself at the time, Life is all for learning, everyone walks different paths, For all different reasons , We face what we face , we all do everything in life is for the next world i believe in this strongly, I havent done too bad up to now and have no intention of any bad.
Only Good and Peace & Light in us all we all have it. It is so much nicer when you let your sun shine and not for someone else for you, that makes all the others happy , once they see you can shine , they try, they do follow suit due to, they know its a much better life. Sharing is caring , Especially knowledge. We are all first time learners, then teachers as we get older even as children we teach our youngsters,All ways the student , never think you know it all , for sure you don`t. No one can say they know it all :). Peace & Light :) Have a great week :)
Sunday, 1 March 2015
Wey heyy 01/03/2015
Slow down for living , it is just so fast , yet even sitting still for five min,s seems to be a right,
task!. we are all so busy doing what we do, it could,! be sitting in front, of a key board all day , as long as reaching out, is ok ,and others, like, what i have to say ,then i will write, i have done for years i love this being able to quickly right something and share, to be able to reach out t people , with
ease, my words flow , sometimes too easy , i sometimes never look over what i write ,? . Even a letter i wont read that bk or i wont send it :) for some reason , it doesn`t sound quite the same second time round, my imagination is fast , my speech is fast it can be hard to keep up, i jump from subject to subject, with ease , I can have a conversation about, almost everything, some questions ,from my head.
Might seem daft, stupid even, to someone, in the know,. No question, is a stupid question, though,
Even if it enlightens you and you can shed some light on someone else`s darkness then , why not!!.
Knowledge is for sharing , time just goes past too fast for not to take 5 minutes to stop and share,
Even a friendly Smile, its amazing , what even this can do , Keeping lifted> Is not easy every day.
It realy is a life long quest for spiritual awareness , of knowing who you are,Truly are, maybe
no one can answer that question because i can`t .. Maybe we find out as we get older , wiser ,
something is definitely for the next world for this am sure. Maybe that is just a belief of mines that,
keeps me strong?. Or willful Blindness, or seeing things through, rose tinted spectacles. Each an everyone to their own as long as you do not try to throw your beliefs on someone else they have to make the decision for enlightenment themselves . it is what you put into it you will get back,
10 fold , not in riches of money, much better than that, Respect love, compassion , everything.
Understanding , if you practise what you preach & keep true to yourself , you have no worry ,
you will find good things happen to good people, Bad things happen also but , its how we handle the situation, & there is millions of them sent to try you, as i have said every which way . its,
quite shocking , it always comes from were you least expect it, Someone to shatter your beliefs or criticize, your way, All you can do is your best and give your best shot, then you have done,
what you thought was best , i dont just mean for now the future, who is to say how long our stay on this plain is, You realy never realy know whats round the corner you might be forewarned etc,
Still comes as a shock though and takes time to recover , no one can say a time either.
As time stops for no one , . it would be great if we didnt have to work round time, yes use the time ,
constructively, Do as much as you can in such a short time almost makes you feel like not even starting. This quest will be worth it , you dont even have to look , its happening to you right now,
Its called living. No matter what you are doing if you are breathing you are living, Like animals , plants , there is so much life in everything , beauty is every were even the smell of flowers some,
people take for granted , other people just cannot do, yet everyone has something unique to give back.
No mater how small it all adds up, And then 1 day i do hope its not gonna be my last?.
You are suppose to know it all, well i don`t believe that for a start. Seems the more you know the less you truly know , this world is corrupt and has a lot of nasty evilness in it.
It would be great if we all could have world peace in our lifetime but i don`t think it will be in mines but, that will never stop me fighting for a fairer system for our Children, & our Children's ,children and so forth. at-least, i can say, i tried. that`s better, than only thinking, That`s how easy it is. To try.
I find this easy myself , i seem able to be able to talk to any one and i enjoy this. I have met some
very interesting people over the years, and met some very dodgy people, it takes all kinds to make the world go round, it sure would be so boring if we were all the same , now that would be totally boring.
task!. we are all so busy doing what we do, it could,! be sitting in front, of a key board all day , as long as reaching out, is ok ,and others, like, what i have to say ,then i will write, i have done for years i love this being able to quickly right something and share, to be able to reach out t people , with
ease, my words flow , sometimes too easy , i sometimes never look over what i write ,? . Even a letter i wont read that bk or i wont send it :) for some reason , it doesn`t sound quite the same second time round, my imagination is fast , my speech is fast it can be hard to keep up, i jump from subject to subject, with ease , I can have a conversation about, almost everything, some questions ,from my head.
Might seem daft, stupid even, to someone, in the know,. No question, is a stupid question, though,
Even if it enlightens you and you can shed some light on someone else`s darkness then , why not!!.
Knowledge is for sharing , time just goes past too fast for not to take 5 minutes to stop and share,
Even a friendly Smile, its amazing , what even this can do , Keeping lifted> Is not easy every day.
It realy is a life long quest for spiritual awareness , of knowing who you are,Truly are, maybe
no one can answer that question because i can`t .. Maybe we find out as we get older , wiser ,
something is definitely for the next world for this am sure. Maybe that is just a belief of mines that,
keeps me strong?. Or willful Blindness, or seeing things through, rose tinted spectacles. Each an everyone to their own as long as you do not try to throw your beliefs on someone else they have to make the decision for enlightenment themselves . it is what you put into it you will get back,
10 fold , not in riches of money, much better than that, Respect love, compassion , everything.
Understanding , if you practise what you preach & keep true to yourself , you have no worry ,
you will find good things happen to good people, Bad things happen also but , its how we handle the situation, & there is millions of them sent to try you, as i have said every which way . its,
quite shocking , it always comes from were you least expect it, Someone to shatter your beliefs or criticize, your way, All you can do is your best and give your best shot, then you have done,
what you thought was best , i dont just mean for now the future, who is to say how long our stay on this plain is, You realy never realy know whats round the corner you might be forewarned etc,
Still comes as a shock though and takes time to recover , no one can say a time either.
As time stops for no one , . it would be great if we didnt have to work round time, yes use the time ,
constructively, Do as much as you can in such a short time almost makes you feel like not even starting. This quest will be worth it , you dont even have to look , its happening to you right now,
Its called living. No matter what you are doing if you are breathing you are living, Like animals , plants , there is so much life in everything , beauty is every were even the smell of flowers some,
people take for granted , other people just cannot do, yet everyone has something unique to give back.
No mater how small it all adds up, And then 1 day i do hope its not gonna be my last?.
You are suppose to know it all, well i don`t believe that for a start. Seems the more you know the less you truly know , this world is corrupt and has a lot of nasty evilness in it.
It would be great if we all could have world peace in our lifetime but i don`t think it will be in mines but, that will never stop me fighting for a fairer system for our Children, & our Children's ,children and so forth. at-least, i can say, i tried. that`s better, than only thinking, That`s how easy it is. To try.
I find this easy myself , i seem able to be able to talk to any one and i enjoy this. I have met some
very interesting people over the years, and met some very dodgy people, it takes all kinds to make the world go round, it sure would be so boring if we were all the same , now that would be totally boring.
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