The day started as any other up organized , dog out, washing , feeding , shopping.
Then i remembered an event on the web an open discussion on self awareness, ?.
Interested, I went to have a look & more importantly a listen. To other peoples views,
was very interesting , How people can connect from the other side of the world, spiritually,
Not a lot of people are aware or even want to be aware that we all have this ability,To connect,
From all walks of life, Its great to hear how other people think, if you only know one way?
How are you supposed to learn of other ways, that could actually help fix or solve the problem you are facing at this point in life, every body goes there, Trying to solve a problem in your life , in your day to day issues we all try to do it different and correctly . In a way we are all correct in our own ways but to just listen to someone else. To hear , What they could or would do different, Could even lead,
lead to solving yours,Or you theirs, with, Just taking that time out to give that opinion, that they need to hear , you just never know when what you have learn`t from your destiny might just give someone that courage to take that faltering step. I only see good in that myself. Do you know all that took was a few wise words, that were needing to be heard.
I seemed to be able to connect on so many different levels about so many different things, What is
that again "a something of plenty and a master of none "springs to mind!!. As the wind howls outside, I think over of the things i have said and done, all with best intentions, and i know they were taking in the way they were supposed to be put over, for the person to understand the message for them.
Only them , everyone is unique, all have something to give , some to shy, some too loud.
Some so down, you cannot help but notice through their writing,They are trying to extend a ,
hand , any thing just groping out blind fully for something to cling on to not even realizing its their inner being helping. Your inner self is a very clever thing , or thankfully mines is, Mines keeps me free from so much because of my ways , I don`t look for the ugly , there is too much of it, as for horror there is plenty enough of it also, Look for the happiness, the sun, It might feel like you are groping blindfully seeking knowledge , help could be for any reason , never say never is what i say.
I like to see the good , i know there`s plenty bad ,For this i know of not a doubt , I feel as if i am living a horror film at times, then other times the clouds clear and i can see and i can see it really is going to be alright. We all have our paths and things get thrown in to the mix when you are least expecting ,
Or even if things seem boring in your life, don`t worry , it wont be for long as soon as you think , hmmm , this is alright , nope something will be sent to try you every which way, Do not waste your energy on worry , do something else , take your mind of it , it really will work out if it, is to work out it will if not , one door closes another ten open, . Whats for you wont miss you , i can tell you from experience, In My life`s highways & Crossroads called an of Life. Good luck Peace & Light to all:)
Saturday, 28 February 2015
Friday, 27 February 2015
Anger
Some days you just go along , nothing seems to upset you,? Nothing is too much trouble,
Some days you could blow right up, You can do this as an exercise to strengthen loads of muzzles,
Yous`e the tension, to your advantage?, You don`t see how?, Look , the answer is right in front of,
you,Even better you can feel your answers, Some too harsh for peoples ears , some times the truth,
Hurts, like nothing else, somehow once you realize the true extent of all that`s went on before , you truly realise what a strong person you have been, You might not have felt this at the time, a feeling of impending doom at the time , when every thing seems up in the air and you are clutching at straws its all for your own good , When i first heard this i thought ,"what a load o crock " . No the person was ,
spot on, i had been sent loads of tests without even realizing, the tests but all of them hard and got harder but now on , reflection , i can see the light, i might look as if i am in control, but no i just go with the flow, and it keeps me in good stead even for the bad, in my life, i can see the good, and vice versa,. Life is a bitch , I agree 100%, yet we make it harder for our fellow man, we put obstacles up, barriers, Due to being already hurt, scared . For life. & for some even tarred .
Its easy and very hard to wakening yourself right up from a drug enjoyed and abused for years , not just 1 loads of different types,? I am a lucky 1 though not many survive , drug addiction , alcohol addiction, every one has a poison so to speak, It could be T , Coffee, its still a drug and the worst is
sugar , How sad is that, yet we need it crave it ,our bodies screaming for it, & our bodies scream out for love & want to give love , what is a cuddle . : All different kinds of cuddles , Then you have people thinking you are flirting , when al along all your, doing is giving, some comfort , where needed, &
when.,, Needed is that so bad , no , its when the person thinks different, You can be oblivious to the, ways of people but a quick course never done anyone , no wrong if anything it will help you , trust your intuition, let it guide you, its travelled well before you , and seen what you are coming up against , it might feel like a solid steal wall Or bricks , Bit by bit, or brick by brick , you will feel your, self rise but you have to feel righteous, & morally, correct, This can take a life long quest to find the real you.
This i can say from my personal experience, Every day a school day so to speak, i love to learn something new every day even a tiny thing , I`m sure i have said this before?.
It might be a lifelong quest but you will have already started , and mean to go on as best you can.
Giving your all, and hoping you are doing everything right not for now, for the future , yes now is,
very important, The here and now, that`s why tomorrow is never promised , its a present, There
is a quote with this but i cannot think of it right now, So that also tells me time to stop , with the clickety click of the typing keys. Life is a roller coaster scream if you want to go faster lol, thats for the young, when we get older we realize how quick time actually is, And you want to cram so much
more into your day, but you never find the time, always something , never a dull moment so to speak.
This is also so good for us as it lets us get on , keeps the momentum going so to speak,
Some days it might even feel like you have come to a full stop, you cant go on, You mop about,
believing yourself. Then it slowly but surely comes to you , a need for living , for sharing for expressing, Not everyone speaks the same , even though its the same words , they can mean all different things, But if you keep true to yourself the rest follows naturally,. Peace & Light to all :)
Some days you could blow right up, You can do this as an exercise to strengthen loads of muzzles,
Yous`e the tension, to your advantage?, You don`t see how?, Look , the answer is right in front of,
you,Even better you can feel your answers, Some too harsh for peoples ears , some times the truth,
Hurts, like nothing else, somehow once you realize the true extent of all that`s went on before , you truly realise what a strong person you have been, You might not have felt this at the time, a feeling of impending doom at the time , when every thing seems up in the air and you are clutching at straws its all for your own good , When i first heard this i thought ,"what a load o crock " . No the person was ,
spot on, i had been sent loads of tests without even realizing, the tests but all of them hard and got harder but now on , reflection , i can see the light, i might look as if i am in control, but no i just go with the flow, and it keeps me in good stead even for the bad, in my life, i can see the good, and vice versa,. Life is a bitch , I agree 100%, yet we make it harder for our fellow man, we put obstacles up, barriers, Due to being already hurt, scared . For life. & for some even tarred .
Its easy and very hard to wakening yourself right up from a drug enjoyed and abused for years , not just 1 loads of different types,? I am a lucky 1 though not many survive , drug addiction , alcohol addiction, every one has a poison so to speak, It could be T , Coffee, its still a drug and the worst is
sugar , How sad is that, yet we need it crave it ,our bodies screaming for it, & our bodies scream out for love & want to give love , what is a cuddle . : All different kinds of cuddles , Then you have people thinking you are flirting , when al along all your, doing is giving, some comfort , where needed, &
when.,, Needed is that so bad , no , its when the person thinks different, You can be oblivious to the, ways of people but a quick course never done anyone , no wrong if anything it will help you , trust your intuition, let it guide you, its travelled well before you , and seen what you are coming up against , it might feel like a solid steal wall Or bricks , Bit by bit, or brick by brick , you will feel your, self rise but you have to feel righteous, & morally, correct, This can take a life long quest to find the real you.
This i can say from my personal experience, Every day a school day so to speak, i love to learn something new every day even a tiny thing , I`m sure i have said this before?.
It might be a lifelong quest but you will have already started , and mean to go on as best you can.
Giving your all, and hoping you are doing everything right not for now, for the future , yes now is,
very important, The here and now, that`s why tomorrow is never promised , its a present, There
is a quote with this but i cannot think of it right now, So that also tells me time to stop , with the clickety click of the typing keys. Life is a roller coaster scream if you want to go faster lol, thats for the young, when we get older we realize how quick time actually is, And you want to cram so much
more into your day, but you never find the time, always something , never a dull moment so to speak.
This is also so good for us as it lets us get on , keeps the momentum going so to speak,
Some days it might even feel like you have come to a full stop, you cant go on, You mop about,
believing yourself. Then it slowly but surely comes to you , a need for living , for sharing for expressing, Not everyone speaks the same , even though its the same words , they can mean all different things, But if you keep true to yourself the rest follows naturally,. Peace & Light to all :)
Tuesday, 24 February 2015
Dreams
Have dreams ,But mines was a reality about not going backwards & in
my dreams i thought i was doing good &then in my waking life , i
thought i was doing good, all the while learning, doesn`t mater how good
you , are as a person, there`s always gonna be haters , Now, In my
experience,Its them that rake up the hurt?. The dead, pick through every
detail, Then wonder why your going on about it? The flight or fight comes into play. So everyone ends up hurt , through others perceptions?Of your life, which makes (you) analyze ,everything. Me am my own worst critic so analyze the annalist, then analyze that lol.
Questioning too much, Its when you dont question & you go through
life , how ?Everyone has a diffrent take from, ?. Morals & Manners
are free & should be taught from birth,
education should begin as soon as the baby`s born , by!! yourself the parent,not waiting till school or nursery, You yourself , as a parent with a bran new baby, have such a precocious, gift .
Teachers are sought the world over for this baby to be yours, so look after him/her well.
For you never know when i will call to take this child back again. Don't think the labor has been in vain for there`s lessons in this cruel twist, called life for you,
education should begin as soon as the baby`s born , by!! yourself the parent,not waiting till school or nursery, You yourself , as a parent with a bran new baby, have such a precocious, gift .
Teachers are sought the world over for this baby to be yours, so look after him/her well.
For you never know when i will call to take this child back again. Don't think the labor has been in vain for there`s lessons in this cruel twist, called life for you,
Feb 24/2015
Hello, i am supposed to do this every day, i like listening to music,
as i write ,! it inspires my words & my thoughts, and as they drift,
Just go with the flow, what if its not flowing , how you had hoped,
What if the dams, burst, what if, what if, if,s but,s and maybe,s,
Life is full of them, Some sent to test you, some to teach you,some,
disguised , in all forms they come, its up-to you, the individual, to
listen and clarify all before throwing any mud, always have a good look.
Listen and learn , lessons are sent to try and of course make us who we are.
You can get stuck in a rut, and when it boils down to it, It is usually yourself.
That is left to deal with , the fall out, emotional battering,. Yet we all have our
ways of dealing with what life throws at us, not even knowing yourself,
Whats right from wrong, You only know 1 way and even as the years an you age,
You still learn, You might not see , this at the time, on reflection, that's when,
It will all become clear, is that too late for us all, Do we have the time, to sit an reflect?
Think about the what if,s . No we dont, live is for living , there is a book, Author,
(Tom Gordan). This book has so much , to give , its also about having to let go,
Its a sore one to read, all different people. All walks of life, in their final , Journey.
The ones left behind, the ones that have to go on, They can only look on & try ,
Help in each an every way, Even just being there is a help, you don`t have to say ,
or do anything. Just being there is enough, This gives comfort on so many levels.
Just be there, Even in silence, that silence , speaks volumes. In all different ways,
all different levels, Grief is a hard thing especially, when its someone close, Sad to see.
2 become 1, after all those years, not just 1 or 2 but 30, a lifetime, Then all goes
and changes, the silence is the most deafing, and probably the worst,
I was used to loads of noise plenty comings and goings, never a dull moment
so to speak, Thats on reflection , at the time , it would have been a right pain,
in the behind, I have learned , so much for my years , probably, forgot, more than i
remember. It comes back in bits and pieces maybe a piece of music a smell. Brings it all,
back , the reflections now memory`s, Nightmares in my living life, So isn`t it funny .
Not funny haha, even though some can`t help themselves, these are the ones,
who make it all worth the effort, at the time it is an effort but , you get strong.
as i write ,! it inspires my words & my thoughts, and as they drift,
Just go with the flow, what if its not flowing , how you had hoped,
What if the dams, burst, what if, what if, if,s but,s and maybe,s,
Life is full of them, Some sent to test you, some to teach you,some,
disguised , in all forms they come, its up-to you, the individual, to
listen and clarify all before throwing any mud, always have a good look.
Listen and learn , lessons are sent to try and of course make us who we are.
You can get stuck in a rut, and when it boils down to it, It is usually yourself.
That is left to deal with , the fall out, emotional battering,. Yet we all have our
ways of dealing with what life throws at us, not even knowing yourself,
Whats right from wrong, You only know 1 way and even as the years an you age,
You still learn, You might not see , this at the time, on reflection, that's when,
It will all become clear, is that too late for us all, Do we have the time, to sit an reflect?
Think about the what if,s . No we dont, live is for living , there is a book, Author,
(Tom Gordan). This book has so much , to give , its also about having to let go,
Its a sore one to read, all different people. All walks of life, in their final , Journey.
The ones left behind, the ones that have to go on, They can only look on & try ,
Help in each an every way, Even just being there is a help, you don`t have to say ,
or do anything. Just being there is enough, This gives comfort on so many levels.
Just be there, Even in silence, that silence , speaks volumes. In all different ways,
all different levels, Grief is a hard thing especially, when its someone close, Sad to see.
2 become 1, after all those years, not just 1 or 2 but 30, a lifetime, Then all goes
and changes, the silence is the most deafing, and probably the worst,
I was used to loads of noise plenty comings and goings, never a dull moment
so to speak, Thats on reflection , at the time , it would have been a right pain,
in the behind, I have learned , so much for my years , probably, forgot, more than i
remember. It comes back in bits and pieces maybe a piece of music a smell. Brings it all,
back , the reflections now memory`s, Nightmares in my living life, So isn`t it funny .
