Sillouettes

I can see , our sillouettes dancing togther in the moonlight, Only you are alone, sometimes ,
we are together,Sometimes its only me,watching you, remembering how you could bounce,
How you could dance , you could definitely move, was always good to see.You realy loved ,
dance.
You realy done us proud, now i have to let you rest and stop calling you from deep inside,
When things get tuff, i know you are by my side,Even though i know i cannot touch only talk.
Aslong as i feel you everything feels fine. Am i just surviving?, I know i can do better, like my
school report card, Could always do better , think that will be on my tombstone. Think its quite fitting. the  state of play in all areas of our life's, seems to be at a stale mate !! I need a kick start to get my self roaring back into life, yet i cannot muster my strengh from deep inside this time.
Our family unit was once so strong , the foundations i thought were so strong that nothing could shatter our life's, I am the mum so i protect whats mines,. My Family , is broken its wings , the flight feathers have fell , now all i have is fight, even the fight the energy i could do without ,but if its what
makes me feel stronger then what will be will be as i know only too well. How life can take, you in and rip you apart, Everyday a new challenge , some days feeling its all in tatters , but knowing deep inside it will all be fixed one day .this day i cannot wait for the work is heavy, The load not a burden.
Definitely a problem a lot of emotional scars , built over our now scared hearts, what once was totally all near gone.
The branches from our tree stand bare not a leaf , insight , Why i ask over and over has life been so cruel , especially at  the end, We did have it good for years but then when it went bad it turned real nasty so fast, Leaving us all we left standing in shock realing from what just actually happened.
It wasn`t just 1 thing but a number of things, one after another, No wonder my brains a mess.
A bit all over the place but it will come back , its never went any were its just had a willfull,
Blindness or fogginess of the brain. This was my protection it kept me strong ,. The day you had to go!
Wishing things could have been so different, But that's hindsight, i wish i could bottle that.
I would share it with everyone because i like to see people happy,. There`s too much sadness in this world, without sticking your tuppence worth in. If you have nothing positive to say then just say nothing.! Haters will be haters comes to mind ,. You can turn what negativity you find yourself
facing right around into a positive and then you can , smile because you can change the negativity but shame the others are stuck. I dont look at life at everyones out for themselves maybe i am blind.
will full blindness , not totally blind? Or Numb Or Dumb. Wishing things could of been so diffrent.
That`s hindsight once again, if only i could of bottled that stuff. Every day a new challenge.
All making you a better person for all that gets thrown , i can handle, its the hate the down right nastiness , O i can handle it , i just dont understand were it all came from , then on reflection.
I totally understand, its no excuse though. You pulled me to pieces, This is not the end, i will be seeing you.
If not in this life definitely the next . I might not feel like a champion but i know i am, .
I can hold my head high,& walk in the knowledge, I will see you on the other side one way or another.
Wishing things could have been so different, I should of took flight years ago but no i stood with you.
throughout,These past years i might not have scored but i live my life true, compared, to some
as i come to find out. Everyone has a story to tell , some story's break you in 2 , that's if you have a heart. Not made of stone or tin but a real one not glazed over with, hate? Envy , jealousy ,sadness.
Everyone has a fate . whether its good or bad its all for us our demise our challenges our fate!!
We all have one that is for sure we all meet again 1 day. I hope all these lessons learn`t have not
been in vain , for their is a young life.
This life here learning so much so fast , How to slow th elearning proccess the knowledge is it too
much too soon. you seem to have adapted real well, i am so proud of you, yet so scared.
You are just a little child, yet you are so huge inside, the experiances you have been through.
in this your short life will put you i hope in good stead for the rest of your life, A very long beneficial life for all you will lead by example . please my little child, my heart beats so fast. You not being in
drives me crazy inside. My boy my darling little boy , why has life dealt such a cruel cruel blow.
yet you are doing brilliant, its us the older ones who fret, you carry on how you should be.
I love you more everyday , my heart melts for my little child. The inner little one inside the one,
who i realy know is just a real wee boy deep down inside, who still needs his mum & my boy
i am here for you, 24/7 if thats what its going to take. maybe i am wrong but this i will learn in
time , I and i know loads of others are watching your fate, some with eyes wanting you to fail even though you are only young , people are so cruel, but children can be the cruelest of them all.
Children don't mince their words tell it like it is . No mater how hard a blow it is, Resilience, is what children have in abundance . This us adults should be able to bring with us from childhood to adulthood . I live how quick children can change , i also want them to slow down a bit but that is not
going to happen , life is for living not for sitting doing nothing . be a go getter get up and get yourself out and about .learn something new everyday its not hard .