To Feel your Childrens Pain

02/07/2011.
I wke at 6.30am this morning,,had a cry,My neice took our son out For lunch & a haircut.
He was knackered, when he got to his big sisters. I have not heard nothing so all must be just fine,The wee man is happy with his haircut,.I feel so sad i have felt this for a couple of days,I Know i will get over it,But its hard to move on,I will find something to keep my mind active, my son is doing me so proud for his 5 year, I know though, he is hurting inside deep inside, I can see it in your eyes my little man/boy.The longing for your dad to cuddle, breaks my heart to see your eyes and feel your ache.Your eyes used to shine but over this last while you dont even want me cuddling you in your sleep.
that hurts when you pull away, as you get older you will realize, i was here to love you as your dad.
Wished,We need to learn to trust and not sit in , judgement, Who do you think you are!!
What can we do ,!! Its hard to say for yourself. Its totally weird when you have lived with someone for 30 years . Its hard to change your views, unless someone puts a new idea into your head and you just cannot see the way!! Try not to stress to much you are only human. You can only do your best.
If people offer advice dont mock because you know yourself has blown it so to speak.
dont blow it for the young. They have enough to deal with just living in what used to be our street
A place we called home for 16 years, we seen a lot of happy and sad times, most of all i miss the noise??. OUR , house used to be a hive, of activity people coming and going records playing mellow music for mellow times,or HIGH TIMES. We had a lot of fun in 30 odd years. 3 beautiful children, one gorgeous granddaughter. We were so lucky we did have a lot of fun. The memories are priceless.