Not funny haha, even though some can`t help themselves, these are the ones,
who make it all worth the effort, at the time it is an effort but , you get strong.
Thursday, 19 February 2015
Circles
Its been a busy couple of days, decided to go and visit ,
It was good , to go do something different, Had to get ,
away from the keys, In the olden days? it would of been,
your gran knitting now its the clicketty click of the keys,
Sounds like you are knitting from a big yarn of wool,
As the words flow clicketty click they go , the ideas all fresh ,
Rumbling about your head, what will i say first!! What have i ,
learn`t from all these past years, have i learned at all.
Yes its been a hard slog , i did not even see the loads i carried,
I just carry those loads because , that`s my job , As mum.
Especially if there has been circumstances thrown your direction ,
Somehow you keep your head above water and you paddle "your feet ;like mad",
Till you feel 1 day you can actually swim. You have to swim, or you will,
sink,There is always floats, if you feel ,You are sinking, something happens,
Restoring your faith , takes along time if it can, be restored at all, Its hard.
This i can talk from experience through life's highways so to speak.
To be able to turn a negative into a positive is seemingly quite a craft!!!.
I call it surviving, Life can change from what you have always known,
In the flick of a switch. Till it happens to you, and you have not been there,
Never judge a book by its cover,. If you actualy take the time to Read,
The book, That`s why it`s called a cover,?To cover all that`s went on before.
The real story is in the book, If you have , empathy not sympathy!!.
The both are completely different, Sympathize, Yes feel sorry for them!!
Empathy you have felt this (lived ) so you have 100% understanding of,
The situation, then how dare you sit and mock or down, Try thinking before,
opening your gob, For now i know you know & knew which buttons to press.
Now on reflection your were dinging that bell like a woman possessed, .
I knew it , seems to be the order of the game, Sad. Now a lot is done and said.
Hurt is raw, people are sore, and sick of hearinsh such , rubbish , yet that`s all,
I hear, is repeating, & bringing all i knew down.& twisting like some old dishcloth ,
Not realizing how or what you had spun, ? I think you well , aware of your actions.
I was complety oblivious , no more though, i see so much more than i ever did before,
Now as i sit and reflect on all that was said and done!!. My soul bare for all to see,
This i do not care for , as you found out i am 1 of a kind, why so much doubt.
Why the stabs in the back , when all you are doing is hearing a 1 sided story.
How fast everyone can judge, i am guilty also. I would never kick, when i know,
Not exactly what they have been through, knowing though its been hard,
Harder than most , " dull blows near enough back to back, sent me into some kind ,
of mentil block , but you stood and mocked & layed the boot in !!! All i can say is WHY,.
We will come to this one day ,When i meet you on the other side!!?. Will you be different,
Or do we stay the same?. I wonder what realy happens when you are taking out the game.
One of your major pieces missing , trying to hold on by the fingertips, the skin of my teeth.
Then along comes something else to give me a double whammy ,just about,So much change,
in such a short space of time, leading my life is completly diffrent from how you lead yours,
i see what your saying now,. I gave you my all , the doubt was spun , the rivers murky,
I stayed , was i the fool?. No,? Lessons learn`t all round i think? I learned , that will do me.
That will always be your problem, not mines for i know i am true that`s why! now i can,
sit an laugh, The tears have been plenty i will tell you. As you seen and heard, what
a mixer you were, all this time dressed in sheep's clothing, A wolf waiting to pounce.
Little red hiding hood,? Comes to mind . i know that`s not the book of what am thinking,
but it realy is fitting . A hood to hide all the skulls and bones you have in your wardrobe.
I do this every day , put a face on to face the day , a front but its real, because thats all,
i have left, is the reality of all the worst nightmares, that have come true, Leading,
me in a path i definitly did never want to come, but here i am , doing what i said, .
I would never do , Never say never you, truly do not know, what is round that corner for you.
Sunday, 15 February 2015
I do not expect
I
Do not expect the Majority of you to believe yet the Minority of you
will allow what i state to be possible. I had met Terence In Higher
Dimensions While i was Experiencing The Effects Of Effective Dosage of
Psycho Active Substances... He Said to me that All i have to do for now
is to let go of the Desire to Enlight Others people about my
Understanding about The universe and to go on with my Expansion because
The Only Notion and Understanding about The universe is My Understanding
i i do not need to use my will upon anything outside of myself...NOBODY
EVER DIES !!! The Physical Vessel Of The Soul Is just being Depleted ! I
had seen/spoken with A LOT of persons in the higher dimensional reals
due to the Effect of Psycho active and psychedelic substances (Effective
dosages) LET GO of the Prison of the Laydown opinions !!! We are never
meant to behave as this Cultural society Does now....
AZRALTAREX!! wrote what is above!!
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AZRALTAREX!! wrote what is above!!
My understanding(personally)Karen Mc 17/02/2015.
I have listened to hours and hours & will listen for as long as it takes till i find something else.
To Enlighten or quench my thirst for knowledge, abstraction, destruction seems to be the order of these days. wars erupting all over the world . My little head , worrying , which even i know is of no good for any one, we all need to unite, Turn this horror on its head. i seem to be drawn to Putin ,Russia's president?. I feel he is the boss , he is higher than any other governing body in this world , i could be totally wrong. I truly hope i am , but i need to write this before i forget, i wouldn`t
forget WW3, and i cannot forget the horrors that are happening, now as i write this alone.
These people i hear screaming whilst i dream, the confussion i feel from my dreams,
as if in an eschers work of art , (ascending and descending) never stops, one thing after another the dreams come through , showing me people piled high, groaning seeking your help , hands outstretched, pleading eyes, this is what i remember in the morning, when i see the tears,on my pillow the wet stain, i know with the streaks down my face. What is coming , my dream is confused.
People are screaming for help. Yet it goes on in a spiraling slope , the sadness i quote , just because this is what i feel and see in my dreams. Yet i can feel hope. There is for some. Open your eyes look deep. What can you see, how do you feel , go with your instincts, what comes to your head
first. I do this, i do this, in my dreams also, its supposedly, a gift with conviction,
i give you my thoughts, in real hope, that`s all they are now, they have been spoken out loud,
Just a quick note
Hello , to my friends , who read this as i write , thank you, its great to meet like minded people.
Everyone we meet is not by coincidence nope, its for a lessons, this will either make or break a friend ship too. If they are true friends of yours nothing breaks that, doubt when thrown!!, inn definitely,
Helps keep the waters muddy.
Thank fully the water does clear and all is and will be revealed. This is your chance to awaken ,
or stay blind , i prefer, to learn, probably at a cost but this i will find out in time.
Up to this here and now the costs i have paid emotionally, & A little bit of my dignity.
When you fall you fall hard. People just standing in the wings to keep you low.
If you are true , you have nothing to fear, for in time all is revealed , and all becomes clear.
As i say as a price nothing comes free, and if it does question, & if it sounds to good to be true it usually is, No one knows you they might think they, do, but that will be hard since i find it hard to
know myself. Yes never judge anything , or mock someone else walk in life.
You just never know whats round that corner for you.
lessons learn`t plenty , i am grateful for , You go through life , thinking one way, yet others think
other ways, and of-course think the worst. Or make it sound worse than it ever was.
Clouding what had been clouded over , you made sure you brought black clouds to rain on me.
O it rained , i felt every tear. This lead to me questioning every thing that had ever been in my life.
Emotional scars ripped wide open , not a care too busy to pull everything down.
So So Sad . Something that is so special squashed by a fowl mouth, & stupid thoughts .
Which i now know , i was right about a lot of things. I don`t know why, I thought of you.
Like minded people. Lessons learn`t well and truly , never go backwards. It will kill you.
To walk away knowing you and what i am leaving behind , breaks me in two, for i really loved you.
Still do always will but the emotional scars are deep ,Too deep for stupid remarks , ask the horse
Not a mouth or speculation. or gossips . Go and ask the person right out, If they are true .
Then you will know , this person is nothing what everyone's shouting about, never judge a book by its cover or by some one Else,s reckoning, look and read yourself, better still ask!!.
For those that are true don`t mind its the same story over and over that`s why it doesn`t get repeated.
There should be no need > Pity you did not live in my head .
O how mighty and sad are we, can sit in judgement of others, never throw stones i was always told , especially if you live in a glass house yourself .This lesson i learned the hard way ,.
Its not till Hindsight sets in and you actually , sit and really think !!. What are my motives for being
this way. What is it i truly want , oops forgot its not about what you want,. That is only a blip,.
A few seconds , minutes of my history, even i cannot remember all of it , so its been great remembering , and reading , storys of way back then, when things were good before that sea,
of doubt.
The life i lead now completly diffrent from what was to what is now. The noise i miss the most.
I thought i had it bad when i realized my oldest two, didn`t need mum any more, i felt redundant , old and of no use. Now yous`e had flown the coup. My job done. So i thought. That was the easy years ,
Your children grow so fast, and change like the wind, just as you get into some kind of,
routine here comes baby,s first tooth etc. its not easy being a baby. everyone squeals with delight.
Whilst poor baby's, pain never seems to end , either ,Colic then straight into teething, Then ,
,that lasts for a good couple of years, and all the time you have loads else to deal with too.
These are the easy years , you know were your child is all tucked up nice and tight in bed,
all showered and cleaned for the next day ahead.
Then the nursery years , only 2 and a bit, they go by so quick, Then the primary years , Primary 1,
Your heart pounding ,leaving your child on their first day. Scared witless till its time to go collect them.
Then before you know it , primary 6, next minute there`s only one and a half years left of Primary.
Now onto the teenage years
They need a chapter all to them selves but i will give you my quick run down, I am not mother
of the year, I do my best , That is all i can do,One they hit high school. Your child turns from this loving wee child , to someone else, you even question yourself. Over and over again, criticizing, everything, Examining could i do better, Over and over again, looking for all different routes.
directions and paths, analyzing everything again , then reanalyzing, again, You try so many different things, praying all the while this is not in vain , seemingly im told a mothers job is never done, and a thankless task, no i don`t believe this, for all that life gives us , these gifts are better than any rose.
These gifts ,called children are priceless,. You help your child grow into the best they possibly
can be, as long as their happy with what they do in life, and have morals and manners they,
can be what they like as long as they , are not a menace, to society. or a danger to themselves,
They grow and learn so fast before you know it , your baby is sweet sixteen.
Hopefully now a days they stay on at school as there is no jobs out there except for slave labuor,
Which i certainly never brought my child up to do. Work hard , show you are keen we would say, be the first at work and the last to leave, showing your boss, you are the right man for any job.
This day and age there is no jobs , yes there is college and a free education system, .
The things we learn from life, we don't i believe learn from school , as education should begin the day the baby arrives. Its upto you, the parent , you have been blessed, You have been giving this baby for a reason, take the responsibility with pride. Guide and nurture your child too the ways , even the wicked ways , be open and honest for the child know,s . They are not stupid. Far from it some are just way too clever. now everything`s gone completely Politically Correct ,(PC). The child is so protected,
We the parents , their teachers from the lessons we have had to learn, we try to teach a new.
We teach them 1 way , then when they go to school they teach another,. Hopefully the two compliment each-other, For your child to to flourish and bloom. To live and learn from the life that we lead,. They are caring compassionate , empathic caring souls, That are here because they are unique,
all of us are, we all have something to bring the world just as it brought us into theirs. We all have a mission, or should have a mission a plan set out for life.
Its not allways followed , due to whats thrown at us on our way down the highway called life,.
Things are sent to try us in every which way, its how you deal with them. Through this our destiny as we guide our nearest and dearest into their destiny, . That is your baby no mater what age,
All you see when you look is that wee bundle of joy, They do no wrong!?. O yes they do, none of
us are perfect in any way, we all have our flaws, .That is why we are all unique, so as to teach others,
share your experience`s. Let others know , at-least you tried, Its better than just sitting wondering what if, but maybe if only i had tried, . Its never to late for a child to learn the simple steps to carry them through life, yet we set such big hurdles , and when they do not reach these points we are too quick to criticize. Listen to your child.
Everyone we meet is not by coincidence nope, its for a lessons, this will either make or break a friend ship too. If they are true friends of yours nothing breaks that, doubt when thrown!!, inn definitely,
Helps keep the waters muddy.
Thank fully the water does clear and all is and will be revealed. This is your chance to awaken ,
or stay blind , i prefer, to learn, probably at a cost but this i will find out in time.
Up to this here and now the costs i have paid emotionally, & A little bit of my dignity.
When you fall you fall hard. People just standing in the wings to keep you low.
If you are true , you have nothing to fear, for in time all is revealed , and all becomes clear.
As i say as a price nothing comes free, and if it does question, & if it sounds to good to be true it usually is, No one knows you they might think they, do, but that will be hard since i find it hard to
know myself. Yes never judge anything , or mock someone else walk in life.
You just never know whats round that corner for you.
lessons learn`t plenty , i am grateful for , You go through life , thinking one way, yet others think
other ways, and of-course think the worst. Or make it sound worse than it ever was.
Clouding what had been clouded over , you made sure you brought black clouds to rain on me.
O it rained , i felt every tear. This lead to me questioning every thing that had ever been in my life.
Emotional scars ripped wide open , not a care too busy to pull everything down.
So So Sad . Something that is so special squashed by a fowl mouth, & stupid thoughts .
Which i now know , i was right about a lot of things. I don`t know why, I thought of you.
