The not Knowing

What a day to day , not feeling the joys o spring, just yet :). I am feeling something though,
maybe the cold . I feel so much for so much , i sometimes ask myself why i feel how i do , and to tell the truth i have`t a clue. I just do and now i am so glad,. My intuition knows before i do, keeps me well in check of all everything. Without my knowledge i may add, people might think what a load of rubbish but from my life i can assure , it is not far from it.
& if people do say this then they are the fools .
We all have this ability it is in us all , some of us are lucky it comes easily , some it might take years, whilst others already think they know all there is to know. Far from it every day a school day i say,.
No matter what the lesson or lessons of that day , its not till later when you reflect you realize, are people really that stupid, even worse think that i am that stupid. I believe they do , now this will come right round and bite them big time. Due to me just being me, no malice intent, or alter-ea  motive, all i seek is , truth and honesty , is that really too much to ask. seems it is for some, people , that`s fine :).
Due to, i know my heart is pure so if anyone, try`s to be sleakit or whatever, the laws (higher beings) that do look out for me, will step in as they always do. Thankfully and best is i am totally unaware ,
and in a way i am glad i am , what if i was to truly know of the harm they seek to cause, I know the power in me. I know in myself as a person , i only do good, and would give someone my last because that is me, always has been and i am not changing who i am for no one ever . That would not be me at all
I know change only too well, It can happen at the flick of a switch , & people that know will know , that i am talking correctly when saying life can change so fast, You think everything is all going in 1 direction then wham the carpet is pulled from your feet. & there you go spinning into what ever has been thrown your way now, might seem never ending , it is. You have to adapt and you do , its not
easy but you get on somehow. Then as the years pass and you reflect you realize the lessons learn`t , you also find you can laugh at the most serious of things at the time, you thought you would never get
through, yet here you are laughing on reflection and also realizing how else you could have done the task.
That takes a life time to know most of the answers none of us know all the answers to everything,
join all we do know together and ilbet we all do just fine. Unite all the groups no hate, just whats right for us all , we all deserve this, not just the ones way up high in their bubbles, Living a life that is not real, it will seem real to the person , take all their belongings and what have they truly got ?? Usually nothing , not even 1 bit of common sense. That will be why they run the country`s, They can mess
that up to , they already have, its us that will suffer and the future of our kids and their kids. Life is mad, Sometimes a good mad , nieces told me to stay Mad lol, Not a bad mad , happy mad , because that is how they have known me from their childhood, happily mad , But standing solid when ever they needed me. tha is why the children still come to me now even though they have grown,. They still like to check in with the one who helped when no one else would even look the path, they were on.
This is such a heart warmer it brings tears to my eyes knowing , i helped you , even if it was just for a little while , i some how gave you the strength to go on. All of you , and i am proud to say you have all done so well, yes we all have lessons we need to learn for yourself, so i could not do it all ,I was always there though, even if you could not here or see me, you would be in my heart and always will be, That is the mother in me , always will be and i definitely will not change that of me.

I definitly feel something though, all will be revealed i will wait and see, i will wait with apprehension
, Not knowing just what is for me, what this person has thought up , What i do know what ever it is i can assure it will come right back at ya 10 fold. If you dare to look a bit back at my history?. you
will see, any one with malice or bad intent gets seen to by the laws that be i can sit back in the sound knowledge of this. I think i will even put my feet up and spectate not from a great height , because if i
fall i will fall right on top of you,. Crush you like a roach that  you are, don`t think i am ever fooled
Ever, If you do then i look forward to falling on you, from a height only to flatten, you, as you, might be trying, to do,!! to me. As am sure you have heard me say , i only get so low , then i start to bounce and if its all over you, then that is what you get for even thinking of causing any malice at all. Best of all carry your story`s. This i cannot wait to hear,. You know i will , You don`t even know, who, you are, right now ,but you will, when your walls, come tumbling down.

When you are young you criticize, and judge even stupid little things, its not till these things happen to you, And you are sitting angry and left wondering why. You will understand the true torment. The
trials and tribulations of this life. We are all so busy looking at everyone else we forget to look at our own life. Unless that is what you prefer to do, maybe because you find your life so boring and uneventful. You choose some one else s life to mock and pick at , like vulchar`s , scraping for every last piece, even hovering before to make sure they get their pickings first. Every last piece, all gone
ripped apart and dissected. As if it was nothing all lies , history colored now black, In the sad minds of these the vulchar`s. We all have them they come out especially if someone dies, So so sad, not thinking
of the family left hearing all this tales of , speculation , no one knows nothing for sure, we can`t even trust it written in black and white. All we have is time!! Time for to do what we do be who we are.