Journey`s

Tuesday , Tuesday , I woke today full of something in my heart , fill up with Contentment my tummy full , My heart is , Is good & Pure , I am strong only because i have fought so many things if not by tooth and nail by hand or by mouth or by pen, As you get older you realize the pen is much more mightier than any sword, I Words can cut through , you like a knife, twisting o so tight, The warmth of the blood seeping out , The emotions in a letter written down for the receiver to read and see,
And feel your words , do you feel them better when i type fast , when i write furiously , When i write of sadness do you feel the pain, Do you , for i am screaming inside , Why pick me for to channel , Why me for what am i ?? I am only a mere woman in this mad crazy world. Just trying to get by like every one else ,yet i have things come to me , why because for some reason i can shed some light on peoples darkest hours , because i am strong , I did not know i was strong , I didn`t have a clue.
I am Great full so very great full for the insight , Now it left me so confused for years as to why show me all this if i cannot stop it ? I am not to stop it but help people cope with what is too come , every day its something new , every day something new to learn , even if its another thingg about yourself, Its all good , Even if you are riding for a fall, You are only down there because there is nothing better up higher??, Just now , It all becomes clear , with time and hindsight , your path wasn`t as wobbly as you thought, Once u felt ur cup was overflowing , now it is empty , No , ur cup is allways half full no matter what always look to the positive , yes it is hard when you have no were else to turn or ,
you feel as if you have no where to turn , you have , you turn and look in that mirror and you,
Tell yourself , I can do this I am not a piece of shit , hey move on over, Let everyone in , there is plenty space for all.
Mistakes in life are lessons , the harder the lesson , the more we learn not to do it ever again , of-course some of us are just glut-tings for punishment . Me Included. I cannot help,
myself , if i see some1 suffering i cannot walk on by , I Just cannot, I can even feel when my nearest and dearest , something is wrong with them , is that just a mothers instinct?? Its not only my Children i can feel this closeness with , & Its not everyone i feel it with , My Inner being knows exactly ,
me i just go with the flow , seems to work best for me :)))
I have been told I fix people , Now i understand , at the time i thought Eh , me how do i fix people ?? , Now i know what you are meaning , yes i will help you, to fix yourself , for I cannot do it all, |You have to want to help yourself, People come and go in my life always has been like that and as they come , they could have so many troubles but with a little love and a lot of TLC and guidance,
And at-least get taught about the right road to take for them selves an inkling is what some need that is all the rest once on their path is easy , once they know , some times just a stupid little thing has cause you, Hinda-rd you , In your quest , in this vessel this time round , your soul, is at the helm is the pilot,
of every ship ,Your actions and how you carry yourself and what you believe in , if you know it to be true , then never be scared to stand a minority , as soon as you make that stand you are the Majority .
I have learn1t so much , This last while , i knew of it all before , but things happen , you get side tracked, sometimes for years without even realizing. Then when you do realize all that you have let slip by , you have to ask yourself why and how, You might not like the truth the truth hurts, But lies are even sorer , they stick like mud, making you feel dirty and totally unclean , that is why i live by that rule not even a white lie, ever. Just tet the truth , its much better than any lie, Especially in,
Circumstances you do not understand , and be very careful of who you trust to tell your dark secrets of shame too , for there is always someone who thinks they are so much better, Now that i will!!!
thank them for :)). The lessons i learnt there haha , No it wasn`t funny far from it but now , i can smile even laugh. At some of the daftest of things that have been said and done, out of all my years .
now i can sit an laugh, Why because i know that pain , & Its not a funny hahaha, I have even developed a sense of comfort from it all, & A sense of Purpose ,. Though the lessons Cruel and twisted but ha that is what they call Fate  . Hmmmm , I will carry on as per as i allways do , its water of a ducks back to me , throughout all the madness i realized . Yes i am Strong so Strong it would take more than You to flatten Me , Right now with my inner and higher beings at work . i dont think a Smashing ball could touch me , I know how to duck and dive o i know so much so so much ,
it makes my brain hurt sometimes , that not everyone knows what i know and I Am, not saying i know it all far from it , very far from it, every day is a school day to me :)) Love light & Peace :)))