Like minded people. Lessons learn`t well and truly , never go backwards. It will kill you.
To walk away knowing you and what i am leaving behind , breaks me in two, for i really loved you.
Still do always will but the emotional scars are deep ,Too deep for stupid remarks , ask the horse
Not a mouth or speculation. or gossips . Go and ask the person right out, If they are true .
Then you will know , this person is nothing what everyone's shouting about, never judge a book by its cover or by some one Else,s reckoning, look and read yourself, better still ask!!.
For those that are true don`t mind its the same story over and over that`s why it doesn`t get repeated.
There should be no need > Pity you did not live in my head .
O how mighty and sad are we, can sit in judgement of others, never throw stones i was always told , especially if you live in a glass house yourself .This lesson i learned the hard way ,.
Its not till Hindsight sets in and you actually , sit and really think !!. What are my motives for being
this way. What is it i truly want , oops forgot its not about what you want,. That is only a blip,.
A few seconds , minutes of my history, even i cannot remember all of it , so its been great remembering , and reading , storys of way back then, when things were good before that sea,
of doubt.
The life i lead now completly diffrent from what was to what is now. The noise i miss the most.
I thought i had it bad when i realized my oldest two, didn`t need mum any more, i felt redundant , old and of no use. Now yous`e had flown the coup. My job done. So i thought. That was the easy years ,
Your children grow so fast, and change like the wind, just as you get into some kind of,
routine here comes baby,s first tooth etc. its not easy being a baby. everyone squeals with delight.
Whilst poor baby's, pain never seems to end , either ,Colic then straight into teething, Then ,
,that lasts for a good couple of years, and all the time you have loads else to deal with too.
These are the easy years , you know were your child is all tucked up nice and tight in bed,
all showered and cleaned for the next day ahead.
Then the nursery years , only 2 and a bit, they go by so quick, Then the primary years , Primary 1,
Your heart pounding ,leaving your child on their first day. Scared witless till its time to go collect them.
Then before you know it , primary 6, next minute there`s only one and a half years left of Primary.
Now onto the teenage years
They need a chapter all to them selves but i will give you my quick run down, I am not mother
of the year, I do my best , That is all i can do,One they hit high school. Your child turns from this loving wee child , to someone else, you even question yourself. Over and over again, criticizing, everything, Examining could i do better, Over and over again, looking for all different routes.
directions and paths, analyzing everything again , then reanalyzing, again, You try so many different things, praying all the while this is not in vain , seemingly im told a mothers job is never done, and a thankless task, no i don`t believe this, for all that life gives us , these gifts are better than any rose.
These gifts ,called children are priceless,. You help your child grow into the best they possibly
can be, as long as their happy with what they do in life, and have morals and manners they,
can be what they like as long as they , are not a menace, to society. or a danger to themselves,
They grow and learn so fast before you know it , your baby is sweet sixteen.
Hopefully now a days they stay on at school as there is no jobs out there except for slave labuor,
Which i certainly never brought my child up to do. Work hard , show you are keen we would say, be the first at work and the last to leave, showing your boss, you are the right man for any job.
This day and age there is no jobs , yes there is college and a free education system, .
The things we learn from life, we don't i believe learn from school , as education should begin the day the baby arrives. Its upto you, the parent , you have been blessed, You have been giving this baby for a reason, take the responsibility with pride. Guide and nurture your child too the ways , even the wicked ways , be open and honest for the child know,s . They are not stupid. Far from it some are just way too clever. now everything`s gone completely Politically Correct ,(PC). The child is so protected,
We the parents , their teachers from the lessons we have had to learn, we try to teach a new.
We teach them 1 way , then when they go to school they teach another,. Hopefully the two compliment each-other, For your child to to flourish and bloom. To live and learn from the life that we lead,. They are caring compassionate , empathic caring souls, That are here because they are unique,
all of us are, we all have something to bring the world just as it brought us into theirs. We all have a mission, or should have a mission a plan set out for life.
Its not allways followed , due to whats thrown at us on our way down the highway called life,.
Things are sent to try us in every which way, its how you deal with them. Through this our destiny as we guide our nearest and dearest into their destiny, . That is your baby no mater what age,
All you see when you look is that wee bundle of joy, They do no wrong!?. O yes they do, none of
us are perfect in any way, we all have our flaws, .That is why we are all unique, so as to teach others,
share your experience`s. Let others know , at-least you tried, Its better than just sitting wondering what if, but maybe if only i had tried, . Its never to late for a child to learn the simple steps to carry them through life, yet we set such big hurdles , and when they do not reach these points we are too quick to criticize. Listen to your child.
Saturday, 14 February 2015
Dreams
Dreams are , compensatory , they provide a mirror.Into the deep.
Unconsciousness, constantly pondering from deep within.
unconsciouness most often reflecting what has been lost & what is needed.
For correction & balance, throughout you life.
Through dreams The consciousness, constantly producing , images. Its a world
Well worth saving.Making a world to want to live in. We need to call back something.
from the past To make it to the future ,not just for usin the here and now.
For the generations to come, before it all goes BANG.
Out of chaos comes order , they say , hmm, i will say even that takes time.
We don't seem to have much time it really does go too fast.Rues we need to live by
1 Eat 2, rest , 3 Compassion for our fellow mankind .
Compassion for all, empathy some people will never have.
Sympathy is totally different to Empathy.
Unconsciousness, constantly pondering from deep within.
unconsciouness most often reflecting what has been lost & what is needed.
For correction & balance, throughout you life.
Through dreams The consciousness, constantly producing , images. Its a world
Well worth saving.Making a world to want to live in. We need to call back something.
from the past To make it to the future ,not just for usin the here and now.
For the generations to come, before it all goes BANG.
Out of chaos comes order , they say , hmm, i will say even that takes time.
We don't seem to have much time it really does go too fast.Rues we need to live by
1 Eat 2, rest , 3 Compassion for our fellow mankind .
Compassion for all, empathy some people will never have.
Sympathy is totally different to Empathy.
You Never Realize
You never realize, how special something is.
Till its too late its gone,Its not there,
for you to tell or phone, to see. you hold them dear.
Hold them forever in your heart,
The grief, at times almost, to heavy a burden to carry.
The path in front of you, seems littered, from things from far back.
Resurfacing, in another calling me back.Over and over so you go,
Blind-fully forward hands outstretched , Groping as you go.
Feeling every bump and grind there ever was to feel, every mountain ,
A new path, In front of You.
Then ofcourse you bump into your future,. The mist does clear.
The new lessons already waiting in the wings, to be learn`t.
Even old lessons once again , to teach you again a new,
Life seems back breaking at times almost slapping you back.
Reality you have no choice you can`t hide from it, No one can.
Laughter That helps that is what is needed but people frown,
Thinking its not right to laugh, its not laughing at you.
Your laughing at how silly things can be. Including yourself.
Its you thats had to learn these lessons from lifes great highway.
I do like a quote about "walking in others shoes",. It truly is so fitting.
Never judge a book by someone else, Look at the cover!!
Look inside , you might even surprise yourself at what you find.
Life is for living dont be too quick to judge especially, If your life,s ?
Boring & you have nothing to do , except be nosy then this is just for you.
Look delve deep for you might not see, due to being to nosy.
Your letting your life pass you by too busy waiting to see if i fall.
I am an i will pick myself back up , as i always do,& always have done.
Especially when the road ahead looks too bumpy, I will get through .
Yes to walk a day in someones shoes. See their mist feel their blue.
Yet its ok cause its all lies and Bull really!! O how sad and wrong people can be.
You just never realized , too busy downing what ever i had done.
No matter now for i can sort that bit how about you. You Just Never Realize.
Till its at your own front door the pain and torment thats in your head.
Is easy to cover with a face , look into my eyes , there you will see.
My pain is real & for to mock . O how sad. & Unreal .From life`s highways.
you will learn , the lessons you mock for you do not understand , how i know is with you mocking .
You realy have no clue , how small your brain really, is i feel quite sad for you .
Life`s highways , You just do not realize, till its at your front gate. Then how would you deal
with the blow, its easy to talk the talk but have you ever done the walk?,
That is more than 1 pair of shoes let me azure you. Its a lifelong quest. Knowledge,
Love & respect, Education, You just dont realize , what you have to learn , you
will not get the answers from any book, its upto you how to decipher The lifelong plan.
Even then that is hard , for you trully just do not even realize.
Till its too late its gone,Its not there,
for you to tell or phone, to see. you hold them dear.
Hold them forever in your heart,
The grief, at times almost, to heavy a burden to carry.
The path in front of you, seems littered, from things from far back.
Resurfacing, in another calling me back.Over and over so you go,
Blind-fully forward hands outstretched , Groping as you go.
Feeling every bump and grind there ever was to feel, every mountain ,
A new path, In front of You.
Then ofcourse you bump into your future,. The mist does clear.
The new lessons already waiting in the wings, to be learn`t.
Even old lessons once again , to teach you again a new,
Life seems back breaking at times almost slapping you back.
Reality you have no choice you can`t hide from it, No one can.
Laughter That helps that is what is needed but people frown,
Thinking its not right to laugh, its not laughing at you.
Your laughing at how silly things can be. Including yourself.
Its you thats had to learn these lessons from lifes great highway.
I do like a quote about "walking in others shoes",. It truly is so fitting.
Never judge a book by someone else, Look at the cover!!
Look inside , you might even surprise yourself at what you find.
Life is for living dont be too quick to judge especially, If your life,s ?
Boring & you have nothing to do , except be nosy then this is just for you.
Look delve deep for you might not see, due to being to nosy.
Your letting your life pass you by too busy waiting to see if i fall.
I am an i will pick myself back up , as i always do,& always have done.
Especially when the road ahead looks too bumpy, I will get through .
Yes to walk a day in someones shoes. See their mist feel their blue.
Yet its ok cause its all lies and Bull really!! O how sad and wrong people can be.
You just never realized , too busy downing what ever i had done.
No matter now for i can sort that bit how about you. You Just Never Realize.
Till its at your own front door the pain and torment thats in your head.
Is easy to cover with a face , look into my eyes , there you will see.
My pain is real & for to mock . O how sad. & Unreal .From life`s highways.
you will learn , the lessons you mock for you do not understand , how i know is with you mocking .
You realy have no clue , how small your brain really, is i feel quite sad for you .
Life`s highways , You just do not realize, till its at your front gate. Then how would you deal
with the blow, its easy to talk the talk but have you ever done the walk?,
That is more than 1 pair of shoes let me azure you. Its a lifelong quest. Knowledge,
Love & respect, Education, You just dont realize , what you have to learn , you
will not get the answers from any book, its upto you how to decipher The lifelong plan.
Even then that is hard , for you trully just do not even realize.
Sillouettes
I can see , our sillouettes dancing togther in the moonlight, Only you are alone, sometimes ,
we are together,Sometimes its only me,watching you, remembering how you could bounce,
How you could dance , you could definitely move, was always good to see.You realy loved ,
dance.
You realy done us proud, now i have to let you rest and stop calling you from deep inside,
When things get tuff, i know you are by my side,Even though i know i cannot touch only talk.
Aslong as i feel you everything feels fine. Am i just surviving?, I know i can do better, like my
school report card, Could always do better , think that will be on my tombstone. Think its quite fitting. the state of play in all areas of our life's, seems to be at a stale mate !! I need a kick start to get my self roaring back into life, yet i cannot muster my strengh from deep inside this time.
Our family unit was once so strong , the foundations i thought were so strong that nothing could shatter our life's, I am the mum so i protect whats mines,. My Family , is broken its wings , the flight feathers have fell , now all i have is fight, even the fight the energy i could do without ,but if its what
makes me feel stronger then what will be will be as i know only too well. How life can take, you in and rip you apart, Everyday a new challenge , some days feeling its all in tatters , but knowing deep inside it will all be fixed one day .this day i cannot wait for the work is heavy, The load not a burden.
Definitely a problem a lot of emotional scars , built over our now scared hearts, what once was totally all near gone.
The branches from our tree stand bare not a leaf , insight , Why i ask over and over has life been so cruel , especially at the end, We did have it good for years but then when it went bad it turned real nasty so fast, Leaving us all we left standing in shock realing from what just actually happened.
It wasn`t just 1 thing but a number of things, one after another, No wonder my brains a mess.
A bit all over the place but it will come back , its never went any were its just had a willfull,
Blindness or fogginess of the brain. This was my protection it kept me strong ,. The day you had to go!
Wishing things could have been so different, But that's hindsight, i wish i could bottle that.
I would share it with everyone because i like to see people happy,. There`s too much sadness in this world, without sticking your tuppence worth in. If you have nothing positive to say then just say nothing.! Haters will be haters comes to mind ,. You can turn what negativity you find yourself
facing right around into a positive and then you can , smile because you can change the negativity but shame the others are stuck. I dont look at life at everyones out for themselves maybe i am blind.
will full blindness , not totally blind? Or Numb Or Dumb. Wishing things could of been so diffrent.
That`s hindsight once again, if only i could of bottled that stuff. Every day a new challenge.
All making you a better person for all that gets thrown , i can handle, its the hate the down right nastiness , O i can handle it , i just dont understand were it all came from , then on reflection.
I totally understand, its no excuse though. You pulled me to pieces, This is not the end, i will be seeing you.
If not in this life definitely the next . I might not feel like a champion but i know i am, .
I can hold my head high,& walk in the knowledge, I will see you on the other side one way or another.
