Woken

When i woke up
When i got straight
You tried to get me back ,and i could have come
 back so easily back, Into your cloud like Arms. Thankfully, I
Am strong and never took you back , Madame Heroin . Yes you never leave,
 the nagging, as if on both shoulders shouting. The more you say NO,?
The Stronger yu will become, Believe me, I Know what am talking about,
from Experience i can, empathize with just about any subject, Due to I Have Lived ,
such a life , i have walked many paths all leading me right back to home and the security blanket , home provides,
I searched far and wide, to settle this addiction of mine, I have an addictive personality ,
My Addiction now , is fixing what and were i can, I have fixed me not all , just the bad and,
The Ugly, Down right ugly,It is so sad to watch , it rips me inside, to know, of these ,
Little grains, these that everyone would kill for, Kill their own family, steal from their own,
Now what kind of drug could mae you do all of that , What i have written is nothing compared ,
To what Some do, I had it easy , others every day is a new battle, Everyday , out on the hunt,
Like a hunter looking for his prey, I even thought you were going to get me,Thankfully,
I was and am 0ne of the lucky ones, I remember a scared mum asking me 1 time, Her daughter,
had started the slippery road, She had been on it two years and am sorry to say it takes 20,
or more before you relay decide enough is enough, Drugs just weren`t me, I am better alive free from any substances, Just me fresh from my head, It feels good and clean. Why would i ever want to go back, Now that would be so stupid now even i would call me stupid if i were to walk , that walk ever again, I even went looking for comfort and some reassurance, all i got was rubbished and everything twisted , were i thought i was better, No Its not i think i am better, I just want to be awake ,
I dont want to lick the carpet , the windows, the any thing any more, now i have been hurt once again,
I will stick to who and what i trust, they do not try to ply me with Heroin, They know of my battle.
& Would never even dream, Of saying they got some for me, That isn`t a friend , that is Death A So Called Friend with a Death wish , For me, You might not see, You are too busy worrying( ME),
Trying O how you tried to get me to try, You can lead a horse to water, yes it will sample,
But if its got sense, It wil run , Just like me when i realized , you never loved me, you only wanted to see what you could get, well I am not wasting my time on you ever again so glad to see you have,
gone I wont say never to return, I dont like the word never, As it usually comes bk to haunt you,
So dont take her into your loving arms little miss heroin is much more expensive than any other drug, As You Inhale those little Grains and feel that cotton wool feeling O It feels good O so good , Shield you from all , You think, till you have none left and then you have to go look for some,
going to all the different doors that sell those little grains, Themselves just as addicted, these little people are not the ones the police want the police call them the little fish, its the sharks that is wanted, to stop the supply of these little grains, The karma I believe is death, If you keep on going with your
addiction, You truly have to be strong to walk away and keep away from tjhose tiny little grains of
DEATH.
The friends i have lost throughout the years to early far to early , these little grains so strong they took a lot of lives , Every day some one new , And will continue to take , Everything from you ,
You will have nothing left, not even a breath, For now you have a types of illnesses, it is truly sad,
To see someone you knew , change into this monster that is in front of you, Not all people,
are bad that take drugs, This drug , I dont know, you have to be bad to get to it, You have to be sad,
To Think She would dream of keeping you safe . No All She wants is your money and then your life, And you will give her it, Life is a bitch then you meet little miss Heroin, Life truly becomes a bitch with her at the helm, She knows how to take you for a ride of a lifetime one you might never get back from, I did, If i can , I know others can It took me over 20 years to realize what have i done to my insides, What have i done to my life, What have i done to my Everything for being alive.
All I can say now is i am clean i am so so so sorry for putting you through , what i put you through,
You would of been so worried, For all those years , I was not me I was in love with the little,
Grains, Not now though i can walk on by , and not ever look back, thanks for the ride , little miss heroin, Thanks for all you have taught me , now i know i will not be back 7 years is a long time,
nearly 8, yes you still sit like a little Devil on my shoulder but now who`s the one in Control not you my lass o No Not You , I took a hold of things just in time , Before everything changed,
In Our life`s , never to be the same. Yet now i am free of you, I cannot believe , others will try,
to get you back on without even realizing how daft they are, They dont offer you gold and diamonds no they offer you Death .