Wishing things could have been so different, I should of took flight years ago but no i stood with you.
throughout,These past years i might not have scored but i live my life true, compared, to some
as i come to find out. Everyone has a story to tell , some story's break you in 2 , that's if you have a heart. Not made of stone or tin but a real one not glazed over with, hate? Envy , jealousy ,sadness.
Everyone has a fate . whether its good or bad its all for us our demise our challenges our fate!!
We all have one that is for sure we all meet again 1 day. I hope all these lessons learn`t have not
been in vain , for their is a young life.
This life here learning so much so fast , How to slow th elearning proccess the knowledge is it too
much too soon. you seem to have adapted real well, i am so proud of you, yet so scared.
You are just a little child, yet you are so huge inside, the experiances you have been through.
in this your short life will put you i hope in good stead for the rest of your life, A very long beneficial life for all you will lead by example . please my little child, my heart beats so fast. You not being in
drives me crazy inside. My boy my darling little boy , why has life dealt such a cruel cruel blow.
yet you are doing brilliant, its us the older ones who fret, you carry on how you should be.
I love you more everyday , my heart melts for my little child. The inner little one inside the one,
who i realy know is just a real wee boy deep down inside, who still needs his mum & my boy
i am here for you, 24/7 if thats what its going to take. maybe i am wrong but this i will learn in
time , I and i know loads of others are watching your fate, some with eyes wanting you to fail even though you are only young , people are so cruel, but children can be the cruelest of them all.
Children don't mince their words tell it like it is . No mater how hard a blow it is, Resilience, is what children have in abundance . This us adults should be able to bring with us from childhood to adulthood . I live how quick children can change , i also want them to slow down a bit but that is not
going to happen , life is for living not for sitting doing nothing . be a go getter get up and get yourself out and about .learn something new everyday its not hard .
we are together,Sometimes its only me,watching you, remembering how you could bounce,
How you could dance , you could definitely move, was always good to see.You realy loved ,
dance.
You realy done us proud, now i have to let you rest and stop calling you from deep inside,
When things get tuff, i know you are by my side,Even though i know i cannot touch only talk.
Aslong as i feel you everything feels fine. Am i just surviving?, I know i can do better, like my
school report card, Could always do better , think that will be on my tombstone. Think its quite fitting. the state of play in all areas of our life's, seems to be at a stale mate !! I need a kick start to get my self roaring back into life, yet i cannot muster my strengh from deep inside this time.
Our family unit was once so strong , the foundations i thought were so strong that nothing could shatter our life's, I am the mum so i protect whats mines,. My Family , is broken its wings , the flight feathers have fell , now all i have is fight, even the fight the energy i could do without ,but if its what
makes me feel stronger then what will be will be as i know only too well. How life can take, you in and rip you apart, Everyday a new challenge , some days feeling its all in tatters , but knowing deep inside it will all be fixed one day .this day i cannot wait for the work is heavy, The load not a burden.
Definitely a problem a lot of emotional scars , built over our now scared hearts, what once was totally all near gone.
The branches from our tree stand bare not a leaf , insight , Why i ask over and over has life been so cruel , especially at the end, We did have it good for years but then when it went bad it turned real nasty so fast, Leaving us all we left standing in shock realing from what just actually happened.
It wasn`t just 1 thing but a number of things, one after another, No wonder my brains a mess.
A bit all over the place but it will come back , its never went any were its just had a willfull,
Blindness or fogginess of the brain. This was my protection it kept me strong ,. The day you had to go!
Wishing things could have been so different, But that's hindsight, i wish i could bottle that.
I would share it with everyone because i like to see people happy,. There`s too much sadness in this world, without sticking your tuppence worth in. If you have nothing positive to say then just say nothing.! Haters will be haters comes to mind ,. You can turn what negativity you find yourself
facing right around into a positive and then you can , smile because you can change the negativity but shame the others are stuck. I dont look at life at everyones out for themselves maybe i am blind.
will full blindness , not totally blind? Or Numb Or Dumb. Wishing things could of been so diffrent.
That`s hindsight once again, if only i could of bottled that stuff. Every day a new challenge.
All making you a better person for all that gets thrown , i can handle, its the hate the down right nastiness , O i can handle it , i just dont understand were it all came from , then on reflection.
I totally understand, its no excuse though. You pulled me to pieces, This is not the end, i will be seeing you.
If not in this life definitely the next . I might not feel like a champion but i know i am, .
I can hold my head high,& walk in the knowledge, I will see you on the other side one way or another.
Wishing things could have been so different, I should of took flight years ago but no i stood with you.
throughout,These past years i might not have scored but i live my life true, compared, to some
as i come to find out. Everyone has a story to tell , some story's break you in 2 , that's if you have a heart. Not made of stone or tin but a real one not glazed over with, hate? Envy , jealousy ,sadness.
Everyone has a fate . whether its good or bad its all for us our demise our challenges our fate!!
We all have one that is for sure we all meet again 1 day. I hope all these lessons learn`t have not
been in vain , for their is a young life.
This life here learning so much so fast , How to slow th elearning proccess the knowledge is it too
much too soon. you seem to have adapted real well, i am so proud of you, yet so scared.
You are just a little child, yet you are so huge inside, the experiances you have been through.
in this your short life will put you i hope in good stead for the rest of your life, A very long beneficial life for all you will lead by example . please my little child, my heart beats so fast. You not being in
drives me crazy inside. My boy my darling little boy , why has life dealt such a cruel cruel blow.
yet you are doing brilliant, its us the older ones who fret, you carry on how you should be.
I love you more everyday , my heart melts for my little child. The inner little one inside the one,
who i realy know is just a real wee boy deep down inside, who still needs his mum & my boy
i am here for you, 24/7 if thats what its going to take. maybe i am wrong but this i will learn in
time , I and i know loads of others are watching your fate, some with eyes wanting you to fail even though you are only young , people are so cruel, but children can be the cruelest of them all.
Children don't mince their words tell it like it is . No mater how hard a blow it is, Resilience, is what children have in abundance . This us adults should be able to bring with us from childhood to adulthood . I live how quick children can change , i also want them to slow down a bit but that is not
going to happen , life is for living not for sitting doing nothing . be a go getter get up and get yourself out and about .learn something new everyday its not hard .
Tuesday, 10 February 2015
Married Life2003
I have just read a funny story of a marraige, 10 years long and how the "deranged" couple,
are still very happy..
Well i like to think, I know 21 years with someone is definitely deranged or mad for it. I p revere the word Mad.How life sends, you, in all different ways,on all different levels, All different, tests of your faith in your love and yourself,I believe your destiny is , well mapped out, in the stars.
Our reception was a hoot and a half, the things you done for me, like getting all your teeth fixed the day we got wed, Vanity i wasn`t to go into that one.The party was brilliant,everybody enjoyedthemselves we had rave reveiws,.
The children had to take us home, Our darling children, at six and four,looking after their Mum and dad,helping us to our beds,,The roles reversed so young, that was only a glimpse into the future,
As time progressed the years roll by and the roles change,The children turn into a young version of yourself , fresher loads of new ideas and definitely smarter, than our generations.Now everything is so
politically, correct?.
The children are much more aware of things today and are not scared to voice their concerns,
So resilient too, Our children , have turned out to be wonder full adults Very Educated & talented.
Young Adults, now its their turn to go out into the world so to speak , Go and help and show to be good, help were you can, show respect were its supposed to be shown , teach your children manners , they are free, and get everyone so much further up the tree!. As their mum an dad am sure all will agree, we only want what is best for our children and all children around the globe, we want our children to grab all the chances we missed and grab them with both hands cause you just never know!!. Twenty one years and still holding hands must be love. If it isnt broken why fix it , I have heard older couples say and they were so right. I listened to loads of older couples , who could have quite easily have done each other inn. Then when you think of the argument you can laugh at how
daft it really was , never go to bed on an argument .
are still very happy..
Well i like to think, I know 21 years with someone is definitely deranged or mad for it. I p revere the word Mad.How life sends, you, in all different ways,on all different levels, All different, tests of your faith in your love and yourself,I believe your destiny is , well mapped out, in the stars.
Our reception was a hoot and a half, the things you done for me, like getting all your teeth fixed the day we got wed, Vanity i wasn`t to go into that one.The party was brilliant,everybody enjoyedthemselves we had rave reveiws,.
The children had to take us home, Our darling children, at six and four,looking after their Mum and dad,helping us to our beds,,The roles reversed so young, that was only a glimpse into the future,
As time progressed the years roll by and the roles change,The children turn into a young version of yourself , fresher loads of new ideas and definitely smarter, than our generations.Now everything is so
politically, correct?.
The children are much more aware of things today and are not scared to voice their concerns,
So resilient too, Our children , have turned out to be wonder full adults Very Educated & talented.
Young Adults, now its their turn to go out into the world so to speak , Go and help and show to be good, help were you can, show respect were its supposed to be shown , teach your children manners , they are free, and get everyone so much further up the tree!. As their mum an dad am sure all will agree, we only want what is best for our children and all children around the globe, we want our children to grab all the chances we missed and grab them with both hands cause you just never know!!. Twenty one years and still holding hands must be love. If it isnt broken why fix it , I have heard older couples say and they were so right. I listened to loads of older couples , who could have quite easily have done each other inn. Then when you think of the argument you can laugh at how
daft it really was , never go to bed on an argument .
Life
Life is really short, Weather you live 3 years or 93.
Life just seems to fly by, no conception of Time
How 1 day rolls into 3,Its so fast it really amazes me.
How fast life can pass us by. So easy to walk blind.
Life is also so so precious, Life can be snapped shut.
As quick as putting a light on,As quick as putting a flame out.
That`s how quick till it is the end.
As if snuffing , switching a light of.
Thats the end of your life "They say". "you will be the last to know,
When you die, What bull i think you should really be the first to know.
Its supposed to make sence, when life`s put into a rhyme,
happiness it says Everyday and all year round, Well thats also bull,
As not everyone`s going to be happy each and everyday.
Maybe its me, who,s the cynical witch , Jesus!,I just can not understand.
How when , life`s , in your hands, some fools, seem to take chances,
Over and over again.
To learn to be a teacher true,How the hell, Do some get to teach and,
get chances over and over again,Teachers of life have never stopped learning.
This they do with pride, For each an every new day. Teachers be true,
especially of heart And head. Teach with pride, we are all first time.
learners , then teachers , but always the student. Always listening for new ways.
This is a teacher true, willing to learn something new with you.
Life just seems to fly by, no conception of Time
How 1 day rolls into 3,Its so fast it really amazes me.
How fast life can pass us by. So easy to walk blind.
Life is also so so precious, Life can be snapped shut.
As quick as putting a light on,As quick as putting a flame out.
That`s how quick till it is the end.
As if snuffing , switching a light of.
Thats the end of your life "They say". "you will be the last to know,
When you die, What bull i think you should really be the first to know.
Its supposed to make sence, when life`s put into a rhyme,
happiness it says Everyday and all year round, Well thats also bull,
As not everyone`s going to be happy each and everyday.
Maybe its me, who,s the cynical witch , Jesus!,I just can not understand.
How when , life`s , in your hands, some fools, seem to take chances,
Over and over again.
To learn to be a teacher true,How the hell, Do some get to teach and,
get chances over and over again,Teachers of life have never stopped learning.
This they do with pride, For each an every new day. Teachers be true,
especially of heart And head. Teach with pride, we are all first time.
learners , then teachers , but always the student. Always listening for new ways.
This is a teacher true, willing to learn something new with you.
Monday, 9 February 2015
Heart 2003.
Songs for the Heart,
My heart is pounding,every beat feels like,
i am running all the time, to you.
Please slow down and let , me catch up, or my heart is going to burst.
i cannot stand the pace,If you dont slow down,I cannot keep up.
I have tried, I cannot keep it up. I have tried so hard i cannot take it any more.
The build up was so good,The foundation was not cemented?,
Ovously it is going to all tumble down, Right on top of us, coverd in rubble.
It gives us , one of 2 scenarios,
One we can build from scratch, or try to build separately,we don't want too many cooks.
that would just spoil the broth, so to speak.
For us to go on we have to remove ,brick by brick and remould our home into a fortress,of all our feelings, but what about a gate, we could not build another wall,We need a new passage,
A new beckoning, be a beacon of everyone,s hope,s and desires ,let your self be the channel everyone so needs , It really is quite easy , Just dont carry too many troubles for theres no need to worry ,
it always works out.
My heart is pounding,every beat feels like,
i am running all the time, to you.
Please slow down and let , me catch up, or my heart is going to burst.
i cannot stand the pace,If you dont slow down,I cannot keep up.
I have tried, I cannot keep it up. I have tried so hard i cannot take it any more.
The build up was so good,The foundation was not cemented?,
Ovously it is going to all tumble down, Right on top of us, coverd in rubble.
It gives us , one of 2 scenarios,
One we can build from scratch, or try to build separately,we don't want too many cooks.
that would just spoil the broth, so to speak.
For us to go on we have to remove ,brick by brick and remould our home into a fortress,of all our feelings, but what about a gate, we could not build another wall,We need a new passage,
A new beckoning, be a beacon of everyone,s hope,s and desires ,let your self be the channel everyone so needs , It really is quite easy , Just dont carry too many troubles for theres no need to worry ,
it always works out.
In Full Bloom
Life is a rose, In full bloom, Give`s your, nose,Smell the flower, not to hard,, let the scent, rise up gently through your nose, Can you feel , can you see, can you smell, can you feel your lips, They
start to curve upwards to give you a smile, Keep on smiling. It will make you feel better , never
mind the rest, You will probably never see them again, Now let your senses, go wild & enjoy the day.
Life is what you make it, Life has to much to offer, And so much to take away, Count your blessings,
Not what materials we have, Life has a funny way of dealing with destiny,good & bad,in everyone and everything?. Its up-to you how you deal with everything?. In your life!!. Everyone brings a new test, of human nature, Everyone has to live, so if you treat other people like rubbish, then you will be treated like rubbish, What goes around comes around.
If you look you will see if you choose to look away! just remember!, That could so easily of been you.
People are so cruel. They like, a cause others pain but if you are good and pure of heart, You will see what goes around comes around. Sometimes so fast it can knock you clean of your feet.
You can lead a horse to water!, but you cannot force it to drink, I beg to differ, If you keep
the horse there long enough it will sample, it has to try!!.
Never judge a book by its cover,?
a leopard never changes its spots,
You cannot teach a dog new tricks?,Turn over a new leaf a new chapter in your book,.
Everyone bleeds? We are all really the same.
Too many Chiefs & not enough Indians..You have to be mad to get mad, then even, get mad to survive?,Do or die,Get rich or die trying?A rose growing from concrete.
Keep death of the road, drive on the pavement.Some time you have to lose something, to find out what ,
you have been looking for,Going out to paint the town red. , The worlds a small place, but i would not like to paint it,. As worn by football legends the world over,. You have tried the rest , now try the best,Honey suckle, life's a bitch, We are all here to die that's one sure fate for us all. We all started out as an egg, Then the egg, makes up your body, its up-to you, How will your soul turn out, do you even
care.When we do die, we all have to deal with our misgivings, How we expressed our selves,
Did you ever lend a hand? Did you give up some of your precious time,. Have you crossed all your T,s and dotted your I,s. These questions will come, when it is your turn to move to the next place.
Imagine all the world,!!. at one, sold to peace,.
Destroying, war power, make the peace work, to show the human race, what love is really all about what love is really all about.
Let your Education for war!! turn, to ,love. In the classroom, start the foundations,
Its were all good builders start. make a solid base the rest will hold up fine, no matter what weather
comes, Show the human race what love is really all about.
Take a leaf from all religions, put it all together and we the human race can learn from one an other,
Everybody coming together to show what love is all about.
There should not be no regrets, from any side, no-one is to blame,
we all learn from our own mistakes, usually the hard way, help others to understand,What its all about.
Share your misfortune , share your fortune, people sadly think money is the answer to all.
All though it does help to make the world go round, it is not the be all and end all.
start to curve upwards to give you a smile, Keep on smiling. It will make you feel better , never
mind the rest, You will probably never see them again, Now let your senses, go wild & enjoy the day.
Life is what you make it, Life has to much to offer, And so much to take away, Count your blessings,
Not what materials we have, Life has a funny way of dealing with destiny,good & bad,in everyone and everything?. Its up-to you how you deal with everything?. In your life!!. Everyone brings a new test, of human nature, Everyone has to live, so if you treat other people like rubbish, then you will be treated like rubbish, What goes around comes around.
If you look you will see if you choose to look away! just remember!, That could so easily of been you.
People are so cruel. They like, a cause others pain but if you are good and pure of heart, You will see what goes around comes around. Sometimes so fast it can knock you clean of your feet.
You can lead a horse to water!, but you cannot force it to drink, I beg to differ, If you keep
the horse there long enough it will sample, it has to try!!.
Never judge a book by its cover,?
a leopard never changes its spots,
You cannot teach a dog new tricks?,Turn over a new leaf a new chapter in your book,.
Everyone bleeds? We are all really the same.
Too many Chiefs & not enough Indians..You have to be mad to get mad, then even, get mad to survive?,Do or die,Get rich or die trying?A rose growing from concrete.
Keep death of the road, drive on the pavement.Some time you have to lose something, to find out what ,
you have been looking for,Going out to paint the town red. , The worlds a small place, but i would not like to paint it,. As worn by football legends the world over,. You have tried the rest , now try the best,Honey suckle, life's a bitch, We are all here to die that's one sure fate for us all. We all started out as an egg, Then the egg, makes up your body, its up-to you, How will your soul turn out, do you even
care.When we do die, we all have to deal with our misgivings, How we expressed our selves,
Did you ever lend a hand? Did you give up some of your precious time,. Have you crossed all your T,s and dotted your I,s. These questions will come, when it is your turn to move to the next place.
Imagine all the world,!!. at one, sold to peace,.
Destroying, war power, make the peace work, to show the human race, what love is really all about what love is really all about.
Let your Education for war!! turn, to ,love. In the classroom, start the foundations,
Its were all good builders start. make a solid base the rest will hold up fine, no matter what weather
comes, Show the human race what love is really all about.
Take a leaf from all religions, put it all together and we the human race can learn from one an other,
Everybody coming together to show what love is all about.
There should not be no regrets, from any side, no-one is to blame,
we all learn from our own mistakes, usually the hard way, help others to understand,What its all about.
Share your misfortune , share your fortune, people sadly think money is the answer to all.
All though it does help to make the world go round, it is not the be all and end all.
Sunday, 8 February 2015
29/01/2002, Today 8/02/2015
The sun should be shining, on my heart. If you leave this plain before your time.
Surley you can plan a date, to come back? Just for this one perfect afternoon.
If your taken in your prime And well before your time. Just 1 special date!! Surley,
It can be done!?. Everything perfect? Surly it can be done?. A few stolen hours. Perfect hours to do what we have missed when you were here alive & kicking.Maybe it can be done, No-one,,s ever, tried yet. Surly untill you try thats when you find if it can be done. if only we could try , so
the sun is shining in My Family's Heart. Hey !! my love its 3.30 and am lying here wide awake wondering were we went wrong.We really, knew!! all this time we just never, had the courage to up and change the whole stinking situation.All i wanted to do was dance. Love you.
You are not here again. This you could not of helped , not even great divine intervention?.
Or was it.
You used to love me so well were did we go so wrong, we could not get back to where it once was, all has gone, both the bridges burnt , years before we were even aware, Yet we got caught up in the flow of our life.. We both must of been so broken. the cracks never showed. Till we looked.
really looked, then what was deep inside had turned to some kind of surreal reality, that we just ,
got caught up and did not know how to stop. The feelings still there , still raw, pleading eyes.
Screaming at eachother, for just a cuddle , without realizing our own pride, ego , would help,
divide, stop us from being true from the feelings inside, thinking the grass, is greener ,
on the other side, now i mean is it really greener, it looked greener, when i seen you in the dream.
So now the clouds are back , my eyes , are misty from missing you. I want to lye by your side.
Stretch out and touch you for real, missing you is so much harder than i ever imagined.
Oh why did you see me standing, why did you, have me standing, by your side.
I have news for you, i need to share but all i can do is talk to the air the empty space that you,
should be in, your vibrations, shaking us all up inside, I never imagined, life without you would be so hard.I wrote about us often, i miss your big flashy smile and your spontaneous actions.
Why do things have to change, why do lessons have to be learn t. Especially after writing about this,
horrible love of ours looking over the years , we were doomed way back. We should have ,
listened to our piers, yes we were young, and we knew how to have all the fun.
When your back is against a wall, what would you do.Will you surrender or put up a fight.
when your back is up against the wall , You will surrender to me , when your back is against the wall.
Why because no one else is going to put up with you, selfish ways. Then i think , ofcourse i will.
For i am your wife. You brought me sunshine , i brought you plenty too. We just could not pick up each other up anymore , The time was coming for this we both knew, timings were changing , and they sure did. I cannot believe when i look, reflect on things i have written years ago.
As if i knew you wouldn`t be here in the here and now so to speak. you did leave early.
Just as you had said ? I realy should have listened , you did not listen to my pleas. When the,
time came. I know i stood in vain watching your demise was the hardest i thought was going to happen in our life, the hardest was the kick in the teeth at the end, it did not mater how good we tended your needs you were not aware, you would drift in and out of conscientiousness.
The Sun would come back for those minutes are now only memory's like the story's on,
This page .Our love was for infinity from here & beyond we both knew this for sure, we were perfect soul mates. We had our sad and bad times too but when your not here its realy only the good times.
We all want to remember , death is just so sore, surreal even losing you was one of the hardest chapters in our familys story up till that date. There is loads more, every year a diffrent struggle to come to terms , your realy not here, not at the end of a phone, why did i get to see and feel
all this before losing you, was that my inner self, protecting me , for to be able to go on be strong as you asked, i have done all that you asked. Till we meet again , on the other side :) R.I.P BBZ XX
Surley you can plan a date, to come back? Just for this one perfect afternoon.
If your taken in your prime And well before your time. Just 1 special date!! Surley,
It can be done!?. Everything perfect? Surly it can be done?. A few stolen hours. Perfect hours to do what we have missed when you were here alive & kicking.Maybe it can be done, No-one,,s ever, tried yet. Surly untill you try thats when you find if it can be done. if only we could try , so
the sun is shining in My Family's Heart. Hey !! my love its 3.30 and am lying here wide awake wondering were we went wrong.We really, knew!! all this time we just never, had the courage to up and change the whole stinking situation.All i wanted to do was dance. Love you.
You are not here again. This you could not of helped , not even great divine intervention?.
Or was it.
You used to love me so well were did we go so wrong, we could not get back to where it once was, all has gone, both the bridges burnt , years before we were even aware, Yet we got caught up in the flow of our life.. We both must of been so broken. the cracks never showed. Till we looked.
really looked, then what was deep inside had turned to some kind of surreal reality, that we just ,
got caught up and did not know how to stop. The feelings still there , still raw, pleading eyes.
Screaming at eachother, for just a cuddle , without realizing our own pride, ego , would help,
divide, stop us from being true from the feelings inside, thinking the grass, is greener ,
on the other side, now i mean is it really greener, it looked greener, when i seen you in the dream.
So now the clouds are back , my eyes , are misty from missing you. I want to lye by your side.
Stretch out and touch you for real, missing you is so much harder than i ever imagined.
Oh why did you see me standing, why did you, have me standing, by your side.
I have news for you, i need to share but all i can do is talk to the air the empty space that you,
should be in, your vibrations, shaking us all up inside, I never imagined, life without you would be so hard.I wrote about us often, i miss your big flashy smile and your spontaneous actions.
Why do things have to change, why do lessons have to be learn t. Especially after writing about this,
horrible love of ours looking over the years , we were doomed way back. We should have ,
listened to our piers, yes we were young, and we knew how to have all the fun.
When your back is against a wall, what would you do.Will you surrender or put up a fight.
when your back is up against the wall , You will surrender to me , when your back is against the wall.
Why because no one else is going to put up with you, selfish ways. Then i think , ofcourse i will.
For i am your wife. You brought me sunshine , i brought you plenty too. We just could not pick up each other up anymore , The time was coming for this we both knew, timings were changing , and they sure did. I cannot believe when i look, reflect on things i have written years ago.
As if i knew you wouldn`t be here in the here and now so to speak. you did leave early.
Just as you had said ? I realy should have listened , you did not listen to my pleas. When the,
time came. I know i stood in vain watching your demise was the hardest i thought was going to happen in our life, the hardest was the kick in the teeth at the end, it did not mater how good we tended your needs you were not aware, you would drift in and out of conscientiousness.
The Sun would come back for those minutes are now only memory's like the story's on,
This page .Our love was for infinity from here & beyond we both knew this for sure, we were perfect soul mates. We had our sad and bad times too but when your not here its realy only the good times.
We all want to remember , death is just so sore, surreal even losing you was one of the hardest chapters in our familys story up till that date. There is loads more, every year a diffrent struggle to come to terms , your realy not here, not at the end of a phone, why did i get to see and feel
all this before losing you, was that my inner self, protecting me , for to be able to go on be strong as you asked, i have done all that you asked. Till we meet again , on the other side :) R.I.P BBZ XX
Saturday, 7 February 2015
Sascha 1999/diary,s
Sascha was The best dog a family could ever think of having. Sascha we will never forget you.
The first time we met you come bounding into the living room jumped on to the settee,and done a wee.
That was it already , you were out the door,you were 6 months old, then we forgave you,
I was pregnant with our oldest boy, I think you knew.You even protected our girl as if she was your own,you knew your place, your jibright away.you were growing all the time. Then the baby was
born and you took over. You saved his life ( twice) ( that i can remember0 of hand. We lived in high
flats you never complained. The only time was when the baby was on the other side of the balcony rail, you came to me , your eyes told me to follow,Which i did, thanks again to you, I found our
baby on the other side of the balcony 4 floors up.It all happened so fast but thanks to you .
You ran away and got pregnant in your first season, you were young. we were scared for you, there was no need you were fine and a great mother.To have seen you with your young, yet you had 7.
the 2 human children too. We had some great laughs .As doberman owners will know. you also loved your comforts, You could sit on a hankie , you would turn in a figure of eight till you thought it was right, then you would sit.We nearly lost you, once when you cut a main artery in your paw.
We got you to a vet in the nick of time.With just minutes to spare. As usual you bounced back. we knew you loved us and the four of us loved you. We were a happy family of 5.
Then we had to move from the flats to a house ,due to a fire, which you saved us again.
We moved into a house with a garden,You would look after all the children they would come,
from floor 1 to floor 10 we lived on floor 4. You made sure none of those children cried, it was as if you were heaven sent, to show us so much we did not learn at the time, for it takes time to learn the lessons you dont get taught at school.You would be there with your big brown eyes,too ease ,any
child's pain, Then the publicity hit, saying , your Breed Were bred to kill, I had to give you away for a you were in season and the front door was always left open So i gave you to someone we thought we could trust,.I even said if she becomes a nuisance just open the front door she will find her way home its less than 500 yards along the road , You did come home that day, if it not for bumping into
you both i would have took you home, instead he pleaded he had been looking for you,
i scalded you , and told you to go with him, i should have known , you did not want to go.
I told you Move go, It was only till your season finished. I will never forgive myself , that
night , he threw you out of the twelve floor window!!!. I just pray you never sufferd that day.
The four of us we all sufferd the ones who were left were not defenseless animals, Animals when
one of your family is killed in this manner. That idiot that threw you to your death never knew the pain he would cause, he did not care.Your dad and i knew right away he had done it, the only person who can lift a doberman is its owner, Like me orr my husband, thats how we knew right away ,
you had the cheek to send a girlfriend along to tell us our darling dog was dead.The price you pay is in your head and will be forever. From all the people especially the children who knew of Sascha.
The first time we met you come bounding into the living room jumped on to the settee,and done a wee.
That was it already , you were out the door,you were 6 months old, then we forgave you,
I was pregnant with our oldest boy, I think you knew.You even protected our girl as if she was your own,you knew your place, your jibright away.you were growing all the time. Then the baby was
born and you took over. You saved his life ( twice) ( that i can remember0 of hand. We lived in high
flats you never complained. The only time was when the baby was on the other side of the balcony rail, you came to me , your eyes told me to follow,Which i did, thanks again to you, I found our
baby on the other side of the balcony 4 floors up.It all happened so fast but thanks to you .
You ran away and got pregnant in your first season, you were young. we were scared for you, there was no need you were fine and a great mother.To have seen you with your young, yet you had 7.
the 2 human children too. We had some great laughs .As doberman owners will know. you also loved your comforts, You could sit on a hankie , you would turn in a figure of eight till you thought it was right, then you would sit.We nearly lost you, once when you cut a main artery in your paw.
We got you to a vet in the nick of time.With just minutes to spare. As usual you bounced back. we knew you loved us and the four of us loved you. We were a happy family of 5.
Then we had to move from the flats to a house ,due to a fire, which you saved us again.
We moved into a house with a garden,You would look after all the children they would come,
from floor 1 to floor 10 we lived on floor 4. You made sure none of those children cried, it was as if you were heaven sent, to show us so much we did not learn at the time, for it takes time to learn the lessons you dont get taught at school.You would be there with your big brown eyes,too ease ,any
child's pain, Then the publicity hit, saying , your Breed Were bred to kill, I had to give you away for a you were in season and the front door was always left open So i gave you to someone we thought we could trust,.I even said if she becomes a nuisance just open the front door she will find her way home its less than 500 yards along the road , You did come home that day, if it not for bumping into
you both i would have took you home, instead he pleaded he had been looking for you,
i scalded you , and told you to go with him, i should have known , you did not want to go.
I told you Move go, It was only till your season finished. I will never forgive myself , that
night , he threw you out of the twelve floor window!!!. I just pray you never sufferd that day.
The four of us we all sufferd the ones who were left were not defenseless animals, Animals when
one of your family is killed in this manner. That idiot that threw you to your death never knew the pain he would cause, he did not care.Your dad and i knew right away he had done it, the only person who can lift a doberman is its owner, Like me orr my husband, thats how we knew right away ,
you had the cheek to send a girlfriend along to tell us our darling dog was dead.The price you pay is in your head and will be forever. From all the people especially the children who knew of Sascha.
Seasons. 2003 kmc
Spring= It puts the spring back in your step, Springtime, in any land is such a special season, all the trees, flowers start to bud & then bloom.
Stretching out of the heavy winter months,Big yawns for the bears , animals coming, out of hibernation.Getting ready for a hive of activity,ready to recreate their young and keep,
their species going into the next race., generation of young fresh life. The fish have laid their eggs,The spawn is starting to sprout, little tiny bodies which will soon be fully grown , frogs, Springtime all the Winter Cobwebs gone . its such a lovely smell and sight ahh Spring.
Summer= the Sun is shining , people are smiling, .Its a feel good factor, all the beautiful bloom of everything,big & small, Strong & Weak how things can change with just a little sun.
The children s laughter rings out in the streets the raised voices throwing water to cool one an other. You remember yourself some1 throwing cold water over you,How you would catch your breath,
as the cold hit and its effects have your hole body shaking with the cold, I can still laugh and have a giggle. thinking that thought i love the Summer time. WE want it to go on forever that's when people seem most happiest.
Autumn= Its so quick in coming, you don't quite realize until you get older. Then you want, you wish,
Time to slow down. Your thinking wow its nearly the end of British Summer time. the end of October
The years just fly by , i wish i had the reins of time. I would never move them? Ha , Well maybe just a little time back. That would make us all happy Official British Winter Time = Summer.
Ozone & British summertime Hey hey, what a beautiful day, sun is shining, people are happy.
Why is live so short for some.
The flowers will always bloom. The Sun will always shine. The rain will always fall. Then,
The Snow On a beautiful sunny day Life will always go on. Whats in the world for us all .
All the real beauty. Take a good look its every were. In the smallest.
What about change, change is everything, its in everything can change, some for the better, and some for the worst. So what is it we don`t like about change, don`t even want to enter our head.
Do we really, why the hell should we? it only , Causes stress and grief and even grey hair changes would we really make them if we knew what was to come.
Sometimes change can be for the better , there has to be a good in every bad!, for that reason alone.
It can be proved over and over again. Even change happens for reasons,we might not be clearto us in the present but in due course. it will become apparent that is for sure!!.
To all & sundry change is definitely coming whether we like it or not. You had better get ready, with what?!!Even i am not sure.Is It.What stand in this world?and your morals is that truthfully, all we need or really have, we come into this world without a stitch, & most leave without a stitch. Unless you have been out there hungry for everything. People with the know , will know what i mean.Hungry, starving for knowledge or money or both , Then its all about sharing as you pass on to your siblings all that you know and they are going to learn from their destiny's.
Stretching out of the heavy winter months,Big yawns for the bears , animals coming, out of hibernation.Getting ready for a hive of activity,ready to recreate their young and keep,
their species going into the next race., generation of young fresh life. The fish have laid their eggs,The spawn is starting to sprout, little tiny bodies which will soon be fully grown , frogs, Springtime all the Winter Cobwebs gone . its such a lovely smell and sight ahh Spring.
Summer= the Sun is shining , people are smiling, .Its a feel good factor, all the beautiful bloom of everything,big & small, Strong & Weak how things can change with just a little sun.
The children s laughter rings out in the streets the raised voices throwing water to cool one an other. You remember yourself some1 throwing cold water over you,How you would catch your breath,
as the cold hit and its effects have your hole body shaking with the cold, I can still laugh and have a giggle. thinking that thought i love the Summer time. WE want it to go on forever that's when people seem most happiest.
Autumn= Its so quick in coming, you don't quite realize until you get older. Then you want, you wish,
Time to slow down. Your thinking wow its nearly the end of British Summer time. the end of October
The years just fly by , i wish i had the reins of time. I would never move them? Ha , Well maybe just a little time back. That would make us all happy Official British Winter Time = Summer.
Ozone & British summertime Hey hey, what a beautiful day, sun is shining, people are happy.
Why is live so short for some.
The flowers will always bloom. The Sun will always shine. The rain will always fall. Then,
The Snow On a beautiful sunny day Life will always go on. Whats in the world for us all .
All the real beauty. Take a good look its every were. In the smallest.
What about change, change is everything, its in everything can change, some for the better, and some for the worst. So what is it we don`t like about change, don`t even want to enter our head.
Do we really, why the hell should we? it only , Causes stress and grief and even grey hair changes would we really make them if we knew what was to come.
Sometimes change can be for the better , there has to be a good in every bad!, for that reason alone.
It can be proved over and over again. Even change happens for reasons,we might not be clearto us in the present but in due course. it will become apparent that is for sure!!.
To all & sundry change is definitely coming whether we like it or not. You had better get ready, with what?!!Even i am not sure.Is It.What stand in this world?and your morals is that truthfully, all we need or really have, we come into this world without a stitch, & most leave without a stitch. Unless you have been out there hungry for everything. People with the know , will know what i mean.Hungry, starving for knowledge or money or both , Then its all about sharing as you pass on to your siblings all that you know and they are going to learn from their destiny's.
Friday, 6 February 2015
Life is sore-KMc 15/01/2000
Life is sore, Life is sweetness.
Life is rough,But we all love it.
The Bird rattles his cage looking for attention then starts to whistle his little tune, of what i dont righlty know,. I would like to think its for my undivided, attention, then the dog, looks up,! with those big appealing eyes, pleading lovingly if life was as easy then, what a gem, diamonds,Ruby,s& Amathyst hands so full you dont want any more.
Everybody would be great and, poverty gone,if we all shared or even gave away our used not useless ware,s, Not them all even the Government wont let you get to rich? Big brother is watching us all & all that we do, Intentions can be good, Intervention should be swift, Inspiration, is my gift,Up and go Remember Not Top Slow.
Pick up your hat on your way out the door,You are not in my heart any more so go , before i call you back,. My Brain screaming go go go, My Heart is screaming come back ,stay, stay. My stomach truly knows you are not for me, you cheated once again,Your`e promiseis down the drain, I cannot trust you any more so go plz.I will always love you,that i know but i cannot stand for your cheating ways anymore so , go , go , go.
My heartache ,i hope you will never feel, you will with your cheating ways.
What makes the world turnaround, they say its love, Love is hurtfull in so many ways.
Love can be a stranger in someone you have known for 20 years!!It gets spitefull and angry over stupid moods,I was realy beginning to think it was me,Maybe i only contribute , i am only retaliating , biting back to hurt you,just like your hurting me,Your jokes dont make me laugh anymore,Destroying ourselves slowly,
Time to wake up,. Time to start a new way, wake up in the morning, wake up in time.
Life is rough,But we all love it.
The Bird rattles his cage looking for attention then starts to whistle his little tune, of what i dont righlty know,. I would like to think its for my undivided, attention, then the dog, looks up,! with those big appealing eyes, pleading lovingly if life was as easy then, what a gem, diamonds,Ruby,s& Amathyst hands so full you dont want any more.
Everybody would be great and, poverty gone,if we all shared or even gave away our used not useless ware,s, Not them all even the Government wont let you get to rich? Big brother is watching us all & all that we do, Intentions can be good, Intervention should be swift, Inspiration, is my gift,Up and go Remember Not Top Slow.
Pick up your hat on your way out the door,You are not in my heart any more so go , before i call you back,. My Brain screaming go go go, My Heart is screaming come back ,stay, stay. My stomach truly knows you are not for me, you cheated once again,Your`e promiseis down the drain, I cannot trust you any more so go plz.I will always love you,that i know but i cannot stand for your cheating ways anymore so , go , go , go.
My heartache ,i hope you will never feel, you will with your cheating ways.
What makes the world turnaround, they say its love, Love is hurtfull in so many ways.
Love can be a stranger in someone you have known for 20 years!!It gets spitefull and angry over stupid moods,I was realy beginning to think it was me,Maybe i only contribute , i am only retaliating , biting back to hurt you,just like your hurting me,Your jokes dont make me laugh anymore,Destroying ourselves slowly,
Time to wake up,. Time to start a new way, wake up in the morning, wake up in time.
Thursday, 5 February 2015
Aquaintences
As you walk through this life, you will meet loads of people on the way, some to teach you, become a friend, some to not ever be seen again. This you will learn the hard way, As we all do, the more you sit an judge . someone Else just remember there is allways someone to judge you also. ! old woman sayed to me once when standing in a crowd of 3? The first to walk away will be bad mouthed , its seemingly just the way we are, conditioned with a single track mind, you might think you, know it all , believe me , there is 3 sides to every story?. So as you sit on your little throne your crown of thorns and pay my bills , then clearly shut the fuck up. FOOL.
Loads of people you will meet not all with a smile are ever gonna be your friend, watch the 1 who smiles first, look into their eyes look deep, you deserve this too yourself.
Go with your instincts , i remember a night not so long ago , someone thought i was a complete fool ,.
Now you will see who the fools, really are, but by then, its going, to be too late.
You will have crossed a line, maybe you have, so you know, we cannot go back.
Pity all i wanted to do was, show you how good is life should be, you laughed and had a great time.
When not listening to miss NEGATIVITY.. People claiming to be a friend ready to stick a knife and twist it right in , every little detail scrutinized , well thanks again all you have done is let me see once again, as soon as you begin to trust there is always someone willing to pull the rug from under your feet, & it comes from the most unlikeliest of people so called friends = Acquaintances throughout
time.
Lifes highways the people we meet influence our future some good some bad if something is learn`t then all is not lost.
The good the bad an the down right ugly come to mind. I wont go that route i prefer, someone like minded. Not listening to some others of course going to be negative, if not trying to help they will hinder. It`s hard Believe me when you learn the lesson was being taught the hole time.
I felt it,So did the others.or heard.
Listening about other people is what we all do but i love to hear the good not the bad.There is enough of it in the world..
Some were god sent almost fitting in like a glove, even they turned, down to Greed. Reared its ugly head shame some people are so nice and informative , keep you smiling , whats wrong with that.
After all the woes life throws believe me you have to learn to laugh, especially at yourself.
This humor can be taking the wrong way but its not supposed to be in any wrong way its to put a smile on your face and in your heart.
The people we meet along Lifes highways. & as you get older you pass your experience down,
is that not what you are supposed to do, sharing is caring and all that . reminds me of a song by VAN MORRISON =FAIR PLAY= huh.
some people are great always by your side you might not see them but they are there. Thankfully ,
to remind you of who you are , & how you have come through worse and will come out stronger.
I know my mind might seem strong sometimes but believe me, its the same as your`s
I am my own worst critic, from all the things i have done , some make it all sound so bAD.
When really they should never throw stones in glass houses.We should all be happy for eachother.
What do i do so wrong i seem to attract a certain kind>?Only in the passing but i have passed many and got them caught, my intuition has let me down or maybe it didnt , it was thought, or FEAR, another of people we meet in lifes great highways. Or as i say is it just me!!.
Others we meet are a breeze of fresh air, a ray of sunshine , they bring a smile to your face , just on reflection , happy people make life so much better. Not many left from my circle of friends.
people, i hear say , that`s the life they chose,It sure was not the death.
Instead of downing all that's tried to be better , Even standing on my head whilst i drowned , more fool me. Friends would give you a help not pick at every little detail. Picked clean. That is some,
are emotional vampires. Or just taking what they can,. As you get older you can count your true friends on one finger when it truly boils down to it, that's the acquaintances through life.
Sadly your so called friends but really they never were any ways. Some of your friends you will find this out the hardest of ways an sometimes takes years for it to really sink in. Al that has gone on , the years the minutes the hours, the months. The years. You will learn it takes learning hands on so to speak , you really couldn`t learn all this from a book. takes years of happy, sad & the best of the best to make these memory,s.
Not all built in a night or a week but years and years of your life,. Meeting & knowing people from all,
walks of life.You gain your knowledge And then you share it, especially with your children. Always be honest with your child, its the small things when they are small that lets them be able to tell you the big things , later on in their life.
You can`t be there 24/7 when its their turn to finally fly the nest , what a horrible feeling , when your child gets to this age you feel redundant,? but all is not lost for you have grandchildren, they are your prize for surviving the teenage years . They are much harder than any years before , when you knew they were tucked up safe in bed? As they get older they need their space & want to go investigate, remember you were a child also, remember how you were & look at your child & see were he/she gets it from all children have it , they are so amazing, so clever so aware , so wise for their short years.
This is why i also believe in life after death, & my experiences , I dont mind sharing what i can remember, we had a lot of fun met some great people, had some great times. Thanks for the memory`s. Of course behind closed doors things were not so sweet , The people you trust the most ? can you believe turn. So So sad, all the happy memory,s now tarred, .With a nasty black mass.
that grew and grew, Until the mist was to thick to see,It takes years for the mist to lift , once you have put some 1 on that pedestal, The only thing about that though, is the nicer you are the higher they get, then the real reasons hit home,. Am sorry you got yourself so high, no am not really":The higher you go the higher the fall. I felt it so many times i think i have actually learn t to start bouncing , due to you can only go so low, especially if you are true of heart . You say you truly ment no harm, i beg to differ .
You differd everyday , i cannat call you to fix any of it , we will have & keep the happy memory,s
& the sad & the down right evilness i was too blind too see, rose tinted specs are well of.
Really thanks for i wouldn`t change a thing or i wouldn`t be how and who i am today.I have lost and learnt plenty and will have loads more to learn. That i am sure and no doubt meet loads more people on lifes highway, i haven`t got time to prove i am not bad. My life will show you that. You yo should of been apart of the life but we had another lesson to learn!! Does it really never end. No not till i suppose your dieing day , just before you leave your vezzel you have been traveling in,& go on to pastures new is your conscience clear?. I know now mines is , i have worked hard over the years,lost hard,
Gaining only knowledge , i know what , i would prefer, but its not to be another lesson learn`t
Another chapter done. I feel the grief as if i have lost you . Thats because i know i have. Brainwashing.
is still rife on this planet in this day and age, I will see you all on the other side, . LOVE & BLESSINGS to you all :)
Loads of people you will meet not all with a smile are ever gonna be your friend, watch the 1 who smiles first, look into their eyes look deep, you deserve this too yourself.
Go with your instincts , i remember a night not so long ago , someone thought i was a complete fool ,.
Now you will see who the fools, really are, but by then, its going, to be too late.
You will have crossed a line, maybe you have, so you know, we cannot go back.
Pity all i wanted to do was, show you how good is life should be, you laughed and had a great time.
When not listening to miss NEGATIVITY.. People claiming to be a friend ready to stick a knife and twist it right in , every little detail scrutinized , well thanks again all you have done is let me see once again, as soon as you begin to trust there is always someone willing to pull the rug from under your feet, & it comes from the most unlikeliest of people so called friends = Acquaintances throughout
time.
Lifes highways the people we meet influence our future some good some bad if something is learn`t then all is not lost.
The good the bad an the down right ugly come to mind. I wont go that route i prefer, someone like minded. Not listening to some others of course going to be negative, if not trying to help they will hinder. It`s hard Believe me when you learn the lesson was being taught the hole time.
I felt it,So did the others.or heard.
Listening about other people is what we all do but i love to hear the good not the bad.There is enough of it in the world..
Some were god sent almost fitting in like a glove, even they turned, down to Greed. Reared its ugly head shame some people are so nice and informative , keep you smiling , whats wrong with that.
After all the woes life throws believe me you have to learn to laugh, especially at yourself.
This humor can be taking the wrong way but its not supposed to be in any wrong way its to put a smile on your face and in your heart.
The people we meet along Lifes highways. & as you get older you pass your experience down,
is that not what you are supposed to do, sharing is caring and all that . reminds me of a song by VAN MORRISON =FAIR PLAY= huh.
some people are great always by your side you might not see them but they are there. Thankfully ,
to remind you of who you are , & how you have come through worse and will come out stronger.
I know my mind might seem strong sometimes but believe me, its the same as your`s
I am my own worst critic, from all the things i have done , some make it all sound so bAD.
When really they should never throw stones in glass houses.We should all be happy for eachother.
What do i do so wrong i seem to attract a certain kind>?Only in the passing but i have passed many and got them caught, my intuition has let me down or maybe it didnt , it was thought, or FEAR, another of people we meet in lifes great highways. Or as i say is it just me!!.
Others we meet are a breeze of fresh air, a ray of sunshine , they bring a smile to your face , just on reflection , happy people make life so much better. Not many left from my circle of friends.
people, i hear say , that`s the life they chose,It sure was not the death.
Instead of downing all that's tried to be better , Even standing on my head whilst i drowned , more fool me. Friends would give you a help not pick at every little detail. Picked clean. That is some,
are emotional vampires. Or just taking what they can,. As you get older you can count your true friends on one finger when it truly boils down to it, that's the acquaintances through life.
Sadly your so called friends but really they never were any ways. Some of your friends you will find this out the hardest of ways an sometimes takes years for it to really sink in. Al that has gone on , the years the minutes the hours, the months. The years. You will learn it takes learning hands on so to speak , you really couldn`t learn all this from a book. takes years of happy, sad & the best of the best to make these memory,s.
Not all built in a night or a week but years and years of your life,. Meeting & knowing people from all,
walks of life.You gain your knowledge And then you share it, especially with your children. Always be honest with your child, its the small things when they are small that lets them be able to tell you the big things , later on in their life.
You can`t be there 24/7 when its their turn to finally fly the nest , what a horrible feeling , when your child gets to this age you feel redundant,? but all is not lost for you have grandchildren, they are your prize for surviving the teenage years . They are much harder than any years before , when you knew they were tucked up safe in bed? As they get older they need their space & want to go investigate, remember you were a child also, remember how you were & look at your child & see were he/she gets it from all children have it , they are so amazing, so clever so aware , so wise for their short years.
This is why i also believe in life after death, & my experiences , I dont mind sharing what i can remember, we had a lot of fun met some great people, had some great times. Thanks for the memory`s. Of course behind closed doors things were not so sweet , The people you trust the most ? can you believe turn. So So sad, all the happy memory,s now tarred, .With a nasty black mass.
that grew and grew, Until the mist was to thick to see,It takes years for the mist to lift , once you have put some 1 on that pedestal, The only thing about that though, is the nicer you are the higher they get, then the real reasons hit home,. Am sorry you got yourself so high, no am not really":The higher you go the higher the fall. I felt it so many times i think i have actually learn t to start bouncing , due to you can only go so low, especially if you are true of heart . You say you truly ment no harm, i beg to differ .
You differd everyday , i cannat call you to fix any of it , we will have & keep the happy memory,s
& the sad & the down right evilness i was too blind too see, rose tinted specs are well of.
Really thanks for i wouldn`t change a thing or i wouldn`t be how and who i am today.I have lost and learnt plenty and will have loads more to learn. That i am sure and no doubt meet loads more people on lifes highway, i haven`t got time to prove i am not bad. My life will show you that. You yo should of been apart of the life but we had another lesson to learn!! Does it really never end. No not till i suppose your dieing day , just before you leave your vezzel you have been traveling in,& go on to pastures new is your conscience clear?. I know now mines is , i have worked hard over the years,lost hard,
Gaining only knowledge , i know what , i would prefer, but its not to be another lesson learn`t
Another chapter done. I feel the grief as if i have lost you . Thats because i know i have. Brainwashing.
is still rife on this planet in this day and age, I will see you all on the other side, . LOVE & BLESSINGS to you all :)
Greif or Loss
Grief or a loss of any loved or close 1, is painful , surreal.They say time will heal. I know it does, but am wishing the time away so all meet up again..We all have our destiny in this life.Some paths are harder for some people. Then other people its as if they have brick walls to go through this life as well.
Why does Life deal out so much pain,why does it give to some people what seems for everybody gets dished out to one family , o how cruel a twist of fate ,& give some so many different tests to test their faith
. Or to test their strength, i will now say ,Its unbelievable whats happened in these short years, i guess some people just have all the luck .Some get more tested to push them to the end of their teather.
Even pushing that wee bit harder, why push so hard, what is it you want!! You are leaving a shell behind an empty shell, my soul clouded over with all these tests ,my heart hardened.Thanks our dear God.
Why does Life deal out so much pain,why does it give to some people what seems for everybody gets dished out to one family , o how cruel a twist of fate ,& give some so many different tests to test their faith
. Or to test their strength, i will now say ,Its unbelievable whats happened in these short years, i guess some people just have all the luck .Some get more tested to push them to the end of their teather.
Even pushing that wee bit harder, why push so hard, what is it you want!! You are leaving a shell behind an empty shell, my soul clouded over with all these tests ,my heart hardened.Thanks our dear God.
Our trip
Were do i start, in 1980 when it all began sad and fun, we had just over 30 years together.
Friends came and gone away to the other side, people i know for sure are waiting on me.
On the other side,In this world i believe we learn all our lessons to go forward into the afterlife.
Some of the lessons cruel and rip your heart apart, seemingly the harder the lesson.
The better you learn from it & you will n not forget the lessons taught especially when they have left deep scarring emotional craters on your heart.
Life is the most guilty of scaring you, In this life our nightmares, and the next place our dreams come true?
I beg any of the Gods listening,Let it be true?. Is this the hell & the next life is the heaven we all crave? For some they live in an eternal hell, Not seeing outside the box, a sheltered life? No.
Just down right nasty. Is heaven ready for all us too meet up once again to have our laughs, that death separated us from all our milestones. Our 40ths, the births of our children, their milestones.
16th, 18th & 21st & then marriage.. Then our children become the adults , the parents , the teachers, never forget though , you are forever a student. Through life`s highway,s. Everyday learning something new, hopefully.Why Why Why, I know it will become apparent, please let it be,I need
to see you again on the next plane,.
Friends came and gone away to the other side, people i know for sure are waiting on me.
On the other side,In this world i believe we learn all our lessons to go forward into the afterlife.
Some of the lessons cruel and rip your heart apart, seemingly the harder the lesson.
The better you learn from it & you will n not forget the lessons taught especially when they have left deep scarring emotional craters on your heart.
Life is the most guilty of scaring you, In this life our nightmares, and the next place our dreams come true?
I beg any of the Gods listening,Let it be true?. Is this the hell & the next life is the heaven we all crave? For some they live in an eternal hell, Not seeing outside the box, a sheltered life? No.
Just down right nasty. Is heaven ready for all us too meet up once again to have our laughs, that death separated us from all our milestones. Our 40ths, the births of our children, their milestones.
16th, 18th & 21st & then marriage.. Then our children become the adults , the parents , the teachers, never forget though , you are forever a student. Through life`s highway,s. Everyday learning something new, hopefully.Why Why Why, I know it will become apparent, please let it be,I need
to see you again on the next plane,.
Wednesday, 4 February 2015
To Feel your Childrens Pain
02/07/2011.
I wke at 6.30am this morning,,had a cry,My neice took our son out For lunch & a haircut.
He was knackered, when he got to his big sisters. I have not heard nothing so all must be just fine,The wee man is happy with his haircut,.I feel so sad i have felt this for a couple of days,I Know i will get over it,But its hard to move on,I will find something to keep my mind active, my son is doing me so proud for his 5 year, I know though, he is hurting inside deep inside, I can see it in your eyes my little man/boy.The longing for your dad to cuddle, breaks my heart to see your eyes and feel your ache.Your eyes used to shine but over this last while you dont even want me cuddling you in your sleep.
that hurts when you pull away, as you get older you will realize, i was here to love you as your dad.
Wished,We need to learn to trust and not sit in , judgement, Who do you think you are!!
What can we do ,!! Its hard to say for yourself. Its totally weird when you have lived with someone for 30 years . Its hard to change your views, unless someone puts a new idea into your head and you just cannot see the way!! Try not to stress to much you are only human. You can only do your best.
If people offer advice dont mock because you know yourself has blown it so to speak.
dont blow it for the young. They have enough to deal with just living in what used to be our street
A place we called home for 16 years, we seen a lot of happy and sad times, most of all i miss the noise??. OUR , house used to be a hive, of activity people coming and going records playing mellow music for mellow times,or HIGH TIMES. We had a lot of fun in 30 odd years. 3 beautiful children, one gorgeous granddaughter. We were so lucky we did have a lot of fun. The memories are priceless.
I wke at 6.30am this morning,,had a cry,My neice took our son out For lunch & a haircut.
He was knackered, when he got to his big sisters. I have not heard nothing so all must be just fine,The wee man is happy with his haircut,.I feel so sad i have felt this for a couple of days,I Know i will get over it,But its hard to move on,I will find something to keep my mind active, my son is doing me so proud for his 5 year, I know though, he is hurting inside deep inside, I can see it in your eyes my little man/boy.The longing for your dad to cuddle, breaks my heart to see your eyes and feel your ache.Your eyes used to shine but over this last while you dont even want me cuddling you in your sleep.
that hurts when you pull away, as you get older you will realize, i was here to love you as your dad.
Wished,We need to learn to trust and not sit in , judgement, Who do you think you are!!
What can we do ,!! Its hard to say for yourself. Its totally weird when you have lived with someone for 30 years . Its hard to change your views, unless someone puts a new idea into your head and you just cannot see the way!! Try not to stress to much you are only human. You can only do your best.
If people offer advice dont mock because you know yourself has blown it so to speak.
dont blow it for the young. They have enough to deal with just living in what used to be our street
A place we called home for 16 years, we seen a lot of happy and sad times, most of all i miss the noise??. OUR , house used to be a hive, of activity people coming and going records playing mellow music for mellow times,or HIGH TIMES. We had a lot of fun in 30 odd years. 3 beautiful children, one gorgeous granddaughter. We were so lucky we did have a lot of fun. The memories are priceless.
Febuary %th 2015.
"9/01/2004, I wrote this in one of my writing pads,
Oh how life, has a funny way of dealing the hand of fate.Your destiny
Destiny its called, why did i get a front seet , why tell me all what was to come in my dreams,
What twist of fate,? Karma was that 2015 , i write this bit, this hands of fate hah.
Think , the unthinkable,& it will happen,Smoke the un smokable & the law on your able side,
Speak to the unspeakable, they always have unthinkable storys to tell,To make your toes,
curlable,If its a loss that brings you too realize your gift, Let it free share & help people.
To free themselves from this mental slavery,Then why does it take a loved 1, someone you loved so much. To give you what you asked for Life is hard. Feelings are even harder but grief, is like no other feeling, When you lose someone close to your heart you trusted them enough to let them into your heart & world. Why do they have to die, early to learn your lesson of life & why, so cruel,Why so sad, Why does this life hurt so much.
Oh how life, has a funny way of dealing the hand of fate.Your destiny
Destiny its called, why did i get a front seet , why tell me all what was to come in my dreams,
What twist of fate,? Karma was that 2015 , i write this bit, this hands of fate hah.
Think , the unthinkable,& it will happen,Smoke the un smokable & the law on your able side,
Speak to the unspeakable, they always have unthinkable storys to tell,To make your toes,
curlable,If its a loss that brings you too realize your gift, Let it free share & help people.
To free themselves from this mental slavery,Then why does it take a loved 1, someone you loved so much. To give you what you asked for Life is hard. Feelings are even harder but grief, is like no other feeling, When you lose someone close to your heart you trusted them enough to let them into your heart & world. Why do they have to die, early to learn your lesson of life & why, so cruel,Why so sad, Why does this life hurt so much.
Tuesday, 3 February 2015
Monday, 2 February 2015
As the Minutes Tick
As the minutes tick by,your demons of what you must try.
Screaming from your shoulder,to shoulder, unless you have been here.
you will not understand,Plz just 1 more try,of what i hear you say,
of some HERION.
I hear myself saying back to you as if you were , truly there, sitting bold as brass.
On both my shoulders.
Thankfully My good Demon is Strong,/It kicks in and come`s alive &
I daren`t even think twice to try.
The secret of my success Is really being able to say NO.
While all around its screaming at you . Come on lets play Just 1 last time.
You my once love are now a Demon,& on My shoulder,You will stay.
this is gonna be the secret to success ,No one can actually say,one day.
the demon will go . It might never go but you have to remain strong.
The hardest part is staying of,Especially when all around your friends are treating.
You different you are not part of the gang anymore,. So sad But true.
Its great to not be in the gang ,Keep to like minded people, never,.
Ever try to go back to save someone, especially if the person doesn`t want saving.
It will take a while to get rid of your demons,they might never leave.
The more you, say no the stronger you become, plz believe me ,.
Its tried and tested all by myself :). So Thankful, but i wont i want to see my kids grow , love them whilst i can not have my head on the floor. Thank you for reminding me how much i truly dont need.
people from yest-er , year its time for the here an now. Life for today and let tomoz take care of itself :)
Screaming from your shoulder,to shoulder, unless you have been here.
you will not understand,Plz just 1 more try,of what i hear you say,
of some HERION.
I hear myself saying back to you as if you were , truly there, sitting bold as brass.
On both my shoulders.
Thankfully My good Demon is Strong,/It kicks in and come`s alive &
I daren`t even think twice to try.
The secret of my success Is really being able to say NO.
While all around its screaming at you . Come on lets play Just 1 last time.
You my once love are now a Demon,& on My shoulder,You will stay.
this is gonna be the secret to success ,No one can actually say,one day.
the demon will go . It might never go but you have to remain strong.
The hardest part is staying of,Especially when all around your friends are treating.
You different you are not part of the gang anymore,. So sad But true.
Its great to not be in the gang ,Keep to like minded people, never,.
Ever try to go back to save someone, especially if the person doesn`t want saving.
It will take a while to get rid of your demons,they might never leave.
The more you, say no the stronger you become, plz believe me ,.
Its tried and tested all by myself :). So Thankful, but i wont i want to see my kids grow , love them whilst i can not have my head on the floor. Thank you for reminding me how much i truly dont need.
people from yest-er , year its time for the here an now. Life for today and let tomoz take care of itself :)
Songs
songs bring back memories , from deep,
within come welling to the top , of your head.
Remember all the good, not just the bad.
Easier said than done , i hear you say.
No keep on smiling no mater whats going on,
even if you are, if you are breaking inside.
You will rise once again its only a new lesson.
Learn to wear it well, take it forward when you,
meet new people. Learn to se the good before the bad.
The bad wont take long to rear its ugly head.
Life,s paths , our destinys teach us, from the cradle to the grave.
Always live your own path , two can become 1 ,
Still never lose the person you should be , never let this or .
any situation last, for before you know it your life. has past
You learn so much it makes you sad. Even knocking you down. But not all is lost .
For you have learn`t , i wish i had , Hindsight.
Thankfully now some of my thoughts were true.
Or do i take it alll with a pinch of salt. Crazy world That we all have to live in.
within come welling to the top , of your head.
Remember all the good, not just the bad.
Easier said than done , i hear you say.
No keep on smiling no mater whats going on,
even if you are, if you are breaking inside.
You will rise once again its only a new lesson.
Learn to wear it well, take it forward when you,
meet new people. Learn to se the good before the bad.
The bad wont take long to rear its ugly head.
Life,s paths , our destinys teach us, from the cradle to the grave.
Always live your own path , two can become 1 ,
Still never lose the person you should be , never let this or .
any situation last, for before you know it your life. has past
You learn so much it makes you sad. Even knocking you down. But not all is lost .
For you have learn`t , i wish i had , Hindsight.
Thankfully now some of my thoughts were true.
Or do i take it alll with a pinch of salt. Crazy world That we all have to live in.
Praying
O ye am praying, i have been praying for a good while.
I know you are supposed to hear me, really can you.
Hear me screaming these prayers to not just you.
I scream from deep, well deep inside, You cannot hear me,
I will not let you hear me. I will continue to scream.
My friend is gone , life will never be the same.
The people you thought were friends so ready to pull you apart.
Leaving you in shreds, sliced & diced without a knife.
Just words, actions , Lead me to what i am to do.
I stand here looking and feeling empty. Life will go on.
I have learn`t not all people who smile at you are not all your friends.
Sore it cut me right to the core, That`s also good for now, i have a new look.
Thanks to you all. Good luck to you all. I do not wish you any harm.
Just goodluck in all that you do.
Good luck we all need , even the evil amongst us, some you dont ever see.
this life is full of ups and downs makes me sad , to think i put myself through.
All that i have, i say everything for a reason,& am just me .
What you see is what you get. No hidden agendas. You could have come with me.
i was not forcing you, You already had your pit of realy disgusting thoughts.
You are right you and me, are not to be , i have seen this cruelty, I have been the brunt of it.
So many times, That`s why i will stand the Minority, I dont want to be the majority.
I am quite happy in this my own wee bubble.
I have ;loads to tell from all lifes walks, paths & crossroads.
we all walk these paths its called our very own Destiny. Mines is to see things for
the good, So many people just look to the bad , why, can`t people be happy.
For your fellow human being. I love my own kind but i also resent them.
So much Negativity, Make room for The Positive, Let your dreams be ho you,
are not some one else, do not make a jiont life , untill you know what you are,
all about.
Personally i am glad how i am. Some others might & can think what they want.
This doesn`t bother me, If you talk of me , i must have a very interesting life.
I know people from the top, i could never have taking you to visit.
You are a nobody to these people, i seen when you thought you had made a mistake.
You were quick to blame me, that i did not tell you.
Why would i, or why should i tell you anything now.
I know you are supposed to hear me, really can you.
Hear me screaming these prayers to not just you.
I scream from deep, well deep inside, You cannot hear me,
I will not let you hear me. I will continue to scream.
My friend is gone , life will never be the same.
The people you thought were friends so ready to pull you apart.
Leaving you in shreds, sliced & diced without a knife.
Just words, actions , Lead me to what i am to do.
I stand here looking and feeling empty. Life will go on.
I have learn`t not all people who smile at you are not all your friends.
Sore it cut me right to the core, That`s also good for now, i have a new look.
Thanks to you all. Good luck to you all. I do not wish you any harm.
Just goodluck in all that you do.
Good luck we all need , even the evil amongst us, some you dont ever see.
this life is full of ups and downs makes me sad , to think i put myself through.
All that i have, i say everything for a reason,& am just me .
What you see is what you get. No hidden agendas. You could have come with me.
i was not forcing you, You already had your pit of realy disgusting thoughts.
You are right you and me, are not to be , i have seen this cruelty, I have been the brunt of it.
So many times, That`s why i will stand the Minority, I dont want to be the majority.
I am quite happy in this my own wee bubble.
I have ;loads to tell from all lifes walks, paths & crossroads.
we all walk these paths its called our very own Destiny. Mines is to see things for
the good, So many people just look to the bad , why, can`t people be happy.
For your fellow human being. I love my own kind but i also resent them.
So much Negativity, Make room for The Positive, Let your dreams be ho you,
are not some one else, do not make a jiont life , untill you know what you are,
all about.
Personally i am glad how i am. Some others might & can think what they want.
This doesn`t bother me, If you talk of me , i must have a very interesting life.
I know people from the top, i could never have taking you to visit.
You are a nobody to these people, i seen when you thought you had made a mistake.
You were quick to blame me, that i did not tell you.
Why would i, or why should i tell you anything now.
Sunday, 1 February 2015
House Music 2014 New Disco Club Mix 2014 Megamix Remix | DJ aSSa 051
This a new sound for Febuary, get this year sorta kick started after last year,.
This being the first year , in this house,when in our younger days we were out partying as much as we possibly could, i thought i could do with something uplifting myself , after these past few months. Thanks for all the lessons, learn`t and all so fast . Took a lot out of me, i will rise as i always do It was a quick learning process a lot of tears and negativity but thankfully i am strong and i will always stand a minority , than have fake people around me not really wanting to be with me, just what i have to give. That is not love , i was kidding myself on & i let myself be treated like this , Why?? i needed to have this as now i have learnt so much, thankfully..Its better to know what people talk about , it is so much rubbish and , some imaginations, great laugh as well, to think how interesting ,my life can be that it has big conversations about it (life,MINES)huh.Sometimes i would swap in a minute , then other times i couldn`t possibly swap, then i wouldn`t be the character i am :).
This being the first year , in this house,when in our younger days we were out partying as much as we possibly could, i thought i could do with something uplifting myself , after these past few months. Thanks for all the lessons, learn`t and all so fast . Took a lot out of me, i will rise as i always do It was a quick learning process a lot of tears and negativity but thankfully i am strong and i will always stand a minority , than have fake people around me not really wanting to be with me, just what i have to give. That is not love , i was kidding myself on & i let myself be treated like this , Why?? i needed to have this as now i have learnt so much, thankfully..Its better to know what people talk about , it is so much rubbish and , some imaginations, great laugh as well, to think how interesting ,my life can be that it has big conversations about it (life,MINES)huh.Sometimes i would swap in a minute , then other times i couldn`t possibly swap, then i wouldn`t be the character i am :).
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